Hey all! I am back. I haven't been on this account in over 3 years. I don't know how many of you still use tumblr, but it is nostalgic for me. It was a bit of joy in the darkness of my mind then.
This has been a traumatic year. A traumatic several years perhaps. But I am safe now. I am okay. It does get better, and there is always hope, no matter how dark things seem right now.
There were nights I would facetime my boyfriend at 3am, not thinking I could even make it through the night. I tried to kill myself multiple times, thinking that was the only way to escape. I told my amazing, patient man that I wanted to run away to another country and marry a stranger just so I would be away from home. I genuinely thought my life was going to be that way forever. But I'm okay now. My life isn't perfect, and it never will be, but God gave me a way to safety, and I just want to give anyone else who feels stuck, or who feels afraid or confused or depressed or anxious, hope that life will not be this way forever. As dark as it seems, don't give up. If you see no way forward, don't give up. You are so much stronger than you know, and one day, there will be a light ahead. One day, you will see hope.

















