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Be strong. Live honorably and with dignity. When you don’t think you can, hold on.

James Frey (via quotemadness)

Looking back on some old posts...

Damn. These last two years I really lost all hope that things would get better. I used to be so inspired and motivated.... fuck what happened to me? 2017-2018 stole the light from my eyes. I gave up and it only made things worse. This last year was absolutely one of the worst years of my life. For no reason other than... I gave up. We’re 14 days into the new year now and I’m tired of giving up on myself. I’ve been doing that for too long now. Maybe things won’t get better tbh. Maybe they’ll get worse, before they get better. Or maybe they will just stay bad or the same. I don’t know. What I’m realizing now is that it doesn’t matter if things improve or not. Life happens and way too much of it is out of our control and just based on luck. Sometimes our hope that things will eventually get better is all we really have. That hope is the only thing that keeps us sane and gets us through the day. Even if it’s just a lie we tell ourselves. Who fucking knows what 2019 holds? It could be far worse than anything 2018 brought, and I thought that was bad. I’m not going to lie to msyelf and say, “THIS IS MY YEAR. EVERYTHING WILL BE PERFECT THIS YEAR I WILL FIX EVERYTHING.” Thats such bullshit. I just want to focus on what I can control again. Everyone has their own struggles, it’s all about how you react to it and handle the bullshit that life throws at you. It’s impossible to avoid. Somehow I have to find happiness in myself again. I need to reteach myself how to be content in knowing that I’m doing my best. It’s so fucking easy to become bitter towards the world and just give up... and to feel justified in doing so because you have been shit on so many times you just reach a breaking point. But it doesn’t make you any happier. Maybe temporarily. I’ve realized that in the end it makes everything worse and seem darker. Looking back on some of my old posts... I was so young and naive. I’m glad that I’ve become more aware and thick skinned since then. At the same time though, it makes me sad to see how negative I’ve become since then. I don’t necessarily want to go back to thinking and believing that the world is all sunshine and rainbows or anything... I just want to find a happy medium. I need to be aware of all of the horrible things that happen in the world, and that have happened to me, without letting it consume me. I still have so much to be grateful for. My amazing boyfriend, my fluffy evil cat, (some) members of my family, chris’ family, a car, a job (that I hate but makes decent money considering what I do), and a cozy little apartment. I have the opportunity to get an education, I’m close to getting my associates and moving on to my bachelors...

Anyway, here’s to 2019. Please don’t suck more than 2018. Also please get that orange oompa loompa out of office asap so I don’t have to deal with my anxiety levels going through the roof when I check the news every morning.

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I don't know who I am! I'm like cat here, a couple of no-name slobs. We belong to nobody and nobody belongs to us. We don't even belong to each other.

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There is nothing I would not do for those who are really my friends. I have no notion of loving people by halves; it is not my nature. My attachments are always excessively strong.

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Our girls woke us up this morning after our faucet burst downstairs and saved our house from more damage. They’re as helpful as they are cute today (Source: http://ift.tt/2hNpJeg)