Remy - they/them/theirs - This is mostly me reblogging things, along with a few comments of my own. It's a mess, I don't know what to tell you. Check out my AO3, AgentStannerShipper, where I'm currently posting D20 fic.
Posting this because of the prev post, but I've had this headcanon in a while.
Imagine Cody during the Solitary Clone ep; he's ordered his general (a man he trusted, a man he loved; he painted his armour grey in mourning, his has tears on his bucket) shot down. He lost his battalion, his men. He's leading children into battle, brothers that have barely left Kamino, that have never earned their paint and probably never will. He is a good soldier, he follows orders, but what he does... General Kenobi would have never ordered him to do that. There is blood on his hands, the blood of innocents and no pragmatism, not practicality, no war tactics can explain it. The Jedi were slaughtered in their Temple, even the younglings. And his brothers did it. Under his orders. He is sent to cull rebellions and kill dissidents, or are they just terrified civilians?
And then the mission with Crosshair. He tries, as much as he can, to be kind where he can. The droids feel good to crush. And to negotiate for peace- He feels the ghost of Obi-Wan Kenobi by his shoulder, his voice in his ear. And then she's ordered dead, Crosshair follows orders, and Cody can do nothing but look as she drops dead.
He stands in front of the memorial for his lost brothers, knowing the brothers he lost on the mission won't be added, because the Empire wouldn't spare a credit on it, and he thinks- what makes us different from droids. We make our own choices and we live with them too (unbeknownst to him, deep in his brain, a chip is eroding, the codes breaking down).
Cody deserts. He drifts. He bombs imperial posts and he tries to snap brothers out of it, but mostly, he drifts. He doesn't join the budding Rebellion, has no reason to (he doesn't know Rex survived; he learned about the helmets of the 332nd, but he knows if someone had survived that wreck, it would be a Jedi; and he doesn't want to see Ahsoka, can't bear to look her in the eye and tell her he killed her grandmaster. He thinks she might kill him; he thinks she'd be right).
Ten years. He's had to live with his choices for ten years; he still doesn't know why he did it. He would have thought himself better than this, he'd always thought himself better than this. He doesn't know why he turned his back on Obi-Wan Kenobi, why he corrupted everything he'd ever stood for. He wonders what kind of man that makes him, to follow orders blindly; it's worse, he thinks, than if he were a droid. A droid can only ever do what its told. Despite what the natborns think, he (all of them) has never been a droid. He knows better. He should have- Regrets choke him. But he lives with them. Because he refuses to be cowardly and not face his own actions. Obi-Wan Kenobi deserves better. He always did; all the Jedi did.
Ten years. And then he sees a Wanted poster for Obi-Wan Kenobi. Obi-Wan Kenobi, alive. After ten years. After Cody betrayed him and shot him down.
He spends close to a year searching every nook and cranny, uncovering every stone (if he slinks back into Coruscant and breaks into a certain Senator's penthouse to riffle through his things, then no camera can prove it).
He ends up on Tatooine. It is dry and dusty and hot. Ben Kenobi is the name of a hermit wizard living in the Wastes. Cody wants to strangle him.
He goes through the Wastes, finds the Hut. Obi-Wan Kenobi walks out. His hair is whiter than it was, his skin darkened and reddened by the sun. He looks older, sadder, but he still stands strong. His 'saber is unlit in his hand.
Cody stays. He doesn't have an explanation for what he's done (he never has and he never will; he doesn't know about the chip. Obi-Wan doesn't know about the chip). He's had to live with it, and now, Obi-Wan has to as well.
He knows Cody betrayed him, shot him. He knows Cody spent the last eleven years regretting it. He looks into worn eyes, greying hair, new scars and wrinkles, and although Cody shot him in the back, he opens his home to him.
Cody never forgives himself.
Obi-Wan learns, slowly, to trust Cody again. It is painful to live with the man who betrayed you. It is beautiful to live with the man you've loved for longer than you've known him. Some days, Cody's hands shake; some days, Obi-Wan can't even look him in the eye. Some days, they spend the day in bed, clothed or naked, cold in the night, hot in the day, and they are simply grateful to the Force that, despite it all, they get to have this.
(Cody will die, eventually, his fast-aging catching up to him, and Obi-Wan will shed tears he shouldn't waste. Neither of them will ever learn about the chip; rather, they learned to live with it, learned to live together, to forgive and love despite it all. Obi-Wan will die on the Death Star, facing his former apprentice, saving his Luke and Leia, his hope. And despite the fact that he always thought he was meant for infinite sadness, Obi-Wan Kenobi did manage to carve out some happiness for himself. It wasn't perfect; it ended, as all things do, in tears and death. But for a while, it was beautiful. It was cold cups of tea and caf in the morning; broad, tanned, scarred hand brushing his hair away, arranging his robes and fixing the vaporator; dark hair turning grey; dark eyes shining with kindness and love and stoicism; a smile, rare and all the more beautiful for it, shining brighter than the suns. It was Cody, despite betrayal, Cody with betrayal, who, unlike everyone else, came back to him after he left. It was Cody, whom he'd joined in the first.)
