Maddie

Hiya :) 20yr old trying to survive

[m-mvibes]

I’m so tired of dating. I have dreamed of the romance ever since I was little and now I’m starting to think that romance I was dreaming about is not as common as I thought it was. And all the women in my family seem to think they’re not really anything without a man and the men I’ve seen growing up we’re not great examples. and it breaks my heart even though I crave that intimacy with someone I still believe I have worth even if I’m not getting intwined with someone. I’m doing everything I can to break that cycle. But god sometimes I’m just tired of being the only one that loves myself and sees that I might bring value to something.

[ficthots]

Secret Ingredient

A/N: Surprise! Two new writings in one week? (don’t expect this of me more lol). I missed Peter so here’s a Peter piece. Enemies to lovers, living situation inspired by New Girl (literally one of the best shows ever), only the best of the best. As always let me know what you guys think and enjoy!

Warnings: SMUT. DNI if you are under 18. 18+ only

Word Count: 11.6k+

Being in your twenties is such a surreal time in life. There are people who are getting engaged and married. Others are having children. Some work part-time jobs while going to school. The best part is that for the first time ever there is no set in stone plan to follow. You do what you think is right and hope for the best.

That’s why you didn’t second guess your living situation. Honestly, you loved it. Sure, the loft was cramped and at times could be hell on earth, but mostly it was home. Your safe space.

Keep reading

[fiadhaisteach]

Fibromyalgia is so weird. One day your back & one ankle hurts. The next day it's everything, and triggers a migraine. Then in the morning you think you're doing okay when, out of the blue, your tibia & femur feel like they're trying to break. WTF, meatsuit?

[nebulow]

The best thing you can do to help someone disabled or chronically ill?

Believe them when they tell you they can't do something.

[m-mvibes]

I hate the weather change my wrists are so sore I can’t write I’m tired of this

[m-mvibes]

I am quite literally so stressed with life right now I have no clue on what I am doing or where I am going but here I am

[heyatleastitsnotcancer]

So pretty frequently I see people saying stuff like "Where does the zebra come from with EDS? Is it because we are prone to stretch marks? So we have stripes!"

No.

The zebra is a symbol for ANY rare disease, not just EDS. In medical school, providers are taught "if you hear hoof beats, think horses, not zebras." Meaning think of the common causes for a person's symptoms, not rare. Doctors are taught to think of and rule out common conditions before you jump to looking for rare conditions. But sometimes, it is actually the rare disease. It is the zebra.

So that is where the zebra mascot comes from for any rare disease. Unfortunately, the EDS society has co-opted the zebra specifically for EDS.

[chronicallytiredofeverything]

The problem with being chronically ill is that when you become more sick, with more symptoms, people do not understand why its so upsetting.

"But weren't you in pain before?". Yes but this is a new pain that I haven't dealt with before.

"I thought you already had stomach problems?". Yes but this is a new symptom of it that scares me.

"Arent you used to this by now?". No, and I never will be.

Symptoms that have been had for months or years are hard enough to manage in the first place. Developing a new one is scary, and trying to find ways to cope while still juggling everything else is even more so. We are allowed to be upset at our symptoms progressing. It doesn't mean it wasn't bad before. It just means now its bad in another way we arent familiar with. And that sucks.

[breakbleheavens]

TAYLOR SWIFT photographed for her tenth studio album ‘Midnights’ (2022)

[m-mvibes]

I truly am a lover girl in a generation that doesn’t want to feel love

[m-mvibes]

I feel so sick and I just want to be held :/

[m-mvibes]

The fact that I can barely work at 19 all because I have EDS really just makes you hate yourself

[fxlthyangxl-deactivated20240122]

[imsoofuckingsad-deactivated2018]

if you ever want to love an idiot you know where to find me

[lonelylittlebookworm]

i love that steddie is a ‘the grump and the sunshine’ ship but if you were to look at them you would be wrong as to who is who in their dynamic

[iconicallychronic]

It's not fair. I'm 19 and realising my body is failing me.

My joints are failing me. My digestive system is failing me. My immune system is failing me. My cardiovascular system is failing me. My renal system is failing me. My auditory system is failing me. My reproductive system is failing me. My brain is failing me.

It's not fair! I want to mourn the life I could've led. But I also don't want to be pathetic and not be thankful for the gift of this life.

How am I meant to see my life as a gift when my entire body is in some way failing me?

[awbrainno]

hey, EDS, can we chill? I know “soft skin” is kinda ur thing but BANDAIDS and ATHLETIC TAPE shouldnt take chunks of my skin off