netflix is funny for releasing that stranger things documentary because the whole thing is just cast and crew members looking beyond disappointed by that terrible script for the finale 😭 like why would you include THESE in the documentary that was supposed to paint your show in a positive light?
I Just Realised Will's Coming Out Was Also His Self-Eulogy...
Dustin talks about the bridge being held together by exotic matter, represented by the circle on the diagram.
Then later we see Will with his head aligned with the exotic matter circle represented in the diagram.
Then after his talk with Max, her comment about everyone having something they're scared of (Henry with the cave, Will's sexuality) is what motivates him to finally come out to his mom and the whole party.
And later in the coming out scene, Max clocks this when Will talks about Vecna being able to look into their minds and use their insecurities against them.
But what nobody clocks is what Will really means when he tells the party that he needs to be in the Upside-Down while El fights Vecna...
Because Will is planning to sacrifice himself to destroy the exotic matter.
Now it makes sense as to why Will came out to everyone instead of just Joyce and Mike. Not only because he wanted the truth to be out in the open so it couldn't be weaponised by Vecna, but so he could finally be honest about himself for the very last time.
Now it makes sense why he assumed Mike "wasn't like him" and was just, 'his Tammy' when he still hasn't directly talked to Mike about his feelings. By this point, he had seen no hope for a future with Mike and even though he loved him, he was ready to let him go.
At the beginning of 'The Bridge', Will blames himself for being Vecna's vessel. Blaming himself for being weak and controlled.
But even after he's came out, he still holds onto that guilt. If he destroys the exotic mass, even if it costs his life, he thinks it will compensate for digging the tunnels and everything that's happened to him under Vecna's possesion.
Will isn't afraid anymore because he's came out. He's not afraid anymore because he's ready to die.
Going through from S1 to now, somehow I can understand them being suicidal.
All of them have PTSD. What I love from Stranger Things is the fact that they're humans, and all of them went through traumatizing events, yet they share it only within them since most Hawkins people don't even know a sht. No wonder if all of them are desperate.
Up to this point, I still like all of their development except Mike. I do wish he breaks in the last episode, tho. At this point, he thrives so hard to be okay. I feel that he thinks his emotions can make him weak by this point. 🥲
Here's my thing. Here's why I'm still here, still...confused, by the idea of them not doing Byler. In every other plotline, every other theme? They exceeded my expectations this volume.
They addressed that bonding over shared trauma is not a healthy basis of relationship, saying that it only creates a feeling of closeness for a few years before it feels stifling. I had NO expectation that they would say this about them. Wonderful job. The unproposal together instead of just Jonathan realizing he shouldn't and never telling her he was going to was so sweet, I loved that scene.
I expected them to address Dustin's grief and the parallel between Steve and Eddie in his life, but I did NOT expect them to directly address Steve's jealousy in season 4 and how it affected his relationship with Dustin and Eddie's death! That was AMAZING! I was very impressed.
Honestly, overrall, that whole group's season 4 plotline and my analyses of it I did not expect to be so brought to light. I said that Nancy wasn't interested in Steve just, finding ways to distance from Jonathan, and she SAID that. I said it wasn't about Nancy for Steve, it was about feeling rejected by Dustin and he SAID that. Both those topics were only really clued into by one or two lines in the whole of season 4 but they came back to them very directly!
Max directly telling Holly that not acting in a situation where you could not have helped and only would have endangered yourself too is not the same as cowardice is what I've been saying about Will's plot and the themes of the character deaths - including Eddie's, which was MENTIONED in this context - for YEARS! And they had her directly address it to Holly. That not stabbing Vecna with a fire poker because you know it won't help and standing by at the sight of violence are not the same thing. Sometimes your body paralyzes you because it knows there is a reason for your fear, and you should NOT overpower it out of some moral self-berating. That is a LIFE-SAVING message I have praised in this show for YEARS but never have they said it explicitly like that and they DID.
I also really liked that they came back to El's anger at Hopper for planning to sacrifice himself. That was a smaller, side one for me but I didn't expect them to, I kind of expected it to be swept under the rug and them move on in their fight, but it wasn't. She did lose him for almost a year and she was hurt by his decision to risk that again. It makes total sense and I think it was very strong for them to address that.
And actually TO talk about Will's queerness, let's do it.
