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25. She/Her Aspiring Writer

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I have always loved reading fan-fiction but I've never had the courage to write my own, even though I've had many fanfic ideas. I am trying to write my first novel at the moment and I think that having a space where I can practice my writing and to clear my head would be helpful for me.

So please be gentle with me :)

Last Updated: 08/03/25

Favourite Fanfics

All Other Read Fanfics

Fav Published Romance Books P.1

Fav Published Romance Books P.2

My Writing

Harry Potter

Draco x Hermione

The Last of Us

Joel Miller

DC Universe

Bruce Wayne

Jason Todd

Avatar

Neteyam

The 100

Bellamy Blake

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note: we love a tattooed bad boy with a soft side!

published: 17/10/25

Jason Todd Masterlist

word count: 789

Jason always liked to draw as a kid, even when him and mom were starving. When they didn’t have enough money to buy food he’d go to cafes or diners and take the left over scraps off peoples plates, then take a few napkins and the waitress’ pen home too. He’d find that if he could draw that the hunger that gnawed through his gut wasn’t so obvious. 

When he got a little older and was confident enough to walk the streets of Crime Alley alone at night, a stolen spray can was his weapon of choice. Considering it a sacred object, having watched it roll out of a construction workers bag before he snatched it up, he was never without it, the red can nestled in his pocket wherever he went. Most kids his age graffitiing would leave obnoxious tags one onto of the other, but Jason would find an empty space on a wall and leave a drawing. Sometimes it would be a simple doodle of a face, or a quote that he’d read from his latest library book, but more often then not it was birds. Outlines of birds as they fly or sitting on branches but mostly with their wings spread, its wingspan reaching across the entire blank space on the wall. He’d liked making his mark, that others would see it, admire it, excepted he always come back a week later to find it cover in tags and get frustrated that his art could never be permanent, always lost and forgotten. 

For Jason’s first birthday with Bruce he was given a drawing box set with rows and rows of graphite pencils, coloured markers and charcoal blocks, along with a couple large sketch books. Since living with Bruce he’d stopped drawing, being too busy with his new school and patrol, and no longer needing it as an outlet for his hunger or loneliness, so safe to say that receiving a gift for a hobby that no one should know about was a surprise. Bruce then explained that on almost all of his reports there were drawings, good ones, but that maybe it would be better if he drew not on important documents about drug lords and crazy clowns but started a collection in a sketchbook. For months after there would not be a time where he didn’t have his sketchbook, or stained fingers from charcoal, all of his free time was spent learning how to use his gift, and creating art that he wanted people to see, he’d just have to work up the courage to show someone one day. 

After his death Jason had lost who he was, his body wasn’t familiar, littered with scars and so much bigger than he’d remembered, and his mind wasn’t his either, Jason had lost the life he’d once had and along with it the things he use to love, he’d lost himself. He’d forgotten that he loved to draw, that when he’d had a bad day he’d alway look forward to creating something from his mind, but now his mind was his enemy and the childish thought of drawing on a piece of paper for no one to see seemed pointless when there were so many things the had to do, people he had to bring to justice. It wasn’t until after he’d confronted Bruce and started to heal that tattooing became an interest, for one thing it would mean that his art would be permanent, never lost or cover or hidden, and always with him. Another reason why was the scars, Jason had never minder his scars that he’d got as Robin, each one showing how tough he was, but the reminders that the Joker left on his body were too much for even him to look at sometimes. 

His first attempt at tattooing himself was on his foot, a safe spot to learn and easily hidden if he messed up. It was the dates from his ‘first life’ along the inner edge of his foot, a clear reminder of who he once was and that that kid was still walking around with him. His next on his arm a quote from Anna Karenina ‘It’s much better to do good in a way that no one knows anything about it.’ He would add more and more tattoos, carefully working ink over raised bumps and indentations from scaring, covering their ugliness with imperfect drawings, each a piece of himself put on display to cover what he wished to forget. And for the large autopsy scar, it raised lines a the proof that the kid he once was had died, he’d once again draw a bird with is wingspan reaching across his chest, cover him, protecting his heart.  

