𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 ; 𝐴𝑛𝑡𝑜𝑛𝑖𝑜 reveals (𝘠/𝘕)'𝘴 secret to the town's healer, resulting something unexpected.
ꗰ 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞 : i love angst, sorry not sorry guys.
The sound of a knife cutting some ingredients can be heard from the kitchen, Julieta silently cutting some carrots while her mind was drowning into the void of emptiness.
She just lost her child, oh her precious child.
The smile, laughters, crying, and giggles couldn't be erased that easily from her box of memories. She hissed in pain as she accidently cut one of her fingers, again.
It is unbelieveable that she didn't use her gift to heal them, all the scars and cuts are still there. As if she's keeping them so she can see how badly she hurts herself just to focus back on her chores.
Alma kept telling her to see the bright side, but what if the bright side was her only child that just died of unknown reason? Her mother completely understood how she feels, but seeing the healer couldn't heal herself is now a different situation to handle.
Agustin is always there for her, even though he had some hard time for himself too. Isabela's moodswings is a total disaster after losing her sibling, Luisa couldn't help but blamed herself - thinking that she's not reliable enough, and Mirabel, well - she hasn't been really active since the tragedy.
“Ay, Julieta! You hurt yourself again.” Julieta's twin, none other than Pepa is already stood next to her while handing a single bunuelo. “Please, hermana. Just this once, atleast stop the blood..” she looked into her twin's round brown eyes in worried.
Julieta stare at the bunuelo for a while, then a flash of memory came to her endless mind.
“i'm fine, Corazón. It's just a small cut, no need to worry—” the town's healer was holding her finger that accidently got cut when cutting some onions. Though, her little one was there on the rescue.
“No, Mamá! You have to eat the bunuelos or else i won't use your gift to heal myself too!” her child pouts as the little one crossed her arms. Julieta flinch at the sudden words, she quickly put her hands on her hips.
“i never teach you to raise your tone at the elders, mi amor. But if you really want me to heal myself with the bunuelos, then alright!” her child's face immediately shone as she watched the mother ate up the food as the cut began to fade away.
When she finish her bunuelo, she felt someone was hugging her waist, “I'm sorry for raising my tone, i won't do it again ... It's just - you make me worry, Mamá.” the litte one trembles as her negative thoughts started to swim freely.
Julieta smile at her child, she quickly pick them up then attack their face with kisses. “It's okay, mi amor - i'm also sorry for making you worry!” she cheers her up, seeing (Y/N) smile again sparks the softness in her heart again.
Her child giggles at her while cupping her face carefully, “I love you, Mamá!”
She became silent. there were no longer any words to describe the absence of emotion within her heart. she went from arguing to being upset, now feeling nothing at all. she became silent because her child were no longer there for her.
Julieta take the bunuelo from her twin gratefully, then she eat it slowly as she taste the delicious flavor that took some nostalgic feelings from her heart.
And when she finish, she look at the fibger that just got cut began to heal itself. She laughs in soft - patheticly.
“You have no idea,” she says, then pauses, trying to pull herself together before she speaks again.
“You have no idea how hard it is to see the face of someone that you once loved every single day.”
She pauses again, wiping the tears out of her eyes. Pepa carefully rubs her back in circles.
"But you know what's even harder?"
She waits a moment, wanting to let out the feeling she's been hiding as much as it hurts her. “Losing them in front of our eyes before you could reach for them.”
With every lies she's been crumbling and dying inside, wanting to save her child with all her might more than anything from that day, that day was a complete nightmare which kept traumatizing her.
But this world was against her, she couldn't fight. So, the world steal her child so easily out of her sight. Julieta kept praying for their safety, but betrayal came out of nowhere as she saw her child's gravestone was already - prepared.
Pepa couldn't help herself but trying her best to hold back, as the sky above Encanto turned very dark. And when her tears fall, the rain started to fall too.
The redhead pull her twin and engulf her in her arms, as she let Julieta cries silently on her shoulder. Every member of the family was devasted when they lose someone who's just so precious. And the rain didn't help them either.
Several minutes have pass, Julieta and Pepa are already calm themselves again. “I'm so sorry, mi hermana. It must be so painful for you, but just so you know that we are still here for you and your little one will always alive in your heart.”
Julieta smile at her twin as she give her a thankful yet warm hug again, after that, they began to separate to their own ways and their chores.
As usual, the town's healer cooked some foods for those people who are still in need even though they started to understand the pressure of the healer had been carry. Dinner is almost ready, The Madrigals are preparing the table, plates, glasess and etcetera. Mirabel is confused at first when she sees Isabela wrapping herself in (Y/N)'s blanket.
“Why are you wearing that?” Luisa asks, the elder daughter laughs nervously, “Well, you know, i missed my little sister so— i use this to prevent myself from the sadness!” she dramatically respon then wrapping her sisters with the blanket.
