Rika

09 ꒰ঌ(⃔ ⌯' '⌯)⃕໒꒱

[marlboropurplefusion]

hi i just want to tell u that ur absolutely gorgeous 😭 like i saw a post u made abt feeling unattractive and then i went on ur page and i was stunned by how pretty u are. like i struggle with the same feeling, so i get u, feeling pretty is sooo hard in this day and age, but the point is that ur beautiful, try not to beat urself up for something u cant change in the first place.

hey girl, thank u sm 🥹. i was at a really bad mental state when i made those posts and i didn't know any better about myself but i've gotten better now (at least i hope so 😅) and i don't beat myself up abt my physical appearance now. thank u sm for ur kind words angel, you're extremely gorgeous as well !💗

[marlboropurplefusion]

i want my brown hair back

[violettes4roses]

[rosees3ray]

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

[silverdaggerr]

god forbid a girl just wants to be loved and heard.

[bloodgutsnangelcake1]

I genuinely can't tell if I'm pretty or not

[cupidl0v3rr]

[babyydolllyy]

[dir3ctedbysofiacoppola]

[girlwiththemostcakee-deactivate]

I'm so fucking stupid at math

[marlboropurplefusion]

i lowkey start sobbing at the thought of math equations

[mysweetkei]

[marlboropurplefusion]

i've lost so much motivation in writing this is fucking me up real bad

[marlboropurplefusion]

One thing about me is I love asking questions and receiving answers. Perhaps that is the reason why I struggle with the idea of God. It's because I've been asking him questions my whole life, yet instead of receiving a response, my question echoes its way back to me, leaving it unanswered.

[marlboropurplefusion]

I wonder how often you look for me.

Do you see traces of me in every face you pass by, the way I do yours?

Or do you disregard me like a bad memory?

[marlboropurplefusion]

If I were to describe what each slash feels like, I'd say it feels like wine. You know those cheap wines you'd get a whole bottle for a really cheap price, it feels just like that. Each slash feels warm against my skin, it's throbbing but it feels good. It has a warm burning sensation just like those cheap wines. It feels nice (..◜ᴗ◝..)

[marlboropurplefusion]

and suddenly the words "should I go back to church?" Came out of my mouth

Which was weird

Cause most of my deep rooted traumas were from churches and religions.

[marlboropurplefusion]

I don't know what to believe in. I'd like to believe that God is real, but the thought of an all-powerful being be real yet allow so much suffering in the world feels absurd to me. A loving God wouldn't let a child suffer endlessly. If God does exist, then he would be someone cruel, someone whom I do not see as my father.