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FRUiTS 116

March 2007

yummyyyyyy

i started reading julia fox's memoir for the first time. i understand why everyone has been raving about it. it's one of those books that you read and it enlivens you; renders you a dreamer. a true adventurer

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i lack the bravery to run away from home like an idiot

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this melancholy exhausts me

i’m totally entering my period of new york pessimism. so many people I know moved to new york after graduation and I thought I would be one of them, but it seems like art in new york is dying, in one sense. not to say that art isn’t present, but it’s become very corporate, and nyc is no longer a place you can make and share art just to do it…i read this article

Abstract. Part of October's “Art Communities at Risk” series, Josh Kline's essay examines key structural problems in the American art indust

and it vocalized a lot of doubts i’ve been having about living in nyc. that it’s incredibly expensive and that one can’t really afford to be just an artist anymore. i’ve been slowly coming to terms with the fact that the new york of the present isn’t the one i dreamed of in my youth. i am constantly reading and hearing about new york in the 80s, 90s, and early aughts, and hearing people talk about cheap rent and big lofts makes it easy to imagine oneself there. but when you crunch the numbers, it becomes clear that unless you either work your life away or have someone funding you, it’s not sustainable to live in nyc. and everyone says you can make it work if you want to, but i want to do more than survive in my 20s. so many of my friends in the city are really struggling to make things work and i’ve been so afraid, but after reading this article i have truly lost most of my excitement as it pertains to living in new york. i’m reigning myself to the city becoming a place i visit and not one that i reside in. oh well. los angeles i love you…(don’t ask me how i rationalized this)

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quick playlist

jezebel by natanya

set me free by hemlocke springs

all i did was dream of you by beabadoobee

golden boys by res

life by blood orange

too high by stevie wonder

add up my love by clairo

batmobile by liz phair

party at my place by xaviersobased

disconnection by sword ii

ok that’s it for today

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starting to take tretinoin soon...I never really struggled with acne until I got into college and all of a sudden I was breaking out like crazy my junior year and even though I never felt super insecure about it recently I've been having more trouble now that I have too much time to look in the mirror so I took it upon myself to go to the doctor (blessed) and now I hopefully am able to take steps towards improving my skin instead of just making random potions and slathering them onto my face...