I miss my baby,
I miss calling him mine, the naps we took together, him attempting to make me dinner, us dancing in our room when we were home alone, i miss seeing him get mad over a video game thats hes been playing for 4 hours, being bored out of my mind but simply enjoying his presence.. i miss us talking about our future kids and house. How you wanted chickens and a goat along with my 3 cats and 2 dogs. I miss you telling me about your weird ass dreams.
I miss all the little things, like how your nose crinkles whenever you talk about something you love or how you would look around before kissing me or how you would always whisper that you loved me and stare at me on long drives to our dates. I want to hold you again, i want to see your bright blue eyes and mess with your thick black hair and put it in buns. I miss your curls your freckles, your smile, your strangely perfect teeth.. god i would kill to hear you tell me a joke. Your voice is my favorite sound and your arms were always my home.
I want you here with me. Drawing, free of worry and with no cares. I want my baby back. Im so tired of these tear stains on my cheeks and my lost in interests because im too worries about you. I miss you baby boy. This isnt just a breakup, this is me missing my other half. You completed me and without you i dont feel like myself anymore. I constantly dont want to be alone and i dont want to be "home" becuase home isnt here. Its with you..
I miss you so fucking much. I need you to be mine again.
I dont think i cant get over you because everyday i feel like i fall in love with you all over again. It just sucks knowing i cant have you.. not yet.
Ill be better next time i promise..