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marlo, 31 år. please like personal posts if you read them, and please don't reblog anything too personal-seeming! not actually swedish but a passable substitute. a crumpled up piece of paper in the middle of toronto. she/her (cis). click "om mig" if you want to know more. talk to me about for all mankind, nintendo, pokémon, sweden, ABBA, PMMP, monica zetterlund, finland, moomins, tove jansson, kate bush, corner gas, borgen, bron/broen, äkta människor, frasier, for all mankind, and birds. probably more, too. click here if you enjoy my blog and wanna help me out at all. it's not necessary but yeah idk 

[mysticode54]

This iceberg chart serves as a table of contents for the ICO encyclopedia I've long been building up in my brain. Feel free to reach out and ask me about any of these entries (but don't anticipate a quick response, especially when I need to gather a lot of sources to fully explain the entry). Transcription of the image under the cut.

Tip of the Iceberg

Connections to Shadow of the Colossus

US vs Japanese Box Art

Watermelon Ending

You Fight the Sacrificed Children as Shadows

Design by Subtraction

"Mono is the Queen" Theory

Inspired the Gaming Industry

Below the Surface

(a.k.a "What you might learn in a video essay about the game")

Inspired Hidetaka Miyazaki's Career

Hidden Weapons

Originally Developed on PlayStation 1

The ICO Novelization

Amiga Game Inspirations

Scrapped Human Enemies

Yorda's Language is Japanese with Each Word Spoken Backwards

Yorda's Tattoos (PS1)

The Cut Dialogue

Regional Version Differences

i-c-o.net

Yorda's Hints

Ueda's "Pilot Movie" for ICO

Bottom of the Iceberg

(a.k.a "What you might learn from a speedrunner about the game")

50 Hertz Super Jump

Shouting Makes Ico Faster

The Shadow's Names

The US Version Released First

Shadow Phasing

The Unseen Commercial that Inspired Ueda

Shadows are Weak to Water

Ico Can Block Attacks

Below the Ice

(a.k.a "What you might learn from research and repeat playthroughs")

The Pipe Between Upper and Lower Cogwheel

E3 2000 Articles Claim Yorda is Magically Cursed with Blindness

The Staff Exclusive ICO Merch

The Queen's Sword Has a Missing Scabbard

Ico's Handcuffs

Scrapped Shadow Types

R1 to Find Queen's Sword

Dark Water

(a.k.a "What you might learn through translation and sharp eyes")

The Horsemen are Priests

Scrapped Bats and Geckos

Yorda's Name Comes from Hilda (from "Horus, Prince of the Sun")

UEQ Website

The Castle Has Some Electric Lightbulbs

Kabutomushi

The Graves Have Horns

The Deep

(a.k.a "What you might learn over the course of many years")

Scrapped Backstep Maneuver

Idol Statue Children are Based on Yorda's Pilot Design

GPL Violation

The Queen and Yorda Share Face Textures and Body Proportions

The Queen's Concept Design is Still in the Game

Yorda's Dress is Partially Inspired by Cicadas

Midnight Zone

(No clever title. You're too deep for clean categories.)

The Pattern is Everywhere, Even the Sofas

Scrapped Mid-Boss Fight

Yorda's Shadow Form Briefly Has a Forcefield in the Storyboards

Luz y Sombra

Ramsès Younan's "Tropique du Cancer" is the True JP Cover Art Inspiration

Prototype "Nostalgia of the Infinite" Cover

Abyssal Zone

Yorda's Cage Neighbors the Throne Room

Wireframe Office Fans

Insect Net

November 5th, 2001 at Shibuya's "Museum 1999 L’eau à la bouche"

Subtle Alterations to End Credits' Flashbacks

Yorda Sings in Early Concepts

Below The Abyss

Ico Calls Out Yorda's Name (8/06/01 Prototype Build)

Scrapped Queen Statue

Scrapped Heroine "Reaction" Mask

イand コ Buildings

Scrapped ICO Numerals

Hadal Zone

Throne Room Bloodstains

The Saddle Blankets

Scrapped "Torture Chamber" and Other Stages

PS1 Ico Operating a Mounted Gatling Gun

[dazeoi]

pmmp - joku raja // caravaggio

[marlodjur]

want to make more for all mankind friends especially if you want to talk about margo madison especially if you write fic so feel free to hit me with your discord. need more friends for Brain Rot

[marlodjur]

can anyone help me signal boost this. sorry.

