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a pretty pink blog made by a teenage girl🪽

[maacji]

゛ ⸝⸝.ᐟ⋆ im maari or maacji 𑣲 (not using my real name for privacy and safety purposes)

im a minor so PLEASE if you're over 18 dont interact with me (especially if ur a guy...)

i like: cakes, fruit tarts, classical music, k-pop & j-pop, impressionist paintings, anime & manga, video games, mochas, jellyfish, penguins, owls, cats, ghosting, chococat, korilakkuma, momonga, chiikawa

i dislike: being in large crowds, food, forgiving people too easily, procrastinating, school, homework, band, old men or men in general (not a man hater lowk just scared)

fav artists: laufey, beabadoobee, artic monkeys, panchiko, cigarettes after sex, illit, ive, kii kii, lace, lana del rey, marskiii, OoOo, pink pantheress, temachii, the peggies, yeule, chuu, datealyfe

fav animes: ao haru ride, the fragrant flower blooms with diginity, your lie in april, horimiya, i want to eat your pancreas, your name, a silent voice, cosmic princess kaguya, nana, paradise kiss, k-on/keion, haikyuu, death note, chainsaw man, jujutsu kaisen

fav games: cookie run kingdom, persona 5, genshin impact, honkai star rail, honkai impact 3rd, wuthering waves, fatal frame, class of 09 (dont support the creator), project sekai, yandere simulator (dont support the creator), doki doki literature club

fav books: crime and punishment, no longer human, the picture of dorian gray, surrounded by idiots, before the coffee gets cold, the convenience store by the sea, emma, pride and prejudice, wuthering heights

toppings (extra info): infp/intp, 5w4/5w6/5w2, i/s/c ┆minor┆filipino but live in aus ┆im actually futaba yoshioka

(lowk muddled with my personality stuff so dont attack me)

ꉂ`𖦹. hiii, heyyooo, and a good morning/afternoon/night to you!!

[maacji]

it's been 4 months and I still like my ex cus yeah

i feel stupid atp and I should just give up because there's a part of me that's only holding onto him cus of the chance that he could come back

but then there's also a part of me that just misses HIM (yes I miss him but I dont miss the relationship)

[maacji]

˖᯽ ݁˖ oh no i feel so insecure and useless now

what a way to start off this entry? post? i'm unsure what to call this but i dont really care right now.

I'm trying to stop me from kms so i have a bunch of happy songs on a playlist and hopefully that lightens the mood. I think i'm annoying the neighbours because it's at full volume and it's 9:48 pm but who cares! I'm just trying to stay on earth because the only thing stopping myself from dying is hell. Having parents who always threaten you with "you'll go to hell!" is not for the weak. I wish i learnt from the start that God will always love me instead of humans putting human like characteristics on a GOD?

I could just kms now because guilt tripping me with "your family and friends will care!" doesn't work at all. I've basically lost all attachment with my parents (not really I still live in their house) and I'm such a shitty friend I truly believe they wouldn't care. If anything they'd be glad a person like me is off the earth so I don't ruin another life.

Also why did I just have to be so easily influenced and a people pleaser because I've gotten to the point where i'll be mean, rude and even discriminate groups just for people to like me. I know that's bad and I wish didn't do it and wanting to be liked is not a good enough excuse. But it pisses me off when others get away with it because others have set lower expectations for them compared to me. Like why are we getting treated differently anyway?

break:

But yeah I'm just a really bad person who can't even confront her mistakes properly. I'll just keep avoiding them until they disappear but the stupid thing is I can't even talk to someone about this without being judged. I've pushed away anyone I could've talked to so I'm practically alone. Now I genuinely want to kms oh my goshhhhhh. Then I won't need to the math homework and science homework I have due tomorrow.

I just thought about how it would go down at it seems like so much hard work cus there's like 2 people I'd actually write to. And the letters I'd send to them would be SOOOOOO LONGGGGG. Just because I love them so much even though we haven't been talking for a month...

