Venting!
I am HIDDIOUSLY depressed right now and can't reach out because the two people I feel most comfortable talking to will say unhelpful shit that will just make me feel worse. I have been moved to the smallest bedroom of the house, which already sucks, and I can't do anything to make it my own because there is construction and furniture pieces that we can't get to until JULY. And I want to start building a small business to work towards supporting myself, but I again can't share any plans with anyone because they say the wrong things. Like, I want feedback on what steps I should take, how to approach a problem, how to reach people, and they just question if I can even run a buisness, showing no confidence in me. I'm trying to grow as a person, trying to figure out how to adult as an autistic with radical anxiety, but every time I try they hold me back because they think I should do this other adulting thing I'm very clearly not ready for.
And what extra sucks is I just spent 2 months with my sister and found a routine that made mee feel confident and in control. I felt like I was finding my own footing and building myself to be the person I want to become, and 3 weeks at home and that's all gone. I can't start a project, half because I can't get into my supplies and half because I'm too depressed.
I want to be more then this pathetic woman stuck in a room too small for her vision, but people won't let me.