[marlodjur]

i don’t think things are going to get better

i’m sure nobody misses me anyway

i really did work hard trying to fix things. all i ever do is fuck up with people. i worked so hard. i changed a lot for the better. but i’m a fuckup and i guess i’ll always be one.

[marlodjur]

i just want a second chance with that friend but i know i’ll never get one

things have been getting worse with me in general since last september. i can’t cope with anything anymore. i can’t forgive myself. why should i when my friend can’t? seems like every time i find a friend i can really talk about silly FAM fandom stuff with i just fuck shit up somehow. i don’t think i should exist anymore. i’m sorry that i still exist.

[marlodjur]

maybe i just don’t deserve help. maybe i don’t deserve to get better.

[marlodjur]

someone i really liked talking to in the for all mankind fandom blocked me and cut me out with no warning when i was doing extremely poorly and it’s my fault, i know. i was unfair when i was in a really bad place again. nowhere near as shitty as i used to be. i guess that it’s an improvement? he blocked me everywhere though. i feel like a monster. if he’s out there reading this, i’m genuinely sorry. things worked out with the other friend.

i know i’m too much for people to handle sometimes. this hurts, but… it hurts more because he was being nice and i couldn’t handle it. most of the time talking one on one helps but it wouldn’t have that time.

i wish i could have another chance but i don’t deserve one.

[jonstuartstewart]

"van horn" by saint motel, or "molly/margo are probably the patron saints of lunch break motel sex", and they are also for all mankind's ultimate love story t b h (audio warning? my headphones aren't great)

[marlodjur]

want to make more for all mankind friends especially if you want to talk about margo madison especially if you write fic so feel free to hit me with your discord. need more friends for Brain Rot

[marlodjur]

is anyone else here on bluesky. for some reason i’ve been posting over there of all places

[marlodjur]

if you want to send me any love or anything i just. i don’t know. i feel bad. i feel all kinds of bad

[marlodjur]

i’m sorry i havent posted much. lots going on in my life. i miss this website and my friends on it.

[rslashrats]

making up characters is so fun because you can be like “this is johnson he came from my mind” and all your friends will go “yippe!!! horray!!! we love johnson!!!”

[the-sunflower-spaceman]

hedonism is good actually rich people just suck at it

[the-sunflower-spaceman]

i think not only do we have a moral obligation to preserve human life but also a moral obligation to maximize the pleasure of others and ourselves (provided it doesn’t hurt anyone)

[the-sunflower-spaceman]

people don’t just deserve to eat food, they deserve to eat good food that tastes good without worrying about nutritional content

people don’t just deserve clothes, they deserve nice clothes that are well made and fit their personal style

people don’t just deserve the bare minimum, they don’t just deserve to be alive, they deserve to live and have nice things for no other reason than making that particular person happy

[vague-humanoid]

[marlodjur]

all i have wanted since the bad thing happened was a life that felt even slightly worth living, and everything has only gotten worse.

[crippled-peeper]

[sopranoentravesti]

ID: meme template with a figure saying “Blow my mind,”

Another pauses to consider “hmmm,” before stating:

“CripplePunk being for physically disabled people is not an indictment against neurodivergence or mental illness. It is just a label that we use to describe experiences, traumas, and obstacles that are almost always exclusive to being physically disabled. Nobody is excluding anyone from anything. Different people have different experiences.”