⋆˚࿔ Malachi 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @mala-chii - Tumblr Blog

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Active in june 2025 - Im currently searching for active mutuals!! So if you’re not in my DNI list don’t hesitate and ask to be moot!! :)

Y’all can call me Malachi. I’m 19yo and also non-binary (any pronouns but more comfortable with they/them). My first language is french so forgive my potential mistake! I’m trying my best! Im not new to ana tumblr, I was @idonthaveanypseudo and I was pretty active in summer and late 2021/early 2022 (most of the posts i did are in private now) and now I’m baaack. Also I might change the whole theme/aesthetic of my page a lot because I’m indecisive. Also my longest fast was 96 hours and I’m pretty proud of this!!

i’m NOT pro ed/pro ana.

Yes, I am starving myself voluntarily, yes I don't wanna stop, but if someday someone ask me how to lose weight I would NEVER tell them not to eat, to count calories, to weigh themselves every day... And people who encourage others to develop an eating disorders are disgusting. If I do this blog it's just for me and myself and not to encourage anyone to develop an ed.

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DNI LIST :

– basics, don’t be homophobic, transphobic, racist, sexist, pro war and all the other things that sucks.

– If you’re currently in recovery/trying to recover, please PLEASE don’t look at my page.

– If you’re fatphobic. Girl this is embarrassing to project your insecurities on others, don’t be like that.

– If you’re over 25…. (actually idc about your age just don’t be a creep pls)

– If you’re a proshipper…. don’t care if it’s about a fandom im not in yall are sick.

- If you use generative ai.

Other than that I don’t really care!! Ask to be moot :p

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STATS :

Height : 165cm (5’5)

SW : 94kg (207lbs)(June 14, 2025)

CW : 82.5kg (180.7lbs)(August 16, 2025)

Weight lost : 11.5kg (24.2lbs)

GW1 : 90kg (198lbs) ✅ (~June 30, 2025)

GW2 : 85kg (187lbs) ✅ (August 2, 2025)

GW3 : 80kg (176lbs) 🔒

GW4 : 75kg (165lbs) 🔒

GW5 : 70kg (154lbs) 🔒

GW6 : 68kg (150lbs) 🔒

GW7 : 65kg (138lbs) 🔒

GW8 : 60kg (132lbs) 🔒

GW9 : 55kg (121lbs) 🔒

UGW : 50kg (110lbs) 🔒

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My life is just an endless cycle of me telling myself that I shouldn’t waste money on clothes because I’ll lose weight anyway so they won’t fit me anymore and then never losing the weight.

Would anyone be interested if I posted this in friend-only? I did those for myself just to track but I feel like sharing.

shamefully come back here…..

So guys I’m not dead!!

Here’s a little timeline of the things I ate while being gone from €dblr.

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Wed 25 June :

Ate out at a restaurant with the people I’ve been one month in Erasmus with. It was quite nice, I ate a smash burger with fries and mayonnaise. (Remembered mayonnaise was like 80% oil when I was about to finish the cup. Didn’t finish the cup.)

Thursday 26 June :

My class organised an aperitif with the tips we got while working at the school’s restaurant throughout the whole school year. They also bought pizza. I didn’t eat any snacks (chips, cube cheese, sausage, etc) even if it was hard to resist since the plates were right in front of me. I ended up eating four slices of pizza. At first I was proud of myself because I could’ve devour the whole damn pizza, but then I heard people say that they had enough with two slices, felt bad afterwards.

Friday 27 June :

Friday I got out with some friends I didn’t see in a long while. I knew we were going to get drunk, so at first I was like, eh let’s not eat so I can be drunk faster. But then my friends insisted that we order something out. So I ended up eating a medium Burger King menu. I thought it was okay at first, I was peacefully eating my menu but then both of my friends who had the very same portion as me said that it was too much and felt full before eating everything. I ate everything and felt bad.

Sat 28 June :

Yet again I told myself I would not eat anything that day, but I ended up eating a little plate of pasta with pesto sauce, which would be fine if pesto sauce wasn’t like 80% olive oil. Anyway I also drank a lot of alcohol because it was prom day at my school. Also ate some chips here and there because my drunk ass forgot they were supposed to restrict.

Sun 29 June :

Yet AGAIN I wasn’t supposed to eat that day, but some of my friends decided to go out to eat and invited me. Well I couldn’t resist a O’Tacos. Ate an XL one….. not my proudest moment. Also drank alcohol that day.

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Now we’re Wednesday and I haven’t ate anything since Sunday!! I’m currently 73 hours into a fast (a new record!!). I’m probably gonna break it tomorrow at lunch because I’m starting to feel pretty bad, but I’ve felt worst honestly.

