oh no.

able to survive by just being happy-go-lucky. does not drink but smokes away the blues along with her sidekick, acer, the faithful laptop and occasionally, there is coffee.

[margoism]

Tampororot

Nagahanap ng bagong "upuan" sa Prontera.

Kaso ung tambay (npc) dun ay nanlilimos ng pagkain tapos kamot pa ng kamot, tsk tsk.

Promising naman ung swing sa badang doon pa. Kaso may 2 frog na pinamukha sa akin na ang alone ay forever.

Paano ako matutuwang umupo sa swing kung may naglalandian forever sa tabi.

"hoy, tumigil kayo!"

Ate Girl: Who you? You so epal here.

Kuya Boy: Uh. Anyayare?

"un nga eh, sino nga naman ako? bakit ako?"

Ate Girl: Pwede ba, you make drama somewhere else?

...at natapos sa pagikot-ikot para makahansp bagong mauupuan, nauwi lang ang lahat sa overthinking-before-sleeping sa isang B&B sa Prontera.

Lol.

[margoism]

Oh ha. Michael Jordan!

[margoism]

Ay ang gwapo.

VERSUS

Ah maganda pala ah.

"Suyuan"

"Bati na ulit"

[margoism]

Di pala afk si idol, hahaha.

[margoism]

Once Upon A Time in Morroc

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ROO AFK Story

When idol is away, with the camera you play.

...pwede rin suplado talaga si idol VaLoR.

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An AFK Adventure with Idol VaLoR

"Pwede ba ako dyan?"

Yan ang una niyang sinabi sa akin, naghahanap kasi ako ng ka Ygg duo sa guild chat nung araw na un - naaalala kong desperado na ako sa Eden coins kaya ayokong masayang ang pagkakataon magawa ang instance na un.

Naisip ko pa, aba, may nagoyo akong sumama sa akin.

Low DP kasi ako, alam mo na, di trip kasama ng majority. Tipong walang papatol sa iyo pag nagahanap ka ng kaparty sa world chat. Who you ka, kapal feys!

Sabihin na natin napahiya ang bida niyo at di kami umabot ng level 30. Expected ko na di na ako papansinin pagkatapos pero aba nakipagkwentuhan.

Ewan ko ba, pihikan naman ako sa kausap pero magaan naman ang loob ko sa kanya kaya ayun, mag iisang buwan na kaming regular na magkakwentuhan sa gabi sa 23.

Friendship Monthsary?! Michael Jordan? LoL.

Bakit ko alam? Eh inadd ko sa FB nung araw na un at nag message, un kaya ang date.

Okay, oo, golden rule. Wag basta basta add ng add ng friends sa FB. Eh wala naman ako tinatago and well, mabuti malaman na niya ng maaga sino kausap niya, ipagtagpi-tagpi na lang niya ang mga makikita at basa niya, hahaha. I mean, di naman ako scammer o chixi at kung tatanungin niya ako balang araw kung open minded ako at magkape kami minsan, eh sorry, hindi ako mahilig lumabas ng bahay, yayain na lang niya ako mag PVP at katayin na lang niya ako ng attack speed niya ng paulit-ulit (someday idol, maiisahan din kita, hahaha).

Anyway, sa present time.

Nakatulog siya nung isang gabi habang magkakwentuhan kami sa party chat. Naaliw ako at finorce follow ko siya na sundin ako sa buong mapa ng Rune Midgard. Ayun, nakapag MVP, TR, mini, at elite ang idol nating afk na si VaLoR. Kagabi naman, pinagbigyan niya ako at nag scripted afk siya.

non-verbatim: sige na, sa office na ako magwowork bukas ng gabi eh, 2 gabi ka rin makakatulog ng maagaa :P

(insert daming tawa here)

Siyempre, tuwang-tuwa lola niyo, kahit parang baliw na may nasunod na kapwa sniper (na malakas btw), G lang!

Adventure 1: Sinayawan Ko Siya

"Kinendeng mo kaso deadma" - koya, tip po, Jupe at ET run lang.

Bago siya natulog, ubos na raw comm tickets niya. Eh may 40 pa ako kaya ayan, ako na lang sumayaw...sinayawan ko si idol. Yes pwede ung 40 kahit afk kasama sa party, basta 2 kayo.

Adventure 2: Habol ng MVP at TR

Dharma best ghorl. AFK yarn.

(teeheehee GTB lang yan)

Adventure 3: Ikot Ikot Lang

Habang cooldown mga MVP, ikutin ang Rune Midgard!

Ulitin ko, afk si idol VaLoR. Today, di siya mamatay sa GH kasi nakakaKafra na siya.

Adventure 4: Inabutan ng Maintenance sa Huling MVP of the Day

Nagising siya na hinihintay na lang umappear ang OL.