“Woah— Isa! We still need to help prepare the dinner!” Mirabel exclaimed in annoyance, trying to free herself from her sister's strong grasp. Luisa easily let herself go then help Mirabel from Isabela's wrath.
“You two are no fun!” she pouts, Mirabel can only rolls her eyes as Luisa smiles awkwardly. “Come on, let's go help the others.” Luisa began to carry Isabela too then put her sisters on her shoulder.
After they prepare the Dinner, Julieta took a sit between Isabela and Mirabel. She notices that there's an empty chair next to Luisa, and it was (Y/N)'s used to sit. Their eyes widen when one of them forgot to take the chair away.
Casita moves the floor to take the chair far away from the dining room, making everyone glance at Julieta. Trying to make sure that she's feeling alright. Thankfully, the healer didn't show any negative respond as she nodded her head in understand the situation.
It broke her heart when she remember that (Y/N) is no longer with her, Isabela slowly put the blanket on her mother's shoulder then flash her a soft smile.
“Thank you, mi vida. I really need this.” the mother spoke in gentle tone, even though it's mix with her emotions. Isabela soften her gaze, “No problem, Mamá.”
Everyone are eating their dish silently, no one brave enough to utter a single word from their mouth. Until Antonio decided to break the heavy atmosphere.
“Tía, i have ... Something for you!” the youngest boy smile at his aunt playfully.
“Really? What is it Tonito?” Julieta asks in wonder, the young boy take a single tape recorder out of his satchel then give it to the town's healer as Julieta carefully examine it.
“It's (Y/N)'s tape recorder, i found it on the plant next to your door!” the boy inform everyone, Julieta look at her nephew then smiles, “Thank you, Antonio.” She hold the tape gently, glad that she can found one of her child's memory.
“is it alright if we play it now? I want to see what she's been recording...” Camilo asks then his sister nudge him to stay silent. “You're making tía nervous, hermanito.” Dolores whispers to his ear making him forcefully swallow.
“Agustin, Amor, can you play it please?” Julieta give him the tape recorder then let the husband take some parts to play the tape recorder. And when he's ready, Agustin glance at his wife, waiting for her confirmation.
Julieta caught herself holding her own breath, as she nodded her head to her husband. With that, Agustin play the recorder to show it to everyone.
The screen is glitching at first, but not long after, they can hear someone is groaning from the screen.
The Madrigal Family widen their eyes, as the screen began to show (Y/N)'s face. The young latter who just turned 12 is recording herself after the party.
Her eyes was scanning the whole recorder, “Okay, i think this thing works quite well ...” she nervously fiddled her fingers. “Ahem, Tonight i just turn— ... Uhhh what year old again? Right, 12. I am 12 years old now, Everyone was happy and enjoying the party,”
Julieta can feel that her heartbeat has calm down for a little bit, after she can hear her child's voice. Oh, what an angelic voice to hear.
“i don't know why but i uhh— ... I feel, a little bit left out i guess? I'm not sure, i tried my best to enjoy the party too but um ..— i think i'm being too selfish.” (Y/N) pondered at her own thoughts.
Everyone at the room can feel the tension from (Y/N)'s recorder as if it's effecting them too. “What am i talking about— i enjoy the party! Maybe sneaking some arepas with Camilo won't hurt ...” the latter's eyes flickers back to the recorder.
“Oops! Gotta keep the recorder by myself!” she sang then turn off the recorder. All the attention turns to Camilo, as if they're asking him how much did they steal from the kitchen.
He can only sighs in defeat, “Me and (Y/N) kinda ... Take a whole plate sooo—” when his eyes met with his aunt, he began to ducked his head in embarassment. “—Sorry.”
Agustin played the recorder again, then screen showing (Y/N), is sewing a teddy bear. She huffs in annoyance, “I should've let Mirabel help me ... But i got this!” (Y/N) showed the teddy bear she sewed to the recorder.
“This is quite a failed one but— still worth it! Alright, if i gave this teddy to Mama i'm sure she'll rip off the chest so she can get a surprise!” she exclaimed childeshly, Julieta widen her eyes as she stood from her sit making everyone looking at her.
“What's wrong, Julie?” Bruno asks in concern, her eyes shift to her family then ran off to the kitchen to get the teddy (Y/N) gave to her. After that, she also bring a scissor then goes to the dining room again.
“I'm going to cut it open.” she spoke in full confidence, even though Luisa can see her mother's hands are shaking violently. “Let me do it for you..” she replies in quick, as Luisa take the teddy and the scissor from her mother then cut the chest of the teddy.
Something clicking can be heard, so she cut it open quickly. Luisa pulls apart the fuzzy skin and cotton innards, it surprises Luisa when she found a paper and a little white box.