They started that coming out strong out of the gate. With his fear not just being rejection, but change. Even in allyship, that his loved ones would treat him as some fragile thing again and their relationship would change. That they wouldn't leave him on purpose but that it would just naturally cause them to drift over time. Those are very real and common fears that are extremely under-talked about. The grief over connection in adolescence he mentions, that he's saddened by the fact that they have always shared so much that it felt strange when he couldn't relate to them on something. It isn't always that he wanted to be straight but that he wanted to continue to be the same as them.
Those are all very specific details not usually addressed or acknowledged. It's usually simplified to "fear of homophobia", because that's about all that straight people understand of why people don't come out. But "I'm afraid you'll try your best to keep me in your life and support and accept me but we will ultimately drift apart because we won't be able to relate to each other in the same way anymore" brought back VIVID memories for me.
And the actual framing of the coming out itself. I already felt great when we started with that conversation between Will and Robin. Coming out was not described as a goal. It was described as a step. That made me very happy. It is rarely done. But queer stories should not center straight people finding out. Straight people patting themselves on the back for simply not rejecting you. As if straight people provided you your happy ending in choosing not to harm you. It is a step TOWARDS your actual personal desires. Coming out is an important step TOWARDS the romance that is actually your goal. The want you realized that started this all. It is a checkbox, not a finale. It is a jumping off point.
Everything but Mike hit the nail on the head for me. Honestly. That's what confuses me. Because it is the same values they just demonstrated so beautifully that would save his character in this finale.
That's what confuses me. That's what I keep coming back to.
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Premise : After Laios becomes the King of Melini, everyone is starting to wonder if Laios would ever marry anyone, well... will he?
P.S : I write this for my own consumption... i just need this.
Yaad (in Delgal's body) been trying so hard to push Laios to have a Bride as he said "You should have an heir to proceed the succession!" Or so he said. Despite so, everyone (except Laios) knows it's because of Laios's curse that Yaad keeps asking him to have an heir. Despite so Marcille was unsure whether Laios's curse would be inherited by his heir. This has cause Kabru to fear over Laios as his right man.
Laios, on the other hand, has been wondering about who would be his bride. It doesn't seem possible to find one for him. He did have a lover back then, but his feelings towards the person isn't even that... passionate -nor romantic enough. He also thinks about who would ever fall for him. After the demon shows him his desire to be accepted, he realizes it would be almost impossible for him to find a lover knowing people hardly understand him.
On his bed, he's lying over while daydreaming about having a bride. He is trying to portray a beautiful red hair women, but it ended up reminding him of his mom. He tried harder to find someone else, he remembered the succubi form of Marcille -but instead of that, he was too focused on the monster looks instead...
"Ugh!!! It would be easier if I'm not a King! Kabru fits this role more!!!" Laios scream within his frustration.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
"Brother?"
"Oh Fallyn! Yes, come inside!" shout Laios.
Fallyn opened the door and looked at her brother, looking quite messy after he got frustrated.
"I heard you screaming from outside. Did something happen?"
"Oh... uh... I'll be alright, sorry to bother you."
Fallyn sat beside him and start to pat her brother head softly.
"Marcille told me that Yaad has been quite pushy about you having an heir. She said that you might get frustrated over it. Kabru also started to get worried that it might make more problems to Melini."
Laios's face becomes paler. It does frustrate him. However, it's not like he doesn't want to have a bride and an heir. His self-esteem says that he doesn't deserve any of that. Looking at this, his little sister hugged him tight.
"No need to think too much brother, you'll find someone to love, who loves you too someday."
Fallyn coughed a bit, then she proceeded with her speech.
"-I didn't know mine too at first, till I was being told by Chillchuck that Marcille is in love with me. I just realized that she loves me that much after listening to your journey. After she confessed her jealousy and her broken heart after I tried to consider Shuro's proposal, we ended up being together."
Fallyn flustered thinking over that memory. Laios's is truly happy knowing that his sister finds someone who loves her sincerely.
"It seems impossible for me, though. But maybe -maybe I'll find one like you do Fallyn. I'm so happy for you."
Both of them are smiling to one another.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
"Laios, are you there?"
BAAAAAAAAAMMMM
A male voice came from outside the door. He then smashed to get inside without even waiting for Laios to answer.
"O-oh sorry, I didn't know you're talking to Fallyn."
"Ah, it's fine, I'm preparing myself to sleep anyway." said Fallyn softly.
Fallyn kiss her brother's head.
"Well brother, take your time okay."
Laios nodded to Fallyn and waved to her as she went out.
