Lecter MD

~ I like numbers and words ~ Expect nothing for I am very erratic ~

[medicalfiles]

He/Him ~ OSDD sys, pro-all origins ~ Schizophreniac with perfect hair ~ I view everyone as a colleague ~ Ageless but bodily a young adult

I am physically nonhuman [deity] as well as conceptkind [somebody's clone, divine machinery & medicine]

My stances are generally against non-consensual harm, anti-censorship, anti-capitalism, anti-psych, anti-AI, pro-para, and pro-self autonomy. Interpret this as you will.

I love to learn and am interested in linguistics, anthropology, sociology, psychology, medical biology, analyzing media, reading/writing, and generally researching new topics. I draw sometimes as well.

As for fandoms, I am big into Hannibal, SAW, and Vocaloid as of right now, feel free to talk to me about them!

[medicalfiles]

I wore a really cool outfit in my dream tonight....you should have been there to see it

[medicalfiles]

I'm starting a collection. Here's doe Abigail

[medicalfiles]

I believe that most beings are alright with most alterhumanity so long as you don't put a label on it.

Sure, you can want to be a carefree dog. Sure, you can be a real life vampire. Sure, you can desire to have wings and a tail. Sure, you can be the character irl. Sure, you can relate to birds to where you consider yourself as one of them. And of course you're literally an angel.

BUT THE MILLISECOND YOU LABEL YOUR EXPERIENCE. It's almost as if people hate the identity aspect rather than how somebody actually exists, hmm

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[bonnibid]

happy family

[gaddd4040]

[medicalfiles]

Kitty Hannibal to pair with the doggo Will I made a while ago

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I hate when people use "insane" to dismiss others, especially if there was an argument made

[queercodedangel]

Capitalism promotes hyperindividualism and yet prevents genuine individualism (the ability to self-actualize) from actually being possible for many people.

Poverty, homelessness, wage-labor, lack of reliable healthcare and education, an unhealthy environment etc. are all things that prevent people from having agency over their lives and from actualizing their full potential.

[brbaltering]

if i were to exist / to be okay with living, as a thing who does not live at all

[ vgen comms / thank you for looking ✧ ]

[medicalfiles]

Early 2000s nu-metal Luka

[max1461]

Disgust has absolutely no ethical weight. If you are basing your ethical positions on the emotion of disgust you should stop, it is entirely unjustified and leads to a huge amount of harm.

[word-for-today]

Word for today: wisdom of repugnance

The logical fallacy that because something disgusts you it must be bad

[medicalfiles]

My existence is inherently harmful and wrong so I must live up to it

[medicalfiles]

Went through an Episode of Paranoia just to get hit with an Episode of Fatigue #ok

[entity56]

i think what people struggle fundamentally to understand is that schizophrenic and schizophrenic-adjacent people often hold so tightly to their delusions not just because that's the nature of delusions in and of themselves, but also because it's often the ONLY thing they can trust. (at very least in my experience if not a general thing. please correct me if i'm wrong.)

i implore you to imagine this for a second: you can't trust ANYTHING. you don't know what's real or fake. there are a bunch of different people and things shouting different ideas and opinions at you at all times all day every day and you dont know what to believe. it's like having a blindfold put on while people spin you rapidly in a chair and then let you go to stumble towards a moving goalpost.

it's not just opinions, either. it's people, and yourself. but let's focus on the former for a second. you don't know who to trust anymore. this black and white way of thinking makes you suspicious of everybody, because in your mind, you HAVE to be. otherwise you trust the wrong person and get hurt. it's like BPD in that way.

and you can't trust yourself, either.

so eventually, something comes along that, to you, feels like Undeniable Truth. in the case of delusions, it's not actually True, but you can't (fully) convince your mind of that, regardless of who or what tells you it isn't real. your mind has clutched to that truth like a vice because it's the first truth you could actually rely on in a while. it's security in a world that doesn't otherwise have it, regardless of how unpleasant the delusion is. a little part of you, conscious or subconscious, takes comfort in it.

that's why delusions are such a struggle. it's not just 'ooh i got abducted by aliens hehe i'm crazy'. delusions are both a symptom and a coping mechanism for other symptoms. at very least for me.

[medicalfiles]

I love Journaling, I love Writing, I love Numbers and Words.