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Dermatillomania- also known as skin picking disorder or excoriation disorder, is a mental health condition where you compulsively pick at your skin. This can cause injuries, infections and scarring, leading to stress, anxiety and a reduced sense of well-being.

published: 16/10/25

Jason Todd Masterlist

word count: 743

Jason likes to think that his hard exterior stops anyone from knowing how he’s feeling, with all of the training that Bruce has given him on how to use his body language to manipulate people, he thinks that no one can tell when he’s had a bad day or an even worse night. 

What he doesn’t realise is that the scabs that litter is hands and arms, along with his fingernails gnawed to the point of bleeding, an unconscious habit that he only indulges in when he’s in the comfort of his safe houses, give him away. 

Dick will alway check in when they’re sparing, watching to see if he can spot any fresh ones, or if the old one are healing properly. And if he sees one that starts bleeding after a session he’ll ask Jason if he wants to stay for a movie or go out for a drink, knowing that even a couple more hours with people will stop him from picking at them.

Tim only notices when their looking at files on the Bat computer, he’d be on his side hacking into the GCPD, and he’d look over and see that Jason is typing a lot slower then he usually does because he’s only using half his fingers, the other ones are swollen and tender from being chewed on. Tim will then ask Jason if they can go and get a physical file from the GCPD headquarters, knowing that the gloves on his costume will protect his hands from himself for a little while longer.

Damian ever observant but emotionally stunted will see Jason's nails and used the tactic that he knows best, manipulating people with his age. He’d go to Jason having bitten all of his nails, complain about how Alfred has given him this nail polish called ‘stop and grow’ that tastes bad as to help him stop biting. He’d be dramatic and act like a petulant child, and Jason, familiar with this behaviour because of their time spent together with the league, will casually mention how he bites his nails too and that they could make it a competition to see who can last the longest. They’d paint each other nails with the polish, and Damian will feel proud walking away knowing he’s help Jason more than any of the other could.

Alfred knows what everyone under his care needs before they even know it, which is why he’d put a box of ‘old gadgets’ that need fixing in front of Jason whenever he’s about to leave. A broken blender, a stopped watch, or much to Bruces chagrin, a jammed pistol. He’d say “given you are the best at fixing things Master Jason, I would appreciate if you mended these for me as quick as you can”, not giving him any other option but to agree and go home and spend his free time distracted by the projects.

Bruce knows his son well, but since his death the connection that they once had is gone. When Jason was younger and Bruce would notice his scabs or his nails he wouldn’t hesitate to sit Jason down so that they could talk through what was going on. But now they struggle to even get through a night of patrol or a family dinner. So when Bruce notices now, he’d still get the urge to talk to him, before he pulls himself back and calls you instead. 

You alway know when things are getting bad for Jason, and you never need to look at his scabs to see he’s struggling because you are the only person Jason lets his guard down around. You are sitting next to him when he unconsciously picks at a scab or bites off a hangnail, gently grab his hand and lacing it with yours to stop him. When he’s going away on a long mission you’d sit down together and paint each others nails, and you tell him that it’s to remind him that you’re waiting for him to get home safe, he’d come back with un-chipped polish. And you’ve gotten so involved with each other lives that you’ve convinced him to do skin care with you, you’d stand side by side in the mirror watching each other put layer upon layer of product, and on days where it's bad you'd do it for him, massaging the product into his arms as you chat about your day, while he gazes lovingly at you, trying not miss a single word you say. 

Jason knows that he can hide his emotions from his family, and he knows that when it’s bad… sometimes he doesn’t want to, so he lets them care. 

