Things I'll post about: My OCs and the duchy of Manouaill, aesthetic things, poetry and prose, fandoms I'm in or interested in, HDG, ALNST, MD and etc; genuine life updates, and food and drink I really like.
Interests
Writing I like to write poetry, short stories, and essays on the things I love and is my way of expressing myself
Aesthetics I love different types of aesthetics and they're intricate ways of presenting their unique styles
Fanfiction I love to read fanfiction and indie prose, especially as a small writer myself
Fandoms I'm into a lot of fandoms, the ones I find myself in are the following: The OSC, BFDI and II especially; Glitch production shows such as Murder Drones, TADC & Meta Runner; HDG and Alien Stage
History I'm really into history, especially European medieval history and Austronesian history. I really like the nobility and upper-class and nature-aligned culture of the enlightenment and romanticism periods and they inspire me in my works.
Linguistics I am a language nerd, and I love studying languages and making languages of my own
BYI
I am a guy!!! I am bigender & xenogender, but my account comes off extremely feminine, so keep this to heart as I don't wanna end up in weird circumstances
I'm black, I'm Afro-European and I take a lot of pride in my African heritage
I have some mental health issues and I'm suspected to have AuDHD (awaiting diagnosis) so I may come of as insensitive or rude on accident
I am very flirtatious, however I DO NOT WANT TO BE IN a RELATIONSHIP, I'm ace(flux) and very much do not want any romantic attempts made on me
I'd like to be referred as either Manoue, Lady Manouaille, or the Duchess of Manouaille; I'd prefer to be addressed as HRH (her/your royal highness) or HH (her/your highness), honorifically.
duchess manoue. pokes u again and again. poke poke. psst. dont tell anyone. but im secretly hiding in the manor's library and archives....... scurries away
Gosh how did he get in here. I guess I have little gremlin living in my bookshelves. Oh well nothing that I could do about it.
[thinking about it now, he could feth me my favourite novellas huhu]
wellll. i can fetch u the novels. and also make good tea. but i want to stay in the manors library :'c or archives. pls. pls duchess manoue. pretty please with a candied peach on top.
Don't worry, you can stay in the libraries, you are a useful asset. Some of my favourite prose are a bit to high for me to reach anyway, plus I can't deny a good cup of tea~
TAG YOUR MOOTS AND MAKE THEM EXPLAIN THEIR USERNAMES LORE
Starting with me:
Hyyl18 because when i was youngest i had a group in a random app with some friends and i didnt knew qhat username to use so i decided to create one with things i used to read since we were talking abt fanfic in this group so: Hot Yaoi Yuri Lemon +18 stuff (i was in my dirty era dont dare to judge me). Hyyl18 thats it. Now i use it everywhere yay
@patroclus-is-the-bigger-person @b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @cuntyteardrop @glassesgirlies @leninthestarlight @bardorsomethinglikethat anyone else who wanna join tbh yay
At my school there was a classroom full of rubber ducks, which sparked my love for the little guys (I have like 10 but I wanna get more). So it became kind of a thing for my family to call me Ducky and say that I was collecting my siblings. So when I made a [tumblr] account I used that nickname! The doesstuff part comes from the fact that I am indeed doing stuff right here on [tumblr]!
used to be “yourfavoritecultist”, which came from an old anime piracy site I used to use (randomly inspired by some comment I don’t remember), and it was that for a long time, but on a whim around November 2024, I changed it by just one letter to see if anyone would notice.
@mothboyyyyy @meatyeyes @ouunaschl whoever else wants to
My nickname in French, is 'Manou'. And Cornwall (I originally wanted to be called the 'Duchess of Cornwall') in French is 'Cornouaille' (there's also a whole ass Breton festival I had to do a research project on). So I thought that I could make up a place name for my imaginary duchy and then just mashed the two together and created Manouaille, which I made my username for this blog.