ꉂ🍥˖ *𝓶𝓪𝓪𝓬𝓳𝓲 𝓸𝓾𝓽!

[maacji]

i got a mai zenin funko pop and im very proud of it, now all i need is her sister

i plan to get figures of both of the sisters whether it be small nendroids or i'll even make those fuckass labubus cus they cute

[maacji]

˗ˏˋ ꒰ ✉︎ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ i played needy streamer overload and it was a pretty interesting game

i've never seen a game operate like nso does but the concept is pretty nice and so is the art style. i did sadly make ame chan a little too stressed and i think that affected the ending. but she was down to like 70 when i got to 1 million followers?

i'm so glad i've played it now so i don't feel like a larp, i wonder if the anime is good. if anyone's seen it please tell me!

but i wonder where ame chan could've gotten a wig like that, it's cute definitely but i'm curious as to what it would look like irl. oh right cosplayers exist.

i got to 1 million at around day 20? i was scared i only had 10 days but turns out i had more than that. i made ame chan stressed for nothing aww man...

i also played tcoaal but that can be its own post.

ꉂ🍥˖ *𝓶𝓪𝓪𝓬𝓳𝓲 𝓸𝓾𝓽!

[maacji]

i laughed when i saw one of my classmate's profile and said to myself

"you can't laugh you're fucking ugly"

and so i laughed at that instead because i am ugly and i've accepted that, not embraced it because who would do that

at least they have the guts to post their face on any part of social media

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[ikejiya]

they're soooo cuteeeee!!

[maacji]

૮ ․ ․ ྀིა after watching the jjk movie i understand that yuta oc joke now bcus wdym he's a distant relative to GOJO?

i just finished watching jujutsu kaisen 0 and i must admit most of the time i was fangirling over maki. if anything i only watched the movie so i could see maki more. like you cannot tell me she's ugly, every frame of her is pure beauty. I definitely enjoyed it more than the reze arc (maybe i should give that a second chance and watch it again?) but yuta being able to wield a katana and imbue cursed energy into a vessel in under a year is sooo giving "this is my oc!".

i genuinely believe the reason yuta doesn't appear in the first season is because if he did he'd probably overshadow yuji. PLUS yuta got geto on the floor (with the help of rika) and he's only been doing this for around 3 months? and then he also delivered that black flash or whtever it's called and bro didn't even learn that... YUJI GOT HIMSELF A LITTLE TRAINING ARC WITH TODO.

LIKE YUTA WOULD'VE STOLEN YUJI'S SPOTLIGHT AS SOON AS HE APPEARED ON SCREEN.

other than that issue though, i did enjoy the second years appearance and i grew a liking to inumaki and panda more here. also the appearance of the kyoto students too.

MIWA!

i love miwa sooo much.

nothing else i want to mention but i gave it a 4 1/2 stars on letterboxd.

ꉂ🍥˖ *𝓶𝓪𝓪𝓬𝓳𝓲 𝓸𝓾𝓽!

[maacji]

≽^•⩊•^≼ yes the blues dont match up im too lazy to change it

i have a tffbwd fanfic to finish but i feel like it has a lot of grammar errors or something is wrong with it at least? do people even care about grammar? well punctuation at least.

it's just waguri and rintaro at the aquarium they went to a year later before they start college. idk i kinda thought it was cute.

[maacji]

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ waguri is so FREAKING BEAUTIFUL LOOK AT HER I NEVER KNEW A GIRL COULD BE DRAWN SO BEAUTIFULLY

i love waguri with my whole heart, she is the sweetest girl ever but this post isn't supposed to be about me glazing her. it's supposed to be about the anime/manga she's in: the fragrant flower blooms with dignity.

it was first introduced to me by my ex (all roads lead back to him, curse him). not that he actually showed me the anime and said "you should watch it!" but he did say something that made me curious about it at least. i hadn't talked to him much before he approached me so it was weird. especially weird when you find out what he says next.

he said i looked like waguri. woahh that's... interesting now that im looking back on it. with all the "waguri looks like a child" arguments in my mind. that's... nice.

might i just add a little description of myself to explain why i dont agree with this claim: i have tan skin (im filipino so hopefully that paints a better picture), black wavy long hair, i wear glasses and that's it.

