MaybeAMommy

After 4 years of trying, failed treatments and ups and downs, we are excited that our ivf miracle baby is due on Thanksgiving 2014! Infertility, pregnancy, and new mommy talk.

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Growing like a weed :)

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I leave the house for an appointment and hubby sends me this.

[maybeamommy]

6 weeks old!

Baby is doing great. Finally started gaining weight in week 2 and getting chunkier since. On the edge of outgrowing his newborn clothing! Still cries at every diaper change - cold makes him angry. Most importantly - loves mama. ;). Snoozing on my chest right now after partying last night. Motherhood is amazing and difficult and like nothing else. Such a journey!

[maybeamommy]

So no more than 5 hours after my last post I had my third previa bleeding episode and sweet little Timothy James was born via emergency c section on November 3rd. He is small (5 lbs, 7 oz) but he is mighty. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. More to come once I start to feel better and he flips his days and nights the right way around. But I am so amazingly in love with our little bundle. Can’t believe he is finally here.

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So things have been a roller coaster.

Hi all! I need to do some serious catching up on all the blogs I follow - it's been over a month since I've logged on. It's been a journey to say the least. Today I am 36 and 3 days. At exactly 32 weeks I woke up at 2 am to a big gush and I was like 'uh oh that sure felt like I imagine my water breaking would feel like'. So I waddle myself to the bathroom, flip on the light, and there is blood everywhere. Flowing down my legs. I tell you this was easily the most terrifying moment of my life. I screamed at my husband to call an ambulance and 15 minutes later I'm in L&D in triage begging God not to take my baby - and 5 minutes after I arrive I have 4 more big gushes that soak the bed I am on. When Drs throw around terms like hemmorage while they try to find the baby's heartbeat....well I was certifiably hysterical. I couldn't believe this journey would end this way. After a little searching they find his heartbeat - turns out he was breech which is why it took a bit. And mercifully, after those 4 gushes, it slows and then stops. I was given a steroid shot for baby's lungs and moved to a room. I was having contractions 2 minutes apart, so I was put on 'mag' aka magnesium, with a catheter, and told that the hope was to get to 24 hours for his lungs. Well, the contractions slowed for a bit and then picked back up - and my mag dose was upped. What an awful drug but it did it's job! At 24 hours I got my second steroid shot for baby and at 48 hours I was finally released from the mag. Sooooo.....turns out my placenta previa is still very much in place - even a partial previa caused all this trouble. I can't believe I am the 1 in 10 it did not resolve for and that I would have this much bleeding. It still is upsetting to think about. So they kept me in the hospital with the goal of making it to 34 weeks - if I make it and things look good we're looking at strict home bed rest....but a few days short of 34 weeks I had my second bleed. Still terrifying, absolutely yes, but within 20 seconds 4 nurses and my OB were there. Much better for my emotions and worries. However, this bleed, bought me a ticket to a hospital stay until a scheduled c section on nov. 5th. I write is just before the clock turns over to November 3rd to mark my 1 month anniversary in the hospital but more importantly with only 2 days to go this little guy has been strong and beaten the odds so many times, I can't believe the time to meet him is almost here. I am humbled and proud and so excited to go home with him. So the journey continues. We're getting there.

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To my ttc ladies

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they need delivery service for pregnant women

Me - “um yes Hi, i’m craving ________” Them - “We’ll be there right away!” 2 minutes later *knock on door* Delivery driver - “here ya go preggo!”

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This is a REAL need!

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At some point you just have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening.

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Good Vibes HERE

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I know you’re freaking out.

You have this baby that needs you to survive. YOU. And you don’t know if you have the ability to help this little one grow into a functional human being. Though you’ve been through rough stuff before, you now have an actual life to care for—a delicate, innocent life. But, see, here’s the thing…

You can do it.

Not only can you do it, you will. You’ll kick ass at it. Like, major ass. You might not feel like it as it’s happening, but you will.

You’ll trust you instincts, you’ll reach out for help when you need it, you’ll take time for yourself every so often, you’ll forgive yourself for getting mad or depressed and you’ll allow yourself to celebrate your victories, no matter how insignificant they seem.

You are a parent. You are not perfect, but your baby doesn’t need perfect. Your baby needs you. Flaws, quirks and all.

And the one thing, the most important thing, you can offer that baby is love. You honestly don’t need to know anything else because your love will lead you to the answers you seek. It will be the divining rod that points the way as you help this baby—your baby—grow.

So, chin up. Trust yourself. You’ve got this, okay?

You’ve got this.

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Deep Fried Pickle Poppers

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Doing this.

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adorable

[maybeamommy]

I need to stop slacking

Ok so I've been woefully absent. I'm going to regret that since I'm using this blog as a tracker/record for my pregnancy so here are some bullets: Had my first prenatal massage today. It was glorious. I need more of those. Childcare has been a HUGE stressor for me since I discovered all daycare facilities have major wait lists for months after I would need care. I have a meet up with a home daycare center tomorrow night and just want it to work out so I can check this off the list. I mean, I don't need care until March and things are already booked. INSANITY. Passed my glucose test with flying colors. Score one for the vegetarians of the world ;) Sleep has been a real gem lately. I'd love to sleep more than 2 hours at a time. That would be lovely. Every pillow and every angle....I've tried it. Doesn't matter, my back in excruciating pain wakes me up. Oh well, good prep for a hungry baby. I have 2 more work trips this month and then officially I am not to travel anymore. Glory be! Air travel is very different carrying around a little one! At least I am never lonely, The dog won't leave my side. He's finally figured out something is up. Love my 12 year old beagle. He's good company since I've been working from home more lately. Hubby has started reading to the bump at night. It's the sweetest. We're both still over the moon. We can't believe this is actually happening, we're constantly saying 'can you believe it'? He was so worth the wait. Birth class is Saturday - I'm actually pretty excited for it. Double chocolate Dunkin' Donuts ....they complete me. 29 weeks tomorrow - amazing. Love to all, no matter where you are in your journey.

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