Creature of the Night

Nonhuman/werewolf side blog

[m00n-struckk]

🦴 tex or shep | 24 | it/its | US 🦴

⛓️ i am a werewolf

i prefer terms like nonhuman, lycanthrope, and turnskin but i consider myself adjacent to/welcome in therian, otherkin, and alterhuman spaces

🥩 i’m still exploring my own relationship to my nonhumanity so i’m hoping to use this blog for that and find some cool community along the way (intro may be updated as i find my footing)

🦷 ableism/saneism against physical therians/endels/holotheres/clinical zooanthropes Not Welcome!

bigots begone.

[sadder-daisy]

[oldoceanicorca]

Does this to you

[danzadidiavoli]

[m00n-struckk]

feeling really shifty tonight and it’s frustrating that lately that happens often with big negative emotions. it’s like my human body can’t handle the beast emotions.

[summercamp2007]

reiwolves

[thewackypegasus]

"I loved him, I loved him, I loved him, I wanted to eat him alive."

[tawked]

Moonshine: The Complete Collection, 2023

[lunarlicorice]

warmup

[m00n-struckk]

i think i am having much more existential thoughts and feelings than just how to handle my nonhumanity after my friends left me so i apologize if i end up using this blog as more than just a designated alterhuman space to parse that out.

[feral-ballad]

Alex Dimitrov, from Love and Other Poems; “The Weather of Our Lives”

[Text ID: “someone presses their teeth / to your skin and shows / just how needed you are.”]

[m00n-struckk]

I saw your post about loosing your friends.

A couple years ago I made some friends that were the first to see me how I wanted to be seen. They were the first trans people that I had ever been friends with and that felt reassuring as a trans person myself. After a while I noticed them pushing me away and I also lost them. It was one of the worst things to ever happen to me, but soon after, I met my now best friend and all of their friends became my friend group. I would also say I’m closer with my now best friend because I was comfortable enough with them to tell them about my alterhumanity. It’s not the same, there are a few things I wish were like they were before, but mostly, it’s not the same because it’s better. It was also good to be alone for a while to process what had happened to be able to start fresh. Losing those people freed up room in my life for someone better.

i really hope that can happen for me. i’m so glad you were able to find more people to fill your life with. i think i can make something positive of the loneliness right now but man does it hurt . . .

[m00n-struckk]

so recently my two best friends left me. they were my people, my pack, so supportive of my nonhumanity and journey into self discovery and now they’re gone . . . which has left me with some very strange and difficult feelings.

i am a pack animal with no pack. i have no one to be with, no one to talk to about my feelings and continued exploration. i feel like everything keeps bubbling up but is locked inside like a shaken soda can. i don’t know how to be a (were)wolf with no pack. i’ve been alone before, i have been most my life, but i thought i finally found something long term, something to help me be . . . me. and now it’s gone, they’re gone.

there’s a grief obviously, but also a confusion. i’ve spent the last two weeks wondering “what am i supposed to do now?”

i’m still going to do things that made me feel at home with myself like wearing my tail keychain or taking nightwalks on the full moon. but a lot of what made me feel like me was the way my friends treated me. sometimes they treated me too much like a domestic dog but they always understood me as not a human person but as something canine. so . . . now i have to figure out what being a lone wolf is like.

i’m sure i’m gonna have a lot of feelings about it coming up, i don’t wanna lose my connection to my nonhumanity just cuz i lack an outlet now. i don’t wanna go back to pretending to be a person. so i’m gonna figure out how to explore things solo. sad but solo . . .

[forestfright]

You Are Never Alone

[m00n-struckk]

i’ll get back to posting i promise i just need to piece my life back together . . .

[m00n-struckk]

actually . . . making this a self-reminder to talk about feelings around being a lone (were)wolf now and exploring nonhumanity solo for the first time.

[m00n-struckk]

i’ll get back to posting i promise i just need to piece my life back together . . .

[coastalpawzzz]

It feels so weird being a pack animal with no irl pack.