I think the reason ntbts made me question my gender so much (im not saying there's nothing there but it was absolutely amplified by this) is because my INTERNALISED misogyny is exactly the same as Matt Johnson's OVERT misogyny. I want to be a boy because I want to grow up as a boy because only BOYS can roll around in the mud and climb trees and hurt themselves by having fun. girls aren't allowed to do that. and I think thats matts opinion on women also.
only BOYS are allowed to remain in the comfort of prepubescence and ignore sexuality for as long as they want to, women could never experience that because we are sexualised as soon as we gain consciousness