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Patrolling with Poirot - Jason Todd

note: what speed do you think Jason would listen to audiobooks at?

published: 08/03/25

Jason Todd Masterlist

word count: 338

The batkids would totally be listening something in their coms while on patrol, usually music: heavy metal, classical, pop (in Dick's case), or maybe podcasts. Jason however would listen to audiobooks.

Jason would be jumping from a roof to apprehend a criminal and pause, lifting his hand to stop the guy from hitting him, he'd tilt his head to the side a little bit and look at the ground for a second, before making a noise that the criminal could only describe as an aww, before Jason plants his feet and swings at him. (Jason had just gotten to the part in his romance novel where the male love interest finally professes his love)

Barbra would be contacting him through his coms trying to tell him something, only for Jason to tell her to "fuck off for like three minutes" because he's just reached the part of his Agatha Christie novel where Poirot is revealing who the killer is. (Everyone has now learned not to bother him unless it was an emergency after one to many interruptions lead to Jason hacking their coms to play Cotten Eye Joe on repeat)

Dick and him would be sitting on a rooftop sore and tired, eating after patrol. Dick would be rambling about something and Jason would turn to him and tell him that his sci-fi book as 5 minutes left and that he'll listen to whatever he wants after its done.

After making a mistake on patrol Bruce would be chewing him out but Jason wouldn't hear a thing because he's to busy listening to Percy Jackson fight Ares, his face schooled into one of indifference until he just says "okay" after Bruce is done, slightly confusing Bruce that he didn't defend himself, expecting he'd put up more of a fight instead just walking away.

With all of his other commitments keeping him so busy, Jason would use the many hours at night that he waits for crime to happen as a way to catch up on his TBR.

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bingewatching will never come close to bingereading. there is nothing like blocking out the entire Earth for ten hours to read a book in one sitting no food no water no shower no bra and emerging at the end with no idea what time it is or where you are, a dried-up prune that's sensitive to light and loud noises because you've been in your room in the dark reading by the glow of a single LED. it's like coming back after a three-month vacation in another dimension and now you have to go downstairs and make dinner. absolutely transcendental

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The Librarian - Jason Todd

note: we all know that Jason's the biggest book nerd, lets be real he would totally be a librarian

posted: 06/03/25

Jason Todd Masterlist

word count: 811

LibrarianJason! decided to go back to school after his experience in the pit. He gets his GED, then a Diploma in Library and Community Services, and is still studying for his Masters in Literary Studies while he works at the library. Probably also getting a number of certificates on the side in things like, creative writing, gender studies, support worker, teaching, and so many more. Jason would be what others call a forever student, moving from one course to another, following his interests and always learning.

LibrarianJason! stole Bruce's bank details and made a generous donation to Gotham's public library on his behalf. Buying all new books, computers, security, furniture and just revamping the entire building in general. The library is now the most well run building in the city because Jason makes it his job to protect and take care of it.

LibrarianJason! would take books with him wherever he went, in a large overflowing satchel that seemed too heavy for anyone to carry. When he's over at the manor he'd always find his satchel opened, a few books missing, and then the next time he'd visit they would be magically returned. Over dinner he would ask them all what they though of the books. Dick would rant about how the thriller he read had the best plot twist. Tim would explain the awesome computer system that a character had in his science fiction book, and how he might try to recreate it. Bruce will mention that he just re-read Dickens for the hundredth time and Alfred would thank Jason for the nonfiction book on roman history. Damian would not mention what he read until much later when no one was around, he would sneak into Jason's apartment so that they could discuss the latest Jane Austen that he had read. Jason started to fill his satchel with books he's think everyone would like whenever he went over to the manor.

LibrarianJason! created and leads community programs like reading and writing skills, tutoring, computer and financial literacy, jobseeker or homeless support and many more. Not to mention running groups such as AA and NA, PTSD support, mental health support, cancer support and many others. He takes pride in helping his community this way, whether by teaching an 11 year old how to read or telling people about his experience with his mum and the affect that drugs had on their lives.

