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I talk a lot and draw occasionally

[meamadee]

I literally think Jeremy Knox is a perfect human being

Someone out there posted “I think about him everyday. Who am I, Jean Moreau?” and I felt that

[anxiouslyandmessily]

guys do you remember when Jean asked Jeremy why he keeps doing this, why he keeps fighting and fighting and fighting, to stay good, to stay kind, even in the face of so many people craving a Trojan hard fall from grace, craving his hard fall from grace, and he replied, "redemption, perhaps" and it was enough to earn him a long stare from Jean

"redemption, perhaps" because Jeremy has spent five years trying to earn his right to be alive back, when Noah is not; five years trying to redeem himself; five years thinking "if I do this then maybe I can stop feeling so guilty" and "if I do this then maybe they will love me" and "if I do this then maybe I will feel like I deserve that love too"

and it never works. it never works.

guys do you remember DO YOU REMEMBER

[lorasx]

jeremy IS gonna walk out of his family’s house alone. he IS gonna fall apart and break on his own. he IS gonna be the one to break himself out of his own cage BUT he’s gonna have his friends and partner to catch him in the aftermath. he’s gonna learn to accept help and that he deserves to be taken care of. that he doesn’t have to do everything on his own. that he’s not a burden and that people believe in him.

[meamadee]

At first I was just reading tgr. But now I am enrolled in French classes at my University

[and-fishing-equipment]

in 2026 DO NOT ask yourself whether your art is GOOD

instead ask:

is it SINCERE

was it CATHARTIC

was it FUN TO MAKE

is it MADE BY ME

and don't forget to stay silly

[meamadee]

Still thinking about the fact that Jeremy’s mother called him at night to check on him. At night. To check if he is at home. If he is behaving.

Outrageous

[sentientsky]

repeating this to myself forever and ever

[draigggg]

Need Jeremy to have hobbies he is good at and enjoys. Like Jean has his ceramics and cooking but Jeremy doesn’t seem to have any interests apart from exy? And I know it’s due to his situation and the way he is written but down the line once he is free and well-rested I hope he picks up a hobby that he genuinely excels at and loves.

I love love love hcs that he is a film buff due to his grandma being an actress, need him to have visited every iconic LA cinema or some night screening of an obscure B-movie. Maybe he is really good at photography or at acting (again actress genetics). Just need him to be doing something while Jean is off on his bike, or making pottery, or cooking, and not just NPCing out waiting for his return.

So far we have only learned about things he is bad at like cooking, singing (?) and ceramics which is a very Jeremy pov if you think about it. Just let my boy enjoy things outside of exy and be praised for them!

[anxiouslyandmessily]

Getting stuck on Jeremy calling himself a "soft-spined failure" when everything in his life should be testament to how far he's managed to grow.

Getting stuck on Jeremy calling his very real trauma "childish" and "self-centered" when it's anything but.

Getting stuck on the fact that when he has to leave the banquet with Jean, he calls his very legitimate reaction a "tantrum".

Getting stuck on the implication that Mathilda and Warren must have called him a variation of these insults (or it must have been implied in their tones and body language; written between the lines as they dismiss him as a person of value; as they dismiss and disregard him as a child, and then as a teenager, and then as an adult, of value) for so long that it's now something that's intrinsic to him, at the very core of how his brain works.

Getting stuck on how deep Jeremy's self-loathing must run, and the fact that we've hardly scratched the surface of it.

[meamadee]

What pasta sees after being cooked in the microwave:

[meamadee]

I feel that’s gonna be their dynamic in TBC

[meamadee]

I can’t simply go on with my life, knowing that Jeremy still lives with his family and Jean is not yet his boyfriend

[meamadee]

Imaging losing your baby brother and then being actively blamed for it by your own family, rivals and media for the next 4 years

Jeremy doesn’t have to imagine that

[meamadee]

Honestly I not only want Jeremy to move out of his parents’ house, but I also want revenge

I want the whole world to know that Wilshires are full of shit. I want his step-grandfather to lose his post as a senator. I want Warren‘s image to be destroyed. And Mathilda to be followed by bitchy journalists, asking about her sons. I want the whole family to bear responsibility

Let damage be done

[meamadee]

It’s getting cold. Don’t forget your jacket

[meamadee]

Jeremy has always been very protective of his close ones, friends and teammates.

But who was there to protect him?

[meamadee]

Jeremy Knox is my emotional support character