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something playing in my head is the fact that some of y’all really get caught up in louis apology to armand as if he didn’t say in the previous season, “I’m the Vampire Armand and my daddy vampire GROOMED ME INTO A LITTLE BITCH”

i’m not saying louis apology isn’t somewhat real and that he doesn’t hold guilt (he does)

BUT LOUIS CANONICALLY WEAPONIZES PAIN AND GRIEF LIKE NO OTHER MOTHER FUCKER

but also armand is no angel either yall gotta stop moralizing/uwuifing these murderous fucked up bastards istg bc they’re supposed to be fucking messy and tbh more actual monster than allegory lmao

#brother it was about grief and then at some point anne rice really said actually what if i just write some fucked up shit #ALSO ITS SUPPOSED TO BE ABSURD #I STILL WISH YOU WAS A WOMAN FUCKING AT THE END WAS NOT AN OFF THE WALL TONE SHIFT IT WAS A GOD DAMN REMINDER #ARMENDS WAS NOT FUCKING OUT OF LINE IT WAS A REMINDER THAT LESTAT LIVES IN ABSURDITY WITH HIS NARRATIVE

i unfortunately find so many things about lestat relatable but the moment he goes, “i don’t know if i mean that. that was performative,” when lashing out about the people he loves because he feels cornered…i felt that. that exhaustive anger that comes from feeling like you have to defend your worth to stay alive and need to be comparative in order to try and give a basis of understanding so that maybe, just for once, those certain people in your life will have perspective outside of themselves and hold a moment of reflection for themselves rather than crucify you but then realize the last thing you want to do is cause them harm—regardless of the perpetual harm they offer you—which is why you grasped at an untrue / partial true thing that even falls flat to yourself

and that exhaustive anger rings hollow

because it doesn’t matter at the end of the day because despite your bravado you will always blame yourself for not being enough. for being a failure

#tvl #lestat de lioncourt #feeling emo

demonpoppyseed

Imagine if people watched Interview with the Vampire and it inspired them to think about how the past is in a very real way inaccessible to us and memory can be misleading even when you're not being dishonest and different people can have different experiences of the same event that feel emotionally true and are very real to the people who experienced them even if they contradict each other and often you will never be able to know what really happened and how this can make repairing damaged relationships difficult and threatening to a person's sense of self

giving myself the ick bc at eighteen i enrolled in a poetry class where we were supposed to pick a pre existing place and write poems in the style of hart crane’s the bridge (this was a month long january term creative study) and i just found a notebook of arkham asylum inspired poems

#batman arkham origins just came out and i was the most insufferable child istg #are there some pretty bad metaphors for being queer layered in here as someone who just got fairied away to hotsapphicsummercampusa #yeah

therosecleric

"wicander halovar i regret to inform you that you cannot fuck my daughters. they are perverts that will murder you" - Primus Tachonis, C4 EP31

and i still would hold a candle for you if you needed the light. no matter the cost, i would find a match

“do i say sickness? no! i’ve spent a month and a half talking you back from an unimaginable frenzy in the middle of my own fracturing…i offer you the possibility of reckoning your crippling guilt”

i’ll be thinking about this forever

#i have got to stop relating to tragedy #tvl

sugarcarnation

having an existential crisis all by yourself handsome ?

y’all gotta stop saying “real version” of claudia (or other character name here) bc you’re gonna pmo

THERE IS NO REAL SINGULAR VERSION OF ANYONE OR ANYTHING GOD WHY IS THAT SO HARD FOR SOME OF Y’ALL TO UNDERSTAND

#and why tf do you think ghost claudia never held any love #she is enraged and she has every right to be #but have you ever been enraged to the point of such anger you’d skin the love of your life with your words #bc if you have you know that doesn’t mean that the love you had for them is any less #it just means the version of you in this moment cannot access it #why are yall caught on these singular moments of characters and calcifying them like they’re not dynamic #CHARACTERS ARENT SUPPOSED TO BE ONE DIMENSIONAL MY FUCK #tvl spoilers

the-quasar-hero

You can tell a lot about a person by entering their mind palace and encountering their greatest fears and darkest hopes in a labyrinth reflective of their subconscious thoughts.

spoilers for ep. 31 ig

also i hate to be this person but even tho i always knew thaz was julien’s shadow (it was very obvious and i refuse to believe that no one thought that prior in game but rather they were all v good at not meta gaming bc professionals) with it fully confirmed i cannot ship julien with anyone until the cuckification of thaz is handled

#and that’s just that #critical role campaign 4 #julien davinos #critical role c4 spoilers

thjazi living in julien’s shadow is peak story telling even if it’s really on the nose

#living in the shadow of the one who brought you to heel #being haunted by the man you defeated and yet the people love him regardless #sir julien davinos #no offense but i want them to kiss more than anyone LMAO #i also feel like a big part of julien’s journey narratively is going to be faced with the understanding and unfortunate realization that he #cares a lot more for the world than just his family and that is going to be something he has to wrestle with #because the honor he brought his family? what was it for in the end #and julien loves people we see this in the seekers arc #and there are people who love and are inspired by julien #critical role campaign 4

can’t believe it’s 2026 and i’m crying over the magicians again

but eliot is exactly what happens when someone who is meant to be a main character refuses to take the full weight of their power and instead settles for being secondary, even after proof of destiny

even after proof of concept

and i’ll cry about that for the rest of my life

#the magicians #eliot waugh #he is me and i am him #there are two magicians inside me #one of them is a loser who loves too much and can’t help but sacrifice himself for everyone else #and the other is a tragedy who loves too much but cannot admit it #wears flippancy like armor #and neither of them believe they’re worth loving #q because he believes he’s too broken #and e because he believes he’s too much #fuck

bluestrawberry7

im not gonna survive the hiatus

iwtv is such a beautiful mediation on grief and loss and you can feel that. you really can but

everything after that is kinda anne rice freeing herself of whatever the fuck and that’s why lestat gets to drink jesus’s blood and if you think there is a tonal issue well

#atlantis aliens and anal with christ bby #well #maybe not that last one #close

madnessmaker

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