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losing 5lbs is like nothin and not enough but gaining 5lbs is the end of the fucking world for me and if that doesn’t sum up my life idk what does

casualdeath-bee

Does anyone in the ED community live by the motto: “I don’t have to starve as long as I eat less than anyone else”?

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I will feel so proud if everyone around me is pigging out at a barbecue and I only have one cheese stick.

I won’t feel bad about what I eat, unless there’s someone around me that is refusing to eat at that time.

My mind just always goes like oh they are strong enough to not eat, why aren’t you?

I guess my point is that I don’t have to be 80lbs skinny, I just want to be the skinniest?

starvingaway

Morning skinny lasts all day if you don’t eat

An update, if you care.

I really hate admitting this, but I had a huge hiatus on this blog for awhile (like 6-8 months) where I gained nearly 60 pounds back. I was at my goal weight for literally ONE DAY and before I knew it, I was bedbound with a bad injury and binged because of my depression. I was out of work because I can barely walk and had no friends so I stupidly comforted myself with food until I undid so much of the progress I made. I saw myself get bigger and bigger and that only made me hate myself more.

My depression took a turn for the worst about a month ago and I was hospitalized into a psych ward for about a week, and that’s when everything changed for me. If you’ve never been hospitalized before, lemme tell ya, it’s one of the shittiest places ever, better than prison but not by much. All of your freedoms get taken away and you’re forced to do things like go to therapy and shower at certain times, there’s even a fucking bedtime!! But the one thing they couldn’t control, was how much I ate (or how little I ate, really) and that’s what started my weight loss again. That, and hospital food is disgusting and made me lose my appetite whenever meals came. Even the nutritionist who met with the patients said she wouldn’t eat or recommend eating the food there.

So I stopped, and in a week I went from stuffing my fat face to only eating 500 calories or less every day. I lost 10 pounds in the almost-week that I was there. It makes me feel so powerful, to not be controlled by anything, not even hunger.

So when I got out, I continued the trend, and now that I was out, I didn’t have nurses monitoring my food intake so I’ve been able to fast for days if I want to. My longest fast has been 5 1/2 days.

I’ve lost 40 of those 60 pounds, I’m so close to being at my goal weight that it’s like I almost don’t have depression, every time I don’t eat it makes me happy knowing that tomorrow I’ll be a lower weight than I was the day before. There are clothes I haven’t worn for almost a year because they didn’t fit and now they do! My favorite dress that I wore only twice at my lowest weight is only an inch from being zipped up completely! I’m slowly getting back to where I was, and now I have this amazing feeling that I’m not controlled by my hunger the way I used to be, I am stronger than I was and smaller now too. I’ve still got a little bit more to go but I know I’ll make it eventually, just a few more weeks or maybe a month and I’ll be where I was.

I guess the moral of the story is that if you guys ever feel like you’ve messed up and gone back on your progress, you can ALWAYS start again.

And, to my chubby rexies. I love all of you, you are still valid because you’re not stick thin, you are still valid if you slip up and gain weight like I did, you are still valid and you’re still beautiful. We may not have a thigh gap or collarbones yet but we still are trying just as hard and we deserve love too.

Stay safe guys 💗

#ana #ed #thinspo #mental health #weightloss #thin #dieting

melancholicknight

I like how Ive stopped eating at work completely, no lunch, never grab snacks from the kitchen anymore, and none of my coworkers have said a word. I KNOW they notice, but no one says anything.

I guess this just confirms that everyone sees me as too massive for it to be an issue. Theyre most likely cheering me on in their heads, hoping Ill finally stop looking like a bursting sausage.

😞

midnightly-musings

shoutout to all my fellow fat girls with eating disorders

not only do we have to deal with our own sick brains telling us we’re worthless because of our shape/size, but nearly every aspect of society reinforces that notion and it’s just. so. draining. half the people i see in the ED communities on this site are realistically thin or average at the very least, so they don’t have to deal with that second part nearly to the extent that we do. i never see any proper representation of what it’s like to be a big girl with an ED so shoutout to all of us. i see you bb, and i believe in your strength <3

anorlia

50 safe foods

Fruits

Strawberries (4 calories for one medium)

Blueberries (20 calories for 25 berries)

Raspberries (10 calories for 10 berries)

Blackberries (20 calories for 10 berries)

Cherries (4 calories for one medium)

Grapes (2 calories for one medium)

Apricot (17 calories for one medium)

Plum (30 calories for one small)

Apple (47 calories for half a medium)

Watermelon (46 calories for one cup)

Vegetables

Cabbage (17 calories for a cup)

Carrots (25 calories for a medium)

Tomatoes (22 calories for a medium)

Cucumbers (16 calories for a cup)

Romaine Lettuce (8 calories for a cup)

Spinach (7 calories for a cup)

Cauliflower (27 calories for a cup)

Broccoli (30 calories for a cup)

Sugar Snap Peas (26 calories for a cup)

String Beans (31 calories for a cup)

Spaghetti Squash (31 calories for a cup)

Mushrooms (4 calories for medium)

Iceberg Lettuce (10 calories for a cup)

Kale (33 calories for a cup)

Zucchini (19 calories for a cup)

Dairy & Eggs

Unsweetened Almond Milk (30 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Chocolate Almond Milk (40 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Cashew Milk (25 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Coconut Milk (45 calories for a cup)

Egg Whites (17 calories for an egg white)

Meat, Poultry, Fish, & Other

Shrimp (11 calories for a medium)

Smoked Salmon (33 calories for 1 oz.)

Tofu (18 calories for 1 oz.)

Turkey Breast (29 calories for 1 oz.)

Chicken Breast (47 calories for 1 oz.)

Snacks

Pickles (7 calories for a medium)

Sugar-Free Jello (10 calories for a serving)

Graham Crackers (30 calories for a cracker)

Applesauce (50 calories for half a cup)

Rice Cakes (35 calories for a medium)

Starches, Grains, & Other

Sweet Potato (26 calories for 1 oz.)

Brown Rice (31 calories for 1 oz.)

White Rice (37 calories for 1 oz.)

Bulgur (24 calories for 1 oz.)

Barley (35 calories for 1 oz.)

Condiments

Sriracha (5 calories for a teaspoon)

Sugar-Free Barbecue Sauce (9 calories for 1 oz.)

Sugar-Free Ketchup (5 calories for a serving)

Sugar-Free Maple Syrup (15 calories for a serving)

Soy Sauce (9 calories for a tablespoon)

stillaintskinny

Sweetspo for staying motivated

Look at your highest weight, look at your starting weight, and look at current weight. You may not fully see it yet, but the numbers don’t lie! You’re losing weight, and you’re doing an amazing job. I’m so proud of how far you’ve come. Look at how you were just a few months ago. Eating and eating and eating, right? You weren’t in control, but you’re on the right track now. It’s all up to you - you are fully in control of what you put in your body. Your weight is based on your choices. You’ve done an amazing job, but there’s always room for improvement! Don’t give up yet. One day you’ll reach your goal, but not if you don’t keep pushing. You’ll get there, and in the meantime keep on being proud of yourself for how far you’ve come - you deserve it! 💖

I lost 20 pounds since I last saw him

I hope he notices

ednos-falling-down

I’m too fat to have a real eating disorder.

Twice in a row I’ve dreamt about bingeing. I’ll be somehow eating something I know I shouldn’t eat because I’ve been working so hard, and I get so happy to wake up and know that it’s just a dream and that I’m still on track!