Half of My Heart

"This life therefore is not righteousness, but growth in righteousness, not health, but healing, not being but becoming, not rest but exercise. We are not yet what we shall be, but we are growing toward it, the process is not yet finished, but it is going on, this is not the end, but it is the road. All does not yet gleam in glory, but all is being purified."

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

Kayt nearly melted with his grin, but she just smirked in response. She could see it in his face, his need to touch her. He always had the same look. And she had the need to be touched by him, but not just yet. Not yet, no. She couldn’t do it yet. “Well- I’m glad you’re not dead, for sure.” She nodded, pushing her dirty hair out of her face as she took in the new car, “Good truck, though, good ‘new Florence’,” she agreed.

His finally touching her head her heart stopped just as much as the anger in her throat. She was so frustrated, so angry. So badly wanted to kick herself for not having been there. He’d been through a car accident, Mammy died, everything happened when she was gone. She’d lost some possessions in a flood, and kicked back up her alcohol … habit, dealt with quite a bit of fuckery, but fuck- she hadn’t dealt with any of that. “Stop.. stop… stop, Matt. I’m fine,” her stops had gone from almost inaudible to a normal level of vocalness. “I’m fine, it’s nothing,” her knuckles were bloody and already bruising. She was sure she cracked one, but it wasn’t a big deal. She didn’t care about that. “I’m sorry, Matt, I’m sorry I wasn’t here. I’m sorry I disappeared. Fuck. I did it to protect you, and regardless of if you want to take me seriously or not, it was a necessity, but in doing so I left you alone to .. deal with all of that?” She leaned back against Florence 2.0, allowing him to continue looking over her hand, because she was sure it made him feel better, “Just, fuck me, man.”

Matt smiled at her light joke and nodded. “I’m glad I’m not dead, too. I’d have to miss....all this..” he teasingly waved at her covered in grease. He followed it with a gentle laugh as he patted Florence. “Yeah, she’s a good truck so far. I think I’ll keep her.” He shrugged lightly, continuing to gaze at her with so much love. It filled him, even to this day. 

As Kayt continued to nearly freak out, Matt felt desperate to fix it somehow. What had he said? What had happened? They were doing fine and all he was doing was updating her? He hadn’t meant to upset her like this. He didn’t want to be the one that got her into a fit like this. “You’re hurt, that’s not fine,” Matt said gently back, trying to reach for her hand again to inspect it. He didn’t want her in pain. Though she was always terrible with that. She never let him know if she was in pain. As she further explained, the frown formed on his face and he chewed the inside of his cheek. “It’s...it’s okay, Kayt. It’s alright. Things happen. You made your decisions based on what you thought was best at the time. All this...brought me close to my brother and I...I was forced to move on. Sometimes that’s needed. It...things happens, Kayt. You can’t control them. It’s okay. I don’t blame you for not being here, I’m not your job...and...as much as I find it hard to take that advice..you’re not mine either. If we can be together when things are tough then it’s good. If not...we manage until we can be again.” He gulped, watching her fall back on Florence and reached out to touch her hair. He gave a light smirk as he murmured, “I’d be happy to but I don’t think it fits the mood, sweetheart.” 

[theartistlena]

Supernatural AU || Lia, Kayt & Matt

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

theartistlena:

Idalia mumbled softly as she squirmed around in her nest of blankets and pillows, she was in the stage of sleep where you could sense the world around you but you were still asleep. She could hear and smell Matt moving around making food and Kayt moving around to get herself something to sleep. She whined softly, not wanting to wake up just yet, it was moments like these where she was warm and safe that she could forget exactly how she’d lost her father and former pack. But then her stomach started to grumble and she squirmed to poke her head out of her nest, not realizing how messy her hair was. She blinked blearily at the two older supes, her nose twitching as she tried to figure out what Matt had made. “Pancakes?” She mumbled, eyeing the space between her little nest and where the food was. With a half-grumpy whine she untangled herself from the nest and shuffled over to the food to start making a plate. “G’mornin’.” She mumbled around a mouthful of food, shoving her messy hair out of her face as she peered at the two of them. “Any plans?” She usually spent her days exploring the woods around Matt’s cabin, occasionally going with him if he had to go to town, but they rarely did something together and she was just waiting for the day for that to change.

