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My official Blog! A place where I can pretty much talk about anything that's on my mind and just be... myself.

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I have learned many things the hard way; I'm still learning as life goes on. After tonight's event, I've come to this conclusion. I'd be pointing out the obvious but it needs to be said anyway to those who are going through some things in life.

Make yourself happy. Invest time in yourself. Don't invest time in others who have no time for you, who put you down. The right people in your life will come to you when the time comes. I'm single, and I'm content with it, and while I'm investing in myself, I'm happy to be at a point in my life where I can take on responsibilities, go to movies, playdium, etc. without having a need of a friend to go with me all the time, have small groups of friends whom I can connect with and be myself around, and growth emotionally, financially, and spiritually even though i don't pray enough but I believe in putting my mind to things and taking action.

And with that said: New music next year, a lot of grinding to do to get me financially stable, gigs, and of course, dance dance revolution grind never stops and other music based rhythm games.

I may not have it all, but i know enough and have enough to get me by, and i can only push to get farther and learn more as time goes by.

That's my positive message to y'all for the night. Hopefully it makes sense to you, and if it does, carry it with you.

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Musiq Soulchild and his alter ego, "The Husel", and the message behind it all... Madame Noire hit the nail on the head; Something that I've been talking to people about for years...

R&B is dead. Soul is dead. Not even the duet album with Babyface & Toni Braxton can save it. Not a single song out there anymore talking about love, how you never meant to hurt that girl and how I can make it back up to her, how you've been watching this girl for a while and how you like her looks and her personality and shit. Where the hell did all of these things go?! Luther Vandross took all of that shit to the grave, that's what happened, and today's trash pushed his grave down even further to the core of the Earth.

You can't even turn on your own radio.

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Priorities over Foolishness

Work on yourself. Set goals and have ambitions and move forward with them. Forget the stupid shit that comes your way. The more you focus on the negative, the more you'll become sidetracked and you become negative.

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The past has come back to haunt me once again.

No matter how much I leave it behind and move on in my life, she never seems to disappear from my dreams that happens once to a few times every year. It's a thing of mine... whenever something bad happens in real life between a female and I, I start dreaming about it right after. Fortunately, its not the case for almost all girls, but this one girl in particular, who I really cared for, and felt that I really screwed up with back in high school, is just appearing in my dreams over and over again...

In this dream, she was doing some sort of presentation in a gym. Wearing an all red dress, red heels, long brown hair, just all sorts of sexy. At first, I couldn't make out who it was during the presentation, but after all of it, she turned her head a little to talk to other people, and right then and there I recognized her in an instant and called her by her name. She turns around, sees me, and her smile goes away, completely. Tried starting a conversation with her, but she didn't want to talk to me at all and didn't want me talking to her period. Her mood went from happy to serious / angry in a heart beat, then a tear runs down her right cheek... I'm telling her that I'm trying my best to start something with her, and she's telling me that she knows that I'm going to bring up the past again and that she doesn't want to hear any of it...

I've had dreams where I've seen her in a subway station, angry at me and not talking to me, or one dream where I spotted her at a wedding event, and she got all serious / angry and shit, and she never wanted to talk to me, even after trying to apologize and move on from everything that happened in the past.

Even in this life, I've apologized, and moved on, and yet, she still appears in my dreams every now and then... its actually disturbing...

I wish I could turn back time and rewrite whatever I did back then. I wish I could make things right. Unfortunately, this is the result, and I can't change it. I can only accept the consequence which is losing direct contact with her and possibly not seeing her anymore...

Leena, you deserve somebody better. I'm not one of them.

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My thoughts exactly.

It's hard to find new ways to say How much I love you What I think of you I love you, I need you, I want you, etcetera, etcetera It's hard to write a love song That has something new to say Without using old cliches I love you, I want you, I miss you, etcetera, etcetera

- John Entwistle

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“Olivia: I don’t want normal, and easy, and simple. I want.. Edison: What? What do you want, Olivia? Olivia: I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love. Don’t you want that, too? Edison: Love is not supposed to be painful or devastating. Love isn’t supposed to hurt, Liv.” – Scandal

Relationships are not meant to be complex. I believe they're meant to be simple, but men and women alike have killed it completely. The relentless bullshit I get on a constant basis from women is... pretty much bullshit. Nobody deserves to be treated in such a fashion where both parties want to stab the shit out of them.

How about apologizing for your wrong doings? Trusting some more instead of snooping into people's phones trying to get some dirt? Complimenting about how beautiful she is / how handsome he looks? Go out more together, stop complaining about small things, communication?

Stuff like that. If people were to set boundaries, respect them, trust, communicate, maybe innovate powerful & positive and fun ideas to have an even stronger relationship, then I believe relationships would be a whole lot simpler.

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It's hard to find somebody nowadays. People need trust & communication for a relationship to work, and in today's culture, its not there. - Chang-Kee

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I might not have somebody special next to me, but she's out there, waiting for me.