Hi! I also asked on AO3 because when I checked the link in your profile, it was broken, and I saw you don't take messages from random blogs on Tumblr any more (can't blame you - I'm assuming its related either to hate or this stupid ai bullshit happening now). But I've been getting into podfic, and I wanted to ask permission to make/post a podfic of your stucky fic By Any Other Name, which I got a little obsessed with this month XD. Please let me know if that'd be okay, or if you'd have any stipulations about the process! Anyway love the fic, I'm Very Normal about unusual trauma recovery narratives lol
So, it turns out, when you aren't on social media for health reasons, you never know when the fic events are happening. And about four months ago, I was feeling really wistful about not being able to participate in any because I didn't know how to track them down, so I turned to my irl 3-person (including me) Star Wars group chat and begged them to do a micro bingo with me XD. They did technically agree, which if nothing else held me accountable and made me feel like I was participating in something for four months. Anyway here are the 11 fics I wrote in that time, so I have a masterpost documenting them.
Blackout Bingo
Alien Biology/Culture: Grin and Bear It. G 7,138k. Codywan from an outside POV (Rex), with an angry Anakin and a teething predator species!Ahsoka.
Mind Control: I won't let it go down ('til we torch it ourselves). G 14,705k. Codywan, where Cody asks Obi-Wan to Force Suggest him For Science. Deeply tender, and probably my favorite fic of the lot.
Trapped Together: Kintsugi. T 12,835k. The Bad Batch Crosshair/Mayday fic, where Crosshair is Very gay and Very angry, and Mayday survives the avalanche.
Space Battle: lost as a light is lost in light. E 11,557k. Codywan PWP. They get it on in an escape pod. Complicated consent, semi-accidental exhibitionism, weird Stewjoni biology, the works.
Wild Space (Pirates): straight on 'til morning. T 7,766k. Clone Wars genfic where Katooni finds herself adopted by one Hondo Ohnaka after escaping Order 66.
Force Visions: I only have my brittle bones (to break the fall). T 8,535k. Codywan Revenge of the Sith au, where Obi-Wan Fell on Utapau and has to deal with the grief. It only goes kind of well.
Droid Protagonist: Good Soldiers.... G 3,405k. Clone Wars genfic featuring my love of MSE droids.
Role Reversal: there is no emotion (there is peace). G 8,762k. Codywan reverseverse where future Mand'alor Cody gets called to a strange planet, only to find an army of lab-grown Jedi awaiting his command.
Mission Fic: Objective. G 2,347k. The Bad Batch episode fic for Plan 99. Character study and canon character death, with a background of Tech/Phee.
Diagonal Bingo (Alien Biology/Culture, Wild Space, Mission Fic): sweet to tongue and sound to eye. E 27,947k. Codywan porn with plot featuring Stewjoni having heat cycles and weird Amish aliens.
Postage Stamp (Mind Control, Trapped Together, Wild Space, Force Visions): the only ending is peace. T 11,005k. Codywan on Utapau, where Obi-Wan has about two minutes warning before Order 66 is enacted, and uses that time to try to save the man he loves.
Because @dimension20official / @dropoutdottv are cowards and won't give me MisMag merch, I've had to suck it up and create my own. SAY HI MAGICAL MISFITS!!!
miss reading your fics on ao3 - i check your page daily to see if you’ve posted anything. just found your blog after furiously searching for you to make sure i wasn’t missing anything. hope you’re doing okay!!
Getting this message meant a lot to me, so I apologize for the delay in answering - I don't check my tumblr often, for health reasons, which is also why I'm still working on answering the backlog of comments on my fics. It truly astounds me sometimes that there are people who don't just read my work, but like it enough to check my page for updates or track down my tumblr, and it's very humbling. It's been a very difficult six months for me, for real-world political reasons and overlapping mental health reasons, and it's been very frustrating for me personally that I haven't been able to write in that time.
That being said, I will have a fic to post in the near future, though if you're one of my D20 readers, you may not be happy to hear it, since I'm taking a break from D20 fic. I've made many jokes about mismag season 2's potential to kill me, but in actuality during that time period I did feel a lot of pressure (almost entirely self-imposed) about the uncertainty with canon. I've been in some very negative fandom spaces before, and among other things, as a k'kelmp primary shipper, some of the rising discourse I was seeing as samvan became increasingly canon made me very anxious about what the responses might be if I kept posting. Again, this was self-imposed, and frankly a little silly, as I am also a samvan shipper (and other assorted variations of pilotcule) but it made trying to engage with my D20 fic (both mismag specifically and D20 as a whole, as well as the other fandom fics I was attempting to work on at the time, which were collateral by proxy) very stressful for me at a time when I had very little energy to write.
