i dont know what the feeling i have is; jealousy, disappointment, frustration? im having a hard time identifying it.
but i am aware that i am some form of upset or hurt over a situation.
a friend and i had spoken before about going on trips together. we had talked about going to one city for the first time together - to the point of planning the trip and looking into events. we had talked about how our first trip there was gonna be with each other because we both wanted to go. but we didnt go on any trips together that we planned. some of the reasons we didnt go being connected to their partner.
"id rather [partner] was with us if we go camping" "[partner] would be mad if we did that without them" "i cant leave [partner] alone for that long"
so we havent gone on any trips.
forward to now and both this friend and their partner are on a trip. on a trip in the exact city that friend and i had planned on going together...
and friend brings up how they and i need to plan a trip together to go on. but we had a plan - or so i thought - and they took their partner instead.
and i dont think it would be a problem, if this friend didnt have a habit of not wanting to do things over again. i hear enough of "oh [partner] and i went there before; it wasnt that great" in our own town... hearing that in a city i was really, really looking forward to exploring for the first time...
im not sure what exactly this feeling is though...
i want them to have a good time on their trip but im upset that i thought we had a promise to go together and clearly that wasnt the case.
















