Mommy Life and More

Hey there! Samantha 26 Living in the beautiful east Tennessee Wife to Ryne since March 7, 2012 Mommy to Kaitlin Marie born April 30, 2015 Took 2 years to conceive our booger butt due to me having PCOS I post pictures, reblogging, and tend to bitch a lot on here But this is me as a mommy and more 💜💜

[niconiconiko]

never stop being a good person because of bad people

[a-beautifull-disaster]

1.9.18 9:45 pm

I don't know what else I can say or do to help the situation. It seems like there's nothing that will help. Either I'm digging a bigger hole for myself, he doesn't believe me, or it's the same stuff over and over again which pisses him off even more.

I"m sorry my libido is unpredictable nor as high as yours. I'm sorry that I spend majority of the day with our daughter all over me so by the time she's asleep I need my own space. I'm sorry my mental health issues are too frustrating for you and hurt your ego.

Maybe if you were more understanding about it instead of making me feel guilty this wouldn't still be a problem....

[traumasuggestion]

I’m allowed to be angry about what happened. I am allowed to be angry about what you did.

[ithelpstodream]

[thestateofwellbeing]

When I become a parent, I want to make sure that I have an emotional bond with my children. I want us to have conversations, whether serious or joyful. I want them to feel comfortable coming to me with their issues. I dont want my kids to feel afraid to talk to me.

[lovelikemountains]

you ever just get in bed and ur like yep this is where i’m meant to be

[heart2heartwritings]

Let’s have a love that lasts forever.

(via heart2heartwritings)

[aus-yeezus]

Send me a letter to my inbox

A- are you single? B- birthday? C- crush? D- did u get ur first kiss? E- easiest person to talk to? F- favorite song? G- good at? H- hair color? I- in love? J- jealous of? K- known as? L- longest relationship? M- middle name? N- number? O- one wish? P- person last texted? Q- question always asked? R- reason to smile? S- song last listened to T- time you woke up? U- 3 biggest wishes? V- violent moment? W- worst fear? X- ex you still liked after it was ended? Y- your last hug? Z- zodiac sign?

[a-beautifull-disaster]

9:42 am

Woke up with my left cheek under my eye swollen. Texted ryne a picture it had us both worried because it just happens to be above where my teeth have been hurting the past few days. He said to call his mom and ask her. I described to hee as much as I could and she said it sounds like a sinus infection that's drained into my gum/cheek area. She suggested I call my Dr and ask for an antibiotic. Of course got his nurses voicemail so left a message and now I'm waiting.

I feel so fucking shitty this morning. I have a million things to do before we leave for Norfolk tomorrow but I just don't care to do anything... I'd rather just lay here being miserable...

Also I'm hungry but in too much pain to eat.

[a-beautifull-disaster]

3:03 am 12/22/17

I feel nothing like absolutely nothing. I don't even know where to start. The past few months are hazy. I've done things. I laughed and smiled and had fun. But I still feel... empty? When we talk about Christmas and Kaitlin I'm all excited and happy. But in quiet moments like now when I'm trying to fall asleep or earlier while washing dishes I feel nothing. I have no joy for the holidays....

Honestly, all I want is to crawl in a corner and hide for awhile. I don't want to deal with anyone or anything. I just want to disappear...

[what-even-is-thiss]

Yesterday my dad told me something that I think maybe more people need to hear.

You’re allowed to just do things for fun.

He told me that in this modern society, especially the United States, we seem to have this attitude that we shouldn’t do something unless we’re aiming to be the best at it. If we can’t sing like Beyonce or Frank Sinatra or something there’s no point to singing. If we can’t make the next big breakthrough there’s no point in looking into mechanics and engineering.

But, he tells me, it took him a long time to figure out that life doesn’t have to be a race. If you want to take up the piano when you’re a teenager or later you’re not going to master it. You’re not going to be able to play to huge concert halls, but that also shouldn’t stop you. You can study a language out of curiosity and then drop the ball if you want. You can just get okay at something or even be terrible at it. You can drop it for days or years and then pick it up again and it doesn’t have to be a shameful thing.

I’m really glad he told me that because today I opened my sketchpad for the first time in months and just started drawing. And it looks terrible. But I don’t care. I don’t have the talent or patience or spacial awareness to get anywhere near good at drawing, but it’s fun. It helps me focus my mind and nobody has to see it.

And because of what he told me, I’m thinking maybe someday soon I will take up the bass guitar. And I won’t worry about how well I do, or how fast I learn, or that I haven’t played an instrument since sixth grade, or that I don’t have that much time to practice. I’m just gonna enjoy the experience. Maybe I’ll try swing dancing again and take a class because I’m not the best dancer but damn if it isn’t fun.

Yeah, you don’t have to be good at things. It’s not a requirement. Maybe that seems obvious but it had never occurred to me before. You’re allowed to just enjoy what you’re doing. For me, that feels like a life changing revelation. I don’t have to be good at something to like it. I don’t have to put 100% effort into everything I do. It’s kind of amazing.

[kateordie]

“What are you doing on tumblr if you’re over 25???”

Avoiding my responsibilities and giving in to depression, same as all of you

[hipstered]

have a relationship thats mature enough to sit down and be like “ look this is our problem and this is how we’re gonna fix it..” SIMPLE

[stolenfootprints]

Just because your day started off badly doesn’t mean it has to end bad, take some deep breathes, look around, think about all the things you have to be thankful for and tell yourself the rest of the day is going to be a good one.

[teenbitch-deactivated20151216]

has anyone else’s life been really off lately or is it just me

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

I’ve had so many knives stuck into me, when they hand me a flower I can’t quite make out what it is. It takes time.

Charles Bukowski (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[griffys]

[tijopi11]

Why are people having so much issue with the article, I agreed with it? The title isn’t the most eloquent thing ever but the article wasn’t encouraging cheating, where you go behind your partners back, but instead looking at the issue of cheating as a not black-and-white thing where there’s one horribly evil person who just wanted to have fun/get laid with one traumatized-for-life victim. Instead, like most- nah, let me say with ANYTHING in real life beyond fiction, the article sees the grays in cheating and why the person cheated in the first place. Not to say that cheating isn’t a horrible thing to do, but I feel like people need to understand that there are reasons people do the things they do. People who cheat are human beings. They could feel horrible about it, they could be trapped in a marriage or relationship that they don’t feel they can escape, they can feel insecure and unloved. Again, not to say it’s something you should ever do, but dehumanizing someone over a mistake is just as bad in my opinion. There’s nowhere where they can talk about their experiences, and it’s likely we know a lot of people who have cheated in our lives even if they haven’t (or were too scared) to tell us about it. 

[yellowjuice-deactivated20190512]

“dehumanizing someone over a mistake”