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THE CALL OF THE SEA

"Satoru, eat my soul"

Merman Gojo x human reader

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synopsis : you are the child of mermaid hunters. One day, they bring you on their boat, wanting to make you learn the family business that you’re supposed to take over. Until you meet a mysterious merman that lures you in. What will happen when you end up stranded on an island, all alone, with the threat of having a beautiful creature that wants to eat your soul ? A need of survival mixed with a strange love story.

warnings : supposed enemies to lovers, kind of forced proximity, violence, blood, killing threats, implied murder, doomed lovers, angst, fluff, some satosugu hinted.

words count : 17.k

જ⁀➴ ⠀ׂ Autor’s note : it's originally a Finnick fanfic available on my account, but I changed many things to make it as a Gojo one ! Enjoy and don’t forget to comment and reblog xoxo

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Mermaids are said to be the most enchanting and beautiful creatures you could ever lay your eyes upon. Irises reflecting the depth of the waters, skin glowing like the few rays of light diving in the waves, tails swinging in a tempting motion, voices vibrating like the heavens calling for you. But be warned. They’ll lure you in, slowly, in a chase you won’t even know you’re the prey of. Then, their mouths will open to chant the song of your death. Big teeth would tear apart your flesh, hands greedily bringing you away from land, then they’ll eat your soul in a feast.

That’s what your parents always told you, warned you of. After all, they’re not the typical sailors you could encounter on the land of Japan. No. They are mermaid hunters. Paid greatly by the elders to chase down these creatures, for their scales, hair, skin, and surely to eradicate any danger. After all, your clan is situated close to the sea, a business of fishing being the main income of the city.

In reality, you never really fully believed that mermaids were real. Not in the way that they’ll have the capacity to lure people with their beauty and voices. Creatures, yes. But idealized and romanticized to better sell their tails and flesh to high ranked elders citizens.

You only realized how entirely wrong you were when it was too late.

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“Do I really have to come ? These parts of the sea are too far away. I won’t be back on time for the weekend,” you whine, looking at your mother that is packing the necessities, brought by the sailors to the quite big boat meters away on the beach.

“Yes, you need to start to learn the basic skills of hunting. You can’t say no, it’s mandatory. In a few years, you’ll have to take the family business seriously,” retorts your mother, wiping her forehead. Today is a strange day in Okinawa. It’s hot, moist even. But the sky is grey, gloomy. As if something is brewing.

“I already know how to fish, I sell well,” you defend yourself, playing with the spear in your hand.

“Fishes, not mermaids,” corrects your mother in a deep frown. You sigh, rolling your eyes.

“Why do you need to be back for the weekend ? We’ll never be on time until Sunday in the evening,” suddenly says your father, behind you with thick ropes in his arms. You help him out by grabbing some, walking on the sand towards the boat.

“Maybe because the weekends are the only free days I have to be able to rest ? I’m already exhausted from this week,” you explain, groaning in pain at the ache in your back when you hand the ropes to the sailor waiting to put them inside the boat.

“Labor is normal in our Clan, even more so when being a mermaid hunter. No time to rest, or you’ll die. Worse, fall behind your competitors,” exclaims your mother. You can’t even answer her absurd reasoning because she’s already focused on discussing something with your father.

By looking at it, you know you can’t escape this situation. Actually, it’s after lunch that the boat already starts its journey on the sea, with you sadly inside. You look at the horizon, the land of your home slowly disappearing. You start to wonder, breathing in annoyance. Will you really encounter a mermaid ? Hunt one down ? You don’t even know how you’ll react in front of one. Your mother keeps saying to instantly kill them, and wear earplugs to not be lured by their songs.

Killing fishes for food purposes and half human creatures for aesthetic purposes are two different things. Will you even be able to end them, before they’ll end you ?

You don’t have much more time to ponder this existential question that you have some work to do on the boat. You’ll arrive the next day, in the early morning, on the territory of the mermaids and other sea creatures. Hours pass by, busy with preparing nests to lure them in, tying knots, fishing dinner, listening to the instructions of your parents by looking at a map and their usual plan to hunt them down efficiently. To be honest, you don’t pay much attention. Just wanting to sit down due to the exhaustion of this long day.

When the sun sets and some sailors retreat to rest, you stay on the deck to drink a bit. Your mother is the one that tells you to only consume one glass, as your mind needs to be clear at dawn. You simply let the wind caress your skin, the salty and seaweed smell fill your lungs while you sip on the alcohol. The moon reflects on the waves, their sound mixing with the laughter of the other sailors still awake. The atmosphere actually becomes kind of weird. Heavy but strangely light at the same time.

Your eyes that originally got lost on the water, suddenly catch some movement. Intrigued, you think you recognize the tail of a dolphin in the darkness. So you approach the bowsprit and stare, squinting your eyes while finishing your drink.

Here ! It jumps out of the water, then dives back. From the obscurity, you can’t see well. Only that the tail of the dolphin is shiny, so shiny it looks like the stars are sewn on its scales. But dolphins don’t have scales. Surprised, you hold your breath in an attempt to decipher the animal.

When two glossy blue orbs stare at you, your heart stops. For a solid second, the eye contact lasts like an eternity yet so fast. That can’t be a dolphin. You bite your lower lip, blood pulsating in your veins as it approaches slowly, making you able to understand better the depth of what you are staring at. Then, white lashes bat, and its eyes disappear again in the water.

You don’t know what happens to you, because you directly want to know what that thing was, that strange animal. Maybe it’s the alcohol in your organism that makes you see things, but you even start to wonder if it’s not a… Impossible, their territories would be attained only at dawn. Why would a mermaid or merman wander so far from their home ?

You stumble on the other side of the main desk of the boat, to be greeted again by the blue orbs staring at you. You try to recall all types of sea animals you encountered since you were a child, in an attempt to know what kind would have such eyes. Its face is half way in the water, down its -what you suppose- nose. Then, again, it swims closer. The light coming from the boat allows you to see better. Again, your eyes lock.

It’s face emerges from a wave, and you almost fall as you realize it’s humanish. Your legs shake, eyes widening open at the realization. A smile, so seductive, with dimples on the side from the way the muscles of its face move. Your heart pounds hard, thousands of thoughts in your head.

But clouded with alcohol, you panic, and freeze. They, your parents, told you to immediately kill if you encounter one, before they’ll kill you. But you’re bare, no weapon in hand, no earplugs, nothing to defend yourself. And the question remains, do you want to take a life for only aesthetic purposes, granted to greedy elders citizens ?

Suddenly, its mouth opens, and you wonder if you’ll hear the so-called song of your death.

“Come to me,” purrs the creature in such a tempting and appealing way, deathly charming, that you just want to throw every reasoning thought and jump head first in the waves to land in the softness of its voice.

“Y/n, what are you doing ?!” exclaims your mother, her hand landing on your shoulder and snapping you out of whatever just went through your mind. You blink, looking at her, then back at the sea. It’s empty, nobody in sight. Strange. Did you just hallucinate ?

“It’s already late, you need to rest before the morning. You’ll have to wake up early,” she reprimands, forcing you to follow her towards the captain cabin.

“I just…” you stutter in confusion.

“Are you drunk ? What kind of child I made to be drunk the night before such an important day ?! Hush, go to sleep now,” she snaps, annoyed, and pushes you inside before slamming the door at your nose.

As you stare blankly at the wooden wall, you can’t help but play again and again and all over again this strange moment that only you, the creature and the moon witnessed tonight.

You are sure now. What you just encountered was a merman.

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When dawn arrives, you’re already awake. Actually, you've been awake since you saw that merman. You couldn’t fathom closing your eyelids. The blue of his irises haunted you all night, hours, minutes and ticking seconds. In raw honesty, you didn’t see much of his face in the darkness. Aside from his inviting smile. Heard a charming voice, a kind of sweet that tickles perfectly your brain, so tempting that if your mother didn’t arrive in time you would have jumped in the waves and have your soul eaten alive.

On the deck, sailors and your parents fuss around, looking at the map and forcing you to calculate which part of the sea you are crossing. At the northeast of the mermaid's territory, you realize.

“Prepare the nets !” exclaims your mother. The fussing is becoming worse and giving you a horrible headache from the lack of sleep and your haunting thoughts. So once you are dismissed for a short minute, knowing your dad will call you back in thirty seconds, you sneak behind the mast. Your eyes roam around the waves, wondering when the mermaids will arrive. You don’t forget to put on the earplugs, so their chant won’t lure you in the depth of the sea. You take a deep breath, a strange hope of seeing that one merman again.

A glimpse of bright blue in the middle of the darker water catches your eye, and like a moth towards fire, you fly on the other side of the desk. You don’t have any backup plan when you arrive face to face with the merman of yesterday night. Under the sunrise, his white pearly hair looks orange, and he smiles when he realizes you came to him.

Nobody else notices him. Only you. And you’re left unknowing of what to do. Take your spear and dig his heart ? Call the sailors to throw the fishing nets on him ? Your parents for them to know the quickest way to kill him ? But do you really want to kill him because it’s what you’re supposed to do to defend yourself, or only because it’s tradition and your family business ?

His lips move, but with your earplugs you can’t hear anything. Yet you can make out his tongue and mouth gesture, recognizing the syllables of your name, then what seems like being “come closer”.

Unconsciously you do, and you realize it the moment you’re having your head on top of the water to lean towards the godlike creature in front of you, in an eagerness you didn't even know you possess. When you want to immediately back down, to get away from danger, the water and the merman, something happens. His wet and cold scaled hands ascend and caress your cheeks, his face intimately getting closer. You freeze.

Like this, you can stare at his face. The hair, his fluttering white lashes, akin eyes to enchant you, his eyebrows, the curve of his lips, smile lines, scales glistening on his cheek towards his pointy ears. He’s so shiny under the orange rays of the rising sun that he looks like a pearl. A beautiful pearl.

“Y/n,” he says again, and you know because you read your name on his lips.

“How do you know my name ?” you ask in a voice that looks like you forgot how to properly speak. He smiles, like his knowledge is obvious, as if you are dumb to even ask such a question. But he’s so charming, you never saw a man that handsome, you end up losing your train of thoughts like a toddler staring at something captivating.

