MarveyAngstQueen

Blackashbluephoenix on AO3/Fanfiction.net

[marveyangstqueen]

Kinda blows my mind that almost 3 years since Bleeding Through was published it has garnered over 650 kudoses and I still get more almost every day. I'm sure that some of the guest accounts are bots but for the most part the named authors seem to be real people. For a one shot G rated fic that doesn't even include kissing and upon recent reflection has a LOT of typos and errors, it's absolutely incredible the love it's gotten. More than one comment has actively made me cry.

I hope I get a chance to write more soon, especially as I still want to do it professionally. I finally got a job in my field after almost a year and a half of delivery driving income, finally got some health insurance and a path to the future I wanted for myself has appeared again after I thought it was gone. My main goal right now is to get out of a debt that has crippled me for the last decade so writing will likely remain on the back burner for another few months at the minimum. But with any luck this will be over soon.

Niether The Reason nor Despiration have been abandoned. Despiration was removed because I couldn't figure out how to mark it incomplete (I have no idea how it was marked complete in the first place) without taking it down, and putting it up without a new chapter felt wrong.

I also have plans to revitalize the long form Marvey season 5/6 fix I started so long ago, possibly in a different format. I've continued to jot down scenes from all three fics over the years, some near completion and some still very rough. Basically it all depends on when this debt gets paid off, as all my free time gets dedicated to driving for money to pay this all off and move on with my life.

Anyway, thanks to everyone who has supported me and the work.

[ishkabibblethings]

[oiprocstmblr]

I laughed for five whole minutes over this! This is true from Day 1. Harvey always standing 10 toes down for Mike no matter who's on the other side. Mike ready to derail his whole life to protect Harvey. Idiots in love

[pace37]

Hey! I'm so glad I found your blog, for me the show only makes sense with a true romance between Harvey and Mike, not even mentioning the insane things Harvey did for Mike or because of him, but he was always subtly (or less so) jealous of whoever got Mike's attention even Rachel at times, idk if the writers just don't know how to write good M/F relationships or if it was the actors' own interpretation but it's glaring and although obv it wouldn't have happened it's still unreal somehow it's not canon !

Listen. It’s canon according to the captain of our ship, and that’s good enough for me.

Harvey fell in love with Mike in that hotel room - there’s no other explanation for his increasingly insane behavior. And even though the writers (for whatever reason) tried to shoehorn these characters, especially Harvey, into generic boxes, it never worked.

I think the “it’s still unreal it’s not canon” is what’s so motivating to keep writing for this ship - because all the source material is there for the taking. It just needs a little push.

[marveyangstqueen]

Strongly recommend people learn the difference between the / and the & tag before posting on AO3 smh. Hate being the first comment coming in and disappointing them with no real feedback like... you're not tagging this for your target audience that is why you are not getting the views you want.

/ = Romance

& = Friendship

[marveyangstqueen]

I go back and forth on where Marvey should have their first offical date in an AU where Mike and Harvey have sex immediately following Mike's release from prison.

Like I can absolutely see Harvey pulling out all the stops and Mike being charmed and delighted but I can also see Mike prefering somewhere more inexpensive and familiar especially after he gets home.

One thing I can absolutely see Harvey beating himself up for not knowing exactly what Mike wants without asking because he is so terrified of screwing this up and wants to show Mike how well he knows him but at the same time also show off how much of a provider he can be.

I can also see him struggling with public vs. Private. On the one hand, private is good, they can talk somewhere a little more secluded. On the other hand Mike might think Harvey is ashamed or hiding him. Public is good because there's less pressure, Mike won't be afraid Harvey is ashamed of him etc.

And I do think Harvey would be frustrated with himself because he would feel like he should know how to best take care of Mike already

[willgrahamsbouncingbulge]

Tumblr should take away the ability to like posts for a few weeks so peeps understand this website cannot survive with just liking. I see so many gorgeous gifs and edits and they get like....13 reblogs and 700 likes. That's not right, fam

[what-even-is-thiss]

I think a lot of people were raised being told that things are bad with no explanation as to why they’re bad and I don’t think I know enough about psychology to make any big statements about that

but anyways I think a lot of people see cheating on your partner as bad because they were just told that sex outside of your partner is bad or something but really cheating on your partner is bad because you had an agreement based on trust with them and you broke that trust so like why should they trust you with anything else now

[officiallallorona]

The complete saga.

[aprilinparis92]

Mandatory reblog

[marveyangstqueen]

[svejednomije]

suits 2x10

first time harvey visits mike's place, mike starts talking about what kind of father harvey would be, oh lord, do they not understand how gay that was lol

[goingcrazyatolivegarden]

all my problems could have been fixed if marvey was endgame

[auroraeverwilde]

Hello! I came across your fic “some kind of haunted” literally three days ago and I haven’t stopped thinking about it ever since. Your comments are disabled, so I was very glad to see you had a tumblr account, so at the very least I could let you know how much I’ve come to love it, and how great I think it is.

