hm. rlly want to get more into egl this year (and beyond)
wearing meta's lady fruit at my gf's birthday was a lot of fun! i felt rlly cute and i would like to get better at makeup/hair and wig styling/coording/etc
i've been thinking a lot lately tho abt how. Strange? not necessarily Bad strange, but certainly different it feels to present myself hyper-femininely in that manner, when for the past few years (p much as soon as i graduated high school) i've tended to favour a slightly more masculine or futch appearance. i was sm more girly in school LOL
i think my main worry comes from being out in public and presenting so femininely comes w assumptions? i don't like being super feminine in a world that mocks it or assumes you're heterosexual (which is funny bc i don't think a single egl-wearer that ik irl is strictly straight)
bc also i rlly like feminine things! my favourite colour is a shade of pink, my bedding HAS to be pink, i like cute animal/anime characters, etc etc- it's just how i physically present myself that i get so hung up on. when i was a teen i never learnt makeup, how to do my hair, blah blah blah. when i was like 14 i just kind of assumed i was going to be bad at these things so i never bothered trying LMAO i wore v basic makeup purely to cover my awful teenage acne
anyway it's just uncomfortable to me bc a lot of the world outside of your queer friend group and lesbian relationship sees femininity in such a different way :( i don't want to be perceived by men. go away!
but so many lesbians are proudly hyper-feminine and it's beautiful. iit's so stupid how men hate it and call women like that 'high-maintenance' lol i love having a hyper-feminine princessy girlfriend
anyways. i think i should just do what i want lowkey. maybe it's not that deep or whatever LOL