“Merman !” screams one of the sailors on the crow’s nest, staring at the creature in front of you. It’s so loud that you hear it. That startles you that badly, you fumble and fall. On the last second, your hands catch on the wood of the boat, legs dangling halfway in the water and the sea wind. It’s so stupid, really. But the wood is slippery, you don’t know why, maybe because of the sweat on your hands. Your parents exclaim something, rushing towards you, while others take their weapons and the fishing nets.

But as if the god of the sea himself wants to avenge all his lost mermaids and mermans, a violent wave crashes against the main deck and makes many sailors, including your dad, fall down. Your mom is the one to grab a spear, your spear, focused on aiming at the merman below you that dove back in the waves and to surely dig the weapon into his flesh.

“I’m going to fall !” you scream in sheer panic. One problem, did I forget to mention that you don’t know how to swim ?

“Y/n !” she yells back, messily throwing the weapon towards the creature, and then instead focusing on you.

Your fingers slowly lose strength and their grip, your last hope of surviving slipping away when under a ray of sun you suddenly see the hand of your mother. You’re about to reach for it, but another wave, twice as big as before, crashes back down. You slip. It’s too late when water fills your lungs and you sink in the depths of the sea. You want to scream but you can’t. Your body is heavily rocked side to side, your vision becoming blurry from the lack of air in your lungs.

Red surrounds you, barely noticing a white fish tail swimming across you. Blood, but not yours. You can’t really focus anymore, dots of black all around. Are you really going to die like this ? Because you got lured by the enchanting beauty of a merman ? Is this your stupid end ?

When you give your last breath forming bubbles, the blue of the eyes of the predator that was the cause of your downfall is the last thing you see.

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Water. You choke out the water that was stuck in your lungs. Soon, air is eagerly swallowed by your mouth, blinking and trying to see something else than a blinding light upon your head. But what your eyes focus on aren’t the sun, nor the afterlife, but like when you thought you died, it’s the same blue orbs blankly staring at you. The lingering feeling of lips on yours are what brings you back to earth.

You’re alive. You weakly back away in fear as you realize that the merman is on top of your form laying on warm sand. The earplugs aren’t in your ears anymore, so you can’t protect yourself if he chants you something to lure you into his toothy sharp mouth.

“What are you doing ?! Kissing a corpse ?!” you accuse in defiance, wiping the wet sand from your cheeks and forehead, frequently looking around in hope to understand where you are. The waves are crashing at your feet, you can see his white tail linger on the foam. It’s wounded, blood still flowing out of the big cut created from what you suppose a spear. Your mother. She’s the one that threw it.

“Easy now, I was doing mouth to mouth. I just saved your life. You’ll need to give me more than a deathly stare to have a real kiss from me,” he answers, raising an eyebrow, a mocking smile drawing on his face. You look at him, not knowing if he is joking or not. Instead, you try to get up on your shaky legs.

“I’m supposed to kill you,” you spat, looking down at him. But really, you’re terrified.

“I’ll kill you before you can,” he retorts, showing the weapon that was previously behind him. It’s only now that you notice it, and with how magnificent the trident is, you can’t help but be amazed at the delicateness of the handwork on the blades. Yet you snap out of your thoughts as an alarm of danger is blasting in your head, wanting to reach for something to defend yourself, but realize you’re bare of anything to protect you. Only your clothes, not even a knife. And the way his brows are furrowed, his muscles tensed, you know he’ll throw the trident at your heart the moment you’ll try something.

Your breath is ragged. You never faced death like this, not with someone that could end your life in a snap of fingers. The merman notices your fear, and slightly lowers down his weapon.

“Sweetheart, if I wanted to kill you, I would have done it by now,” he says more seriously, the use of the nickname sweetheart being condescending rather than flirtatious. So you fall on your knees, legs unable to support your weight anymore. You pass your hand on your face.

“But you lured me in,” you protest.

“I wasn’t the one that made you fall in the sea,” he says as he scoops some water from the waves caressing his skin, and wets his neck. Surely to refresh himself from the burning sun up your head.

“Where are we ?” you ask carefully.

“On an island, it’s at the east of the mermaid’s territory,” he explains, but the way the droplets of foam fall down his golden skin, you remember again the seductive power this merman has. You can’t let yourself be lured again by his beauty, so you stare at your feet digging in the wet sand.

“And the boat ?”

“Oh, the boat seemed just fine when they all tried to kill me. Thankfully the waves made it move in the opposite way,” he answers in a mocking cheerful laugh. You throw a tiny rock in the waves.

“I need to go back,” you say.

“Good luck for that, you have no boat, and you humans would die quickly if trying to swim on this sea,“ he says with sarcasm, and you stop yourself from mentioning that you can’t even swim. So you’re completely stuck here. He plays with his trident before staring at the horizon, “but I guess with how eager they looked to skin me alive, they’ll follow my tracks and soon find you back on this island,” he adds. You kind of feel guilty, so you play with the sand in your hands, knowing you can’t do much right now aside from surviving until they’ll hopefully come to your rescue. You won’t be back for the weekend, and maybe not even alive. That’s for sure.

“Why did you save me ?” you end up questioning.

“Didn’t want my dinner to go to waste,” he simply says. You gasp, backing away and a hand on your throat, as if to protect it from his sharp teeth.

“Are you really going to eat my soul ?!” you shriek. You had no idea until now if the legend about mermaids eating souls is real.

“With how agitated you are, it doesn’t look tasty anymore. I prefer it sweet, not salty,” he shrugs, yet there is some attitude in his tone, meaning you can’t decipher if he’s joking or being brutally honest. A merman having a sweet tooth for the souls he eats sounds almost comical.

“Good for me then,” you whisper, rolling your eyes. There is some silence before you turn your head to slowly look at him, surely analyzing the creature in front of you. Maybe nobody had the chance to be this close to an alive merman without being killed.

“What is your name ? You know mine, but I don’t know yours,” you start.

“Satoru,” he ends up answering, locking his blue eyes with yours. Fearing to fall prey to his charms, you stare back at the waves.

“Well, Satoru, you've been bleeding to a certain death since earlier,” you announce as you grimace at the still open wound on his slightly shaking tail.

“I know, I just wanted to see how long it would take you to notice,” he answers as it looks like he finally acknowledges the pain, gritting his teeth and holding the part of his tail that is soaking the sand in red. You give him a look, and he answers it with a forced tempting smile.

“I did save your life. Maybe save mine ?” he adds, and with the reality of his words and knowing you’ll hate yourself forever if you end up not helping a dying person in front of you, you oblige. Even if he is a merman and that he joked about eating your soul. You rip a part of your pants, with some difficulty, but end up succeeding. It’s large enough to wrap it tightly around the tail and stop the bleeding. As you do the knot, you decide to continue to talk, ignoring his small groans of pain that he fails to suppress.

“You didn’t answer my question last time.” The way he takes a good five seconds shows that he recalls what you mean.

“That was a stupid question. I know your name because your mother was screaming it all the time since I started to follow your boat,” he explains after a ragged breath.

“You’ve been following us ?!” you exclaim, lifting your head to stare at his pained smirk.

“Chasing my dinner,” he corrects in a smile, wink. You glare at him and finish the knot in a strong grip on purpose, making him grit his teeth at the pressure, swallowing hardly his saliva. He lets out a strangled chuckle before sliding more deeply in the water.

“You’re kind of naive, y/n,” Satoru ends up saying.

“What do you mean ?” you scoff in disdain, feeling insulted.

“It shows I’m the first mermaid you ever encountered in your life. Last night, you blindly went towards me and weren’t wearing anything in your ears to block my voice from reaching you. You didn’t attack me, and now you’re wondering if I’ll really eat your soul,” he enumerates. You sigh, knowing he is saying only the truth.

“Well, I have to admit that you’re right… Maybe it’s for that that I’m stupidly helping you out so you’ll have the chance to eat me later,” you snap. “But, was I really supposed to be your dinner ?”

“That’s a secret,” he vaguely answers.

“A secret ?” you question back, annoyed at how evasive he is being.

“Yes, confidential. I am very secretive. So why don’t you tell me one of your human secrets ?” he purrs as he approaches you again, lifting his torso from the small waves licking your ankles.

“About what ?” you raise an eyebrow, wondering what Satoru meant by such a weird statement.

“I don’t know. Maybe about the land where you’re from. Or the people that buy the flesh, scales and eyes of my people. Perhaps the name of the person that controls this traffic ?”

Japan, land divided in Clans. Rich eccentric elders or heads of other clans. Elders again. These are the silent answers to his questions that you say in your mind.

“I don’t have anything to say to you,” you end up retorting before standing up. He simply looks at you rising from the sand, eyebrow arched in mocking attitude.

“For now, I need to survive until my parents find me back. So I guess, and hope so, that I won’t see you again. Goodbye,” you decide to put an end to this interaction, not trusting him to stay longer by his side. His answer is silence, and he dives back in the sea, soon disappearing from your eyes. You’re left alone on this unknown beach, with the desperate need to make it out alive. And it surely won’t be a merman that will help you on land. Even more if he threatens to eat your soul.

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You left the beach to wander in the forest, seeking for the most important thing : water. Somewhere you can actually drink and hydrate yourself. While walking, you’re hyper alert of everything. Animal sounds, the leaves cracking below your feet, the wind, the ocean meters and meters away. After two hours, even if you don't really know how much time has passed, it’s by following a bird that you find a small, very small river. With your finger you taste the water, and sigh of utter relief when you realize it’s not salty. You know drinking it straight up like this might be dangerous from the possible bacteria, but it’s either that or dying.

Eagerly, you gulp down until you satisfy your thirst. You take some time to recover from your exhaustion, happy to have found somewhere to drink, and away from the sun. The trees around you protect you from it.

But you need food. You can fish in many different ways, and efficiently. But with nothing around you, not even a knife, you know the task at hand will be hard.