Kayt rose a brow at him, a growl in the back of her throat as her large incisors ripped into the meat and she chewed, obviously still tired and grumpy. Regardless of her enjoyment of the meat- which really only came from it being more similar to what she ate as a wolf, which before Matt, and since her pack/family had died off, she’d stayed in the form of- she still grabbed a pancake form the tray, and a sausage. “You make good food, witchboy, you don’t need me confirming that for you.” She told him, still in the midst of chewing on the meat in her mouth. She ruffled Lia’s hair with her hand after wiping it off on her waist band, “I was going to go for a run, pup. Stretch my legs. Maybe hunt. Since Matt’s almost out of meat,” she shrugged, biting into the pancake and keeping back a wince from how sweet it was. She wasn’t used to such … confections yet. The sweetest she was used to were the wild berries that grew around the cottage/cabin. “Matt?” she asked, turning the plans question on him.

Matt grinned at Lia as she made her presence known with that little voice of hers. “Yup! Pancakes, Lia. They’re a delicious morning treat. I’ve got some eggs and meat for protein but...who doesn’t want to dessert with breakfast? Hint, it’s not me!” Matt grinned at her. He watched her make her way over and gently patted the top of her head gently. Sometimes she reminded him so much of a puppy he couldn’t help but want to protect her. “I don’t think I have anything too riveting going on today. What about you, little one?” He watched her get a seat, the surge of protectiveness driving him to take care of her with food and shelter. He’d cook all day if it meant it’d help keep her safe. 

As Kayt made her way towards them as well and making her own plate Matt couldn’t help but smile with near heart eyes at her. Kayt was special to him. “Well, I still enjoy the confirmation nonetheless!”  He gazed at her as she spoke to Lia, nearly missing everything she was saying. “Oh. Yes! Yeah. I need some meat for all my cooking necessities and such.” Matt laughed, shrugging lightly as he began making himself a dishful of food. He hummed when he heard that voice use his name. Dammit. It was like he was under a love potion. “Yes?” he offered his attention, looking over at her with a gentle smile. 

[mechanicalmatty]

rafemoore:

Matt’s politer greeting itched at Rafe, he always felt like an even bigger asshole whenever he was around the other man. He slouched in his seat as he sipped at his coffee, he was ridiculously tired today. “That’s what I’ve heard. I suppose, working for myself allows me to take days off whenever I want.” He smirked faintly. He snorted lightly and nodded. “Yeah, I’ve noticed all that patience.” Rafe himself wasn’t very patient and he knew it, it was one of the few things he admired about Matt. Finally he decided to just go for it and ask about the tiny brunette who’d taken up delivering for Jared’s Garage. “So, did Kayt and Jared do as I said and get a delivery girl or was that a fluke?”

Matt nodded his head and smiled. “Working for yourself is great! You learn the ins and outs of what it takes the operate a job. It’s a great opportunity to have. I’ve done a few side jobs and it’s opened my eyes. I’m proud of you.” He shrugged. Not that Rafe needed him to be proud but Matt still felt it was necessary for someone younger than him to hear. Having people proud of you was a driving force to continue to succeed. “Delivery girl? Who do you mean?” Matt asked lightly, smiling at Rafe as he waited for more clarification. 

[mechanicalmatty]

leilakerihudson:

She gave the guy a sleepy, happy, smile as the book was returned to it’s owner. “You’re welcome. It’s fine, I shouldn’t have been sleeping in such a public place. Who knows what could have happened?” She shook her head lightly and gave him a sleepy chuckle. 

