having this antinatalist mindset and consistent misanthropic behavior that should have been the death of me, it somehow is my best attribute, it saved me in a way, daily correcting someone who I feel is in essence an older sister. my rent gets paid, which is necessary. for me, it’s almost forty years on this planet and no kids, can’t anymore. wanting nothing for the planet to heal and you make me feel like it could.
your blog is so helpful. it’s hard to tell you this, because there’s a part of me that expects everyone to hate me. everyday my thoughts drift toward day dreaming about a reality for me where it’s fine to seek reliable dignified legal euthanasia. it’d be a lot easier than dying in alley like however many people do everyday. sorry there’s no question here, just want to say you seem fun. your posts are like a beacon of light to me.
This is so sweet I could cry. But seriously, thank you for saying such kind words, I needed it. Otherwise I would have never realized how much of an impact my posts can have on others because to me this whole blog is just like me talking to myself, so I'm happy to know my posts have reached and helped you. And the fact that you're almost 40 and looking gorgeous as hell while rocking that childfree lifestyle brings me joy. My future is looking bright!!
And I understand how misanthropy can seem bleak to some people, but just like you, it's ironically what's helped me hold on. You remind me of this quote from one of my favorite books:
"Everybody is needy, arrogant, callous, aggrieved, self-absorbed, petty, mean-spirited, spiteful, greedy, envious, ill-mannered and malicious, in some measure, some of the time. Only when you accept that much of the pleasure of being alive is to enjoy your own horribleness, and the character flaws in everyone around you, will you find harmony and each day will pass more sweetly."
Sounds kinda dark, but I'm sure you understand what I'm getting at. And to be honest with you, people will always find their way to hate us. You can be the perfect human being and still have people talking shit about you. So fuck it! Their approval doesn't pay our bills, let them hate all they want. It only goes to show their character, and personally, I consider this a blessing. Now that you're hateful, I can cut you off, you know? This type of people don't deserve to have access to you and you don't have to let their opinions of you define you.
I hope you will continue to find respite in this shithole of a life. I, too, fantasize about euthanasia often. But due to its inaccessibility, I guess many of us would have to stick with finding reasons to stay alive every day, huh?
Today, my reason is finding out they're working on a new season of Criminal Minds, which is my favorite show. I gotta at least be here until their episodes are available on piracy websites LMAO
So what's yalls reason to stay today? Inbox me, who knows they can be mine, too.