LibrarianJason! is the best at organising events. He manages weekly food banks and lunches in the library cafe, usually spending the evening before prepping and cooking with Alfred. He organises book fairs for schools and clothes drives, creating hampers for those he knows can't make it and delivering it to them himself so that they don't miss out. He even puts himself out of his comfort zone by organising a yearly gala with Bruce in order to raise money for the library.

LibrarianJason! runs about 12 books clubs a month, from ones about classic literature to science fiction to romance, and he reads every book required. He enjoys sitting down with people and having in-depth discussions on themes and characters, as well as getting to gush over a swoon worthy romance or a really good plot twist. But what he loves most is watching people eat his plate of home made biscuits or desserts, a new recipe each month.

LibrarianJason! reads picture books to kids for a few hours every Saturday and Sunday so that the parents can have a break. He'd sit on a beanbag chair and at least six kids would try to launch themselves into his lap, he'd end up reading the books with a kid hanging off each arm as the rest sit at his feet in anticipation. There are about 25 kids who run up to him whenever they see him on the street to request a book for the next session. Jason always reads what is requested.

LibrarianJason! stays back after work most nights to let a group of homeless kids in so that they have somewhere warm to stay for the night. He'd get them all dinner (usually a bat-burger) and give them all a blanket, setting them up on the couches, before reading them a bedtime story. After they'd all fallen asleep Jason would go out on patrol but never venture too far from the library, just incase.

LibrarianJason! may only be a librarian but to the people of Gotham he's much more, he's the one they turn to when they need help, and thats all that Jason has every wanted.

LibrarianJason! when he gets a free moment, will find the darkest corner of the library and sit with his back against the wall and a book in his lap, enjoying the few moments of escape before getting up and going back to the job that he loves.

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Park Row's Protector - Jason Todd

note: Crime Alley's offical name is Park Row.

posted: 05/03/25

Jason Todd Masterlist

word count: 365

I like to think that Jason spends most of his nights as Red Hood patrolling the streets around Crime Alley. That all vigilantes and villains know not go anywhere near it unless they want to experience a world of hurt.

He's driven Penguin, Falcone, Black Mask and many others away over and over again until they stopped coming back, solidifying himself as Park Row's protector.

Park Row is now one of the safest bocks in all of Gotham because of him, its crime is controlled, with Jason overseeing the handling of drugs and other goods, but its never violent, and if a criminal did attack someone they would find themselves unceremoniously dropped into a dumpster six block over, bruised and bloodied, usually somewhere the Batman would find them, making it his problem then.

He'd make his henchmen climb up fire escapes to talk to him about business, listening to them while his arms are lent against the edge of the building, looking down on the alley bellow where a group of young boys are playing a scrappy game of baseball with ply wood sticks and a ball.

Jason remembers what it felt like to walk through those streets, not knowing if you were going to make it home, and even if you did not feeling safe to sleep at night. He would be determined to make sure that those boys would never had the same fears he grew up with.

Jason would take his second chance as a sign to give back, whether through volunteering at local food banks and tutoring at the Gotham's public high school as Jason Todd, or being the protector that his community needs at night, as the Red Hood.

The people of Park Row know that when they see a guy with a ski-mask and red bandanna bounce down a flight of fire escape stairs, that Red Hood is watching, and they can walk home without fear following them.

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Fav Published Romance Books P.2

Once again in no particular order, just Romance Books that I have like or loved reading (favs will have ❤️ next to them), most of which are series, a continuation of P.1 with the genres that I couldn't fit. Again for my own record keeping. I will attempt to keep genres and authors together but who knows. I'll just keep adding as I read more :)

I"m going to just start adding series that I've read recently but I will have to go back and look at my old reads, so this will take time to develop into a proper list. I'm also going to add the ones I haven't read yet as a sort of TBR.

