demian

for reasons wretched & divine | he/they/ae | 21

[lucentsin]

intro post

i will be going by demian here

>21

trans, genderqueer, he/they/ae

mostly t4t & i guess it would be easier for me to call myself bisexual although that's not fully correct: i am sapphic & achillean at the same time. i adore enby4enby and contradictory labels

a good chunk of this blog will be kink related minors get out now

this is mostly a self exploratory space but feel free to engage with me going insane in real time

mostly royalty kin(k). and weird religious stuff including blasphemous things, kind of. nsfw posts will be tagged #from the bedchamber. dom prince or whatever. an idol, a marble statue

i am also into royalcore/knightcore/etc in a sfw way and it genuinely means a lot to me, literally my core personality. so i might write sfw textposts and stuff. will tag those #from the throne hall

gnostic (ish) Christian. religious yapping will be tagged #from the confessional. pretentious student

also, i fence (HEMA, beginner, duel saber). fencing stuff will be tagged #field of honour

absolutely do not interact if you:

are a detrans or misgendering kink blog / anything to do with ddlg or incest (I'm not calling you a bad person or anything but these things can and will trigger me really badly so stay 5000 ft away i beseech thee)

are a "men dni" blog

fit the general criteria for being a bigot

hard cnc/feedism/petplay/anything to do with pr*gnancy blogs i love you but i am politely asking you not to follow me also for personal reasons. :( if ur into this stuff but don't post about it that much you're good

enjoy

[lucentsin]

deleting Tumblr because it makes me want to off myself. Cya

[viktor-sbor]

Very rare, richly decorated sword, Germany 16th century.

[juunipupu]

In "Knight and Burden to Bear" you mentioned papers on medieval masculinity... care to share......... ...?

(love your art sm)

Oh yes! I can't recommend enough Jacqueline Murray's 'From texts to bodies: sexes, genders, and sexualities in premodern Europe". The book has six chapters dedicated to men and masculinity (but also same amount for women, sexuality and gender yeppeee) I'm specifically thinking of chapters: "Hiding behind the Universal Man", "The Law of Sin that is in My Members", and "Men's Bodies, Men's Minds". In nutshell the articles go over the assumptions of universal masculine experience and how that may skew masculine study of history, and how especially papers of religious nature showcase a disease and anxiety in embodied masculinity. That there's this struggle between mind and body, and a body that cannot be fully controlled (referring to bodily stimuli and emissions).

[lucentsin]

[engages with kink content that I enjoy]

Tumblr for some inexplicable reason: would you like to read about rape? incest? misgendering? dykebreaking? the vilest misogyny/patriarchy kink scenarios people can possibly think of? :)

[lucentsin]

just muted like 45 tags i really hope it helps

[lucentsin]

[engages with kink content that I enjoy]

Tumblr for some inexplicable reason: would you like to read about rape? incest? misgendering? dykebreaking? the vilest misogyny/patriarchy kink scenarios people can possibly think of? :)

[rosieandthemoon]

falconiereshop

[shisasan]

Anaïs Nin, Delta of Venus, originally published: 1977

[lucentsin]

to be honest I've been feeling incredibly disconnected from kink stuff lately. all i want is either nothing sexual at all or cuddliest tamest vanilla ever. except for the titles because at this point being called your highness is a part of my core identity. ooohhh im soooo into hard kinks (help me bathe after my fencing practice and hold me while im having another bpd crashout)

[stardrian]

oh, to feel the metal of my knight's tasset against lace stockings...

(knight x prince 3)

[lucentsin]

i fucking hate cis people so so so much im so deathly exhausted of seeing endless haha sex change / imane khelif / whatever jokes in my HEMA club group chat

it does not even compute to them that the people they're casually making fun of and othering are in this group chat reading this shit

it's like i will always be the butt of the joke, just a punchline for them while i have to slowly off myself on illegal T and try not to get caught because being trans is fully illegal where I'm from. and they get to just live their lives and if they're charitable enough some of them will memorize my pronouns. that one weird girl who uses he him. i wish i could detransition

[lucentsin]

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm (microwave noise) what if he could teach me how to fuck like a real man and then let me demonstrate on him bc i learn so well

(this is about my 45 yo married fencing instructor. you can't even comprehend the demons I am fighting right now)

[lucentsin]

there's a HEMA workshop in my country that makes the coolest gear i've ever seen. they're called RAVENBLADE.

exhibit a:

exhibit b:

[antoniosos]

DO THEY HAVE A WEBSITE??

AND CAN IT BE SHIPPED TO CZECH REPUBLIC???

[lucentsin]

you can find them on VK (russian social media site): https://vk.com/rb_hema35

But I don't know if it's possible to pay internationally due to sanctions rn. You could try texting them to find out

[lucentsin]

there's a HEMA workshop in my country that makes the coolest gear i've ever seen. they're called RAVENBLADE.

exhibit a:

exhibit b:

[lucentsin]

BPD fucking sucks so much my partner just said they aren't. okinh home for the night because they want to stay with some people they met at an event and a friend but they said they would come back and I'm wailing in the room acting like a bitch towards them I just want them to have fun but I feel like I'm on fire everything is on fire adn I'm having a heart attack it hurts so much I can't I can't I can't I can't I'm.henuineky fucking insane

[lordfoogthetwost]

snow prince fit 🌨✨️

[lucentsin]

really enjoy it when people are pathetic actually. nothing is cuter or more attractive than when they are pathetic and groveling and whining and begging completely stripped of their autonomy and intelligence reduced to a crying mess driven only by their instincts and desires. you agree.