I haven’t posted anything here for quite some time. And I don’t know why I’m writing this. But my guess is because today’s my birthday. I turned 25 and I’m still lost.
I know that I’m a different man now. My friends just told me that even if I’m a troublemaker, I’m still reliable and independent. Heard that about an hour and half ago and it filled my heart.
25 years and I don’t know what I wanna do with my life. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know anything at all. I think I just have this facade of a dude who’s trying to be strong but deep inside I’m still this soft boy.
Haha right now I’m just tryna type everything that’s on my mind. Probably coz I’m a little drunk.
Anyway, at 25, I’m not happy with where I am in my life. I am satisfied tho. But being satisfied isn’t enough. Being satisfied won’t give me the life or future that I want, that I’ve been dreaming of.
I’m actually “celebrating” my birthday during a pandemic. It doesn’t matter tho because i’ve never been the type of person to celebrate his birthday. IDK why but yeah... Just thankful that I have friends who want to celebrate it with me. At least they’re thankful for having me in their lives, even though i’m not thankful for having this life.
Now, thinking about it... idk. I just want the president of my country to die. Srsly, that’s my birthday wish. This country doesn’t need this kind of leader, we don’t deserve him. If that happens today, then I think he’ll be the 2nd president who died on my birthday. Wow special right?
HAHA! What the fuck am I writing? Fucking random stuff. I guess that’s it. Who knows when I’ll be posting here again? Happy Birthday to me. How I wish Jihyo from Twice would greet me. hahaha!
Good bye