“A letter, for Mama.” she gave the paper along with the white box. Letting the town's healer read the letter slowly,
I know this might sounds a bit rude of me but - i'm really, really mad at you.
I'm mad at you because your endless kindness
I'm mad at you because your precious kisses
I'm mad at you because your selflessness.
I'm mad at you because your gentle tone
If you think that's alright and we, your children, don't need to repay your endless kindness and etcetera, prepare yourself from our love for you, my love for you!
Just you wait, Mama. I will be there for you, and if i can't be close to you - i'll be in your deepest heart!
P. S : please don't blame yourself just because you gave birth to me with a weak heart! XP
Julieta can feel her tears fall again, she grab the letter little tight, resulting the letter began to crumble on her hands.
Her heart was throbbing insanely as if it could burst at any moment. Agustin slowly play another video of his child. And it was skipped to the part where (Y/N) was 14.
(Y/N) stare at the recorder for a while, until she spoke in soft tone “I miss you so much Mama, i know you're so busy for these ... past few weeks but just so you know that's it's just the loneliness speaking ...— If I go back to you then I'm not allowing myself to feel true love and— allow myself to grow up.”
(Y/N) couldn't help smiling sadly at herself, “What we had was— nice ... And I wish it was real but we both know it was only real for me. I'll always think about you— ... but I refuse to let myself go back to you. I know what I deserve now and we both know you can't give it to me.”
Julieta didn't understand what was her child speaking, did she missed so many problem that her child bear alone? She held the white box close to her chest as if it could dissapear by itself.
“The rain have ceased even though it was not tia Pepa who did the rain, and we have been graced by another beautiful day,” the teenager look at the window then soften her gaze.
“But you're not here to see it with me, Mama.”
More than anyone Julieta have lost, (Y/N) was always be the most missed. She took up a lot of Julieta's heart and she have taken some parts with her. And after that, her heart seems incomplete without (Y/N) here. Sometimes she just feel like hugging her child, just to check up on her.
But what good is in that? It'll only open up the wounds more. The feeling of missing someone hurts, but not knowing how they are and what they are doing that really gets to her because the person already gone.
Julieta can feel her three daughters are now comforting her as best as they can, she smiles at them then let her husband play another video. This time, she was with Antonio.
“When I was little, your tia and I cooked in the kitchen, i smelled like a churn, guineas and chickens strutted the porch.
When we left, Abuela would stand in her garden and wave. I'd watch her a long time, leaning out the window. My mother would say little on the way home after healing the people in town, her eyes now and then filling with tears.
Perhaps she was thinking of that garden, the one she tried to replicate year after year, every last pole bean and zinnia, the one she left to me.”
Antonio seems enjoying her story as he shift himself comfortably. Letting (Y/N) hugged him for a while until Antonio asked somethin unexpected.
“(Y/N), are you an angel?”
Everyone became silent as they watched the video carefully. Fortunately, Antonio is now sleeping in his mother's arms, so he won't know which video they are watching.
“My friend's mom told me that those who have marked wrists are angels!” Antonio exclaimed happily after he noticed some scars on his cousin's arm.
“Sadly tonito, i'm not an angel, not in this world.” She rejects the idea of being the angelic creature, it looks more suit if it's mention to Isabela.
“Of course you are, My friend's mom said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on earth.
This world is destroying them so they try to return to heaven again. They are too sensitive to the pain of others and their own!”
(Y/N) never thought to harm herself, though the scars on her arms just an anccident, so she just agree with her littler cousin “You know, your friend is very wise.” Antonio laughed at her happily, “Thank you, my friend is also an angel but she has already returned home.”
(Y/N) soften her gaze then asked, “Did you miss her?” Antonio fell silent for a moment, “Yeah, i miss her so much!”
After that, the video goes black for a while then turned to (Y/N) where she's now 19.
“I think this is the last one,” she mutters quitely, “I don't know what to say in here but if you find this video - meanings that i'm already ... Gone.”
Julieta can feel that her daughter was looking at her through the screen, “if you're Mama, i wanted to tell you that— uhh... I finally see myself the way you always do, and thank you for taking care of me.
Your kindness and love are the best gift i've received. Please— ... Please don't be sad, even though i'm already gone because of this weak heart of mine...”
Julieta's heart broke into million piece, her tears never stopped to fall from her brown eyes as she bite her lip, “i will always be in your heart, Mama. If you found the necklace, i'd be forever grateful and happy if you wear it.”
(Y/N) smiled for the last time then coughing violently as they see some bloods are dripping from her hands, she wiped the blood with her ruana, “Dios Mio.” and then the video ended.
Julieta wanted to scream so badly, but it will waste her energy. So she open up the white box then take the golden necklace to see the engraved name on it.
Since that day, Julieta never take off her precious necklace. Making the ‘Angel’ above her smiles happily.
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