From the depths of me

This is where the real magic that unravels itself from my mind will be, words and only words should you find, whether they be good or bad. Neither should matter, as long as you understand. As long as you understand that you are loved.

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The poems that you wrote about me

Are they still there?

Posted on a page that I no longer visit

Afraid that I’ll find something that I missed

Something that could soothe the ache I feel when you come to mind

Don’t worry

The ache never left

I became fond of it and used it to reminisce about those times

Don’t worry

I’ve moved so far forward that I’m in love again

Real love

Again

Don’t worry

I never blamed you for leaving

The you that loved smoking cigarettes and swigging bottles till you couldn’t stand

The you that fought with me to believe that I was beautiful and then wrote that I was “sometimes” beautiful

The you that caved when I cried and you said “let’s break up”

The you that wrote an apology poem two years later

Don’t worry

I forgave you before you uttered words of apology

Don’t worry

I still love The Strokes

You still have a place here

Nestled into one of the smallest corners of my heart

You no longer have a place by my side

Don’t worry

If everyone else in the world forgets about you

Those green eyes and air guitar skills will always live in my memories

In my mind

This is the first thing I’ve written about you in a long time

I’m glad I have the courage to do so

- Anonymous

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You make it easy

You make it easy to smile Sometimes I forget how to  Yet you remind me with such ease Like the warmth of the morning sun  You rise to tell me that the day has begun  You are there  effortlessly reminding me  of the indented lines  that appear with every  giggle  chuckle  and snigger  If I could ease your worries this way then I would  But then I’d have to admit that you ease mine  Thank you  for making it so easy  Even when I feel like it’s all too hard You simply gaze lovingly  And every fear, worry and heartfelt cry melts away into a smile  One to match the one glowing on your face  Which looks so undeniably  happy That I can’t help but be infatuated by it  But I mean Come on  How can I not be? When you always make it so damn easy - Anonymous

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Are you even listening to me?!

She looked into his  “Babe?”  Sorry  I was lost in your  “Hey! are you listening to me?” The shade of them seems to capture the edges of the dawn sky itself  How can it be so  beautiful and mesmerizing  Yet so fierce and defiant  All at the same “Come on baby, I’m trying to tell you something important!”  “Ah, sorry honey I was just lost in your eyes again”  *blush* 

- Anonymous

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“I want you”

I see it  The color of your eyes  When you want it  Clear and concise  Dark with desire  Yet as bright as the morning sun  I hear it  The tenderness in your words  Whispers of your heart  Lingering along the edges of my skin  I feel it  The echos of your mind  Aching against my chest  The indents of you  Everywhere  Moaning silently  “I want you” - Anonymous

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Is it?

Sorry won’t always be enough  To fix the messes I’ve made  Sorry won’t be a good enough prize  At the end of my  Award-winningly shattered mind Because when I say that I’m sorry  Wholeheartedly  It isn’t  Enough  “I’m scared that you’ll leave, because everybody does”  is what I said  “I’ll be there, even if you decide to leave”  is what you said  Yet somehow here I am  All over again  Saying sorry  Even though nothing comes back in return  Except for the echos in my head  Against this silence that you’ve created  I don’t know why I keep saying it though Maybe I think that the repetitiveness will ingrain itself into you But then again  Sorry  Isn’t enough  Is it? - Anonymous

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Like Scars

Smile lines like scars that will never fade  She pictures her heart in its shattered state  Stepping forward  Stepping back Everything about her seems a little cracked  Walking along the edges of her skin  She hopes that what’s within Is  Enough  She is fragile  Pretending to be strong  She is broken  Dreaming of herself being put together  She is a baby Pushing away the heart of a child for the stone of an adult  But  With you She is strong but fragile  She is broken but beautifully put together Like stain glass windows with eyes of wonder  She has a child like energy with the heart of a warrior  She has smile lines like scars  That will never fade  - Anonymous

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Ocean wide

I am fragile  My heart just a laugh from Shattering My eyes just a look from Watering  My mind just a smile from  Falling  Into that state of missing pieces  Scattered and tattered  Broken and bent  Sinking and soaring  Into dark depths  Of my  Ocean wide  Nothingness 

- Anonymous

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Earth’s sorrowful dance

He is the Sun  I am the Earth  The closer we get  The more that it hurts  Oh how I wish  To look at my Sun  But each time I do  I’m blinded by love  Alone in my forest  I lay sleepless  Never weary  Light pouring in  As always endearing  The warmth of it all Soars into my roots  Filling my heart  With infinite proof  Our love will live  Through all of our days  No matter what  That’s how we’ll stay  “I wish, I wish” Our skies cried out  “That the two loves of my life  could dance together for one night” But alas our poor sky  That wish has been made  We’ve known this dance  From whence we were made  Alone but together  The Sun and the Earth  Forever we’ll stay  Since the day we were birthed  Just out of reach  Just out of sight  This is our dance  For the rest of our lives 

- Anonymous

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“welcome home”

I remember how I used to wait outside your door  Wondering if I’d ever stop being nervous for knocking I remember the way I’d run up the stairs  With you, closely following My bag, to the second stool  My shoes, by the staircase My coat, over my bag Your arms would wrap around me  You’d softly kiss my cheek  With a squeeze to my core  You’d take a step back  Still holding me and say  “Welcome home”

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don’t hate me, don’t suffer

suddenly I remember I remember it all  the way you sound when your words become waves  that wash over my sun kissed skin  I wish that my heart didn’t still pound I hope that my heart still pounds  you make me crazy  you make me happy  you make me undeniably sad but I still love you and maybe one day you’ll learn to loath loving me and maybe one day you’ll run for the hills I’m sorry that I can only stand by  and I’m sorry that I only bring ill will please don’t hate me  please don’t suffer live as happily as you can that’s all I want even if I’m not in it.  

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had lunch today with him

I have many people in my life that make me really happy and that makes me really happy. recently I started talking to a friend that I haven't talked to properly in a while even though we've been friends for 8 years. we hung out today and the way that I would describe hanging out with him is like this. it's like you've gone out and had a delicious meal. You're full and you're in that sleepy comfy stage where everything feels really good, you don't wanna move because you're content. You're so happy to just sit there with lazy eyelids and even if you fell asleep you know that you'd still feel good when you woke up. that's what it's like every time I talk to him and every time we hang out. ya'll should find some like that because i think everyone needs someone like that.

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Him: I’d be crying if I wasn’t so exhausted Me: I’d be laughing if it didn’t hurt

- ouch friendo

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That night you were like a little ball of knots and all I wanted to do was sit down with you in my arms and untangle you, one knot at a time till you felt like you could breathe again.

- Anonymous

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Who Knows

Don’t ever think that you really know me Because I’m good at illusions You’ll let me in And I’ll lock you out So here I am Give me a chance and I’ll tell you all about me Or maybe I won’t You might just see right through me  Who knows

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Clearly I’m not

It started to pour wind seeping through the cracks of windows and doors  two in the morning and I can’t sleep maybe if I play our song, I’ll make it to my dreams you’re like an anchor in my ocean beds side I just can’t lift you I can only sway from left to right your weight is still heavy on my skin you dug your little hole and snuggled in tightly prepared to sink or swim It’s a good thing you are because clearly I’m not

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“Our hearts were warm from this place I’m in maybe it’s wrong to remember us maybe it’s right to forget this love”

- maybe it’s right, maybe it’s wrong by xara juliette 

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“Do you regret loving him?”

no, I don’t regret loving him and I don’t think that I ever will.