By looking around, you wonder if with the leaves you could build a fish net, but the lack of resources doesn’t guarantee success. If you had something sharp, you could take a stick, and try to make it as a spear. You grumble as you walk on the river, trying to find some stone you could use, wetting half of your legs. After many tries, you manage to find one, and with one more hour, sharpening it enough by throwing it on bigger rocks and rubbing it against the hardness in a hope to make it as sharp as a knife.

When looking up at the sky, wiping your forehead, and gazing at the beach behind the trees, you know the sun will soon set. You rush to find a stick, use the long leaves, and tie a knot around your sharpened stone to build a kind of rustic spear. Soon, you stumble on the sand, determined to have some dinner tonight. Maybe you’ll even find fruits, or anything else that could keep you alive until the boat will come back.

Being as easy as walking, you’re quick to know on which part of the beach you’ll find the best spot to fish. When you catch a glimpse of a bunch of your preys, you throw your newly made weapon towards your target. It doesn’t take more than a few minutes for you to catch a good and quite big fish of the bunch. Even if most of them are supposedly small on this part of the island. You analyze the animal more closely, it’s strangely beautiful that you almost feel bad to eat it. You never saw such a fish before, in all your years of experience. Are they proper to this island ?

Your name is being chanted somewhere on your left, and you raise your head in confusion. Only to be met by, what you recognize, the blue eyes of Satoru staring at you behind rocks. You instinctively, with your dinner in hand, half wet and dirty, walk towards the melodic voice.

As your toe hurts on some rock, the pain snaps you back into reality and you instantly shake your head. Seeing you won’t come to him, Satoru swims closer.

“You’re quite good at fishing, for a human. But that tiny fish won’t be enough to keep you alive for long,” he says as he leans against a rock on the shore. Close enough so you can hear his voice, but far enough so you can’t touch him even if you extend your arm.

“Is it because it’s tiny ? I could fish a good ten of them, and it would fill my stomach,” you say in a scoff and with some disdain, showing the fish in your hand with some pride. Satoru’s tail flicks in the air. He smirks, surely wanting to laugh.

“I’m sure of it, but you’ll be dead seconds later. Their flesh is venomous, their scales too,” he answers in a sing-song voice, followed by a smile. Your eyes widen of surprise and horror, instantly dropping what was supposed to be your meal. You directly notice the redness on your hand, fingers looking like they have tiny pimples. Your skin tingles, and you try to wash the remains of the poison in the water.

“Oh my-” you suck up a sharp breath.

“Stay here,” he orders before diving back into the ocean and leaving you in your distress. Two minutes pass. Satoru comes back with what seems like a type of sea weed. He munches on them, then takes your injured hand in his. He applies the mixture on your skin, and even if you kind of are grossed out, you forget your disgust entirely at the relief it procures you. The coldness of his fingers add to the sensation, and you take a moment to look at him up close.

“I leave for an afternoon and you’re already dying on me,” he breaks the silence.

“I told you I didn’t want to see you again,” you feel the need to correct.

“I never agreed to it, and I’m still keeping track of what was supposed to be my dinner,” he corrects back, giving you a look. He drops your hand and you want to thank him, but the conversation being about you as his dinner doesn’t really make you want to be grateful.

“You’re still after my soul ?”

He holds a small laugh at your question.

“I told you, it’s a secret. I’ll only answer if you have something to give me in return,” he explains, leaning against one of the rocks under the burning sun.

“And I told you I don’t have anything to say to you,” you retort.

“Then I guess you won’t know. I only do fair trade,” Satoru shrugs. You sigh, and look around. You just lost the most important source of food you were supposed to have. And it’s not only some nuts or fruits -that you still didn’t find- that would be sustainable.

“I need to fish for my own dinner,” you whisper to yourself.

“You won’t find other types of fish on this perimeter,” he explains, holding his trident in hand, as a sign that you won’t be able to attack him if you suddenly had the idea to eat his flesh for your own food. Ok, that actually pains you to do so, but you realize you’ll need his help. Again. You take your deep breath to gather some courage.

“Can…” you bite your lower lip, “Can you show me where I’ll find non-venomous ones ?” Satoru raises an eyebrow, toying with his weapon then raising his head to look at you better.

“What do I get in return ? Remember, sweetheart. Fair trade,” he muses, now intrigued, but still firm on his rule of exchange, or payment. You ponder, and for the sake of your life, you don’t mind giving information to the enemy.

“I’ll tell you who rules over my land,” you end up offering, and he smiles.

“See when you want ?” he teases, “We have a deal. Come on, follow me,” he adds before plunging again in the water, expecting you to follow suit.

You walk in the waves carefully, and after some minutes as he sometimes turns around to see if you’re on track, the both of you arrive in a cove. The water is transparent, compared to how much darker it was on the main beach. Like a haven, it shines, and is as a paradise piece of land.

“Here, you’ll have enough bunches of fish to survive,” he explains, and in awe as the sun is setting, you stare.

“Non-venomous ?”

“Non venomous,” he affirms. You smile, pleased, and maybe you can trust him because he actually helped you twice. He surely wants to keep you alive to eat you better later, but at least you’re alive. With your homemade spear, you start to aim at the ones that look the best to choose, and start your chase of food.

“I’m waiting for our deal,” says Satoru after rising from the water, since he was swimming around, relishing in the feeling. His home. You then remember, and nod, still concentrated.

“Right. They are called the elders, a bunch of old wrinkled men that think they’re better than anyone else. But heads of Clans too have an important role in ruling the country,” you say.

“Clans ?” he asks, he doesn’t seem to know this word.

“It’s like small kingdoms of families,” you explain. He narrows his eyes, getting closer.

“So they’re the ones that order the genocide of my people,” he hums in bitterness, tighting his grip on his trident that for a second you think he’ll aim your heart by the look in his eyes.

“Genocide ?” you say unsure of what he meant by that.

“It is a genocide, what else did you expect it to be ?” he answers as he stares at you directly. With so much depth that you stop fishing.

“We-” only defend ourselves. But you know it’s not true, that what he just said makes sense, so instead you close your mouth and don’t answer. A long moment passes where you continue to collect your due dinner. You have no bucket so you have to improvise. You’re already thinking of trying to start a fire, and cooking the flesh, feasting on the flesh.

“It kind of pains me to see you struggle so much for just some fish. Are you that weak ?” Satoru suddenly says in a teasing fake pained manner. That catches your attention and you snap at him.

“Struggling ? I’m one of the best from my Clan !” you exclaim. And with all modesty, you are. Having parents like yours made it impossible to accept failure. Satoru laughs.

“Don’t tell me you’re crying,” he adds in such a teasing tone it makes you want to slap his face. Instead, you roll your eyes.

“Nevermind. Why am I struggling then ?” you decide to question him, since he seems mocking about your skills. And the way his eyes slightly light up, you know he’s feeling happy that you asked.

“I have to admit you are more efficient than I thought. But you’re too slow. Look,” he answers before holding his trident. He raises his arm, his muscles and scales glistening under the last rays of sun. Then, in an inhuman speed, because he’s no human, he aims at a fish and with the precision of a god touches the part of the body that would kill it instantly and won’t damage the flesh.

“Oh, you just wanted to show off,” you end up saying as you roll your eyes, trying to dismiss the awe you felt at such skills. He’s a merman, after all.

“But it worked,” he retorts, and grabs the corpse before analyzing it in a way that only a mermaid would understand.

“Then show me again, how to do it,” you say back as you show with your chin his trident. But by the look he gives you, you can already know that he is silently saying “fair trade, sweetheart,” so you sigh as your shoulders sag.

“Fine. I’ll tell you how Clans work,” you offer. And he smiles. The same smile that lured you in. So you need to stare at the wildlife of the beach instead of his lips and toothy grin. Sharp fangs shining as a reminder of their dangerousness

“I see we understand each other. Good. Here, let me show you,” he invites you to do. You stay on the safe depth of the beach, knowing you can’t swim, and follow his instruction.

The following thirty minutes are actually funnier and more interesting than you thought. Satoru explains to you the way he fishes and hunts smaller prey, a knowledge rooted in a culture that their species possess. They are very respectful of the sea as well. Each life they take has to be for a meaningful purpose, the food chain. And by the way he says it, you feel ashamed that your own people, parents, kill them for no real reason aside from aesthetics, greed, and vengeance. In a way or another, you’re part of this genocide, as Satoru explained. But it’s such a big part of your life, that you still struggle in entirely understanding the point of view of a merman you only met yesterday night.

In return, you explain to him the system of Clans and how each has a specificity. When the moon is up in the sky, you end up thanking him and retreat to start a fire. In hope to find dry wood. It takes some time to succeed, because aside from trying to start a few ones like in the past, you actually had the tools to help. You only are doing so based on very little knowledge. But with some hard work, you succeed, and sit next to the fire that is situated at the edge of the forest. Like this, the river is not very far, you’re protected from the rain and the sun, and can still have a watchful eye on the beach in case the boat of your parents arrives.

As you let your meal roast, you stare at the flames, then the stars. You feel the gaze of Satoru observing you from afar. It would have been creepy if you knew better. But you noticed during the past hours that he was more curious than he let it seem. You know that as much as you, he’s intrigued by you being a human. Maybe he never saw a fire up close before. Analyzing as well how you eat. After all, not like you saw him do, you don’t eat the flesh raw out of the animal with your bare teeth. The way he did it was quite impressive and considered animalistic. You feared he’ll do the same to your throat. His teeth looked sharper when digging in the meat of the fish.

It’s laying down on leaves you took from the forest, on top of the sand, that you have a weird sleep in between consciousness and rest. Suddenly waking up thinking you are in your bed, before the reality of your nightmare reality crashing back down onto you. Weird dreams of being lured in the sea by Satoru haunt you, then drowning into the depths of the ocean.

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The following day is filled with adventuring yourself in the forest, and bringing back your goods on the beach. You start to build a small shelter, with the very few resources you have to do a proper job based on your skills. Then searching for something else than fish to eat. You find some nuts, and even wonder if the roots you dug can be eaten. You spend some time as well in the river, washing yourself and just getting refreshed from the heavy weather.

When you go back to fish for lunch, Satoru is on the same spot as yesterday, behind rocks, to analyze you. He even comments on the way you throw your spear, like a teacher would do, and you ask him if he doesn’t have something better to do.

