men are haunted.

archived 2/14/2019. thanks for the laughs lads.

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will graham  +  autumn  ➣  moodboard 2.0

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4, 17, and 18 !

character development questions. 4.  is your muse an optimist or pessimist and how does this influence their choices?

he’s sort of in the middle with a kind of hopeful realist type attitude. will doesn’t have a lot of faith in himself to get something done right anymore, and he almost never feels like he’s in control of his own situation, but in order to survive so much misfortune, he’s adapted an ‘everything will be alright eventually’ mentality. it doesn’t influence his choices so much as it does just keep him on his feet when everything is going wrong and he’s not otherwise sure why he should keep trying. it’s a survival instinct. 

17.  what prominent habits does your muse have and how would they respond if they were forced to change them? are they adaptable or dependent on their routines?

i can’t honestly think of any real habits he has? aside from maybe his morning run, which he likes to do daily, but can deal with if he misses it, and smoking, which he does extremely sporadically. when he was working for the bureau, his work schedule of a few lectures a week was good for his stability at a time where he didn’t have a whole lot of that, but even being brought into cases as a consultant destroyed any structured work schedule he would’ve had, since he was frequently flown in and out of states, staying up all night, being woken up to visit a scene before sunrise, etc. he mostly just does things when he has the time because he’s so used to being uprooted. 

18.  what skills does your muse have and how did they come to have them? was it hard work to learn them? what do they use their skills for? are there any skills your muse wishes they had?

i’ve written a meta on this before, but self-hypnosis is a very important, underrated skill of his. it’s how he gets so deep into reenactments and how he keeps panic attacks at bay in the process. it was difficult to learn, but his mentor was patient while teaching him, and he’s only gotten better with time and experience. he’s also talented with a sewing needle, which he learned in a sink-or-swim style when his and his brother’s clothes were all falling apart and his family had no money to replace them. that has also gotten much better over time. finally, he’s a good fisherman, and a better mechanic. will can fix anything. he’s pretty much at peace with his skill set as an adult, but when he was younger, he always wished he was more talented in anything under the ‘arts’ umbrella. he’s an average cook, not very musical, and can’t draw for the life of him. sometimes he wishes he’d had more time to pursue at least one of those things properly. (he does play guitar well enough to lead a song around the campfire, but that’s about all it’s good for.) 

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Depression cheese™

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What are your muse’s thoughts on race? Are they biased/racist? Are they aware of discrimination; do they participate in it or do they ignore it? Are they discriminated against?

character development questions.

this is so. difficult to answer in a way that makes sense but i’m gonna try. will grew up in a very poor area of a small town in louisiana that was more black than white, and while he never had more privilege with regards to money than the kids his age in the neighbourhood, he did have the privilege that went along with his skin colour, and he did not understand at all why everyone thought he was so much luckier for that. from his point of view, he was just a poor kid, like everyone else, in a single parent household, like most other people, with an alcoholic, mostly absent dad. where was the privilege in that? so as a kid and a teenager who couldn’t grasp that whole concept, he just grew up assuming that black kids and white kids didn’t get along, and left it at that. thankfully, due to being such a highly empathetic person, this never festered into what could’ve been a fuckload of racism, but he did sort of always gravitate towards other white kids in school and stuff. his awareness grew tenfold in his early twenties when he got involved with law enforcement. he saw firsthand the effects of growing up in a poor area, just like he had, on the rate of crime, and he saw firsthand how few minorities were given a chance regardless of their economic class in comparison to him. i think he’d probably view this outlook as more class- than race-centric, because he’s a filthy socialist, but he is aware of the imbalance of opportunity on some level, and as a cop, he’d definitely gone out of his way to stick up for young minorities caught up in petty crime and try to keep arrests off their records. i don’t know if discrimination is the right word, but he did face some prejudice for his accent when he moved out of louisiana, which is why he got rid of it. 

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character development: 5, 7! :>

character development questions. 5.  does your muse have any irrational fears that hold them back in life? do they come from experience (trauma) or is it, for instance, part of a belief system they have? 

will has a lot of anxiety about a lot of things, but his real, proper fears are mostly rational, so the closest thing to fit this description would be the reaction he has to meat. it’s not exactly a fear, per say, but the lingering trauma following the discovery that he’d been fed  ( and literally infected by )  human meat without his knowledge, and then been so deep undercover that he’d eaten it once being entirely aware of what it was, has ruined it for him indefinitely. he’ll never eat it again, and in some circumstances, depending on how prepared he is — as in, whether he’s eating with company and knows there will be meat on the table or not— the mere sight/smell of it could make him physically ill. beyond that, he gets extremely anxious at the thought of other people preparing his meals without him, regardless of what that meal is, and it takes him years post - hannibal to be alright with eating at restaurants or getting takeout again. he very much prefers to be part of the process so he knows what’s going on his plate. 

7.  what does your muse get out of relationships (be it friends, family or a significant other)? do they find it energising or exhausting to keep up with?

will has always thrived on positive relationships with family and partners. even when things aren’t perfect, it gives him immense emotional stability to know that he’s not alone in the world; when he was younger, he found that stability in his younger brother, who relied on him enough that he was frequently distracted from his own troubles, and now, he absolutely seeks that in a significant other, because being important to someone just kind of makes him better all around. it exhausts him, but he needs it. 