“Eh, hopefully there’s enough good people around to take care of you. I don’t like to believe the world is inherently evil.” Which was the truth. If people like him existed, then they’d be okay, right? Matt didn’t think he was a bad person. Surely he wasn’t the only one? “Maybe you should invest in a good nap, though, just to be safe.” He smiled at her. 

[mechanicalmatty]

theartistlena:

She lit up a bit when he seemed happy to see her, she felt like she hadn’t seen him in forever and had missed him a lot. “Y-Yeah, didn’t want to spend all day in the house.” It was lonely and boring at home when she was off but he dad had to work. She beamed and nodded, curling up in the chair across from him, setting up her things, but trying to keep them from taking over the whole table. “What have you been up to, hmm?”

Matt grinned at Lena and nodded. “Well of course! Being cooped up in a house is no fun! I’m glad you came out, I’ve been thinking about you and how you’ve been.” He sighed and leaned back, watching her get settled. Lena was a sweetheart. He always did enjoy her company. “Well, just work, you know. Visiting with my brother and I’ve taken in a kid that needs a home for the time being. How about you? What’s been going on?” He thought for a moment, humming. “You still talking with...Rafe?” 

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

Kayt grinned at his sweetheart, it always made her feel like she was a little more settled. She couldn’t count how many times she’d played his words in her head in the little over a year that she was gone, “don’t worry about that, sweetheart.” it was as if when nothing in this world could bring her down, that could. Over her time gone, the voice had faded, and she couldn’t hear it much anymore, but that was like a refresher. She snorted, “well, don’t let me get in your way, old man.” She wiped her wet hands and then her shirt over her face. Her eyes widened when he finally told her he had gotten in a wreck, “What the actual fuck, Matt?!” She snapped, turning from facing the new Florence to him, mouth gaped, “God dammit,” her heart was racing now, as she stared at him, frustrated with herself and the world that so much had happened while she’d been gone. While she hadn’t been there for him. “fuck me,” she hissed, pushing her hand through her hair as she did. Turning on her heel, her hand came from her heel and her arm reeled back, fist landing into the brick of the autoshop.

“Oh, I won’t, believe you me,” Matt grinned, wanting to reach out and tuck one of her stray hairs behind her ear. What he wouldn’t give to at least hold her for a moment. She was so close after that entire year...and he was being pulled like a magnet. His missing puzzle piece was home. Please don’t leave again, he silently begged. How did he say that without being over bearing? He laughed lightly at her disbelief in his truck. He sighed and shrugged. “Some things just happen. I’m alright and I think that’s all I can be thankful for. Can’t say the same about Florence but ah..well...it was maybe her time.” He was talking about the truck as if it had passed away. Maybe he’d been a little more attached than the regular car owner. His eyes widened at her sudden burst of anger and he instantly ran closer. “Whoa, whoa, hey, sweetheart! Kayt! Kaytlinn! What was that for?” he frantically asked, instantly taking the hand she’d obliterated into the brick and cradling it, looking for signs of injury already. 

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

Kayt could almost feel Matt’s eyes on her. She could still feel his hands on her skin. The way he could hold her, and that for once- whenever he did- she could breathe again. She could think clearly. A deep breath pooled in her chest. “It is. I’d hate to have to remind you where things are.” She chuckled, wondering how long it would be till her tool chest was assaulted with his organization habits. As she dried her face with a shop towel, she froze. His words hitting her like a gunshot wound- and she knew what those felt like. So- a little after she’d left. How fucked was that? “Matt, I’m so sorry.” She finally turned to face him again, wiping her face off the rest of the way and tossing it tot he counter behind her. “I don’t even know what to say, but I’m sorry,” she followed him out, and her eyes locked on the strange vehicle in front of her- “wait– you’ve gotten rid of Florence? Jesus,” she pushed her hands into her pockets, realizing just how gone and out of it she felt.