Looking at the water, you wish you had the ability to swim. Yesterday, Satoru went to search for seaweeds to heal your hand from the poison. They surely are edible. And you only found nuts and roots. Maybe there are even multiple crustaceans that would fill your stomach. Yet, your inability to do so keeps you from accessing a larger food resource.

You do your best to not ask help from Satoru, because you have precious knowledge about the human world, and you think that you shouldn’t waste those secrets for services you could pass on or do them by yourself.

So days pass. Three more, actually. Your mood gets worse and worse. No sign of the boat. Did Satoru lie to you ? Did your parents and their crew drown because of the violent waves ? Or maybe they’re not after you, and think you’re dead. Actually, that would be the smartest possibility. They know you can’t swim. And your mother would never believe that a merman saved your life. They must be persuaded that your corpse is somewhere in the sea. Meaning they won’t come to you. Unless they’re tracking down Satoru to avenge your supposed death, and like this, will find you alive.

So you keep some hope, that you’re not doomed to rot on this island.

During these days, you have a routine : fetch water, start a fire, fish, cook, occupy yourself by adventuring in the island and avoiding the possible predators. There are a few. Thankfully they don’t seem to approach the beach. You intend to make other utensils with wood and sharpen other rocks as knives or blades for your spear.

With Satoru, even if you refuse to ask for his help, he stays around. He keeps an eye on you, and you keep an eye on him. He’s not always here, but he’s never far. Sometimes you end up talking. Or silently acknowledging the presence of the other. He observes, you observe. Your human habits, his merman habits. Sometimes you exchange some words, information that seems meaningless. You’re kind of glad, actually, that he’s here. Having someone to talk to somewhat keeps you sane. Even if the threat of your soul being eaten looms over your head.

On the seventh day, you snap. You can’t continue eating the same thing every morning, lunch and dinner. You know it’s not healthy either. And if you want to survive well enough, you have to change some of the usual food you consume on this island.

You need to swim. To get weeds, crustaceans and sea shells. The ones you found on the beach were usually empty. And the crabs are actually extremely fast. Your spear is not sharp enough to dig on their shell-like-body-armor and kill them.

But you can’t swim. And the only option you have right now, is Satoru. After eating when the sun is not as high in the sky as at lunch, you walk on the burning sand before reaching the waves. You stand, looking around, and not seeing him, you call his name.

“Satoru ?” you raise your voice. Nothing. As you’re about to call his name again, he appears, sitting on the rock at your left, glistening. The way the sun shines on his hair, it looks like gold. Pearls of water akin to diamonds. Scales a vibrant white, sometimes a soft blue, depending on which angle you look at it.

“Need my help ?” he purrs, tempting. His tail flicks against the foam. Like a cat.

“Teach me how to swim,” you blurt out before rethinking how to formulate your sentence. But it’s so sudden, so blunt, that with the way he looks at you, you end up adding “please,” in a more ashamed voice.

“Do all humans not know how to swim ?” he asks intrigued. You approach to hear him better.

“A lot of people from my Clan know how to. Everyone, actually. So we all learn how to swim,” you explain. Seagulls scream up your head, and for a single second you look at them, wishing you could have a bow and try to hunt them. Some bird meat makes you drool at the idea. Your stomach growls.

“Then how come you don’t know how to ?” Satoru snaps you out of your thoughts. Knowing he looks genuinely curious, you can’t afford to lose his interest, not for a question so critical. So you continue.

“When I was young I had a lot of nightmares of the sea, with the tails my parents told me. I had severe thalassophobia and when all kids at school learned to swim, I didn’t because I was too scared. Since then, even if I overcame my fear of the sea, I never tried to learn how to swim again and nobody offered either to teach me. That’s as stupid as that.”

He nods, something in his eyes that shows he probably thinks of you differently than two minutes ago. You don’t know if it’s mocking, pity, understanding, maybe even some respect. Nothing really shows what he is thinking.

“That’s not stupid,” he ends up answering. Not knowing how to react, you add to convince him “At each lesson you’ll give me, I’ll tell you another secret.”

But the way he stares at you so intensely since you said this, you can’t decipher if from the beginning he wants to agree, or if he just got convinced now thanks to your deal. Then, how his lips stretch tells you everything you need to know.

“We’ll start now,” he announces, his strong tail making him swim and be at your side in an instant.

“Really ? You agree ?” you exclaim, shocked for it to be so… easy. Maybe for the counterpart, he’ll ask you to give him secrets on a deeper level.

“Hmm, approach,” he hums and nods, then his cold fingers trail on your arms and bring you towards him. His touch is sudden, a shiver parcouring your body at the contact. His fingers are as soft as the skin of a dolphin, which surprises you.

You follow a few steps into the water, slowly reaching your waist. You don’t protest and simply let him guide you.

“I guess swimming with legs is not the same as swimming with a tail, so we'll have to find what is best for you. For now, I’ll support your body so try to relax and float,” he instructs, as you stare at his said tail. The way it moves is so strong, yet now in such shallow waters it’s half still, showing he barely needs to do anything to keep afloat. You look back at him, and it always surprises you the way he switches from being playful to actually being serious when being on teaching mode.

“Float ? I’ll drown for sure !” you protest in an instinct of avoiding danger.

“You still can stand on your… things,” he tries to explain by showing it with his chin.

“Feet,” you correct. He nods in acknowledgement.

“You still can stand on your feet, here. Even if you fail, you won’t drown. Do you trust me ?”

“No,” you directly answer without thinking. Strangely, he laughs. It’s the first time you hear it coming genuinely from him. Soft yet deep. A melody that caresses your ears. You thought mermaids' laughter would be scary, because you always imagined some evil laugh as they’ll feast on their victims. It’s nothing of such when it’s Satoru’s laugh.

“At least you’re honest. But if you want us to work, then you should trust me for this. That’s the bare minimum,” he calms down, shaking his head.

You take a deep breath, and try to let yourself float. His hands slide under you, on your stomach, strong grip to keep you stabilized. The other maintains your waist. Clearly, he’s the one supporting your weight.

“Y/n, the first step it’s for you to learn how to float. If you can’t swim, at least that’ll keep you alive instead of drowning. So believe me, and now, turn on your back,” he orders, seeing that trying to make you be comfortable on your stomach doesn’t work. In a groan you turn around, the weight of your clothes from being drenched clinging to your skin. His hand supports your back, and your eyes meet his. The sun shines brightly behind his head, like a crown.

“Relax your muscles,” he orders.

“I can’t,” you say through gritted teeth. Your body is completely tense, and you’re not sinking only thanks to him.

“Do you need some help ?” he asks.

“What do you mea-” you get cut short by the way his pupils seem to grow bigger, and you immediately get drowned into the darkness of it. Not the sea. “Relax, y/n,” Satoru whispers in a melodic voice, and a breath escapes your parted lips. Enchanted by his words and irises, as if you are floating in a dream, all your muscles stop to be so tense. Guided by his hands, he keeps your back straight.

“Put your strength in your abdomen,” he murmurs closer to your head. You get lost in the contemplation of his face and do as he says. Gently, you start to float by yourself without realizing. Then, his hands, inch by inch, leave your waist and back. You only realize later that he’s not holding you anymore.

A hint of panic crosses your eyes, and as you’re about to stop all your efforts, his hand cups your cheek and makes you stare at the sky.

“Beautiful, isn’t it ?” he asks in a lovely tone. Instead, you focus on the bright blue similar to his eyes, the seagulls, the wind, the trees far away, the few clouds dancing in the air.

“Yes,” you manage to whisper. You don’t know how much time passes. Five minutes, or twenty, or hours, maybe barely thirty seconds. All but a mystery. Your consciousness is here but far away at the same time. You know it’s because of Satoru. His voice, his blue.

“Wanna try to move your limbs ?” he proposes after a while.

“Ok,” you end up agreeing.

“With your legs, not your arms. We usually simply move our tail up and down, but for you it’s different,” he states as one of his hands touches your leg, intrigued. You freeze.

“I’ll try to recreate what I saw back at my school when I was a kid. But keep your hands on my back ! Just in case, I don’t want to drown,” you exclaim. He gets back on your side to maintain your body structure, softly floating on small waves.

“When you’re ready,” he muses. You messily start to move your legs in a paddle, an attempt to recreate what you always saw. It actually helps you to move, even if you can’t really choose which direction to take. You think you look ridiculous like this, but Satoru doesn’t seem to think the same. You manage to actually… swim, on your back, with his help supporting your weight. And that’s already a good start.

Satoru is kinder than you thought. Much kinder. When he’s not threatening or mocking you. You don’t really know him, and maybe you’ll never really do because he is a merman. But, the way he diligently assures that you’re comfortable, your safety, and actually takes time to teach you, even if it’s a deal, kind of… it’s weird, but warms your heart in a way you didn’t know was possible.

Once your swimming session comes to an end, you’re sitting on the sand next to Satoru that is half way on the water. After all, you need to keep your deal. And tell him something, a secret.

“One of the elders that buy a lot of… mermaids scales and flesh… is someone that is part of a circle close to my Clan. All of them actually are the biggest buyer, because they resell it for an astronomical amount of money to well known stylists, or on the black market,” you admit. You actually know all their names and influence. You know other things too. Actually, a lot. Either from your parents telling you, or from hearing about it vaguely.

“Stylists ?” he asks confused, a gravely look on his face at the knowledge of this.

“People that make and design clothes, accessories,” you explain.

“So these civilians hunt my people but disguise themselves with our scales,” he scoffs at the absurdity of this information.

“Actually, some of them dream of being mermaids. They say that there are legends where humans could turn as a mermaid,” you add while looking at the sun slowly setting, very slowly.

“Ridiculous,” he mutters.

“Is it true ?” you ask, turning towards him. Satoru stares back at you, holding your gaze, before looking back at the ocean before him.

“Never saw it with my own eyes,” he vaguely answers.

“I heard it’s by a specific sea shell, some kind of magic,” you add in a thoughtful whisper.

“A sea shell,” he murmurs back.

