Not The Sun

♋️♈♌️ Traveler of Earth, Space, & Time 702 Sad Girl

[marypickfords]

Night Tide (Curtis Harrington, 1961)

[lsdineen]

I got engaged earlier this month.

I never really did believe I would find someone as wonderful as him. As patient, kind hearted, sensible, hard working. I mean it when I say that he’s the best person I know.

He loves me so much and I believe him when he says it.

[lsdineen]

I do this thing with really good albums where I focus on certain parts or songs and there’s always one or two that don’t seem so impressive and they fall by the wayside and then I end up going back to the forgotten song or two and they end up hitting so hard and I’m like how did I miss this?

Anyway I’m super into The View Between Villages right now.

[expressions-of-nature]

Blue Flower Field, Japan by Daniel Korzhonov

[lsdineen]

Where can I have this turned into a prayer candle?

[jareckiworld]

Kitsch Magazine Volume 1. Cover art by Tom Wesselman, 1970

[creepish]

[lsdineen]

My dad retired and is going to be spending his time flying back and forth between Italy and Florida. Far away from me. I’m happy he can just do whatever he’d like moving forward. But I’ve made a lot of life choices based on staying near him, so I’m devastated at the moment. Getting older is weird and sad in so many ways I hadn’t thought about. My dad is the best dude. I hope this isn’t as hard as I’m expecting.

[dahera04]

Fifth episode of The White lotus Season 3

~ Her dance is so beautiful 🫧

[lsdineen]

Going on my road trip next week. Europe at the end of the month. Somehow manifested a quicky to Denver with my man. Landed on Maine for my birthday. Washington in July.

[lsdineen]

Love him so much.

[lsdineen]

January was Florida, all of it (jax>tampa>keys). February is Austin. March is a southwest road trip (petrified forest np>santa fe> white sands np> saguaro np> phoenix> jerome). April is Germany and maybe Luxemburg. May is EDC so I’ll probably stay home. June is my birthday and I don’t know what I’m settling on. July is Washington. So there is the first half of my year.

[lsdineen]

[lsdineen]

My dad liked his Christmas present so much he brought it to work to show his friends.

[lsdineen]

[lsdineen]

October is looking like Zion. November in Seattle. December is a few days in Anaheim. January will be Tampa and the Keys. February has been confirmed for Texas. And I do believe I’m going home to Germany in March, if not April.

Grateful that I am capable of traveling. Life is too short to spend it all in one place.

[lsdineen]

I have been taking my medication. I have been mindful of what I do to my body. I have been journaling. I have been exercising. I have been studying for my next LSAT. I have been reading. I have been rational and talking things out and putting my emotions in check. I have been doing yoga. I have been saving my money to the best of my abilities. I have been sorting out the relationships in my life and putting my energy into the parts that deserve it. I have been preparing myself to apply to law school. I have been staying in my lane, moisturizing, and breathing deeply. I am taking care of myself and it makes me happy. My social life has always come first and I thought that was where my happiness came from. But when I let it take a back seat and attempt to be selfish with my time, I can see how that is better for me. Sometimes I’m really lonely. But I have always been lonely. And I’m glad that it doesn’t bother me the way it used to. Now when it creeps in, I hug my man, I text someone I love, and I pick up a book. I am trying for myself.