Lust Hurts

I have a diary kind-of blog thingy at lusthurts.com... this is really just to repost those posts in case that's useful for anyone!

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Taking a bit of a break...

Taking a bit of a break…

So I think I’m going to take a bit of a break from here, just for a little while. Mostly just because it’s been ages since I did, and a break is good! And also, because I’m kind of feeling a bit chore-ish about this, and I really don’t want it to feel like that. And I’m really not getting much writing done, either, like any kind of writing, not just here, and that’s getting annoying, so I ought…

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Work Gets Kinky 17

Work Gets Kinky 17

[part one is here, click here to see the rest]   I let him put his cock in my mouth. I taste him, and feel his hardness pressing against my lips and tongue. He’s blackmailing me, or forcing me, one or the other or both. He’s holding my hair, holding me there on my knees, and forcing himself on me. He’s doing something utterly awful to me, and yet, I let him. I want him to. I want this, so I open…

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Pretending Sore

So here’s a slightly weird thing. Sometimes I pretend anal hurts when actually it doesn’t. Because sometimes it turns me on to imagine that it does, in my head. Like I don’t usually actually say so out loud, because that would be incredibly weird, but I like to think to myself about being sore and achy and sobbing as I do it. Which is kind of weird, I know, but sometimes I do. Sometimes I…

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Accidental Stripper

You phone me one night and say you desperately need my help, that you’re the best man at a stag night, and the stripper has fallen through, and can I help? “Um, help find a stripper?” I say, uncertainly. “Not quite,” you say. “More, um… be the stripper. I kind of need someone right now.” “Um, dude,” I say. “What the fuck?” “Please?” you say. “Please please. I’ll owe you forever.” “I’m with…

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Work Gets Kinky 16

Work Gets Kinky 16

[part one is here, click here to see the rest]   And I jump, and maybe cough, because I’m actually a little surprised. I really didn’t expect him to do that. I truly thought he was going to stop and let me go. I didn’t think he’d want me enough, or be willing to treat me so badly, that he’d actually find it in himself to take things this far. But now he has. And now I’m scared, all over again.…

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Windows

Once, I was fucked up against a wall of a hotel room, with the curtains wide open, and about a thousand windows looking back in at me. And the room lights were off in my room, and I was in dress, too, a pulled up, slid up dress, so if anyone did see us they only saw movement and bare legs, not actual naked me. But it was still maybe quite obvious what we were doing, if anyone had seen, and that…

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Oral with Strangers Fantasy

Oral with Strangers Fantasy

I’m sitting in a hotel room, on the edge of the bed, waiting. I’m dressed up. I’m dressed up in a dress, haha. My hair is up, very carefully up and organized, and I’ve got proper makeup on, like proper dressed-up going-out makeup, thick dark smeary shadow and liner around my eyes, and gloss on my lips too. I’m sitting at the end of the bed, at the edge of mattress, with my knees together and my…

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Work Gets Kinky 15

Work Gets Kinky 15

[part one is here, click here to see the rest]   I don’t know what I want, so I wait to see what Eric does. To see whether this is actually real, I suppose. To find out how far I’ll go, how much I’m prepared to let him to do me, and how excited or scared I’ll be when he does. I wait, on my knees, being held, looking up at him. With his hand wrapped into my hair, gripping it, tugging on it…

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Threats and Tearings

I take off my coat, and put it over my arm with my bag, and then I knock on your door. I knock, expecting to have to wait a moment, but you must have been expecting me because the door opens almost right away. It opens, and you kiss me, hard, and then slide your hand up behind my back and twist it into my hair. You grab me firmly, then pull me inside the apartment, roughly. Roughly, so I drop my…

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Sex on a Bed of Nails

Sex on a Bed of Nails

So this is a bit weird, but then again, so’s a lot of what’s on here, so never mind! Because, um, I like the idea of having sex on a bed of nails. As in, a bed of nails being a bed-sized piece of wood with a whole bunch of spikes or nails pointing upwards which you lie down on. As a circus trick or whatever. Um, in case that isn’t obvious! And the idea is that if you completely lie on it, and…

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Work Gets Kinky 14

Work Gets Kinky 14

[part one is here, click here to see the rest]   Eric keeps standing where he is, holding me by my hair, looking down at me. Looking at me slightly confused, as if he doesn’t know whether this is a game or not, any more, but also as if he doesn’t especially care, either. Looking at me like he’s tempted to do this thing to me, like he’s wanting to, wanting it badly. Like he’s planning to, almost,…

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Bending Over

Once, because I asked him to spank me, a guy got me to bend over and hold my ankles. I think because he thought that was how spanking was done. Like, maybe from films? But I did, because why not? I mean, it was a bit weird and different, and so fun to try. And also, because bent-over spanking, like when I’m kneeling, makes it hurt more, so um… yay? And actually also, slightly vainly, because I’m…

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On the Way Home

On the Way Home

We’re going home one night, quite late, and we go through an area which is brightly lit, but mostly empty. A train station, perhaps, or perhaps a mall which is closed but which hasn’t yet locked its doors. Wherever we are, it has a kind of brightly-lit emptiness, an emptiness where everything is so quiet and still that my heels seem startlingly loud as we walk. So we walk. And turn a corner. And…

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Work Gets Kinky 13

Work Gets Kinky 13

[part one is here, click here to see the rest]   I look up at Eric, uncertainly, unsure how all this makes me feel. Our games have come close to this before, I suppose, so the idea of being forced, or at least play-forced, can’t really be that horrifying to me, or I would have stopped doing things like this long ago. And equally, the idea of forcing me can’t truly shock Eric, or he never would…

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Don’t Come Inside Me

Don’t Come Inside Me

Once, I was having sex with a guy, and we had a few times before, but not many, so although this time we weren’t using condoms, for whatever reason I didn’t really want him actually coming inside me. I might have missed a pill or something, maybe? I’m not sure. Anyways, I hadn’t thought to say before, so I did while we were. Like, I remember looking up at him and saying, “Don’t come inside me.”…

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Asking Him to Make Me

Asking Him to Make Me

Once, I remember, as I lay underneath a guy, making out with him, wearing nothing but shorts, I whispered, “I want you to make me.” And he heard me. Which I wasn’t sure he would. And I wasn’t sure I wanted him to hear me, either, exactly, but he did. He heard me, and stopped kissing my neck, or whatever he was doing, and looked down at me, and said, “How do you mean?” And I hesitated. And…

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Work Gets Kinky 12

Work Gets Kinky 12

[part one is here, click here to see the rest]   He’s realising, I think, that if this is actually real, and I really am saying no, then he could still make me do it anyway. And as he realises that, he’s also realising that doing so might be more exciting for him. Making me might be exciting for him. I think a part of him now wants me to say no, just so he can see what happens next. (more…)

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