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A lot of things have been on my mind as of late, and I thought I share it here.

Middle Eastern girls who are Muslim. I've met quite a few throughout my lifetime. Especially one that I'm working with at my job; attractive, goofy, smart, independent, beautiful accent and down to earth person. Pretty much someone that every guy would want to date, right? But the one thing that stops most of them dead in their tracks, is the fact that she's Muslim, and in that religion, if a man is non-Muslim he cannot date nor marry a Muslim girl (stated in Qur'an). But on the flip-side, a Muslim man can marry a non-Muslim woman with ease... which I think is fucked up. What's even more fucked up is if a woman of Islamic faith, marries a man who is non-Muslim and / or converting from Muslim to be a christian or whatnot, that woman ends up murdered by her own family members / non-family members of the Islamic faith, in other words, "Honor Killing".

I've heard stories on the news of a Pakistani girl killed by their own brother and father in Mississauga... just because she wanted more freedom and away from the stresses of the Islamic Tradition and her own fathers rules. I've read about Malala Yousafzai who got shot in the head by a Taliban because she endorses education. A Sudanese pregnant woman who was sentenced to death because she converted from Muslim to Christianity. Another pregnant Pakistani woman killed by family members in broad daylight for marrying the man she loved... should I go any further?

The human race is sickening, especially these kinds of humans. It makes me livid cause its like these women don't even have a chance at ALL! Even much as one religion shouldn't dictate that all religion should be abolished, religion has divided people and has cause more damage and is continuing to do so to this day. Christianity is another. Me personally, I can't find love and happiness through religion as much as I was brought up a Christian, and I only believe in God. What I CAN take from it, is that you should love others, the ten commandments, and pretty much anything from the bible that makes sense to me and which I can apply in my life. In terms of who I want to choose as my girlfriend (who can lead to be a potential wife), I will love her for her, and I would want her to be the same. To see one feel wanted, loved, and happy, with no strings attached and shit, is the best feeling ever. Religion should not even have to play a part in the relationship and throughout, especially when it comes to women who are Muslim. Trying to convert somebody is a waste of time, but I feel for the ladies who follow the faith. To the family members of that faith: if you are a religion of peace, why are so many women getting murdered to death for loving somebody outside their own faith? It's not stated in the Qur'an, and I'm definitely sure that there are people of that faith who are completely against it and not just others like myself who are non-Muslim. It is inhumane and for those who support this are sick in the head.

In conclusion, I feel every person has a right to love somebody. Religion is man-made to control people but all it has done is cause chaos. I feel without religion, we wouldn't have anything to kill or die for, and the world would be a much better place to live in, and no book to dictate our lives. I would date a Pakistani girl who is Muslim. I'm not afraid to say it. If she wants to change her religion, so let it be. If she wants to marry this man right here, let it be. Don't murder women for having options and opinions. Its their joy you're taking away. They are human too.

Also, Love Marriages over Arranged Marriages. That is all.

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(0:00) Love Never Felt So Good - Once again, i'll throw in my opinion. We all know the demo was recorded back in the Thriller era, with the static sound intact, piano and stuff. The rework version number "one" was released as a single last week or two. Found out it was taken down on that same day to be reworked on again with a few more instrumentation, and the matching the acapella correctly with the composition in the second chorus onwards. As much as this song sounds nice, i think its weak next to Xscape, and this is why I prefer the Justin Timberlake remix over this track since it sounds more like a modernized "Off The Wall" song than this track that sounds like something unreleased off the Invincible era, which that era to me is pretty underrated but a lot of songs that were not exactly memorable. To each their own. (3:54) Chicago - Sounds gangsta, I don't mind it. Love the strings in the verses. Probably something that I would do. Pretty straightforward composition, not too much and not too little. (8:00) Loving You - One of the best Timbaland and Harmon as ever done. Very groovy and I can dance to this. I can tell this song originally was made in the Thriller Era. God, love the stabs, the piano, the harps, the bells, the drums, the pitched down hi-hat rolls. Very creative and perfect for the summer. (11:15) A Place Without No Name - The next "Leave Me Alone"? Nice composition, I'm not going to lie. Seems like the original was recorded around Dangerous Era or before it. The voice seems pitched down a bit... who knows. (16:50) Slave to the Rhythm - Planet Rock anybody? lol lets breakdance! (21:07) Do You Know Where Your Children Are - This sounds like the original was recorded around the Bad Era. This is a real good rework. The snare w/ clap really resembles the bad era music. (25:43) Blue Gangsta - This remix of the original... Dude... just completely crazy... this goes hard. Using the stems from the original, and adding it to the song and also added new sounds... jesus... the snare and hi-hat work, gawd.. (29:58) Xscape - I think the original is more better than the remixed version. I know Darkchild has been around for a while, but i felt this should've been done more justice, maybe Stargate could've taken care of this song or Timbaland and Harmon together. Overall, I give this album a 8/10. A few tracks could've been better remade in my opinion. Definitely has replay value. I recommend this album to everyone of all ages.