Matt laughed and shook his head adamantly. “Oh don’t worry about that, sweetheart. I’ve got it all up here,” he mused, tapping his temple, “despite still being an old man.” He shrugged, grinning at Kayt like she was the most beautiful thing in the world. “That said, I’d probably have to remind you where things are.” He was usually the one to move things around in a more ergonomic fashion anyway. Matt gulped at her apology over Mammy and shook his head. He’d heard that apology countless times over the last year. Nothing brought Mammy back and no amount of words could really heal. Only time could. Only time... “Thank you, Kayt. It’s...it was something else.” Matt chewed his lip and watched Kayt. What would she think to all of this news? When she mentioned Florence he felt another sad smile. “Unfortunately I got in a wreck with Florence. Not necessarily my fault but...she wasn’t salvageable. So...meet Florence 2.0?” He waved a hand as if presenting a prize then patting her hood. “Dramatic year, I know. So eventful!” he attempted to tease. 

[theartistlena]

Supernatural AU || Lia, Kayt & Matt

[kaytlinnuostein]

theartistlena:

Idalia felt a low grumble leave her as she rolled over on the futon mattress Matt had given her. She huffed lightly and sat up, unable to fall back to sleep. She hadn’t been living with Matt very long and Kayt had been around for even less time but already knew that if she went to either of them, they’d comfort her. She didn’t want to wake them though so she just silently moved to the closet where the spare blankets and pillows were and dragged more out to her mattress and began piling and fluffing them up until they were exactly how she wanted them to be and then she dove and buried herself in the middle of them. A happy sigh and pleased rumble left her lips as warmth started to spread through the little nest, she was sure she’d be able to sleep now. She just hoped Matt and Kayt wouldn’t mind that she’d used all the spare blankets and pillows for this.

Kayt was still not entirely used to living in the cabin most of the time. Yes, she’d had a cabin before, but most of the time she just roamed. It was how life was to her. It was because of that that she wasn’t surprised when she heard the closet that held extra blankets and pillows open and close, and scurrying about quietly happen where they’d set up camp for Lia. It had taken her much longer than Lia to adapt at all, and for awhile, Kayt was going outside and sleeping outside to be able to get to sleep. Tonight was one of those nights where Kayt was still restless. So, when the morning came along, and the first of the birds began to chirp, and the morning sun began to peak through the trees and spill into the clearing they lived in, Kayt rose out of bed as tactfully as she could, and slipped into the kitchen to eat some of the salt-cured meat on the counter. The nest-ball of blankets amused Kayt, and she’d almost wished she’d’ve thought of that at one point. 

[mechanicalmatty]

Matt made a near full continental breakfast for his crew. They weren’t his crew and he knew that. However, he felt the need to take care of Kayt and Lia. They were practically family at this point. It was late for him but early for them. That said, they did have quite a few things to do today, or so it felt like, and he wanted them awake and ready for the day! They couldn’t do that on empty stomachs. He knew they might prefer a different meal than the one he provided but didn’t that mean more for him then? “Rise and shine you two,” he sang throughout the cabin. When Kayt came out to make something, he held up a hand. “Well good morning little miss sunshine,” Matt grinned, “Are you really going to choose that out of everything I’ve provided?” He was only teasing. She could make her own choices but dammit if he hadn’t wanted to impress her just a little bit. He hadn’t used magic for any of this. Matt enjoyed the process of cooking. If Kayt didn’t take him up on it, hopefully Lia would. 

[mechanicalmatty]

rafemoore:

Rafe’s feet dragged as he entered the coffee shop. He needed a caffeine boost if he was going to stay awake for the rest of the day and do what he needed to do. He was just figuring out what he wanted and placing his order when someone dropped their book, he glanced over and snorted when he saw Matt. He paid for his coffee and moved to join the other man, not caring if he was welcome or not (he usually wasn’t) and gave him a small smirk. “Odd seeing you outside of the shop or the ‘Yard. Blondie finally annoy you enough to get out?” His smirk widened a bit, before he wondered if he could get away with asking about the new delivery girl they’d gotten, he’d only met her once and seen her around a couple of times and he was curious.