I would like to go back to my D20 fic eventually when I'm feeling more stable about it - I have many concepts I'd still like to explore, not to mention a FH wip I'd hate to abandon - but in the meantime, I do have a Codywan fic I'll be posting on May 4th, because a few concerned friends stepped in and lovingly dunked me in Star Wars brainrot recently, and I tripped face-first into loving the saddest man in the galaxy and his clone boyfriend brother-in-arms. I have a few fics I'm working on for them right now, and it's very good to be writing again, slow as it's been. If you're one of my readers who has followed me across fandoms, hopefully you'll enjoy it. If you're a consumer purely of my D20 work (or whichever else of my fandoms you may be coming to me from), know that I deeply appreciate you asking after me, and I am okay (as okay as any of us can be in these times). Hopefully I will have something more your speed before long.
In short (a thing I am woefully incapable of accomplishing lol): thank you for this message, anon, it truly means a lot.
Not sure this is the venue for this but fuck it, I'm not social media savvy XD.
I'm going to D20's Gauntlet at the Garden (ah!!!) at the end of this month. I also purchased, last year, the mystery mug Dropout offered. Unfortunately, the one I got was the Smack of the Dab Very Important People mug, which was pretty much the only one I really didn't want (pics below). Is anyone going who would be interested in buying/trading it for a different mystery mug (I'm assuming there are other people out there who got one they didn't want)?
I've said for the better part of two years, well before it was even announced, that a Misfits and Magic season 2 might kill me, and in fact it tried (in only the best ways)! And not only did it give me the gift of a new all-time favorite D20 episode (sorry, Neverafter's "Once Upon A Time," there's a new dealing-with-PC-death-in-the-most-perfect way episode, and it's "A Place of Knowing"), it also gave me something I've been waiting years for: little lineart symbols that perfectly match my usual tattoo aesthetic, so I can finally get the D20 tattoo I've been dreaming of, for my favorite campaign, no less.
Just one problem: I'm not much for social media, and having consumed all the MisMag season 2 content I can find, I still can't find anything that confirms what all six of the little creature symbols should be. So I figured I'd farm the question out to the internet, and see if anyone saw/heard something I missed. So: the index cards.
The warm half of our color wheel, as depicted by the Gowcentric Orrery, is straightforward. The symbols appear on Tabby in direct coordination with their names when the Pilot Program visits Galamanis, the Qohlye, and Weugan in episodes 2, 3, and 6. They also all look reasonably recognizable as their animals (I'd say the Qohlye the least, and Weugan the most, but there's still a winged goat, a lizard, and a dog in the shapes). So that was easy. The problem is, unless I missed something, we're not shown the other three island/creatures in as straightforward a way.
Across different episodes, we do see symbols that clearly represent Tabby, the knotted symbol for magic's rules, and, of course, Tabby's enemies to lovers best friends relationship with Jammer, but because they're recognizable, I discounted them from my research. But, in episode 4 (on Seegenpelater) we do see three other symbols, which are never formally explained on the show, appearing when the Pilot Program are conversing with text-Tabby. Without finding anything to confirm or deny it, I've assumed that these three other symbols are in fact the cool side of our color wheel, breaking Tabby's pictogram language into the six basic magic principals he was made to coordinate. Which leaves the problem of working out which symbol is which of our favorite little magic guys.
With limited understanding, the only clues I really could think to go off of were the general shape of the symbol, and the word they appear before on Tabby's tablet when he's doing his magic-eight-ball routine. I'm almost 100% certain the above symbol is Seegenpelater's. I'd say this looks about as close to a two-headed camel as the warm side of the wheel looks to their animals. It also was accompanied by the word "doubtful" on Tabby's screen, which I do think corresponds reasonably to Seegenpelater being the basis of illusory/enchantment magic (ie, magic that casts reality in doubt). That would make it the blue wedge, opposite Galamanis, and leaves us with purple (Miskoro) and green (Tadershecourt).
This is where I hit the snag. I don't think either of these especially resembles our boy Tad. I could honestly see an argument for either depicting an antlered creature. My best guess is that the one on the left is Miskoro and the one on the right is Tad: I'd say the left looks to me like a winged guy with a tail, and the right does have a vague skull shape to it. We also see both of these symbols used twice. The left symbol accompanies the phrase "likely," while the right is joined with "ask later." I don't find that particularly helpful, since both phrases to me could be associated with Miskoro's transformation magic, but given that Tad's is a magic of curtailing/lessening, I'd be more inclined to give him the latter (also, I think it looks like a power button, and it's fun to think about Tad's symbol literally being a kind of off switch).