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The following days, no signs of a boat. You continue to exchange swimming lessons with Satoru, and secrets. You get used to the feeling of his cold touch on your skin whenever he helps you. Long fingers and palms always securely around your waist, stomach or back.

Your tutoring is going slowly but surely. You started to learn how to hold your breath as well, because Satoru obviously wanted to show you how to swim under the water. Not with your head at the surface.

Once, he directly gave you seaweed, because you still can’t dive efficiently to go grab them yourself. You went to cook it by the fire, and Satoru stayed close at the shore to stare at this strange thing called flames. So once you finished roasting some fish as well, with nuts, you felt kind of generous and quickly approached his form.

“Satoru ! Here, taste it,” you exclaim as you extend in a leaf the cooked flesh along with the seaweed.

“That looks… interesting. You humans really don’t eat it raw ?” he comments, narrowing his eyes. Gently, he takes the leaf, analyzing from every angle the proposed food before staring back at you intensely.

“Not really. Depends. But try it,” you shrug. He takes the meat in between his fingers, and rolls it against his lips to feel the warmth of it. He shivers slightly, startled, then bites into it. His expression is neutral, before he licks his fingers, and swallows the seaweed. Yet, with how sinfully you look at him, entranced by such a simple task, you take back the leaf and stare at it instead.

“Do you have to always be seductive ? Even when eating ? Is it like a merman thing ?” you question with some disdain, but really, you’re just embarrassed at how easily you became eager to observe his lips.

“Did you get seduced ?” he retorts in a smirk with a voice that hints at the usual flirt it holds.

“That’s not what I meant,” you deny.

“I don’t know. You’re just weak to my charms, I guess. You’re a human, after all,” he shrugs in a chuckle. Oh, even his chuckle is charming ! That’s torturous. He can and will maybe kill you the moment he wants it, and yet you keep falling weak to his antics, to his voice, smile and eyes.

“I prefer it raw,” he comments, passing his hand in his wet shiny locks.

“Raw ?!” you exclaim in a blurt before you could realize how embarrassing that just was. He raises an eyebrow, eying you in a cocky way.

“The fish, and the seaweed. What did you think I meant ?”

“Nothing,” you shake your head and walk away, back on the beach as you can hear a “sure” from behind.

The next day, after another swimming lesson and some due secret sharing, with nothing else to do, waiting for dinner time to go fish your food, you decide to stay for once in Satoru’s company.

“Why are you always here ? Don’t you have some people to go back to ?” you ask, using one of your rocks you found next to the shore to do some ricochet. And at the same time, teaching Satoru how to do it as well, as he never saw such an intriguing thing before. But, at your words, he throws the small stone and it bounces nine times on the quiet still water of this part of the cove.

“Ask that to your parents,” he ends up saying in a neutral voice. Which is unusual from him. You frown, confused at first.

“What do you mea- oh,” your words die in your throat at the realization. You fail your ricochet, and slowly gaze back at him. His back is turned to you, busy focusing on the waves, and surely for you to not see the utter pain and bitterness etched on his face. Shame eats you alive, nails digging in your palm, and you stutter a pathetic apology because it’s your own parents and their crew that killed Satoru’s loved ones.

“I’m sorry…”

“Are you really ?” he says in a mocking tone, the kind that doesn’t make fun of, but doesn’t trust, doesn’t believe. And you actually wonder. Do you say that out of politeness ? Or because you genuinely realize the horror and hypocrisy of this whole family business that you’re supposed to take control of -in a future where you’ll come back alive.-

“I think I am,” you end up revealing. The way he looks at you changes, and a tiny smile of recognition goes on his lips before he leaves you alone for the rest of the day. Disappearing in the ocean with a building of mysteries following him. Because Satoru is an enigma. He doesn’t come back until the next afternoon.

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Satoru kept you company at dinner, him asking you if he could try again the cooked fish and seaweeds. He even brought seashells, to cook too, making it a real feast for your stomach. Satoru is actually a merman with a very big appetite, and love for food. You know you lost weight, surely more than in a healthy way, but at least you’re still alive and kicking. Not mentally, but physically. Again, the loneliness and doom of being alone on this island is not as bad since Satoru sticks by your side.

Like right now. Laying on the foam, stomachs full, eyes locked on the stars and the moon. Next to each other in silence, aside from sometimes explaining the way navigators learn to read the stars to know where they are. Mermaids do the same. But call the constellations differently, each word part of their own culture and history.

Strangely, your skin gravitates towards him. Maybe because you got so used to being physically close during your swimming sessions, his body is like a part of yours when he guides your hips, legs, chest and arms to move around along the waves. The feeling of his dolphin like soft skin, his scales, his temperature. It’s all getting imprinted on your memory. Your new habit.

So, your arm touches his, his fingers flickering on yours. It’s weird but seems normal at the same time.

“You’re cold,” you say suddenly, turning your head to meet his.

“Are all humans that warm ?” he questions back, the edge of his digits sliding on your arm. Exploring his claim. You shiver head to toe. He notices it. The goosebumps an indicator that he learnt to know what it means.

“Compared to you, yes. Why ? You don’t like it ?”

Satoru’s hand slides up, then up, resting on your heart. Feels your pulse, your warmth. He can rip it apart if he wants to, but he doesn’t. The contrast with the coldness of his palm is soothing. He feels, closes his eyes to connect on a deeper level that only he knows with your beating heart. Maybe it’s a mermaid thing. But ô, it makes your organ flutter.

“It’s nicer than I thought. It feels like the sun,” he explains.

The sun.

“You’re cold as the moon, then,” you whisper in the quietness of the night. His eyelids open and the intense blue swallows your thoughts.

The moon.

“Can’t deny it,” he murmurs.

“Still after my soul ?” you suddenly ask.

His hand, nails, trail to your throat. Strangely, you don’t move, don’t protest. For a long second, it lingers on your jaw, then your cheek. Falls on your lip in a brushing touch.

“Maybe.”

Maybe.

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You ended up cooking the roots you found, after testing them and waiting some days to be sure you had no stomach ache or something abnormal happening. Each day that dragged along, when not being on the beach, you'd carefully explore the forest, avoiding all potential predators, and continue to make some utensils, weapons, arrange your shelter, to the point that in a cope mechanism you called this part of the island your home. You referred to it like this whenever you had to go back there, and even if you know it’s not, it gives some sense of security in this strange routine of survival you had to develop.

There are nights where you cry of despair, hopping the boat, any boat, will come to you. You always make sure that the fire is big enough to create some smoke that would be seenable up in the sky. In those moments of solitude, Satoru is never far, and you end up joining him in silence at the shore. Nobody talks, maybe because he is tired of constantly joking and teasing around. But he’s here, and it starts to grow into you.

You are waiting for him one afternoon, to have your usual swimming lesson. He shouldn’t be very far, but even if you call his name he doesn’t answer. You climb on the rocks carefully to try to spot his tail somewhere in the clear blue.

“Satoru ?” you yell again, starting to wonder if he’s even here. But, is he still ? Did he leave, to your doom ? A wave of panic possesses your body and you rush to the rest of the beach, running on the sand in hope to find him. You haven’t seen him all morning as well. You genuinely start to think he left for good, but why ? Everything was fine until now, your deal satisfied both of you, and he seemed to enjoy your company. Did he stop being after your soul ? Even if considering yourself his prey, this strange relationship gave you much more comfort than you intended.

“Satoru, where are you ?!” you call again in despair, foot slipping on a rock and falling, but catching yourself just in time. You climb the slippery rock again to get a better look at the sea, in hope to see a glimpse of him. Somewhere, please.

Then, a faint groan, not very far from your left. You rush immediately, and stumble on a sight that makes your heart beat so much quicker in the spawn of a millisecond. He’s there, laying on the sand and half in the foam, all bloody and breath ragged. Trident in hand, trying to lift himself up and go back in the ocean.

“What happened ?!” you exclaim and fall on your knees at his side, only then he notices you. Your hand lands on his skin, and gets tinted by the bright red liquid.

“I need to go back to the.. ocean…” he mutters painfully. You look at your palms and feel your whole body tingle in fear.

“Why ?” you ask, not knowing what to do to stop his bleeding, aside from taking off your clothes and intent to tie a knot on his wounds and stop the bleeding.

“Seaweeds… healing,” he groans, but you stop him from attempting to move. You immediately understand what he means. You recall your first day on his island, and what he used to heal your hand.

“I’ll do it, don’t move !” you protest and push yourself on your shaky legs and rush in the water without a second thought. You vaguely remember where he always went to search for them, on the left of the clove. But your swimming skills are not very efficient, yet you have to rely on what he taught you. Even if you’re scared. So you go faster, towards the left, the water reaching your shoulders. You take a deep breath and dive.

You can’t see very well, even if it’s so clear on this part of the island. But you intend to move your legs and arms, adjust your body and strength like he always told you to do. You spot the seaweeds, deeper down. You go back to the surface to take another deep breath, then dive again. You struggle to manage to reach the depth, but still succeed in grabbing as much as you can. Seconds later you push yourself up again and paddle towards where he is. It’s messy, rushed, you struggle to breath correctly, but you do your best to do it as fast as possible.

You cough some water when you lunge yourself at his side, and he looks at you surprised and worried, whispering your name in a grunt of pain.

“Let me take care of this,” you exclaim. First, you put some water on the wounds to clean it. Since he’s a merman, you know that the salt isn’t aggressive to his skin or flesh. Then as you recall what you saw him do, you munch the seaweed. The taste is bitter, but you don’t stop. Then, apply the gross mixture on his wounds.

You don’t know if it will work, and normally, for such a situation he’ll need urgent care in a hospital or with qualified medics of your Clan, getting stitched. But he’s a merman, and he wanted to reach for this. So you try to believe in this supposed working magic. After all, it healed the poison on your skin.

He sighs of relief and lets his head fall on the sand, closing his eyes in surrender. You know he’s still alive at the way his thoracic cage moves up and down.

“Y/n…” he whimpers your name, while you continue to apply the munched seaweed on each cut and wound. His hand shakes and he tries to take your face in his hand. His digits manage to rub against your cheek, and you lock eyes with him.

