Diary of an Oxygen Thief

Here's some words that form sentences carefully crafted by a mind unable to sleep

[maezywords]

You steal the breath from my lungs and then ask why I can't breathe.

J.W.

[maezywords]

Loved back

Sometimes, I truely believe I am not made for love. I am not made to wake up and make pancakes with you on saturday morning, i'm not made to make you dinner after work, i'm not made to sleep next to someone, i'm not made to be loved back. And I know that now.

[maezywords]

You say you're different but you treat me the same.

J.W.

[syndrome-flowers]

[tiinamenzel]

[arcusxx]

[maezywords]

My mother taught me to stand proud and never be silent, but its hard when I grew up to her cowering under my fathers breath

J.W.

[maezywords]

A list of things I will miss if I kill myself

-Sunflowers

-The yellows and pinks of a sunset

-The first sip of hot coffee on a cold morning

-My best friends laugh

-My favorite part of my favorite song

-The color Yellow

-The sound of your voice telling me you miss me

-bagels

-long drives under the stars

-laying my head on your chest and hearing your heartbeat

♡ Just a reminder ♡

[maezywords]

I keep looking to the night sky for answers but all of the constellations look like you

J.W.

[exames-deactivated20241224-deac]

“stop giving your heart to any pretty boy with nice words on his lips.”

— My mom

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[tiinamenzel]

[the-cinder-fields]

Franz Stassen, illustration from Der Ring des Nibelungen 1914

[maezywords]

I hope the drugs flowing through your veins feels as good as my touch across your skin

I hope your heart heals

I hope scar tissue forms

Over whatever made you chose drugs over me

I could never feel as good as the Heroin

I get that now

It would call your name louder than I could ever scream

You’d be gone

Lost

Id just be a voicemail on your answering machine

Until you ran out

Or had too close of a call

Then i'd be there

Driving you home

Listening to the troubles of your soul

Because I loved you

But you loved the drugs

And I could never compete

With something that made your veins pulse

And your palms sweat just with a mention of the word

So I stopped calling

Stopped wondering where you were

Stopped waiting for you to need me again

And when you called for a ride home

Months later

I couldn't bring myself to wrap my fingers around you again and answer

I cried as I saw your calls roll in

Sobbed as I heard your voice on my answering machine

I hope it was worth it

The high I could never give you

Because of you

My heart now wears its scars like jewelry

[maezywords]

Mountains parted ways for us to meet

The sky has cried since you left

J.W.

[books-n-quotes]

“I don’t just want to take your breath away. I want to rip it from your mouth and keep it locked away between my teeth. You can only have it back if you kiss me again.”

— Meggie Royer, Literary Sexts (via books-n-quotes)

[qvotable]

“Play me like I’m your favorite song. I know I might not be your favorite forever, but at least I was for a moment.”

— Unknown