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[melabyoo]

I cannot fight against the ten years you’ve spent together, so I am letting you go. It is not that I no longer love you, but rather, I am choosing to love myself again.

[melabyoo]

Being hidden feels comforting at first, until you realize it is costing you everything you deserve.

When you are somebody’s secret, you become the soft place they run to but never the home they commit to. You are there for their late night calls, their emotional breakdowns, their lonely moments. You listen. You care. You hold them together when life falls apart. But somehow, when it comes time to choose publicly, to stand proud, to show love without fear, you are nowhere to be found.

Being someone’s secret slowly teaches you to shrink. You start accepting crumbs while giving full meals. You start convincing yourself that patience will turn into priority, that time will turn into commitment. But secrecy is not love. It is comfort without responsibility. It is intimacy without intention. And the longer you stay hidden, the more invisible you begin to feel.

They come to you when they need softness, understanding, and reassurance. But when it is time to build something real, when it is time to show up fully, they disappear behind excuses. You become their escape instead of their future. And that hurts in a way that is hard to explain, because you gave them access to parts of you that were meant for someone who would choose you openly.

You deserve to be loved out loud. You deserve to be chosen without hesitation. You deserve to be claimed, not hidden. Never settle for being someone’s secret when you were meant to be someone’s safe home. Real love does not hide you. Real love stands with you, proudly and publicly, every single time.

[melabyoo]

Your actions told me everything your words didn’t, so I walked away. It wasn’t the silence that hurt, it was the shift. The way you pulled back, shut me out, and showed me I wasn’t a priority without ever having to say it. I tried to hold on, I really did, but you made it clear there was nothing left to hold. So I let go. Because sometimes the loudest truth comes from what’s not said, and real strength is knowing when to stop pretending you don’t hear it 💯.

[melabyoo]

If we can’t be together in the end, I hope your future gives you a love that feels safe, one that doesn’t leave you second-guessing your worth or wondering if you’re too hard to love. I hope they see the things in you that I saw, the quiet strength, the soft heart, the way you carry pain in silence, but still manage to give so much of yourself. I hope they never take your love for granted, never walk away in the middle of your storm, and never make you feel like you have to shrink to be enough. I hope they stay on the days when you’re glowing, and especially on the days when you’re falling apart.

I won’t pretend I was perfect. I know I made mistakes. There were times I let my own fears get in the way of loving you the way you needed. Maybe I didn’t always show up the way I should have, and for that, I’m sorry. But what I felt for you was real. Every laugh, every tear, every silent moment when words failed but love didn’t, it mattered. You mattered. You still do.

And though the thought of a future without you cuts deep, I won’t wish you anything less than joy. Because love, true love, doesn’t hold on selfishly. It lets go when it has to. So if our paths never cross again the way they once did, just know this: I’ll always hope your heart finds peace, your dreams find their place, and someone out there gives you the kind of love that not only lasts, but heals. A love even stronger than mine. And if you ever wonder if someone once loved you with everything they had, the answer is yes, I did. I still do, in a quiet way, that asks for nothing but wishes you everything.

[melabyoo]

You are so wrong for me in every way, But I still find myself wanting to be with you.

[melabyoo]

It’s been a year since you left us but your memories will remain forever.

Thank you for being such a wonderful mother and I’m sorry I took you for granted. I thought I still had enough time to make it up to you but I guess the rhythm was never on my side. I was too dumb to realize how much you missed me, all the messages and calls asking me to come home but I was too busy with my life that I forgot you were getting old.

There’s a lot of things I regret but it’s all too little too late now. If I only knew the last hug we had would be the very last one, I would have embraced you tighter and never let go. If I could turn back the time to that exact moment I would tell you how much I love you.

But there’s really no words to explain how much I’m hurting everyday. Maybe I do deserve this.

All I can say is I feel like shit.

I miss you ma! Cheers in heaven.

[melabyoo]

Other peoples action is beyond my comprehension. How could you do such thing without evaluating the situation first? Knowing the other person’s point of view would help you make a better choices next time.

[melabyoo]

- To know is to ask! How would you know if you never ask?! Practice healthy communication.

[nikeypapi]

how do you deal with anxiety ?

i let it fuck me up then i go to bed

[emotionalwords]

[sundayhabit]

Be so focused on your growth that everyone else’s business is irrelevant

[iglovequotes]

https://iglovequotes.net/

[melabyoo]

“Please don’t make me feel like you don’t want to talk to me. Your important. Busy never exist in my vocabulary and I always find a way to talk to you. Just don’t shut me out like that again because if you do, I won’t hesitate to turn my back away from you.”

— M.S.D (via samisamisamice)

[aidashakur]

I’m an overthinker so if you don’t give me an answer, I’ll come up with one.

[cobaltdays-deactivated20210208]

my pet: *does anything*

me:

[melabyoo]

My last relationship didn't ruin me, I ruined me because I didn't love myself enough to stop allowing shit that I knew I didn't deserve.

[melabyoo]

Sometimes you got to deliberately avoid people for your own sanity.