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KoiRan is entering it's 10th anniversary!!
I was already here since before its release, I saw its original announcements in 2014, but didn't actually start playing until 2015. (probably still caught up in the other Voltage paid apps).
Congrats to Voltage for this being their fourth social app that has celebrated its 10th anniversary (behind BMP, SITSC, and MFW)🫡
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In case anyone wants some perspective on how utterly random triggers can be. I haven’t lived in a house with a garage door in four-ish years. Right now at this moment, I honestly can’t recall what they sound like, except something metallic moving and rather clanky.
There was one on tv. I wasn’t even paying attention to it, I had my headphones on and was actively trying to tune the show out. My ears picked up on the sound of the garage door, and a jolt of adrenaline shot through my body as I grabbed my laptop and moved to get out of my seat and run to my room.
I realized what happened after about two seconds.
The sound is gone from my ears, but my heart is still racing and I’m waiting for the door to the house to open, to hear the jingling of my mother’s keys and her footsteps moving through the house. My muscles are still tense and I’m fighting the urge to run to my room and stick a board in front of the door.
For years, the sound of a garage door was my warning to pack up what I was doing quickly and retreat to my room if I was out of it.
I can’t remember the sound of the garage door right now, but I can’t tell my brain to stop trying to react to it.
Very good description of how triggers ACTUALLY work and good illustration of why tumblr discourse on trigger warnings usually gets on my last fucking nerve!
Writers…
…This is very much what PTSD is like.
They won’t always remember what it’s like…especially if they’ve built a life without that trigger in it. But it’s there.
I have a PTSD trigger. It’s nothing encountered in common everyday life. And no, it’s not from anything military-related. (i keep telling people, I have never served in the military, I would never fake having served in the military, it’s just a case that I did my research for my #milSF really, really well, that’s all.) And it had been so long since I’d been exposed to the triggering situation by surprise (it’s something that if I conscously ask to see it, doesn’t give me PTSD troubles, though it does squick me)…that I had forgotten how violently I could react to it.
It’s…an exposure of subcutaneous body-parts being flexed…and that’s all I can say because I”m trying very hard not to think of it right now so I don’t get sick to my stomach. I had at the time an online friend who posted a video that automatically played a very graphic (seriously, little kids look at FB, wtf was he thinking??) depiction of the thing I had forgotten would freak me out…and since it was so unexpected, with absolutely no lead-in, it just automatically played right there on the screen…
I freaked out. I nearly puked on my keyboard. I cried (I hate crying). I flipped out at the now ex-friend, who told me I was making a big deal over nothing. This was seriously so graphic that if it had to have a movie rating, it’d be rated R, like a Deadpool movie, or Kill Bill…and he said it was no big deal when I told him little kids could be looking at that shit. Seriously irresponsible. And yeah…it’s an ex-friend, now, because you don’t show everyone something that horrifically graphic without any warning or clickable cut, and then try to brush it off and attack someone else when they call you on it. (Though I’ll admit I was still freaked out when I, uh, called him on it.)
But that’s what PTSD does. You do the things you forgot you did, when it happens to you years (or in my case decades!) down the road…and the adrenaline spike that hits you so hard, you can’t hear for the roaring in your ears, you can’t think for the pounding of your heart, you can’t feel anything but your fearl and your nausea and your terror…all of it compounded by just how long it’s been.
Because you get used to not being affected by it after a while…which means you have no defenses raised and ready when it hits.
I couldn’t stop crying for an hour afterward, and I loathe crying. That’s what happens when you go decades without having to brace yourself…and the trauma that caused my PTSD was not nearly so graphic nor so chronic as the stuff that true veterans of prolonged violence, civilian and military alike, have often endured…like in the garage-door-example above.
So when you’re writing about PTSD, writers…be aware that it isn’t mere fear. Be aware that your characters will react, and will often react with far more vigor, far more terror, than anyone else might.
Garage door noises are common in a lot of households. Garage door noises aren’t signalling a threat to a lot of people. But for some…that humming rattle can evoke nauseating levels of terror.
If you’re unsure exactly what a PTSD attack feels like, ask around. And ask respectfully.
Ask me privately, if you really want to know how to describe it. My triggering moment happened a few years ago by now…but it reawakened my awareness of it after decades of dormancy. And though I strive hard to avoid thinking of the details of the trigger…because it will just upset me all over again…I have striven to remain aware of how it affected me…so that, if I should ever need to, I can put those feelings onto the page for one of my characters. That is how I make myself strong, in the face of my supposed weakness.
PTSD doesn’t make you weak, however. It makes you wounded. It just happens to be an injury site that get re-injured every damn time it crops up.
Now, how a person reacts to those wound, to their traumatically induced fears, will differ from person to person. Some people fling themselves into a bathroom & lock the door. Some people hide behind the nearest big strong friend. Some people grab the nearest weapon and scream & swing at their fears, either to make it go away, or to beat it into an unrecognizable, unliving pulp.
So keep that in mind for your writing. Don’t use PTSD lightly. Don’t stigmatize it. Certainly, don’t use it as an excuse for the character to do evil things & “get away with it.” We still have to deal with the consequences of our actions. I freaked out, & lost a friend. He was an idiot who posted Rated R shit openly on FB…and not only freaked out someone who thought she was a friend, but he insulted her, too, instead of feeling bad about harming said friend, apologizing, etc.
It’s not a mere fear, writers.