This last chapter really hit me. I rarely see realistic depictions of depression in books or films, but you managed to hit the nail on the head. The way you described it, the way Mike felt so heavy all the time, like he wanted to sink into the bed and never leave, the way he only got up because of Gigi and his external obligations, even when they felt bigger and more difficult than climbing a mountain—that part when he mentally recalled that he needed to pay the electrical bills and take Maple to the groomer and go to work and get Gigi to daycare, and do a million things more made me feel so overwhelmed and emotional because I related to that feeling so acutely it felt like you had opened my brain and seen it for yourself before writing it—. But most importantly how he kept telling himself he was okay, because he was functional. He was functional. He wanted nothing more than to close his eyes for a second and forget about the outside world, and yet, he was going through the motions and keeping up with his responsibilities; acting like a functional member of society. It said, I’m TRYING! Everyday I’m trying my hardest! I just don’t know for how long I can keep it up

Anyways I had to stop reading for a sec there to gather myself, but it was worth it. I can’t wait to see the call to Harvey. Thank you for you work 🩷

Thank you so much.

Obviously depression looks different for everyone, even day to day, but I was able to draw on a lot of my own experiences for Mike and to know it resonated with people is amazing- whether it made someone feel seen or whether it gave someone insight into how it can feel.

My circumstances are different to Mike's for so many reasons, but it was cathartic for me as a writer to be able to give Mike a support network for this moment.

But thank you for this message. It means the world.

[goingcrazyatolivegarden]

middle aged men will look at all the gay shit marvey does and say "they have such a brotherly dynamic" or "they're like father and son" you should not look at your brother/father/son that way

[marveyangstqueen]

Right???? Like If you can change the sex of one of the two male characters and have the entire dynamic go from familial to romantic, it was always romantic and you're just got some internalized homophobia to deal with.

[heartsuits]

[heartsuits]

getting together/first times

three simple rules by learnedfoot that specter smile by too_salty good morning new york by selinawrites walk the line by laughter_now the intamacy of knowing by butdaddyilovehim before you go by torched22 unforgettable by aprilinparis92 i care (i need you to know) by brokeperception

holidays

when in boston by turnyourankle finding the way by smartalli magic touch by hellbellfirera i just want you for my own, more than you could ever know by redtrospect comfort and joy by eadunne2 midnight fireworks by specterross to not be phased, to just be fine by asphodelon a wonderful, wonderful life by rose_sk

prison era

counting on by smartalli until the morning comes by specter_ross beautiful boy by fangirlflailings end of the line by pace37 bleeding through by blackashbluephoenix fresh out of the slammer by vanderloo ring ring by mindy_hektus things with feathers by KCKenobi

fluffy stuff

59th street chronicles (series) by liketwotiedships family man by novemberhush little notes by sal_si_puedes you can call me honey if you want by crimescenesandcoffee the shape of this longing by bluegoldflames moving day by purple_pansies warm hands on my heart by flamyshine gloves and a cap by cowandcalf safe in my arms by air_conditioner813

sick/injured fics

a sick puppy by alexanderxbetsey feel better by blaked untouchable by marveys the angel and the fool by thekindworthreading constant knot by mockturtletale little black dots by aspiringauthor29 if you have to die, don't let it be in my arms by mossylogs all that's left of yesterday by Iikaa15 fracture point by liketwotiedships

major character death

the empty corner office by aspirateurkilleuse I say to him once; I say to him one last time by acxsmist_inc and my name was on you by veritas_st but a whimper by beelove shutting down by skyenapped better not look him too closely in the eye (orphaned)

hurt/comfort

tell me something i'll believe by statusquo_ergo (series) what will become of me, once i've lost my novelty? by aderangedweirdo consequences by mindy_hektus predictable by inflowers (sequel) time and again by ironfidus falling from the penthouse by butterflycell nothing like a little road trip to mend those broken family bonds by purple_pansies a house is not a home is not a house by hawkaay

[marveyangstqueen]

Guys I made the rec list!

[deanwinchesterbyradiohead]

Mike likes listening to audio books when he works and when he found audible he was ecstatic well except for the whole payed part.

So obviously he uses it even if its only for that sweet one month trial period.

Three months pass atleast before he even has time to think about cancelling the stupid subscription. When he checks his account and realises it hasn't been charging him at all. He chalks it up to a glitch he's happy to exploit.

What he doesn't know is that Harvey has been footing the bill for this particular pleasure of Mike's.

And so what if he does? It's only because Mike works better if he's listening to one of those books he likes. Definitely not because Harvey cares or anything. Definitely not.

[specterssweetener]

harvey who is wayyyy too excited anytime mike says “yes sir” VS mike who preens whenever harvey refers to him as “my guy” like, there’s a physiological reaction. magic words.

mike can convince harvey to do almost everything if he finishes the sentence with please, sir? harvey folds immediately.

harvey can instantly raise mike’s mood if he adds in a there’s my guy, how’re the briefs going? when working through a difficult case. mike’s suddenly on cloud nine.

[marveyangstqueen]

This.

I'm sure Harvey would want to be the ultimate tease and spend hours pulling Mike apart, but realistically the minute Mike started begging it would be over for him. He cannot say no to Mike.

The real game would be competing with Mike to see if he can get Mike begging or failing that how fast he can get Mike begging.