Akala mo katapusan na ng mundo at pa maintenance na ng 7am, hahaha. Daming bilin, hanash, at paulit-ulit na "ingat ka, kumain ka, mamaya, sa Sabado, etc" kaming nalaman.

Ending, nag close ung app ng 7am at nag usap pa kami saglit sa messenger, hahaha.

Btw, twinning kami, "partner" costumes. Pinagbigyan kami ni ROO na magkaroon kami ng costume galing sa same gacha, hahaha.

...at least di ung moo-moo costume, may do do ng cow eh.

Hanggang sa susunod, na trip, abangan, hahaha.

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Prologue

Recently, I just have Taylor Swift LSS and deng, she has been on my playlist and singing unconsciously in my mind for some strange weird reason.

Out of the blue, I decided to download Ragnarok Origin Global after playing Ragnarok Next Generation. I just got tired as it was not working out for me (long story) and play a game where I knew no one.

Stranger still, I don't know the lyrics of her songs haha, I just make them up as I go (yes, that bad) and all I know is this song seems to suit this post, lol.

Countdown to 100 days ago

You see, most of the time, people are motivated to move across games and I was guilty of that as I jumped from Ragnarok Mobile (ROM) Eternal Love to Ragnarok Next Generation (RoX).

For me, it was because of my old guild mates from the original game, Ragnarok PH and my then boyfriend (also from the guild). It was fun at the beginning, a reunion of sorts until things became complicated when I got promoted at work (me night shift, him, a 12 hour teaching position). I was playing less due to the adjustment, spent most of my time doing OT (ty), and as much as I tried, I got sick of being replied to with just one line, "ganyan ka naman" then give me the cold shoulder or when I try to spend time with him, he only tells me off ("magOT ka na lang").

But yeah, maybe long distance relationships are stupid and I have no business in it.

I broke it off one day, ghosting him and silently played solo with a priest account someone lent me. It was hard but I guess, in some way, I deserved it. A cruel end to three years but I guess he deserved better too, someone who is actually near him and actually loves him. Not once in three years did we ever say "love" too so in a way, I was tired in many ways.

But please don't judge me, I admit it was immature but if I think about it, we were just waiting for the other to end things and well, he was suggesting seeing someone else already which I was too tired to be mad about it since all I wanted to do at the time was sleep.

I endured playing silently for months within the guild (yes, not interacting with anyone) when I heard about Ragnarok Origin Global from one GC I was in (my alt's guild haha). They were moving to the said game and raved about how much better it was. I was not close to them so without saying anything, I went about reading their review until one day, it was maintenance day in RoX.

By this time, it has been months and I was bored of playing mobile legends on the side so I downloaded the game.

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I thought long and hard what job class to play while downloading. I always wanted to an archer class so why not? I imagined myself doing MVP hunting solo (lol) and how exciting it would be to be. I mean, I was so intent to play alone. That thought alone made me laugh, telling myself I was going to die alone anyways, hahaha.

Circa 100 Days Ago

I know it was 100 days ago, I got a congratulatory message today, before maintenance, that I have been playing the game for 100 days.

I am not sure how I survived playing alone until a guild took me in my late mid-game period. I stuck to the general mechanics of making sure I raised my Agi first because, according to the GC, while the damage is low, the swiftness will compensate. It was cool until I learned about Divine Power (DP) and "title" that I had to compensate for the lost opportunities in a short span of time.

Now, the thing about this switch was because I was playing solo, I was forced to push myself to pray to Hollhengren (I hate upgrading my equipment before this game), seek ways to obtain needed cards, grind, and cross my fingers for each gacha roll I made. Back in the day, I was typically leeched with no need to do much other than (manual) dailies.

I guess the freedom made me happy and the game enjoyable.

In 100 days, I made new friends, experienced a guild merge, and learned how to navigate a new Rune-Midgard lifestyle. I even love the world chat drama even when I don't know the server stars personally, it feels cool to run into them on the map or when they choose to sit with you on the bench:

So What Now

Today, after maintenance, I might reach level 88, now orange titled (one star), have a decent DP (227K).

Still a noob but heck, at least I enjoy every gaming day. And no, thankfully, no one I know is on this server.

[wheredoisign]

[revolution1970]

MOOD: 

[we-kant-even]

[teamcoco]

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[books-n-quotes]

“I can write the saddest poem of all tonight. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.”

— Pablo Neruda, Twenty Love Poems and Song of Despair

[catchymemes]

[wilwheaton]

This is what happens when you look at the dead center of the Venn Diagram of my interests.

[we-kant-even]

[books-n-quotes]

“Dear God, do old scars ever stop hurting?”