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Music Is Universal

It's been a while, thought I contribute something to my blog.

Today is Sunday, I'm playing Tori Kelly's song, "Confetti." Father comes in and says in a serious tone, "Every Sunday you don't play any Gospel music. Don't you have any regards to God?" My response: Music is universal. Father: Tell God that. Then walks away saying how I'm gonna need him (as if I'm ungodly and shit). Same thing happened when I was singing Prince Song, "Kiss", a few months back and he asked me if I even read my Bible or care about God anymore.

Everybody has their own views on music; What songs people like or dislike, and what people like / dislike about the songs they hear. There are SO many songs composed out there in the world for EVERYBODY to listen! You got music that motivate you in life, you got music that glorifies something or someone, you got music that can get you out of bad situations, make you feel good, turn your bad day into a good day. Why I decided to play Tori Kelly's Song, "Confetti"? Cause it's one of my favourite songs that talks about living for right now; that love is more bigger than fame and fortune, etc. But you have some black Christians (or Christians in general) who love talking shit saying "Today is the Lord's Day", asking me "why I'm playing songs that don't talk about God?" and telling me to change the song... and they have never heard the song before.

I don't listen to Hillsong or anything sounding like Hillsong, period. It turns me off, its annoying, regardless if they are a group glorifying God with their music, and I'm not into old time religion shit either. And I shouldn't have to be forced to listen to whatever Christians listen to just because its a Sunday or just because I'm a Christian, myself. I appreciate all forms of music. If music never existed, the world would be dead and you wouldn't have your music to glorify God with anyway, and their wouldn't be singers / rappers / composers / producers like myself sharing music to the world.

I will never stop somebody from listening to whatever songs that person wants to listen to, but don't stop me from what I want to listen. Music is universal and it makes the world go round. If your God believes that I'm being disrespectful towards him by playing Tori Kelly, Michael Jackson, Prince, Luther Vandross, or even Lupe Fiasco... then you have a problem. That's just me; it's to each their own anyway.

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Liking Someone Who Is Thousands of Miles Away?

I've thought about this for a couple of years of my teenage life til now. Having feelings for a male (if you're a girl) / female (if you're a guy) who is thousands of miles away.

I've been in these situations before, where you find a beautiful girl that you click with in a heartbeat, and you start talking to her nonstop, sending her emoticons showcasing your feelings, etc. Then comes the part where you want to be serious with her; she feels the same way about you. And the questions kick in such as, "How is this going to work out?", "What sacrifices will I (or the other person) have to make?", "What will others think of me?", stuff like that. I've read stories online about people's experiences and if its worked out or not. I'm not even going to look at statistics for this. I'm a big believer in love and that love knows no boundaries, but I do think its evident that its not for most people around the world. Only a few have made this happen, and I think its growing at a rapid pace, whether its interracial or not.

Something like this has happened to me with two females. One from Florida and another from Missouri. Talked to Girl One from Florida for about 5 years, decided I wanted to meet her since I was planning a 2 week vacation there. She wanted to meet me as well, but after the two weeks, it never happened. Complications arose on her end. Now for Girl Two, it only lasted for probably a good month online. Now she has a child by another man. Happy for her regardless.

I thought at that point, it was probably time for me to pack it up with meeting women through the internet and continue living my life in the music world (heh heh), then a few months down the road, I started remembering one female whom I first met in Jamaica when I was 18 and on vacation back in Summer 2009. Mixed girl, same age as me and lives in Germany. Exchanged contacts and we've been talking on and off for over four years til now. After four years of talking to this girl, today I decided to express my feelings towards her. She feels the same way about me. So now I'm back on the train (well technically since I met her face to face 4 years back).

I could tell you, "No! Don't do it! It's a waste of time! You're better off finding a woman here in xyz". But for those who are experiencing this as I currently am now, I believe there will be sacrifices that you have to make (whatever it may be), a lot of obstacles in your way. We all have that issue where we don't have the money to actually fly to that person's area and see them. You'll have more doubters than supporters of your decisions that you make. If you really want to make this work, keep the faith, work hard to make ends meet, like, from the bottom up. Stay positive ALL THE WAY THROUGH. The outcome of your work? Only time will tell...

I'm not just speaking to everyone out there that reads this, I'm also speaking to myself who is currently in this situation (again). I don't wanna sit around and wait for something to happen. I rather take action and make the most of my time achieving goals. The day will come when you and that person you have feelings for, will be in each others arms.

If you have any questions or comments, you can answer this blog.

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THE GRAND FINALE ✦

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DON'T LOSE YOUR WAAAAAY!

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Coming soon to Bandcamp, CD Baby, iTunes and more!

M.I.N.D: Music In New Dimensions [Volume 1]

Release Date: March 28, 2014