Part 1

Part 2 Genre List

Fantasy / Romantasy

Dark Romance

Taboo Romance

Fantasy Romances

Hannah Nicole Maehrer

Assistant to the Villain

Assistant to the Villain

Apprentice to the Villain

Accomplice to the Villain

Adversary to the Villain (TBR)

Sarah J Mass

A Court of Thorns and Roses

A Court of Thorns and Roses

A Court of Mist and Fury

A Court of Wings and Ruin

A Court of Frost and Starlight

A Court of Silver Flames (TBR)

Throne of Glass Series (TBR)

Crescent City Series (TBR)

Cassandra Clare

The Mortal Instruments

City of Bones

City of Ashes

City of Glass

City of Fallen Angels

City of Lost Souls

City of Heavenly Fire

Dark Romance

Navessa Allen

Into Darkness

Lights Out ❤️

Caught Up

Game On (TBR)

Sophie Lark

Brutal Birthright

Brutal Prince

Stolen Heir

Savage Lover

Bloody Heart (TBR)

Broken Vow (TBR)

Heavy Crown (TBR)

Danielle Lori

The Made Series

The Sweetest Oblivion (TBR)

The Maddest Obsession

The Darkest Temptation

Jennifer Hartmann (TW!!)

Still Beating ❤️

Lotus

Older

K.M.Moronova

Leave Me Behind (loved 1st half, not so much the 2nd)

Taboo Romances (TW!!)

Penelope Douglas

Credence ❤️

Birthday Girl

Five Brothers :(

Jade West

Sugar Daddies

Sara Cate

Salacious Players Club

Praise

Eyes on Me

Give Me More (TBR)

Mercy (TBR)

Highest Bidder (TBR)

Madame (TBR)

Sierra Simone

Priest

Priest

Midnight Mass

Sinner

Saint (TBR)

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Fav Published Romance Books P.1

In no particular order, just Romance Books that I have like or loved reading (favs will have ❤️ next to them), most of which are series. Once again for my own record keeping. I will attempt to keep genres and authors together but who knows. I'll just keep adding as I read more :)

I"m going to just start adding series that I've read recently but I will have to go back and look at my old reads, so this will take time to develop into a proper list. I'm also going to add the ones I'm yet to read as a little TBR.

Part 2

Part 1 Genre List

Historical Romance

Cowboy Romance

Sports Romance

General Contemporary Romance

Young Adult Romance

Historical Romance (not era specific)

Lynsay Sands

The Switch

Highland Brides ❤️

An English Bride in Scotland

To Marry a Scottish Laird

The Highlander Takes a Bride

Falling for the Highlander

Surrender to the Highlander

The Highlander's Promise

The Wrong Highlander

Hunting for a Highlander

Highland Treasure

Highland Wolf

In Her Highlander's Bed

The Highlander's Return

Devil of the Highlands

Devil of the Highlands

Taming the Highland Bride

The Hellion and the Highlander

Johanna Lindsey

A Gentle Feuding

Kerrigan Bryne

Victorian Rebels

The Highwayman

The Hunter (DNF)

The Highlander

Mary Wine

McJames

In Bed with a Stranger

In the Warrior's Bed

Bedding the Enemy

Donna Fletcher

The Warrior King

Bound to a Warrior

Loved By a Warrior

A Warrior's Promise

Wed to a Highland Warrior

Highland Warriors

To Love a Highlander

Embraced by a Highlander

Highlander the Demon Lord

Twin

The Daring Twin

The Bewitching Twin

Tessa Dare

Castles Ever After

Romancing the Duke

Say Yes to the Marquess

When a Scot Ties a Knot ❤️

Julia Quinn

Bridgertons

Queen Charlotte

The Duke and I

The Viscount Who Loved Me

An Offer From a Gentleman

Romancing Mr Bridgerton

To Sir Phillip, With Love

When He Was Wicked

It's in His Kiss

On the Way to the Wedding

Rokesby's

Because of Miss Bridgerton

The Girl with the Make-Believe Husband

The Other Miss Bridgerton

First Comes Scandal

Smythe-Smith Quartet

Just Like Heaven

A Night Like This

The Sum of All Kisses

The Secrets of Sir Richard Kenworthy

Julie Garwood

Lairds’ Fiancées

The Bride

The Wedding

Crown's Spies (TBR)