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Heathcliff @ Wuthering Heights

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Character Development Questions

Send me one or more and I'll answer these in depth questions

What’s an important lesson your muse has learned over the past few years and how has that changed the way they live?

How does the time your muse lives in influence their lifestyle? Are they happy they’re born in their time, or do they fantasise about a different era?

Does your muse focus mainly on one long term goal or multiple short term ones? What do they think about the reachability of their goals and what are they?

Is your muse an optimist or pessimist and how does this influence their choices?

Does your muse have any irrational fears that hold them back in life? Do they come from experience (trauma) or is it, for instance, part of a belief system they have?

Is your muse looking for a long term relationship? Are they in one? What do they think of marriage and binding themselves to someone?

What does your muse get out of relationships (be it friends, family or a significant other)? Do they find it energising or exhausting to keep up with?

How selfish/selfless is your muse? To what extent would they sacrifice themselves for others and is there anything they’d not give up?

What does your muse think of time/aging? Does getting older scare them? (Alternatively, for immortal muses: How does their immortality effect their relationships with mortals?)

Does your muse believe one should always work hard to get what they want or would your muse take a kind offer without feeling the need to repay it? What do they expect when they lend/give something to someone?

What are your muse’s thoughts on race? Are they biased/racist? Are they aware of discrimination; do they participate in it or do they ignore it? Are they discriminated against?

Is the way your muse sees themselves similar to how others see them or is it (very) different, due to mental illness/keeping secrets/etc.?

When faced with a tricky situation will your muse be proactive or passive? Will they, for instance, try to get involved when they’re not or will they try to get away when they are?

Do they take control or give control or do they believe in sharing power? What are their thoughts on control versus submission (either sexually or in relationships in general)? What do they think of authority?

How materialistic are they? Do they often throw things out or are they hoarders? Do they store their memories in their heads, in photo albums or in countless of boxes of belongings in the attic?

Are they addicted to anything at all? Do they crave something when they haven’t had it in a while? Has this ever endangered them or others?

What prominent habits does your muse have and how would they respond if they were forced to change them? Are they adaptable or dependent on their routines?

What skills does your muse have and how did they come to have them? Was it hard work to learn them? What do they use their skills for? Are there any skills your muse wishes they had?

How concerned are they with their appearance and how do they regard the appearance of others? Do they find it important? Do they enjoy aesthetically pleasing people?

What does your muse think of secrets? Do they keep many or a few and what is their motivation to keep something secret? Have they ever been hurt by a secret someone else kept from them?

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When precisely is she allowed to make him a meal and fight the urge to fuss over him, the world owes smitten Cajuns this much, I have to ask for science

science says: immediately 

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                  I WANT TO CRY OUT     /     BUT I DON’T SCREAM AND I DON’T SHOUT                                              AND I FEEL SO PROUD TO BE ALIVE                           AND I FEEL SO PROUD WHEN THE RECKONING ARRIVES

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bonebaker replied to your post “90% of the kit harington tag: losing their minds over that one blurry...”

But wheres the blurry screenshot ����

i sent it to u on disco already binch, but here: 

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90% of the kit harington tag: losing their minds over that one blurry screencap of him and emilia  me:

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me, noticing i put will’s height down as 5′10″ on his stats page a while back and forgot to fix it: 

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i can’t remember if i’ve ever mentioned this before but it’s come up on my dash again recently and i have to say, rp blogs, before you reblog (for lack of a better word) ‘angsty’ edits, scream poetry, or text posts about mental illness/trauma purely for the aesthetic of it, please check the source. check to see if that art or that text was posted as a vent from a person who made it as a result of real life, personal trauma, and check to see if they’ve commented on whether or not they’re comfortable with it being reblogged. i get that vent art can be, like, objectively beautiful, and something you want to reblog just because it looks nice or fits your muse, but a lot of posts of that nature have original tags expressing whether or not they’re okay with it being shared, and i can’t count how many times i’ve seen a post that was originally a vent from a real person who was really abused get thousands of notes because roleplay blogs are passing it around as ‘relatable.’ i understand that we’re on a public platform here, but as rp blogs, a lot of us have rules and/or have at one point or another made a post expressing discomfort or even annoyance regarding personal blogs spreading content we make for our muse. if you, like me, are one of those people, show personal blogs the same respect you expect them to show you. try not to blindly reblog content that explicitly pertains to someone’s mental illness that they have to deal with every day of their lives just because you want it in your aesthetics tag. i’m not saying “never reblog any content that’s about mental illness or trauma.” i’m sure plenty of creators of content like that don’t even care. i’m just suggesting that we need to be more conscious of where certain content is coming from, and how it could make a person feel if they decided to make a post about an illness or experience they suffer from on a daily basis, only to find that strangers are potentially trivialising it for the development of fictional characters. be aware of the people behind the screens. 

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i’m still in bed and my dash is v quiet, but hoh boy, the muse is strong today, so like this post if i can throw a starter your way later