It’s a lot more impactful than that.
Keep that in mind, mkay?
I’ve had a lot of responses to this post and yours is by far one of my favorites because it’s exactly what I wanted to convey to writers when I wrote this post.
How to Write Trauma, Fear, and Anxiety: What is PTSD?
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What is PTSD?
PTSD or Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is a stress disorder classified by exposure to a traumatic event, then persistent re-experiencing, avoidance of trauma related stimuli, persistent negative thoughts and feelings, and persistent arousal and reactivity.
PTSD is distinct from psychological shock (acute & short term) and from physical shock (loss of blood). Shock and Acute Stress Disorder may present like PTSD, but they must resolve themselves by 1 month. If it lasts longer than 1 month, it is PTSD (so long as it also meets the criteria).
The Criteria According to the DSM 5 are:
Criteria A: Exposure to a traumatic event, or a stressor. This event can be:
death, threatened death,
actual or threatened serious injury
actual or threatened sexual violence
It can be experienced by:
Direct exposure (Personally experiencing it)
Directly witnessing it in person
Learning that a close friend or family member was exposed to accidental or violent trauma
Indirect exposure that is repeated, extreme and work related, such as by first responders or medical personnel.
Criteria B (Minimum 1): The traumatic event is persistently re-experienced in the following way(s):
Recurrent, involuntary, and intrusive thought or memories.
Nightmares related to the trauma.
Dissociative reactions and/or flashbacks; re-experiencing the trauma as if it were happening again
Intense or prolonged distress after exposure to trauma related stimuli/reminders
Intense or prolonged physical reactivity after exposure to trauma related stimuli/reminders
Criteria C (Minimum 1): Avoidance of trauma-linked stimuli after the fact:
Avoidance of trauma-linked memories, thoughts, or feelings
Avoidance of trauma-linked external reminders (people, places, things)
Criteria D (Minimum 2): Negative thoughts, feelings, or moods that began or worsened after the trauma:
Inability to recall important parts of the trauma
Persistent and distorted negative thoughts about oneself and the world
Persistent and distorted blame for oneself and others regarding the trauma
Persistent negative emotions (predominantly trauma-linked)
Persistent and significant loss of interest in activities and hobbies enjoyed before the trauma
Isolation, detachment, alienation, and estrangement from others
Persistent inability to experience positive emotions
(Depression is highly comorbid in PTSD)
Criteria E (Minimum 2): Trauma-linked arousal and reactivity that worsened or began after the trauma:
Irritability, aggression, or anger
Reckless or self-destructive behavior
Hypervigilance
Exaggerated startle response
Difficulty or problems with concentration
Sleep disturbance / Difficulty sleeping
These symptoms must last for at least 1 month and create significant distress or impairment in social, educational, work, etc settings. It must also not be caused by medication, substance use, or other illness.
If symptoms are not expressed until six months after the trauma, it is delayed onset. And it can be with or without dissociative symptoms (depersonalization and realization).
What does PTSD feel like?
What does PTSD feel like…? It feels like a sensation between deja vu and being stuck in a groundhog day loop. It’s being unstuck in time and time traveling, but it’s only to one specific point in time (or more depending on the trauma) and it is the worst experiences of your life. It is being cognitively- and it feels like physically- somewhere and somewhen else every time you’re even remotely reminded of the thing.
It’s being constantly on edge, waiting for the next blow, the next crash, the storm, next piece of danger. It’s muscle tension and clenching your muscles so much you don’t remember how to relax them. It’s jumping a foot into the air at the slightest noise and feeling your heart explode at loud ones. It’s sleepless nights because every time you close them you have nightmares, but falling back asleep anyway because you see the same thing just as vividly when your eyes are open and you’re awake. It’s having only one or two nightmares a night be an improvement.
It’s depression and anxiety and irrational anger because everything is too much. Because people say the wrong thing triggering you and you have to run and hide. It’s people being too loud and big and confrontational. It’s not going out to eat because the diner is too noisy and crowded and it sends the hypervigilance into overdrive. It’s throwing out leftovers you loved the night before because tonight they’re making your stomach churn and you can only remember what the food tasted like five years ago and the chaos that went on around it.
It’s standing in the middle of the room, hearing a conversation from years ago while a busy world goes by around you. It’s mentally leaving your body and not feeling your nails scrape your skin as you try and get some physical sensation to ground yourself. It’s reading a phrase or hearing a word and bursting into tears, it’s seeing a person and feeling sick, it’s being triggered and feeling the worst you’ve ever felt all over again.
It feels like you’ve been stuck at the end of the world for years, and instead of your life flashing before your eyes, it’s the moment of your death.
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Happy 5th Anniversary Tenka!
I can’t believe in such a short amount of time we’ve been given all of these wonderful characters, new routes, and NPCs that steal our hearts. Thank you for all of the quality content you provide, here’s to 5 more years~
I wanted to share with you all this cute Dutch tradition called Sinterklaas.
During this day, December 6th, family & friends receive presents along with letter-shaped chocolate that corresponds to the first letter of your name.
I thought the Van Gogh Brothers would be more than perfect for this special illustration! I also receive my own chocolate letter every year that’s why I wanted to share this lovely tradition with all of you, even though IkeVamp is way off being historically correct, we’ve come to love the characters as they are. And just the thought of Vincent & Theo giving everyone their chocolate letters, fills my heart and my house with warmth and love!
Share the love! (and choco) I hope you like it!
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