I’m gonna weight myself tomorrow morning/right before eating lunch. I really really hope the scale won’t show a higher number than the last time I weighted myself (Friday morning) because I’ve been fasting for so long just because I’m afraid that all my slips might have ruined all my progress (aka not a lot of progress yet).

Anyway that’s it check my intro :)

Guys I’m not dead

Sooo Monday I ate my kcal limit (500kcal, ate 499kcal), yesterday (Tuesday) I fasted the whole day because I knew that today I was invited to go to the restaurant with the people I’ve been in Erasmus with. At first I declined the invite saying that I didn’t have any money (which is very much true) but then one of the girls said that she would pay for me and I would pay her back when I can soooo I went.

I ate a big ass smash burger with some fries and mayonnaise, I was so FULL when I finished everything. At first I thought I wouldn’t finish the plate but when I saw the price I was like, I am NOT gonna waste my money.

Tomorrow my class organised an aperitif with all the tips we’ve got during the whole school year (I’m in a culinary school so once a week we work for the school’s restaurant). They already bought the chips and they’re planning to buy pizza.

I’m a bit afraid because a lot of events are coming up for the end of the school year, a lot of events concerning food or/and alcohol, so a lot of kcals. Friday I have a party with my best friend and some other friends so alcohol is involved and Saturday there’s my school prom so alcohol again. I hope this week won’t ruin all the progress I made because I would be pretty upset about it.

Anyway that’s it check my intro :)

Sun 22 June

What I ate :

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Calories burned :

1714 (BMR) + 7,4 (rotting in bed) = 1721,4kcal

10K steps : ❌

Deficit :

1721,4kcal

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Well I really didn’t do anything today expect rot in bed and play animal crossing. I was debating if I should eat some of the leftovers pasta from yesterday but I didn’t feel like it so I fasted today.

I’ll probably eat something tomorrow but I don’t know yet, I’ll see if how I feel by then. I just hope that my friends won’t want to eat something out after school because we have our last exam tomorrow and they already talked about eating something to celebrate the end of exams.

Also tomorrow I’ll go shopping with my mom to find some shoes for my prom, this will get me some steps in.

Sat 21 June

What I ate :

- one plate of cold pasta (cocktail, corn, pea, tuna)(idk the kcal)

Calories burned :

1714kcal (BMR) + 334kcal (walking) = 2046kcal

10k step : ✅

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Soooo I took the bus to the city to go shopping for prom. I found the prettiest dress but unfortunately there wasn’t my size (I wanted to kill myself why am I so big??) buuuttt I found another dress very much similar, the top was just a bit different and they had my size! She’s so pretty and she’s giviinngg!!

Also bought some makeup. All I still need for my prom fit is some accessories like bracelets and a pair of shoes.

Anyway walking around the city made me have my 10k steps so that’s nice. About the pastas, my mom made them when I was away so I can’t estimate how much of everything she puts in it. I only ate one plate and it wasn’t that big so I think I’m still in deficit for today. I guess I’ll have to do omad next week except if my mom is too lazy to cook.

Friday 20 june

What I ate :

- 2 x ~46g of bread (~244kcal)

- ~256g of pork-and-beef hamburgers (~376kcal, 53g of prot) cooked with ~40g of butter (275kcal)

- ~100g of curry ketchup (~146kcal, ~1g of prot)

Total : 1041kcal eaten

Calories burned :

1714kcal (BMR) + 77kcal (walking) = 1791kcal burned

10k step : ❌ (2330 steps)

Deficit : 1791kcal - 1041kcal = 750kcal

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Well my brother cooked some hamburgers for us, I was watching to I’ve seen everything he did to the meat but I’m very bad at guessing quantities so he might have used more or less than 50g of butter to cook them. Also I might have put more or less than 100g of ketchup in my burgers I’m actually really clueless. I’m telling to myself that it was a refill day and that I fuelled myself with some nice protein.

I ate probably two times my calories limit and I hope I won’t regret it tomorrow morning when I’ll step on the scale. But I’m pretty sure I stayed in deficit so it won’t really matter in the long run (well I hope so).

Also I didn’t sleep last night because I studied all night for my exam that’s why I didn’t do my daily 10k steps because I was exhausted (+ the fact that I was underfed wasn’t helping.)

I’ll try to do a 24h fast if I can, or even a 48h one. I don’t know if my mom will be home a lot this weekend so I don’t know what I’ll be able to do.

