and so i decided to write this little blog about it. I came to london not knowing anyone on the program, i took a leap going to a foreign country for five months not knowing anyone. It has been an amazing experience. I met a lot of awesome people, made some new friends for when im back at school, talked to a lot of crazy brits and drank a lot (and by a lot i mean, A LOT, but its legal here so thats good) I also learned a lot about myself and who I am as a person. I decided to say yes instead of no and to not be afraid to try new things, or things i had previously blocked myself from doing whether from lack of confidence or it being out of my comfort zone. I have decided to do more things out of my comfort zone, it may be uncomfortable but youll love the stories after. I promise. Ive also learned a lot about myself and who I am as a person and what makes me happy, along with what i need to be happy. Im more okay with being alone, and doing things alone. Sometimes its nice to go out to dinner alone or watch a movie alone and just appreciate yourself. I also realized I want to get in better shape but not for anyone, for myself. I spent a lot of this semester on myself and im okay with that. I do not regret anything that i have done this semester, only not doing more. Do more, figure out what makes you happy and don't be afraid to do it. Be embarrassing. Look like a fool. Appreciate your surroundings. Tell those you care about, that you care about them.
A lot of this semester has been amazing, but ill also mention the less amazing parts. I was and still am 90% sure one of my flatmates hates me. I don't really know why, but i decided to make sure that i didnt let her get me down. Don't let others make you feel inferior, everyone has enough issues you dont need others to cause even more. Halfway through the semester I had to come home due to the death of my grandmother, mama. She was an amazing lady and I love her with all my heart, although going home was not ideal, it was something I had to do and I almost feel like since ive been here i havent acknowledged the loss as much as I should have. I didnt want my last 6 weeks here to be me moping around the flat and to not do anything, but it certainly was not easy. I am a little worried about going home because of that. The whole week the house was full of people so it didnt feel as empty but I know once my parents are at work and im home alone it will be a little tough. Which is why a part of me is glad I wont be living at home this summer.
The summer! I am very excited for the summer. I have an internship at Team Love working at their gallery in New Paltz, NY, which means living with andrew which should be super fun. I really want to cook more this summer, and start going to the gym, and of course the beach. It will be really nice to see my friends and be with my family as well.
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