The male who smashed the door is his right hand, Kabru, he looked somehow a bit... frustrated? But, mixed with some worries. He goes inside and grabs a seat next to Laios's bed.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt your talk with Fallyn -it's just I think we really need to talk."
"Ah yeah, it's alright... But, what bothers you Kabru?"
Kabru was messing his hair as Laios's asked that.
"Yaad's demand about your heir... do you have any idea on facing that?"
Laios shakes his head while looking sad. Kabru realized it's hard for him as well.
"Well, Marcille said that the chance that your heir would inherit your curse might be low as well. I don't think you need to think much about that haha!"
Laios's didn't bother Kabru's statement about that. His head seems to worry over something else instead.
"I don't even think someone would love me like that you know..."
His voice sounds desperate, but Kabru can't think about anyone either, not even Chillchuck's daughters, the orcs, nor any maiden would want to be Laios's bride if they know how Laios is. He is unable to see Laios's desperation being put on his face, though.
"Laios, you're the brave King who faced the demon and bring the glory to Melini! There must be someone who would love to be your bride!"
Laios suddenly stare Kabru with his dark eyes.
"Who? Who would it be? Not even you would love me like that."
"H-huh?!" Kabru flustered hearing Laios's words.
M-me?! Does he love me this whole time?! W-wait, did he chose me because he loves me? It doesn't make sense!!! Or is it?
Kabru tried to regain himself. Laios, on the other hand, looking down to his hand in front of him. Kabru then put his hand on top of Laios's.
"Do you think I would fit to be your bride?"
Laios was struck by that question. He didn't ever think about whether it's possible or not, but if it is, Kabru is the best bride he could ever asked. Someone who has the charm and being loved by Melini, also the best person who understands him. What a big win!
"OF COURSE!!! YOU'LL BE THE BEST BRIDE I COULD EVER ASKED!!!"
Laios impulsively made such answer.
Kabru struck off. He is beyond flustered. His whole face is red, thankfully his dark skin hides it, but he couldn't even think. How come someone like Laios managed to get this side of him? But, does Laios even love him?
He is regaining himself again, clearing his throat and start to talk again.
"Uh well... well then, say... can you even think to sleep with me?"
"Sleep with you? Well, sure! You can sleep here with me." Laios patting his bed.
Laios's face is like the golden haired dog looking moron and excited in the same time. Kabru still trying to hold his flustered. He then slide beside Laios, as Laios gave him a place to fit on his bed. It was a bit awkward for them at first, but Laios seems to fit in quite well. He's still smiling like a dog, and Kabru can't help to giggle.
Kabru embrace Laios's face, making him facing his. He get closer and put his nose on Laios's. He can feels Laios's breath. Then he whisper towards him.
"Can I kiss my King then?"
Laios flustered -can't think, he nodded and letting Kabru giving him a kiss.
It was tense, a bit cold... but then it changed. Tender, soft, and a glimpse of sweetness can be tasted. He grasps for some air, and dig in for more.
Kabru didn't let go either, he is eager. He took more, not letting Laios to take a break. Changing his position -he didn't let Laios to stop kissing him. He is now sitting on Laios lap, holding his head, craving more of his lips. All he can think about is how big Laios is, and how small he is. How muscular Laios is, and how thin he is. Yet, how Laios holding his back gently, scared to hurt him while he is eating Laios alive. It was so heaty, and none of them is stopping.
The kiss took much longer than Laios expected. He had never had this kind of burning sensation before. Kabru stopped and grasped for air as Laios gasped.
Laios eyes has become that puppy eyes. Asking to be loved, and not being let go. Kabru melts into his eyes.
It's not the first time he felt this way to him. Remembering the time when they met again after Laios fought the demon. His desperation that time when he feels that he has failed. That moment his eyes asking to be loved, the same like how his eyes look right now. Kabru just can't let go.
Laios tried to talk, but his word stuck on his mouth. Kabru came in again to peck his lips. Holding his head, then putting his head to Laios's.
"Say, how does it feel?"
Laios gulped.
"Hot..."
Kabru giggles after hearing what Laios said. Didn't realize that a hard bump touches his crotch.
"O-oh..."
"A-AH!" Laios screamed.
Kabru put his on his mouth, preventing him to make further noise.
"S-ssht... it's alright, I'll take care of it."
Laios jolted as Kabru changed their position. He asked Laios to sit on his bed edge, then opened his pants, and slid off his undies. Laios's lower head sprung off, and already quite hard. Laios kept jolting, but he tried hard not to make any noise.
