on the way down

DeLilah Porter. 24. Lesbian. soft-hearted, independent, loyal 💕impulsive, gullible, clumsy A Florida girl, just trying to figure herself out and make up for lost time.

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This is now a 1x1 blog (in case you don’t want to be following it).

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Anybody in this place know how to cut hair? I’m tempted to cut my own set of bangs or maybe just hack all of it off, start fresh. It’s in the way all the time. Maybe I’ll dye it... Pink, brown, red? I don’t know. Just something new, a new look for a new Lilah. Or would I just look ridiculous if I change it?

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marleynotbob:

I would very much appreciate it. Because even just seeing the words got the song re-stuck in my head.

Maybe something along the lines of Katy Perry or some classic Britney?

Classic Britney! What’s your favorite song of hers? Do you have one?

I like... Um, oh how does it go? I swear I like it, even if I’m forgetting the words.

🎶 i’m stronger than yesterday now it’s nothing but my way my loneliness ain’t killin’ me no more 🎶

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bsmythe:

I’m terrified of flying, so it would be interesting to see if I’d ever be able to end up in another continent while drunk. They honestly shouldn’t let you buy plane tickets while drunk, anyway. France sounds fun, tho.

Nah, Dylan and Stevie came to pick me up. Otherwise I’d still be stuck there. 

Do you usually take something if you have to fly somewhere? Xanax or Valium... something like that? I think it was a private plane situation, no tickets required. Probably wouldn’t have happened otherwise.

Oh good. So is Stevie her... girlfriend, I guess? She said there was someone, but she didn’t say who. Didn’t figure it’d be someone I know.

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kasmotta:

Thanks. Oh? Fair enough. 

So, when you coming over to watch the Olympics, hmm? 

I’m free all weekend if you’re going to be home... I don’t know what events are on, but I’ll be happy if I see some curling. Also those events where they hurl themselves down the ice on a tiny sled or something like that. I love that stuff. Will there be hockey on?

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chasityanderson:

Sure maybe in you’re room if that’s all right don’t want my brothers hearing me. 

I’m always home, so just come by anytime. We’ll talk... I’ll make tea.

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lainexboy:

That’s good. No, going out alone is never productive.

I do a lot of it. Maybe it just feels easier than trying to make connections right now. Connections are... I don’t know. They aren’t loyal. Is that the word I’m looking for? No, it’s... You just can’t know who you’re going to lose.

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damn-it-dom-hummel:

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Someday I’ll come to terms with it. But today is not that day.

Come to terms with what? I’m confused... This is my confused face.

Yes, confusion involves eating.

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marleynotbob:

I’m sorry for your hangover, but I’m also a bit mad that you got the Oompa Loompa song stuck in my head.

Oh! I’m sorry... Not my intention at all. I can throw another song at you, work a new earworm into your head if you like. Something more dancey... less creepy.

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lainexboy:

Oh dear, you poor thing. You feeling better?

Much better now, but I’ll admit... I need to knock this shit off. Been spending a little too much time going out alone. It’s not really productive, is it?

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beatup-six-string-anderson:

You getting trashed without me L?

You’re not always around, T.

If you’ve got time for me, I’m always down for getting trashed again.

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bsmythe:

It finally happened. I finally got so drunk that I somehow ended up in another city. Now I’m in New Jersey in some random house filled with passed out college students, without my wallet, and still in my clothes from last night. I would find it hilarious if I wasn’t lowkey not sure how the hell I’m going to get back to the city. Jersey is fucking gross, by the way.

Ouch... I don’t want to admit that this is a feeling I know, but this is definitely a feeling I know. Got drunk in Miami, woke up in France once. Don’t know how that happened, and I don’t think I want to know. Planes were involved, surely. Need help getting home?

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chasityanderson:

So today was a total waste, and well this gal would like a drink.  True I know I’m not old enough, but I don’t give a fuck. Just need something to make this day less boring go away.

What happened, Chasity? Do you want to talk about it?

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kasmotta:

On one hand, I am very much regretting drinking THAT much. On the other: THE EAGLES WON THE FUCKING SUPERBOWL!

Man it does my Philly heart proud.

Hey, congrats! I was sort of silently rooting for the Eagles... I don’t gamble anymore, but I do sometimes thing about who I’d throw my money at if I were still in the game, so it’s like the little bit of excitement around how I would have fared if I’d still been doing that.

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Ugh my head! It’s like 100 little Oompa Loompas dancing on my brain, scream-singing one of their cautionary tale songs, only this one’s not about chocolate rivers or blueberry girls - it’s about me and how I can’t hold my liquor anymore.

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rosepey:

I have to say, today’s women march was not a disappointment. However, I wished I would’ve gotten more sleep instead of four hours but I guess that’s why there’s coffee and naps. Also the name’s Peyton and Im new to Safe Haven.

Shit! I knew I was forgetting to do something... I wanted to go to that. Had a sign in mind and everything. Thanks for fighting the good fight for us girls, I guess... I’ll have to make a better note of it for next year.