“Thank you,” he whispers. You stop moving, relishing in his touch.

“You better not die on me. I still need your help,” you answer in a stressed and terrified tone.

“I didn’t plan to,” he murmurs, his hand falling from your cheek. His eyes close again, but he’s still breathing. You stay by his side, finishing to clean and apply the mixture on the wounds. You regularly put back water on him, to keep him refreshed. You don’t know how merman bodies work, but surely staying under the sun would do nothing good.

You realize he is asleep, clearly exhausted, and let some time pass as you anxiously stay next to him. When you think it’s required, you change the mixture that started to dry, and need to dive back in the water to collect more seaweeds. It’s as hard as before, trying to move correctly and swim, but you manage to do it faster. You quickly repeat the process, hoping it will continue to work. You have the surprise to see that the blood stopped, and the wounds slowly started to close by themselves.

Whatever magical or scientific mystery these weeds possess, they are working marvelously well. You munch and apply. Then once it’s done, you realize how your body is exhausted from all this panic and swimming. Softly, you lay down, catching back your breath next to his sleeping form. You mindlessly continue to apply water on his scales, and then just to make sure, let your head fall on his chest where his heart is supposed to be.

It’s beating. Not in the same way as humans, which startles you. But it’s beating. The sound of this live against your ear lulls you into a sleepy state, the coldness of his skin refreshing your burning cheeks. You’re sure you got sunburned with how strong the rays are on this island, but with no mirror it’s hard to know what you look like anymore.

Fluttering eyelids, you end up closing your eyes. Lips parted, sleep takes over and dreams dance in your head.

It’s a soothing hand, refreshing, that wakes you up. The sound of the waves softly crashing on your legs and middle, the seagulls up your head, the sun gently setting at the edge of the ocean. You lift your head, realizing you fell asleep on Satoru’s chest.

His eyes meet yours, caressing your face with a softness you didn’t know would make you feel so safe.

“You’re alive,” you whisper.

“And you’re awake,” he retorts. You rise and put your hands on each side of his face, sitting on the sand. Your eyes worriedly try to catch his, to see the truth they behold.

“What happened ?” you ask in panic and concern.

“I got attacked, but that was to be expected,” he vaguely explains.

“Attacked ? By what ?” you question, confused. Your brows furrow.

“Your parents,” he admits. Your world seems to crumble underneath your legs before snapping back to reality. Your fingers curl around his cheeks, and your breath is becoming erratic. You look around you. Nothing.

“My parents ?! What ? Where are they ?!” you exclaim.

“Kilometers away from here. I wanted to see where their boat was. It’s towards the north. I quickly realized they were after me, because when they saw me, instead of chasing a bunch of others of my people that were attacking their crew, they immediately went for my skin,” he continues in a calmer voice than you expected.

“But why did you do that ? Satoru, you could have died !” you snap, feeling tears of despair in your eyes but you shake your head to stop them from rolling down your skin. He rises too, lifting his torso, the setting sun’s ray glowing on your back and on his skin.

“Because you seemed devastated that nobody would come to get you back to your home. I wanted to know if they were going towards the direction of this island,” he admits.

“You did that for me ?” you blurt out in shock.

“Can’t have your soul being too sad,” he says. Fingers smoothing the dried sand on your cheeks, maybe a tear too.

“Or the taste will be bad, right ?”

“I prefer its taste when you’re happy, being sweet,” he answers, a small smile forming on his lips. You bite yours, and suddenly take him in your arms before you can realize what you are doing. Heartbeat against his, you feel his arms wrap around your body as well. Your face digs in his chest, worriedly. His smell surrounds you, and it’s like a cold sea yet a warm summer. So enchanting that you breathe in to it.

“Never do that again. They’ll get here when the time comes. Sooner or later. For now I’m surviving. I can still handle it. So don’t get yourself killed,” you shake your head ordering that.

“I think it won’t take them much longer. They’re still tracking me down, and they’ll quickly find this island,” he soothes your hair, talking against your head as his eyes are locked on the ocean. Chin tucked on top of you.

“Then why don't you go ?! Why don’t you hide, stay in safety in the depths of the ocean ?” you ask, lifting your face to be in front of his.

“You said you needed me.”

“I do. But I can’t… I can’t handle the fact that because of me you’re getting hurt or awaiting a certain death !” you cry out.

“Feeling pity for someone that wants to eat your soul ?” he gently jokes, and you put your hand on your heart.

“Satoru, we both know it’s not true. I figured that out. If you really wanted to eat me, you would have done so by now,” you end up saying. He simply looks at you. The way your eyes stare at his. Your lips twitching. Your eyebrows. Your facial expression. He doesn't say anything. Doesn’t need to.

“I think I can handle myself now. I managed to swim, to get these sea weeds. I can fish. I have water. Fire. And can cook roots too. So don’t stay here, and go back to your own home, to your people,” you tell him.

“I have nobody, y/n, nobody. They all got killed,” he answers more seriously, and you can’t help but remember what he told you some time ago. Days really went fast.

“Nobody at all ?” you whisper unsure.

“Not even Suguru anymore…” his eyes get lost in the waves with bitterness.

“Suguru ?” you ask confused. He doesn’t explain. Some seconds pass, his hand falling on your back, trailing your skin.

“It’s ironic, isn’t it ? The only person I have right now, is you. The child of the humans that killed my loved ones,” are his words. They are so harsh, so true, so intense and a painful reality that you have nothing else to say to this. What can you, really ? Excuse your parents ? No apologies would ever erase the fact that they are all dead. He almost died too today, because of them.

You even start to wonder if your life would ever be the same if you are reunited back with your own family. No. Not after this.

“I’m staying here. I have love and dreams too,” he finishes the conversation.

Satoru is staying here. You look at him. What are his dreams, for him to not go back ? And love ? You touch your heart.

જ⁀➴ ⠀ׂ

Something significantly changed in your relationship between Satoru and you. But it feels right. You continue your daily routine with him. But when he was usually watching you from afar, now he stayed by your side. Unless when you went into the forest. You’ll cook him more fish, and sea shells. So he can try. He brings you things from the ocean, to help you eat better and make you gain back some weight.

His wounds ended up completely healing, pretty fast actually. As you get more used to swimming, thanks to him, Satoru brings you with him deeper in the ocean. But he’s always close to you, to help you just in case. When you’re tired and too far away from land, you do as taught. You float on your back, staring at the sky. Like this, you gain some energy before being able to swim again.

Tonight, after eating the usual, Satoru took your hand and is nos dragging you with him in the water. Because of the hotness of today, you’re only in your underwear, your clothes finishing to dry as you tried to wash them in the morning. But with no soap, it’s a harder task than you thought.

“In the middle of the night ? I’ll see nothing !” you protest, stopping straight, but he swims closer and faces you. Hands sliding on your waist, tilting his head to the side in curiosity.

“You really don’t ? I guess human eyes are weaker than I thought,” he mutters to himself, analyzing your pupils and irises with a certain devotion that you don't entirely understand.

“You see in the water during the night ?” you ask intrigued, taking a step closer in the water reaching your collarbones.

“Perfectly,” he confirms, smirking slightly.

“You’re just like a cat,” you comment in a chuckle.

“A cat ? What is this ?” he frowns.

“An animal on land,” you explain. He does a small hum of acknowledgement then his strong tails makes the two of you move forward without you can protest.

“Y/n, come on. Swimming at night is fun ! And you’ll have the moon to guide you,” he tries to convince you. It’s quiet around, and the stars reflecting on the waves actually is a beautiful sight. It makes you want to fully engross yourself in this experience.

“Ok, but stay close,” you agree. He smiles and guides you to swim at his side. As you asked, his body doesn’t leave you. Arms wrapped around your middle to bring you with him. You barely paddle, his tail doing all the work. With no clothes on, you realize how each centimeter of your skin is rubbing against his scales and torso.

“You told me you can’t see ? I have the perfect solution. Hold on to my waist, and hold your breath,” he suddenly says, excitement crossing his eyes. You nod, and instantly swallow enough air to keep yourself as long as you can underwater. He brings you with him, this time in an inhuman speed swimming. You have to squint your eyes, but really, you see nothing. Even more with the pressure.

Then, as you hold yourself more strongly to his waist, chest glued to his, he turns in a loop. Suddenly, the whole ocean all around you lights up in tiny sparkles of shiny blue. Like his eyes. You want to exclaim of amazement but you can’t, so you wait for Satoru to bring you back to the surface to express it.

“Oh, that is amazing !” you laugh in ecstasy, looking around at the waves rocking your body shining by the sparkles of blue. “I saw this phenomenon a few times when going fishing back in my Clan. But I never… had the opportunity to swim in it. We call it Noctiluca. The name of the plankton,” you recall. He stares at you, deeply.

“We call them the stars of the sea,” Satoru explains, and moves his tail on purpose to make it shine even more. You chuckle again in happiness at this piece of art painting itself in front of you.

“Now you see. Come underwater with me again,” he says, bringing you down so you gasp and catch your breath quickly before having your face submerged. He makes you go deeper, faster and more impressively when you explore part of the oceans at night you never thought you would ever see up close in your entire life. Satoru stays attentive to your needs, and whenever he notices you need air, he brings you back to the surface in time.

“Not so scary anymore, right ?” he asks, wiping the hair from his forehead.

“I wish I could hold my breath longer,” you admit, gulping some air.

“Why ? You want to stay longer underwater with me ?” Satoru asks, moving his eyebrows in a jokingly flirtatious manner. You roll your eyes.

“It’s fun, and it feels good,” you confirm, wondering what it would feel like to have the same capacity as a mermaid. Swimming as fast as you can, breathing in air and water, luring people with your charms and voice.

“That shouldn’t be a problem. Do you trust me ?” he then asks, a tempting smile on his face. So you look at him, recalling that one time he asked if you trusted him and you answered no with fervor. So you smile back, and answer.

“Yes.”

Something in your chest flutters, and Satoru seems surprised before relief and appreciation wash over him. He licks his lips, and gets closer, his arms slowly guiding you towards him.