Matt heard a voice as he scooped his book up. He looked around and caught sight of Rafe. Smiling, he waved lightly. “Good afternoon Rafe,” he greeted, “it is weird to be away from the shop, actually. But days off are good for the soul. And mind.” He shrugged and waved a hand. He felt like such an old man compared to Rafe. Then again, he had aged to an old man by 16. “I wasn’t annoyed out of anywhere. I simply do my own thing. I have patience of steel,” he admitted. It wasn’t a lie. “You think if I didn’t I’d still be here?” 

[mechanicalmatty]

leilakerihudson:

Leila hadn’t meant to fall asleep in public, it was weird and dangerous, but she’d pulled some extra tech support hours the past couple of days while trying to get papers and projects done for school. Unfortunately, she’d been too tired to keep studying and had just used her text book and notebook as a pillow instead. When a book nearby hit the floor she jerked up, the imprint of her books across her cheek as she looked around startled, before slowly calming. She reached down and picked up the book, offering it to the man she thought it might belong to. “This is yours …. Right?”

Matt sighed, scrubbing a hand over his face. Of course he dropped the book. Why was he so tired today? He felt like he wasn’t getting a grip on much of anything the last few days. Even Lu had noticed. Whatever it was, he was hoping it would pass soon. He couldn’t stand this lack of productivity. Even with reading a book. When he heard a voice, Matt’s tired eyes looked up and saw a girl in equal state, giving her a small smile. “Oh, hello! Yes, actually. That’s mine. Thank you! Sorry to wake you? Though, I wish I could sleep in a place like this. Sadly, I can only take naps in my bed!” 

[mechanicalmatty]

nicoletteusmey:

“Careful, Matt, that’s how you ruin books.” Nikki teased as she and Kat came across the man. Kat hummed softly and bent down to pick up the book, looking at it carefully before holding it out to the man. “Looks boring.” The nine year old said softly and Nikki pinched the bridge of her nose, she wanted to scold the girl but didn’t want to cross some invisible line of Kat’s. Finally she just went for it, “That was rude, Katarina.” Her tone was stern but still caring. “Well it does.” The girl replied, and Nikki was startled by the petulant tone in her voice, she sounded like a normal kid. Nikki couldn’t help but chuckle, “Never judge a book by it’s cover. Some of the most boring looking books can be the most interesting.” She said lightly and was pleased to see Kat looking thoughtful.

Matt laughed as he grinned up at Nikki. “I promise I try to be careful,” he sighed, gently taking the book from Kat. “Well it’s not too boring! I enjoy it. Though I don’t know if it’s your taste,” he winked at Kat. She was a cute kid to him. Nikki had her hands full but...that didn’t make Kat worth it. Much like how Matt felt with Kayt sometimes. He nodded at the exchange between Nikki and Kat, smiling at both before looking at Kat. “Same can go for people, you know. Though, that’s for another time. What kind of books do you lot like to read?” he asked gently, leaning back in his chair and taking a sip of coffe. 

[mechanicalmatty]

theartistlena:

Idalia had decided she needed to get out of the house, she didn’t have work till later, she’d had no errands to run for Matt or Kayt and just did not want to spend any more time in the house than she already had. So she’d grabbed her sketch book and drawing tools and made her way to the coffee shop for a mellow atmosphere and some inspiration. She was startled out of her seat contemplation by the sound of a book dropping and it drew her eyes to it and its owner. A smile lit up her face and she made her way over, scooping up the book as she did so. “H-hi, Matty.” She chirped, silently gesturing to the seat across from him, wondering if she could sit with him.