Assuming I'm correct, and that these symbols do all correspond to the orrery (as opposed to us just not seeing some symbols because it didn't come up during gameplay), that would make our full, official Gowcentric Orrery look something like this (apologies for the quick, shitty sketch):
Does anyone know a confirmation one way or the other if this is right? If @quiddie or the Dimension 20 art team has released an official version? I've literally been thinking about this for the past two months, so if anyone else has an answer, or even just a theory, I'd really love to hear it!
MisMag prompt! (It might be unhelpful, I’m not always great at being specific enough with prompts. But I love your work, so I’m giving it my best shot!)
I would love to something set between S1 and S2 with Jammer and Evan. I honestly wonder if they started out visiting each other or having FaceTime/phone calls semi-regularly, more so than anyone else in the group, but it slowly faded away over time. Who pulled away first? Did things get busy at school for Jammer, or more dangerous for Evan? Did one of them miss a scheduled hang out for some reason and it just spiraled out from there?
I’m personally an angst with a happy ending human so bonus points for a little bit of happy-ending season 2 speculation aka coming back together and it sticking this time! (I’ve seen at least one story somewhere of them all living together after school and tbh that’s one of my headcanons for life now. But whatever floats your boat for a family-on-6 vibe)
If you fill this one I would love an ao3 link! 💛💛💛💛
Hello! You're actually the only one who sent me a prompt, but I really enjoyed taking a stab at it! I literally wrote Jammer's POV for the first time last week, so this was a chance to try something a little new, and I hope it doesn't disappoint. Thank you so much for this request; trust that after the season is over, I'll almost definitely write more fics that really dive into things (and are less vague because I hate being jossed lol) once we have the full context. In the meantime, it's not quite family-on-six, but I hope it's close enough!
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Just wanted to share these, considering the sheer amount of hours put in to making these plushies (especially Hob! All those fiddly details!). Boggy the Froggy for scale :)
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative Works
Not really active on tumblr, but I wanted to drop it here too: I made google doc versions of all the Battle for Beyond episode transcripts (because toggling youtube is a nightmare and as a fic writer I desperately need the control-f function). Not sure how many people out there actually want these, but they're here.
Tags/Warnings: canon divergence, Jim being nosy about Spock’s private medical business, Bones-typical xenophobia (he means well but sheesh), pining, getting together, I did the research but I’m also playing a little fast and loose with some Jewish rituals, Jim’s got some self-esteem issues, canon-typical violence, chess, sparring, which is basically foreplay for these two, idiots in love, Romulans, light angst, I swear this fic isn’t as dark as it sounds, mildly dubious consent, rough sex, fuck or die, it’s pon farr you know the drill, misunderstandings
Summary:
When Jim gets Spock to sign on as his first officer, the last thing he expects is to be handed a classified medical dispensation form. Because Spock’s going to be sick, and he knows it, and the only solution will be to haul ass back to New Vulcan. Desperate for details, Jim concocts a plan. But the more time he spends befriending Spock, the less he can deny his love for his Vulcan first officer. Because Jim might not know what exactly is going to happen to Spock, but he does know one thing: he’ll do absolutely anything to keep him by his side.
Still on hiatus (sorry, no writing update. Life is still...a lot), but as a little "I'm not dead" update, I thought I'd share the watercolors I finished today. I'm pretty happy with how they turned out.
In case it wasn’t apparent by lack of activity, I’m mostly taking a break from tumblr right now. I’ve been incredibly sick (not covid) on and off for months now, owing to a number of stress-related issues, and social media and the like have only been making it worse.
That being said, I am breaking my hiatus briefly with a question. I feel weird not posting anything in so long. Writing has been hard for aforementioned stress reasons, and what little I’ve managed has been dedicated to my profic. But I miss posting fanfiction, so that brings up the question:
I have 30k (seven chapters) of a datasha longfic completed. However, the fic is not done. Would people prefer a weekly chapter, with the knowledge that after seven weeks updates will be sporadic at best, or should I keep it under wraps until whenever I manage to finish it so it doesn’t risk becoming an abandoned wip? I know there probably aren’t many of you who follow me for my datasha content, but any input would be appreciated.
Those of you who remember Spock the Science Tribble, meet Mirror Spock, the Evil Science Tribble! I finally sat down and sewed his uniform, and I'm pretty happy with how it came out.
so i’ve been obsessed with taking uquizzes recently so i decided to make one: what tfw member you truly are (but you’re so repressed you don’t want to actually admit it) – i would love it for y’all to check it out!!