(i fear if i go into any more detail i'll bring out the fanfic writer in me so im cutting it short)

i honestly think it's just the hair since waguri also has black wavy hair (it looks purple bcus black is hard to render though you should probably know that already).

BUT BACK ON TRACK! i did not know about tffbwd at the time, let alone waguri and let alone HIM? this guy, TWO years older than me btw, only talked to him once or twice, says "hey ________ you look like waguri!". weirdo...

but i love the courage. BUTT (again) i did not know what waguri looked like and i was scared he insulted me so i searched waguri up when i got home and OH MY GOSH. SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL.

i was shocked to think he thought of me like that, then i looked into it more and found out it's on netflix. so i watched the whole thing, made it a conversation starter to talk to him about it so we could start chatting and ended up liking it so much im collecting the manga now.

yay!

and now we're over.

but thanks to him i now love and know who waguri is and may i say the pasilyo edits are HEAVENLY especially since im filipino.

ꉂ🍥˖ *𝓶𝓪𝓪𝓬𝓳𝓲 𝓸𝓾𝓽!

(also purple is my favourite colour despite my whole blog being pink so it's nice to use some purple in my blog)

[maacji]

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞 i should talk about my favourite romance animes (the ones above arent the only ones i like)

the most recent one ive been watching is kamisama kiss since it's on netflix and i cant say ive watched much since im more focussed on csm and jjk. but is it cute and i love the artstyle.

also, since it's april i should mention your lie in april which has made me cry on multiple occasions. it also might just be my favourite romance anime oat for the reason being that it combines music, romance and angst? (can i call it that?) it's just so beautiful and it really shows how emotions can flow into different art forms and music is my favourite one. im probably being biased here since i play the piano (im not that good do NOT ask me to play). im planning on rewatching it in the english dub just because editors use it a lot. it kinda pisses me off especially with tffbwd (which i'll get to later) because waguri's voice sounds ASS CHEEKS. i relate to tsubaki heavily for the reason that im always second when it comes to love. heck, i might not even be an option. like imagine, you just realise your feelings for your childhood friend only to realise it's too late because another girl has him already.

ok ok PUT DOWN YOUR PITCHFORKS WHILE YELLING "waguri looks like a child!"

i know that and the fact that she's short (and practically my height which is quite embarrassing) doesn't make up that she looks like a child. and trust me, the manga doesn't do her much justice either. but may i say, the anime makes waguri look more worse (in the way that she looks like a child). oh but the 1st cover of the manga... oh waguri... i cant save you girl.

ANYWAY getting that aside, i love the fragrant flower blooms with dignity. it's just a cute romance that i can giggle about while watching it and i love that rintaro works at a bakery. i know miyamura from horimiya does too but it's not as pronounced compared to rintaro and his family bakery. they do end up apologising like half if not mostly the entire first season which kinda went over my head. overall i just like how it makes me feel but i feel with such a beautiful title (which btw contains waguri and rintaro's name which you can see more clearly in the japanese title: kaoru hana wa rin to saku) there could've been a more deeper story. the story's still nice though, seeing rintaro open up more after meeting waguri and both of their friends warming up to each other's rival schools.

i feel like the main reason i really like this though is because of the memories i have connected to this anime. i'm gonna link to a different post on why since i dont want to yap much here.

holyyy yapper so imma stopp

ꉂ🍥˖ *𝓶𝓪𝓪𝓬𝓳𝓲 𝓸𝓾𝓽!

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[maacji]

same futaba, same

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