The Lions Lady

Guardian Angel

The Gift

Castles

Highlands' Lairds (TBR)

The Secret

Ransom

Shadow Music

The Prize (TBR)

Saving Grace (TBR)

Gentle Warrior (TBR)

Rebellious Desire (TBR)

Cowboy Romances

Elsie Silver

Chestnut Springs

Flawless

Heartless ❤️

Powerless

Reckless

Hopeless

Gold Rush Ranch

Off to the Races

Out of the Gate (TBR)

A Phot Finish

The Front Runner (TBR)

A False Start (TBR)

Rose Hill (TBR)

Wild Love

Wild Eyes

Wild Side

Wild Card

Sports Romances

Hannah Grace

Maple Hills

Icebreaker

Wildfire

Daydream

Elizabeth O'Roark

The Langstrom Brothers

Waking Olivia

Drowning Erin (TBR)

General Contemporary Romances

Helen Hoang

The Kiss Quotient

The Bride Test (TBR)

The Heart Principle (TBR)

Tessa Bailey

Bellinger Sisters

It Happened One Summer

Hook, Line, and Sinker

Mariana Zapata

The Wall of Winnipeg and Me

From Lukov with Love ❤️

Kulti

All Rhodes Lead Here

Under Locke

Luna and the Lie

Ana Huang

Twisted

Twisted Love

Twisted Games ❤️

Twisted Hate

Twisted Lies

Morgan Elizabeth

Bittersweet

Michelle Gross

Once Percent of You

Lucy Score

Knockemout

Things We Never got Over

Things We Hide from the Light (TBR)

Things We Left Behind (TBR)

Emily Henry

Beach Read

Book Lovers (TBR)

Happy Place (TBR)

People We Meet on Vacation (TBR)

Funny Story (TBR)

Amy Daws

Nine Month Contract

Seven Year Itch

Honeymoon Phase (TBR)

Young Adult Romances

Chloe Walsh

Boys of Tommen (TW!!) {seriously considering dnfing the series just cause it make me anxious to think about it}

Binding 13

Keeping 13

Saving 6

Redeeming 6

Taming 7 (TBR: im scared)

Releasing 10 (TBR: 🫣)

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Bellamy Blake - The 100

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Neteyam - Avatar

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Jason Todd - DC Universe

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Park Row's Protector

The Librarian

Patrolling with Poirot

Dermatillomania

A Flawed Canvas Should Never Expect Perfection

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Bruce Wayne - DC Universe

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All Other Read Fanfics

These are other fanfics that I liked but not loved, again just using this as record keeping for myself, I will have to go back and find ones that I've already read and I will updated overtime as I read more :)

Draco x Hermoine

She Whom He Harbours

Love Potions and Their Many Uses

Joel Miller

Bruce Wayne

Jason Todd

Strawberry Baby

Neteyam

Bellamy Blake

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Joel Miller - The Last of US (HBO)

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Draco x Hermione

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Favourite Fanfics

This is more for my own record keeping then anything else, I'll have to find the ones I've already read but I'll just keep adding to it over time as I read more :)

Harry Potter

Draco x Hermione

Breath-mints and Battle Scars (No longer avaliable)

Draco Malfoy and the Mortifying Ordeal of Being in Love

Isolation

Wait and Hope

The Last of Us

Joel Miller

The Fuck it List (still updating)

DC Universe

Bruce Wayne

Batmom Collection (everything written by  ella-ravenwood-archives.tumblr.com actually)

Jason Todd

Blue Card

Avatar

Neteyam

The 100

Bellamy Blake

Privileged (Unfinished)

All Other Read Fanfics