Anyway that’s it read my intro :)

Thursday 19 june

What I ate :

- 500g of watermelon (150kcal) + 50g of blueberries (26kcal) + 50g of red currants (20kcal)

Total : 196kcal eaten

Calories burned :

1714kcal (BMR) + 331kcal (walking) = 2045kcal burned

10k steps? : ✅ (10583)

Deficit :

2045kcal - 196kcal = 1 849kcal

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Ate the fruits that I bought yesterday and for only 150kcal I got to eat SO MUCH watermelon. I figured I don’t really like blueberries so I guess I won’t buy them anymore.

Walked around my city to get 10k steps and I really don’t understand how people think it’s difficult to get 10k. I’m fat and I walk veeerryy slowly and I got 9k after like an hour and a half then got the extra 1000 steps with my everyday walking around.

But anyway this week it was really easy to keep up with eating below 500kcal because my mom was working from 2pm to 10pm (and sometimes wouldn’t even get home after work) so I could deal with my dinners by myself and weight whatever I want without anyone seeing me (since my brother is 24/7 in his room and we don’t eat together). But I feel like once it’ll be the weekend it’ll be more hard since she’ll be there and we always eat nasty when we eat with her, like take aways/junk food/a damn lot of pastas. And next week she works from 6am to 2pm to we WILL eat dinner with her. Pray for me guys I need it.

Anyway that’s it read my intro :)

Wed 18 june

What I ate :

- 1 single cherry haribo (20 fucking kcal?!)

- 100g pasta (349kcal) + 15g cream (44kcal) + 24g cheese (86kcal) (479kcal in total)

479kcal + 20kcal = 499kcal eaten

Calories burned :

1714kcal (BMR) + 391kcal (10k steps) =

2105kcal burned

Deficit :

2105kcal - 499kcal = 1 606kcal

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Decided to eat pasta with cheese and cream since I was craving this since yesterday night. I’m happy that I ate it because it was super good and super filling, I think I needed a proper meal. I really hope the meal won’t make the numbers on the scale go up tomorrow morning tho. (edit the day after : i maintained)

Also decided to get 10k steps today so I walked right after my science exam. Afterwards I had to go to the grocery store so I walked again (I did 11236 steps today). I bought a whole watermelon (1838g skinned : 551kcal) with some blueberries (150g : 78kcal) and some red currants (150g : 60kcal). Won’t eat them today obviously but I think it can be a nice breakfast for tomorrow or for snacks when I feel weak and need to eat something.

Anyway that’s it read my intro :)

Tuesday 17 june

What I ate :

- about 270g of apple compote (~131kcal)

- 20g cheetos (97kcal)

Total : ~223kcals eaten

Calories burned :

1714kcal (BMR) + 194kcal (walking) + 150kcal (stepper) = 2058kcal burned

Deficit :

2058kcal - 223kcal = 1 835 kcal

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Ate a bit today because I started to feel a bit too weak and the hunger was hurting my stomach. It felt great to eat some chips since I was craving them, and I’m still below 500kcal eaten so I’m pretty happy about it!

Anyway that’s it read my intro :)

Going in the pantry and mess a bit with packages is my favourite thing because by hearing the scruffling noises my mom just assume that my fatass took something to eat in my room when I actually didn’t and she doesn’t get suspicious that I don’t eat teehee

Can’t wait to wake up tomorrow and see the number on the scale lower than the morning before <3

Mon 16 june

What I ate :

- two part of cake (around 436kcal)

Calories burned :

1714kcal (BMR) + 94kcal (walking) = 1808kcal

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Well since I ate the two part of cake I couldn’t eat my compote. I’ll eat it tomorrow morning or after school. Haven’t ate a proper meal these past two days and I don’t feel so weak but the hunger does starts to hurt my stomach.

Ate some ice cubes also and it’s honestly pretty nice. I mean it’s distracting and it keeps my mouth busy when I want to eat something.

Anyway that’s it read my intro :)

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You’re gonna have bad eating days. You’re gonna have days where you don’t burn as many c4ls as you want. You’re gonna have days where you don’t meet your goals or disappoint yourself.

No one is perfect including you. You shouldn’t hold yourself to such a high standard that you get upset by being human.

Give yourself grace. Give yourself compassion. You’re human. You’re gonna mess up. Take it as a learning curve and get back to your plan.

I was sleeping on eating ice because what the fuck that shit is gooooddd + I stay hydrated it’s a win win

Ate two part of a cake and now I want to kms

I think i ate around 100g of it and i’ve search the specific brand and its 436kcal for 100g sooooo I decided I won’t eat my apple compote or anything else for the rest of the day! (Since im restricting myself to 500kcals a day). It was hella sugary anyway so I won’t need anything else.

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