Matt took a deep breath and went to bend down to get the book, nearly grunting. “Oh!” he exclaimed lightly when small hands reached the book first. Kindness was always appreciated. When he glanced up and saw Lena, a broad grin spread across his face. “Aw Lena! Hey! Good to see you!” She’d always been such a sweet girl. “You here for some productivity??” He asked gesturing to her supplies. “I wouldn’t mind some company from you!? Catch up, maybe?” It felt like he hadn’t seen her in forever though he was sure it hadn’t been that long. 

[mechanicalmatty]

Matt took a deep breath as he leaned back in his chair at the coffee shop. He had a day off and decided to grab a book and get some coffee. These days weren’t hard to come by but with Lu suddenly in his life he did often stay more occupied than he had been recently. It wasn’t a problem and he loved helping the teenager. However, he had gotten used to down time. He wanted to utilize it more often. A balance between work and relaxing was needed for his well being, he realized. And when his thoughts got too jumbled, he decided to get busy again. It worked out for him. Scrubbing a hand over his face, Matt closed the book to take a sip of coffee, but the book slipped and fell onto the ground. “Well, there goes that,” he shook his head. What page had he been on? 

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

Kayt sighed, but more in a way that allowed her to bring in breath versus to show displeasure with a situation. With the “drama” out of the way, it almost made her feel like she could breathe again. “Yeah, at least..” she nodded, putting her fingers into her hair and leaning back, her fingers keeping her work-covered, dirty hair out of her face- which felt nearly at him with the grease smears she could almost feel there. “Oh, okay, well- good. I can’t do all this by myself.” She used her free hand to gesture widely at the shop floor. “I- is everything okay? Has everything been alright- I mean, aside form the obvious.” she shrugged. Her cheeks burned slightly at his question, and inwardly she hoped that the dirt on her face covered it. She hadn’t expected that. “Uh, yeah sure. Why not, yeah.” She took a step towards the shop sink and scrubbed her hands and her face roughly, watching the dirty water fall into the sink as she nearly hyperventilated, wondering what the fuck she was going to do or say.

Matt watched Kayt with wandering eyes, soaking in every feature of her face like it was the first time. Yet, he remembered every curve. His fingertips could almost feel her skin beneath them. Giving her a gentle smile, Matt glanced around the shop when she gesture and nodded his head. “Well, good thing I know my way around this shop by now.” He gave a small shrug. When she went over to the sink after asking that loaded question, it was Matt’s turn to sigh. Having her here put him at ease and he knew not amount of time he could’ve spent with Eli or Lu, for that matter, would’ve made him feel the way Kayt did. “Uh well...things are finally starting to feel a bit better, I guess. Mammy she uh..Mammy passed away about..uh..8 or so months ago?” He frowned but he didn’t want to succumb to negative thoughts. She was at peace and he was thankful for the time he’d been given with her. He didn’t necessarily have this strong of a mindset a few months ago. “So...that’s new. But I got closer to my brother because of it. Which is nice..” He waited for her to finish washing her hands before walking to he door and holding it open for her. Florence 2.0 waited patiently in the parking lot. 

[mechanicalmatty]

nicoletteusmey:

Nikki grinned brightly and nodded her agreement, Matt had become one of her dearest friends since moving here and she loved having him in her life. When he pulled away she shoved her hair out of her face and snuck some of the food she’d brought him. “Brother? That’s cool! Siblings are great to have even when they drive you fuckin’ crazy.” She thought of her twin and her older brother and shook her head lightly. “You’ll have to introduce me sometime.” She hummed softly and nodded. “Kat’s the same way. In some ways she seems much older than nine but she still has so much growing and learning to do.” She frowned faintly for a moment before smiling at him gently, it was a motherly serene smile that she was well known for in her group of friends. “If you ever need company you know you’re more than welcome to come and visit us right?”