— Stephen King, The Shining

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"No Nubs Land" Sometime in March 2018, a good friend of mine finally got me to download and play the game. Imagine, he kept pestering me eversince it was available in the apps store. My sorry excuse was that I have retired from online gaming (the original Ragnarok Ph, Iris Server, MacWorld Clan guild) and I am done with playing among kiddie trashtalkers plus my introvert self is quite content with self-paced playing on the PS4 - no human interaction needed: just me, my tv, the PS4, and well...because I am quite "senti" and perhaps "kuripot", reruns of Skyrim, Fallout 4, and Persona 5. Anyway! As soon as the Mobile Legends icon appeared on my phone, he and his sister (we were together the night) gave me a quick run down of how things work and I kid you not...it was so fast that I don't even remember taking the tutorial, hahaha! This was then followed by tons of brawling (dayum, click everything! swear like a sailor in real life! Run away!) until they decided we can play Classic. I don't remember much about my first game but since I used to play a priest, I had my first noob experience: Rafaela (for some stupid reason, I keep calling her Angela...must be the wings, dammit) was my thing. Stupidly. Yes, good thing there is healing for everyone. I'd eventually graduate loving Estes but that is another story. ...even before 24 hours that I had been introduced, I forgot I own a PS4. So it has been almost 2 months now since I started and so far, depending on how a game goes, I am a noob/nub or just that ordinary player who randomly joined a game of brawl or classic...and occassionally rank. From my experience, people are so critical of new players during the game itself but when you have a friend who also plays, they tell you that it is fine to play even if you know nothing (then go berserk when they have a noob/nub on their team in a non-rank game) and even recommend not to read the chat. Just play, they said. But the again, the chat drama can sometimes be entertaining though I don't get the point of trashtalking your own team mate/s. For me, it's a sign that that asshole doesn't have any leadership skills or is having a bad day and decided to pour it out on some poor soul having a bad play day (it could be lag, a newbie, a new hero, etc). Oh, one time, a tank dude tried to tell me I was being a noob for staying in the mid lane because I wasn't helping out at a heavily ganked area (I was Lesley). Politely, he told me (towards the end) that he wasn't just saying it to sound like a dick. Hey, happy to learn mehn, I actually thanked him and experienced my other noob/nub thing: chatting while playing. It kills. On the other hand, sometimes some things can just be annoying regardless of gamer status. I once played a classic game and our Estes would not actually heal anyone...if he ever did, it was as if he accidently clicked on the first skill. I jokingly asked if he has no heal but he just stood there silent and casted his 2nd skill for the nth time. Healing for everyone mehn! I played Estes in my first rank season and the problem of being him or Rafaela is, players tend to depend on you heavily, forgetting that they have great heroes who can actually survive/hack/slash/kill/magic their way to the enemy base/throne. I mean, people...support characters have cool down time too. Don't trashtalk them if you died because of your own miscalculation or if the support chose to preserve him/herself. They aren't exactly tanks (though let's not count Minotaur or Angela here). Speaking of ill manners ingame, while jesting and jeering may be part of the game, sometimes it is just too much but the report button does not have an option to choose "person is a being jerk" or "harassment/bullying" or "unruly behavior" - the nearest choice would be "using profanity" which they aren't really doing. It is easy to say it can be ignored but I guess, being old and all, it just kills the mood and group dynamics. Which brings me to the last thingy on my first Mobile Legends post in this really old and neglected acct (I was on Tumlr when tumblarity was a thing) - so just last night I learned I can buy heroes using the BP card. I have 3k of it and a friend helped me buy heroes as he showed me how to use them, hahaha. Before that, I was telling him how fascinating Alucard was because it was the recurring hero that loves to kill me (not sure if he is just commonly used) to the point I used his trial card in AI play. Poor noob/nub me, thinking life was that simple played one classic game using him. It was my shortest classic game ever; my team mates called me names and conceded defeat before 5 minutes. I would learn some hours later that he was actually pretty tricky to play, much to my embarassment. Oh well, I told my friend, I would have to content myself with using him only on AI play and trial cards. In jest, he converted some of my BP points to buy Alucard then accidentally shared it on my FB on "friends only" post. So now the image above is the horrifying truth that I have a hero I am afraid to use (I don't like frontline heroes) and omg, an image visible among my fb friends. ..on the other hand, they say that he ranks as #1 on a list of 10 handsome heroes in the game. Whoopie. For me, the most handsome hero is Guisson (?) and Alucard would probably come 3rd but then again, I can't think of a 2nd. Lancelot has lotsa haters but then being an Odette player, I actually ship them...for as long as I don't hear "Experience the handsome" (I pray he gets an image makeover or a really normal, long haired man skin), he can probably be the 3rd...but summer skin Clint is handsome so dammit, rank down. I am noob/nub is realz.