The cosmos whispered it to me when I was 13 and creating an xbox account
@marmalade-bread @sebastian-the-alien @myenglishteacherdespisesme @ilovebunniessss @xoflexho @kittywithablicky @thegoose098 @sillyychuuu @sketched-mess @nerdyghost09 Some of yall's names are obvious but I just like tagging people
i hate how i look so fucking much everything about me is fucking disgusting i genuinely cant look in mirrors i hate my reflection i cant take pictures im so disgusting my body my face my hair everything i wish i was pretty i feel so fucking ugly i HATE pretty privilege i feel like i cant love or like certain things bc im ugly its not fair not fair not fair not fair not faaaaiirrrnrncncjcjsiakdbdlahlfdblabfldnfkccjzkanzbcnlxiJsnxnckclsusjsvKbidbJdhofbsaoulbfodhwovvjkwdnfjdhdfhfhfjrjfnf
I have developed the confidence to post this kind of prose poem I wrote about jealousy
Bear in mind it's my second ever time writing a poem so...
Here we go ig
Jealousy
Jealousy is defined as a complex emotion involving fear of loss, resentment, and insecurity, often triggered by a perceived threat to something we value.
Jealousy is an ugly thing.
Jealousy is a seven-year-old girl watching another little girl hold her dad's hand, laughing as though she's always belonged there.
Jealousy is an eight-year-old girl watching a friend group laugh together while she sits alone in the distance.
Jealousy is a nine-year-old girl stepping into her friend's house for the first time and realising just how much she doesn't have.
Jealousy is a ten-year-old girl looking at her friend's body with admiration, then looking at her own with disgust for the very first time.
Jealousy is an eleven-year-old girl discovering she is no longer the best at the only thing she ever excelled at.
Jealousy is twelve-year-old me trying so hard to make everyone like her until she no longer liked herself.
Jealousy is thirteen-year-old me pouring every ounce of herself into being exceptional, only to watch friends reach the same finish line without ever seeming to try.
Jealousy is fourteen-year-old me having everything I need, and more, yet still mourning everything I cannot have.
"Jealousy is an ugly emotion," I used to tell myself.
"Their win is not my loss."
I repeated those words until I almost believed them.
But every now and then, the thoughts return.
Why do they get to have this?
Why don't I?
What did I do to deserve less?
I wish I could silence those questions. I wish I could simply be content.
Jealousy is so much more than a textbook definition or an "ugly thing".
Jealousy is a little girl who will always long for more.
Jealousy is a no longer little girl working to have everything her younger self always wanted.
TAG YOUR MOOTS AND MAKE THEM EXPLAIN THEIR USERNAMES LORE
Starting with me:
Hyyl18 because when i was youngest i had a group in a random app with some friends and i didnt knew qhat username to use so i decided to create one with things i used to read since we were talking abt fanfic in this group so: Hot Yaoi Yuri Lemon +18 stuff (i was in my dirty era dont dare to judge me). Hyyl18 thats it. Now i use it everywhere yay
@patroclus-is-the-bigger-person @b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @cuntyteardrop @glassesgirlies @leninthestarlight @bardorsomethinglikethat anyone else who wanna join tbh yay
At my school there was a classroom full of rubber ducks, which sparked my love for the little guys (I have like 10 but I wanna get more). So it became kind of a thing for my family to call me Ducky and say that I was collecting my siblings. So when I made a [tumblr] account I used that nickname! The doesstuff part comes from the fact that I am indeed doing stuff right here on [tumblr]!
used to be “yourfavoritecultist”, which came from an old anime piracy site I used to use (randomly inspired by some comment I don’t remember), and it was that for a long time, but on a whim around November 2024, I changed it by just one letter to see if anyone would notice.
@mothboyyyyy @meatyeyes @ouunaschl whoever else wants to
My nickname in French, is 'Manou'. And Cornwall (I originally wanted to be called the 'Duchess of Cornwall') in French is 'Cornouaille' (there's also a whole ass Breton festival I had to do a research project on). So I thought that I could make up a place name for my imaginary duchy and then just mashed the two together and created Manouaille, which I made my username for this blog.