Kabru started to slide his hand up and down while Laios whimpered. Laios got wet easily, since his pre-cum didn't take long. He is so erected that he hardly able to hold anything much longer.
Kabru took the opportunity to suck it and make it even more drenched. Laios tried as hard as he can not to cum on Kabru's face.
"S-stop it, I need to cum."
Kabru made the last suck deeply, then stopped as Laios quickly cummed while his body squirmed. He made quite a mess on Kabru's shirt.
"A-aahhh!! I don't mean to-"
Kabru just smiled. He licked a bit of it to tease him, and then he stood up. He took the napkin on the nearest table. Swiped the liquid from himself, and clean Laios's.
Laios just stand still while still squirming. Once it's done, Kabru throws the napkin away, and he slides into Laios's side to sleep with him.
"Am I good enough to be your bride Laios?"
Laios nodded so hard.
Kabru just giggles after watching him like that. He snuck into Laios's chest, and Laios adjust his hand to cuddle him.
"I can grow my love to you into such love."
He gazed into Laios's eyes.
"The kind of love your bride would love you."
Laios's face became so red. His eyes hardly focus on Kabru's. Kabru embraced his face one more time and gave him a short sweet kiss.
Laios pushed himself to say words.
"I-I would love you... as my lover."
Kabru smiled, listening to that. He started to close his eyes. Laios joins afterward and sleeps while cuddling his beloved one.
Well, it seems that an heir would be another problem, but for now, Laios is fulfilled with the bride he gets.
Ferrera said it felt like she filmed 500 takes of the speech over the two days of filming, adding, “It was probably 30 to 50 full runs of it, top to bottom. By the end, [co-star Ariana Greenblatt] recited the monologue to me because she had memorized it because that’s how many times I had said it.”
- those weird shapes that come in different colours and you HAVE to watch them float through one side of the room to the other then disappear
- weird squiggly black lines that dance around in front of you and usually make everything around you blurry except for that black thing
- people’s voices echoing but the echo is very deep and demonic sounding so you can barely understand what people are saying
- not showering for so long because you thought you showered an hour ago but in reality you haven’t showered at all
- not eating for days on end because the food is obviously poisoned or you have ugly gustatory hallucinations from eating so food is not good
- your vision going completely blurry and black for a while and you literally cannot see properly enough to function so you’re like woah
- watching a horror movie or a movie with a monster so obviously that movie was a secret message that the person/monster is out to get you
- there’s ALWAYS someone or something going after you
- wanting to please the thing that’s after you so you don’t get hurt so you listen to the voices and do whatever they tell you because they know what will please your persecutor
- making yourself bleed because that proves you’re a real person
- making yourself bleed but this time you don’t know how, when, or why
- saying things out loud that were meant to be in your head
- you’re a psychic because you’re right about things in the future 38% of the time
- pretending to be speaking on the phone with someone when in reality you’re just talking to yourself/the voices
- not caring enough to distinguish what’s a hallucination or not because it’s too much work
- people thinking you’re acting drunk after an anxiety or panic attack/very bad seizure-like psychotic episode but in reality it’s just really bad psychosis
- saying something and people laughing but you have no idea what you said that was funny
- hallucinating pain in your body and then having hypochondriac type delusions that you’re going to die so you prepare for death
- believing anything anyone says even if it’s completely absurd or meant as sarcasm
- doing something and then forgetting you did the thing and doing it again and again until you realize you did it several times
- sleeping but not really sleeping because it’s like you get a good ten minutes of sleep before you wake up and take at least half an hour to sleep since auditory hallucinations continue on even throughout sleep
- hallucinating being cold so you’re wearing four layers or jackets, two layers or socks, very warm pj pants, mittens, and sitting right beside the heater turned to max
- that one hallucination that’s positive and encouraging but you can’t tell if it’s mocking you or being genuine
- all inanimate objects are alive so you have to be polite always
- telling people you’re not psychotic when they say you seem extremely ill but your insight is 0
- literally having to be taken care of like a small child: being reminded to eat, shower etc. basically people making sure you’re doing mundane basic human things
- having to be reminded you’re a human that needs to do basic human functions when in reality you feel as if you had the needs of inanimate objects which is nothing really
- having so much trouble walking and keeping your balance so people literally have to hold you while walking so you don’t fall over
- all of a sudden feeling like your body is floating in soft clouds or like you’re in a very warm bath and you can feel yourself losing any and all control of yourself
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