“Yeah!” Matt exclaimed, fully happy to fill Nikki in on Eli. He was a great guy and she was a great friend. It was nice to be able to have people he could surround himself with. He always had done well with company. Matt hated being alone. Maybe that was why he had crashed so terribly when Kayt left. He’d become dependent on her company. “He’s really great. I wish I had grown up with him. And you know, he’s very comforting and wholesome. He’s got a good thing going for him, you know?” Matt shrugged. “Plus, he is handsome, if I do say so myself.” He laughed at that one. He wasn’t trying to set Nikki up by any means but it was nice to throw that in there, anyway. “I’ll make sure to introduce you, though. If anything, he’d be a great friend to have as well.”  Matt nodded about Nikki understanding where he was coming from with Lu. “It’s just so strange...I’d like to think I’m fairly old fashioned but I’m trying to ‘keep up with the times’ and all that jazz but Lu is still...hard to comprehend sometimes. I’m trying, though. And I think he knows that...I think.” He sighed and thought about it a little more before sighing in defeat. “Oh, thank you so much, I know I can I guess I just get worried I’ll become a bother.” It had always been one of Matt’s greatest fears. “But I will keep it in mind, Nikki!” 

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

Kayt crossed her arms as she stood in front of Matt, feeling slightly on the spot, being able to tell he was staring at her. she always felt strange when he stared at her, like he didnt’ stare right through her, but rather into her. “Okay… good,” she kept her arms crossed still, like a barrier… a barrier from what? Because all she could really pick out from her jumble of fucked up feelings was fear. “At least you know that..” She muttered, releasing one of her arms from the tight crossing to scrub her face with the palm. She fidgeted awkwardly for a moment before shrugging finally, “I mean, whenever. I’m not busy now. I don’t know where Gramps is, and I don’t have a car… even if I did, you know I can do it with my eyes closed…. you don’t- uh, are you not working here.. anymore?”

Matt cocked his head and nodded a little. He smiled lightly at her but he felt like she was still so closed off from him. Where was she? Why wasn’t she closer? Here Kayt was, right in front of him, and yet she still felt so far away. He wished he could hold her. “At least I know,” he agreed with a small nod. He wanted her to know he’d work on them, he’d work on getting back into a routine...so long as he had her he’d be content. That’s all he’d wanted. Matt shook his head and waved a hand, “Aw, no, yeah. I still work here. Not every day recently cause I’ve gotten busy with personal things. I had to take a break a few months ago..more personal things.” He shrugged. If she cared to know she’d ask. Though, losing Mammy had been a bigger hit than he’d planned for. “I can get you out of here? I was gonna head back to my place and drop off my groceries. I can make us lunch?” 

[mechanicalmatty]

kaytlinnuostein:

Kayt understood that he didn’t want to talk about it, but she wanted him to understand her point. She nodded, though, because she wasn’t about to disrespect his wishes again, when she knew he was still hurting. She didn’t want to keep causing him pain, or fight with him. She’d discuss it with him later. “Okay.. alright” she sucked in a deep breath, and pressed her hands into the pockets of her jacket. “Yeah, but I wasn’t here, so, I mean. I’d get it.” she didn’t want him to choose to not be part of her life, but she wouldn’t fault him for it. But, fuck how was she going to go back to normal? “I, uh- I did miss you, you know… I wasn’t just off on vacation..”

Matt couldn’t help but continue to gaze at her. She looked just as beautiful as the day he met her...as the day she left him...and finally she was right in front of him again. “Alright,” he murmured gently before bringing his gaze back to her. “It’s okay...it’s...it’s fine. You’re here now..” And my God was he thankful for that. So much had happened and now that she was home all he wanted was her by his side. And dammit if he didn’t want a hug or...or some company from her. “I know you weren’t...I missed you, too. A lot, Kayt.” He bit his lip, unsure of where to go from here. Could they pick up where they left off? How feasible was that? “When uh...when can we maybe..spend some time together? Maybe catch up? I know you’re..probably working today obviously so...yeah..” Why did he suddenly feel awkward? This felt like their first conversation all over again.