“That’s a nice change of heart,” he muses. “Hold your breath,” he whispers in his sing-song voice that always seemed to lure you in. So you do so, and again you find yourself under the water. The planktons shine all around you, glowing in your hair, your eyes. Satoru looks unreal like this, his irises never leave you. He brings you in a dance, diving deeper, keeping you close. You let yourself follow his lead, until he turns you around. When you face him back, his beauty strikes you all at once.

You almost forget that you need air. But when you’re about to express it, his lips melt on yours.

Satoru kisses you, eyes closed, while yours are wide open. Everything brightens around you, and your heart seems to wildly hammer in your chest. It’s soft, warm, yet cold. His lips are fresh, and a new sensation swallows you whole at the contact. You end closing your lips and time stops.

“Now you can breathe,” he whispers so clearly, you hear it like an echo at the back of your mind. You open your eyelids, a bubble of air escaping your parted lips as his mouth slowly parts from yours.

Indeed, realization hits you as you can really breathe in. Even if you’re underwater. You touch your throat, your chest, where your lungs are supposed to be. Fascination overcomes everything as your smile stretches and stretches even more.

“I can breathe… and I can talk clearly too !” you exclaim. “How is that possible ?!”

Satoru swims around you, round and round, taking your hands to make you spin as well.

“Mermaid kisses offer the ability to breathe under water. I guess no humans know that, because if they did, they’ll for sure capture and assault my kind,” he explains.

You then realize something, something that proves you and Satoru are more than just a survivor on an island and a merman that made a deal with. No, so much more than that.

“So I’m the only human to know,” you swim closely while confirming this, and he does the same.

“You’re the only human to know.”

He trusts you. Satoru trusts you. Your eyes light up, and you touch again your heart, your throat. You can breathe, you can talk, all underwater without any problem. Your eyes see better as well. It’s purely magical. Almost unimaginable. Are you dreaming ? Maybe.

“Thank you. That would be our secret,” you say with devotion. His smile becomes so genuine, so full of a strange feeling you’re not sure to understand.

“The first secret that we share, then. There is always a start to everything,” he brings your hand to his lips and kisses the palm instead.

The night ends on this note.

જ⁀➴ ⠀ׂ

The following days are full of kisses, frequent, allowing you each time to explore the depth of the ocean at Satoru’s side. Places you would have never seen with your own eyes before. Being able to hunt new kinds of seafood, finally having a new diversity of dishes.

Each time his lips fall on yours, it’s a breath of life. Soft, cold, electrifying. Your body freezing then melting. Yet, what your relationship is, remains unknown. After all, these kisses are only made for you to live in the depth of the sea. For a limited amount of time. Around two hours each.

Maybe you want more. Something real. You don’t really know anymore. You even start to forget about your life back at Okinawa. Your parents. The boat. Your job. Everything.

Aside from this island. This place is the only thing you have with him.

A piece of land, where all your secrets are hidden. Your bodies on the sand. Your kisses in the water. His arms around your waist. His eyes, blue, always analyzing every little muscle movement of your face to decipher what you are thinking about. As if you are an enigma. But Satoru is the enigma.

He still didn’t eat your soul. You’re sure he won’t. But at this point, it’s like he already consumed every bit of it to nothingness.

Head laying on his chest while the waves softly crash on the warm sand. His hand touches the edges of your hair, then the curve of your nose, to the plump of your lips. It’s still the morning, the sun rising. A night spent exploring the sea and the cove at his side.

It’s so silent. Really. But you don’t mind it. You just relish in the intimacy of the moment. Your left hand busy caressing his tail, admiring the scales shining under your digits. Nails softly grazing the hardness of it.

“You’re an enigma, Satoru,” you end up commenting after some minutes of mindlessly caressing. You don’t see his face because of looking at his tail, so you don’t know what kind of reaction or facial expression he’s having. But you’re sure he’s having his usual charming smile right now.

“Am I ? I could say the same thing about you,” he chuckles slightly, musing his words.

“Why were you so far away from your territory when we first met on my family boat ?” you end up questioning.

“Asking hard questions, hmm ?” he answers, fingers stopping on your jaw to instead trail on your shoulder, then arm.

“I always wanted to know,” you defend yourself. You hear him sigh, the conversation taking a more serious tone.

“It was careless of me. But, I didn’t really lie to you. I was tracking down your family. The ones that killed Suguru in front of me. I wanted to avenge him,” he ends up admitting in all honesty.

“Who is Suguru ?”

“Someone I loved very much,” he says in a pained voice, hand tightening around your arm before he realizes it and immediately loosen his grip.

“It’s for that you went so far away from your home ?”

“Yes. And then I found you. Kind of an anomaly. It has been some time since I was following your parent’s boat, planning the ideal time to kill them with my trident. Until I saw you for the first time. You weren’t supposed to be here. Were you a new threat ? I just needed to know who you were,” he continues. You stare at the sun lights in his tail, being extremely captivating.

“So you lured me in ?”

“I did. And I never expected you to fall and drown,” he adds.

You recall this moment, the feeling of dying that haunted your dreams every night since then. You inhale a big breath to steady yourself.

“You could have eaten me a long time ago,” you whisper with acceptance.

“I did think about it when I learnt your identity when your mother called you her child, screaming for you to go to sleep so you’ll be awake at dawn. I thought that I'll take a life for a life, so they’ll know what it feels like to lose someone they love,” Satoru confesses. You blink, biting your lower lip. Strangely, you wonder what it would have felt like feeling his mouth on your throat, diving on your heart, then on your mouth to consume your life essence.

“But after all this time, you still didn’t,” you comment.

“I didn’t,” he confirms. You’re sure he’s smiling now.

“Why ?” you ask. He doesn’t answer. Two seconds pass. So you finally turn around to face him again since the two of you laid on the foamy waves.

“Satoru ?”

Your question is met by his lips. Hands cradling your head, tilting it to the side to deepen the intimate exchange. It’s so raw, bare of any barriers, or excuses of allowing you to breathe underwater. No. It’s real, authentic. It’s him and you. Sharing something true to your heart.

“Because I learnt to love you,” he confesses against your mouth. You think you just died then went back to life. He parts slightly, locking eyes with you. Your heart is hammering in your throat, and you take back his face, diving on his lips once again.

“I do too,” you confess as well, his eagerness answering your kiss. It’s soft now, hot and fresh, steamy and passionate. His hands explore your back, bringing your legs closer, still amazed by these strange body parts foreign to him.

“You’re the only person I have now, y/n. I can’t lose you,” he whispers against your lips.

“I don’t think I want my parents to ever find this island,” you admit.

“I can’t stop you from going back to your home, even if I wish to continue to spend everyday by your side,” he sighs.

“Where I’m from, I work all the time to exhaustion. When I have my weekends, I still have to help them with the preparation of their boat before leaving on Monday. When do I really rest ? Never. Work, work, work to the bone. I had friends, but with our jobs, my Clan, I can barely see them anymore, them neither. My whole life is forced to follow a path my Clan wants. What the elders want from my family. And I don’t want it. I don’t. If that’s home, then I prefer to not have one anymore. Not after I tasted what freedom tastes like. By your side,” you exclaim, expressing a mountain of feelings you kept inside.

It’s only by being here on this island that you finally grasped what it feels like to be human. To be alive. To not be controlled by a government. Yes, it’s hard. Yes, you have to survive each day. But Satoru significantly made you able to be alive every hour of passing weeks. So freedom but harsh survival ? Or captivity and eternal suffering ?

Maybe you’ll die young, because of a complication. It’s not like the magical seaweed can even stop all diseases including death. But at least you’ll be free. Back at your Clan, you’re sure you would die at work. Or from exhaustion.

“Then let’s stay together. Here, in the ocean,” he says, cradling your cheek tenderly.

The choice is quickly and easily made.

“Let’s hope for it,” you swallow your saliva, anxiety building up at the gore possibilities of outcomes.

“I told you, y/n. I’m not leaving this island. Even if the boat comes back,” Satoru assures you strongly. So you have to believe him. You nod.

“What will you do then if they do ? Will you kill my parents ?” you ask in a wavering voice. You don’t know what to think about this. They are your parents. But they killed his. What can you even try to rationalize in this situation ? You don’t even know what will happen.

“I can’t tell you. But you’ll know what I’m planning soon enough,” he ends the conversation by kissing your forehead with devotion.

જ⁀➴ ⠀ׂ

Satoru left that morning and said he’ll be back for sunset. A last kiss on your lips allowed you to go fish for your lunch, even if it felt weird to swim alone in the depth of the sea without Satoru showing you around.

You did your best to occupy yourself. Going back into the forest, drink water, wash your clothes and let them dry in the sun, sharpen your rocks, and apply some seaweed on the small injuries you had. Like tiny cuts, or hematomas.

You are left waiting at the beach of the cove to look for the arrival of Satoru. The sky is orange, and pink. The sun slowly hiding at the horizon behind the sea. So you sit, playing with rocks, the sand.

You even try to arrange your hair. Smooth the wrinkles of your dried clothes. Wipe the sand off your cheeks. Make sure that your hands are clean, the cleaner you can actually feel as you only have water and no soap. You try to peek at your reflection on the waves, wondering what you really look like right now. It’s stupid. Satoru already loves you for who you are, the way he sees you. There is no need to try to make yourself look prettier. You don’t even know what image of yourself you give him. But it’s you, wild and raw of everything else. So it’s alright. No need to change for someone else.

Your name is chanted. You know it’s his call. So you rush to the side of the beach, and see him waiting for you behind rocks. He gestures to you to join him in the water. You smile, relieved to see him back, and hastily take off your clothes before jumping in the waves. He arrives halfway and immediately his lips melt on yours the moment you’re in his arms.

“Where did you go ?” you breathlessly ask eagerly.

“That’s a secret, y/n,” he answers in his usual charming voice, smiling against your lips when he kisses you again.

“Come on, I’m curious now,” you try to make him talk. He raises an eyebrow, finger gently tapping on your shoulder like a reminder.

“Fair trade, sweetheart,” he says. Like a small nostalgia of your swimming lessons, you sigh playfully.

“Ok ok… what do you want in return ?”

“A promise,” Satoru admits. Curious, your head tilts on the side.

“A promise ? Then tell me,” you nod.

“Promise me you’ll seriously consider your answer. That’s all I want. Think you can do that ?” he caresses your cheek tenderly.

“Well yes, but consider my answer of what ?” you look into his blue eyes. Satoru then, with his other free hand, raises it up towards your face and slowly opens his fingers. Lies in his palm a necklace, the lace made in a kind of seaweeds tied like ropes, so beautifully in meticulous handwork. Then, a seashell. So vibrant it looks unreal. You gasp, fearing to even touch what is in front of you, as if it would break. You look back at him, a smile on your lips.

“Wow, that’s beautiful… is it why you took so long to come back ? You went to search this for me ?” you ask in awe, not believing that Satoru really did that just for you. He chuckles ô so softly, his thumb gently rubbing on the seashell. And you swear, it shines like magic at the gentle contact.

“Yes. It’s not any necklace. It’s made with a special seashell. The one of the legend,” he explains in a calmer tone. To emphasize the truth of his words. You open your eyes widely in disbelief, not quite sure that you heard right.

“What- the legend is real ?! Are you serious right now ?” you exclaim with pure shock.

“When putting it on, it allows humans to transform as mermaids. Only when it’s on, though. So, if you do put it, we could truly live our life together, free of our problems,” he confirms, and you can’t even form coherent thoughts, flabbergasted to the point of going mute. So this is true. It’s not a legend.

“Promise me you’ll consider your answer. I’m not forcing you to say yes, to commit to me, to leave everything behind. It’s your choice,” he adds with seriousness, making sure you have your claim in this.

At his words, you finally snap out of your thoughts and throw yourself at him, wrapping your arms around his neck. His tail supports both of your weight in the water, and his face digs in the crook of your neck to relish in your closeness.

“How could I leave everything behind when it is already behind me ? The boat never came back. You’re all I have left,” you say, hugging him tighter. After all, you got used to this new life. You accepted the fact that you’ll never go back to Okinawa. And maybe it’s better like this. To be far away from your Clan. From the elders. Here lies your freedom, with him.

“I think, from what I saw during my trip, that the boat is already coming this way. Towards our island. It’s for that, y/n. I’m being serious about this. For you to truly consider your answer,” Satoru says. You stop dead in your train of thoughts and look at him. All your future possibilities crashing down at this news. The boat is coming this way. Your parents are. Meaning, you’ll have to leave Satoru if they do find you. Maybe to never see him again, because what if they kill him ? What if you witness Satoru being skinned alive ? Taking his eyes, his scales. Everything that you learnt to love about him, being reaped away.

Will you be forced to look at his remains being worn by fancy heads Clans ? To stare at his scales that you used to caress with so much love, used to decorate the coat of an old man ? To see his eyes as a necklace ? Or in a jar as a trophy ?

“I understand…” you whisper in anxiety. Your trembling hands gather around your throat, to softly take off one of the accessories you had on you since you left Okinawa. A necklace with a symbol of a fish delicately carved on a pearl. Gently, you take it off.

“Here, take this necklace too. It doesn’t give any magical power or anything. It’s just one from my Clan. So you’ll have a piece of me always,” you explain while lovingly wrapping it around his own neck. He uses his free hand to roll the pearl against his fingers, staring at it with so much care. He kisses it.

“I don’t think I can live without a piece of you now,” he murmurs. You lean towards him to kiss him again, but you freeze when your eyes notice meters away something that the fog kept hidden until now. Your parents. They’re back.

“Satoru ! The boat !” you scream and make him spin around. He positions himself before you. Surely to hide you or to protect you, maybe both.

“They’re here earlier than I calculated,” he says to himself with a deep voice, characteristic of the seriousness and gravity of the situation.

“Leave the island !” you exclaim and try to push him away in panic. You don’t know what to do yourself, aside from first making sure he’s safe and sound.

“I told you y/n, I won’t !” he protests, which makes you twice anxious. Quick, you have to think of something that will both save you time.

“I’ll put the necklace then, and we both run away,” you affirm. He nods and hands you the necklace. Opening it to wrap it around your neck.

A scream of vengeance coming from the boat. Spears are thrown. It hurts his hand, making the necklace flying and falling back down, sinking in the waves.

“No !” you scream and directly turn around to catch it before it disappears or gets rocked away by the water. You manage to grab the lace, before turning around to check on your lover.

“Satoru ?!” you exclaim when you notice that the water is red, and he’s holding his side in a panting. Another spear did touch his hip. You immediately wrap the jewelry around your neck by yourself, and rush to his side.

“Quick, let’s go-” you yell, grabbing his hand and ready yourself to dive underwater. But he stops you.

“It’s broken, the seashell,” he comments with sorrow, holding it in his hand.

“What ?! Oh fuck- Fuck ! It won’t work anymore ?” you cry out in fear. Your plan is getting doomed in front of your own eyes, and in the panic you don’t know what to do anymore.

“I don’t know. Maybe, I don’t know- ugh, y/n,” he grunts in pain at the blood loss.

Voices are heard in your back, closer now, so much closer. You lost time. When you lift your head, you see a net falling down towards the two of you. Satoru is quicker, and drags you with him inside the water to the left, avoiding the attack. The net falls and sinks in the depths, with no merman caught. As Satoru continues to drag you with him as fast as possible, even though he’s in strident pain, you do your best to not freeze of fear. Being chased by your own parents, taking you for a prey, is scarier than you ever thought. So is that what mermaids and mermans went through ? Felt before dying ? Raw instinct of escaping to survive ? Or fight back with dignity and vengeance until their assassination ?

Thankfully, since the two of you kissed, you still can breathe underwater. Allowing the escape to be more efficient. The necklace is shining, but the broken piece that is missing, it only sends a strange wave across your body. Everything tingles. You don’t know what is happening. You even forget to swim for a second because of the weird feeling you’re experiencing. But that is your mistake.

Another net falls, it touches you, and the technology of it immediately wraps your body and lifts you off the water as you scream of fear. Your hand extends towards the waves, where Satoru tries to do something, invoking his trident that rushes to him. He throws it towards the net, in an attempt to cut it in two. But it doesn’t work.

“Kill him !” the voice of your mother, that you never thought you would hear again, resonates behind you. Another spear, your spear, you recognize it, is aimed at his heart.

The impact is so brutal, and Satoru screams your name one last time before he sinks in a pool of blood. His blue becomes dull, his shine disappears, your name is the last word on his lips. You yell in agony, crying and trying to get away like a wild animal in a cage. The net is brutally thrown on the deck of the boat, and all the sailors, including your parents, lower their weapons when they realize it’s you. Their child. Alive.

“Y/n ?” asks your father in disbelief. Everyone exclaims in surprise and happiness to see you back. But all you see is red. His red. His blood.

“What did you do ?! What did you do to him ?! You monsters ! You killed him ! You’re all but monsters !” you cry in pure rage and madness, standing back up on your feet with pain. You feel dizzy, your legs barely able to hold your weight.

What they say to you, their words, are replaced by a horrible ringing. You don’t hear anything. Hands and arms wrap around your body that tries to jump back down in the ocean, seeking your lover’s body.

“You’re all monsters ! He’s dead because of you !” you continue to yell in agony, seeing blurry all around you. Black dots cover your vision. You don’t know if it’s because of the necklace, or the brutality of what just happened in barely five minutes of pure chaos, or maybe because they use a syringe in your arm, but you soon are knocked out.

Blue. The blue of his eyes. Red. The red of his blood. The chant of your name. His voice lures you in the sea. You wish you could join him one last time.

જ⁀➴ ⠀ׂ

A month has passed since your parents found you on the island, and made you come back to Okinawa. You’ve been under medic care. Not going to work. Staying at home. Not talking. Nothing. Really, since Satoru’s death, you have refused to eat, to talk, to sleep, or to do anything other than wanting to go back to the sea. Just once. That’s all you wanted. But they didn’t let you.

The only thing that kept you sane was the necklace. The shell, placed where your heart belongs. You caressed it, recalling Satoru’s touch. His lips. His hands. His scales. His hair. Or his smile, his voice, his teasing, his charming shenanigans, his care for you, his teaching, hell, everything about him !

You wish Satoru would have never fallen in love with you. He would have been alive. Unbroken. Untouched by the spear. Your spear. It’s as if you were the one that did it. That aimed at his heart.

Satoru was the one supposed to take your soul. Not you. Not the other way around.

So, that night, when everybody is sleeping, you vanish. The necklace is making you have hallucinations of his voice, his eyes, him, somewhere close to you. You make sure that nobody hears you. The door is locked, of course. So you open the window, and manage to fully escape. A few steps, you’re in the street. It’s quiet. Your head hurts. You hear his voice at the corner of a house, but you know it’s not him. So you run.

Why is it so painful ? Why are your legs killing you ? The sand is fresh under your toes. You sigh of relief. Before you, lies the ocean. You hear its call. Luring you in. Step by step, you approach with dizziness but strong will. The foam caresses your ankles. You don’t stop. Walk, deeper and deeper in the ocean. Staring at the moon shining on the water. Your necklace is vibrating, glowing. You hear your name, his voice. It’s coming from the seashell on your skin.

You dive in the waves, swimming, like he taught you. You don’t stop. Breathless. You don’t stop. Body tiring. You don’t stop. Sinking. You don’t stop. Chasing a future you wished to have. A dream. Satoru, somewhere.

You don’t feel your legs anymore. You don’t know if you’re breathing underwater. Maybe you’re dying. But it’s the call of the sea. You can’t escape it. Maybe you’re crazy.

You drown in blue. Satoru’s eyes. His lips fall on yours. His arms wrapping around your body to reunite with you again. You don’t know if he’s really here. Maybe he didn’t die. You hear your name again. Or maybe it’s a hallucination. You don’t know and don’t wish to know the truth.

“Satoru… eat my soul,” are your words. He does.

And like this, you vanish into the night, into the waves, into his heart. For all eternity. Nobody ever found you again. Only the sea knows the secret of what happened.

A merman ate your soul, and you ate his.

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