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About me

im new at this and realized I should probably do a about me kinda thing

I go by a fake name on here and you won't find me by this anywhere else

I like to read and write and will for now just be putting poetry on here probs (pretentious I knowwwww that's why I use a fake name)

I have no beta also and I don't really have other people read my stuff so likeee sorry if it sucks lol

I like videogames and books so if anyone has recs that seem my vibe based on my work please rec

Thas bout it follow if you are interested in my stuff lol

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sunken

Where can we find

The truths

And answers

That sunk with everything else

Into the flood

That concealed all their secrets

But when we go under the water

Nothing

Will be hidden

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loss

It will have been four years this October,

im older than you'll ever be now

Did the pain just get to you too much?

What was the final straw?

Do you remember our talk the week before everything changed?

I remember

It will always mean more to me than I'll ever say

We barely talked but I'm glad we had that week

I wished we had talked more

We had known each other for years after all

You impacted me so much

I hope where you are is happy

And mabey you think of me

Your loss was one to everyone

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oh our captain

(quick intro this poem is about dead poets society and if you haven't seen I recommend and it has references to the o captain my captain poem)

O Captain, you became our captain

You guided us through hardship

You granted us freedom when we had none

You helped us fly from the nest

But soon we all flew too far

After he jumped we followed suite

But he fell while we found our strength

He spoke out while out only rebellion was internal

He suffered the consequences and we got off free

How could any of this be?

How could he be gone so fast?

Why would you take us down this path?

We knew the pain had been too much for him

You knew it wouldn't get better

So why worry about all those matters?

But you left us all in tatters

We cried and screamed into the snow

We laughed and hoped it was all a joke

Now we will never be the same

What do we say and who do we blame?

How can we go on now that your gone?

Is there anything to do but cry and scream?

When the ones we love,

Are the ones who don't know how to live

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where are you?

where have you gone away to now?

Has life just always felt incomplete?

Or is it now only become so

I hope your still in this world

I hope our curse hasn't followed you

I hope it's only stayed with the house

I hope that when you run it won't follow

Still I have hope you will come back

But I know that's selfish to ask

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do you believe in love?

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hopelessly

i can't help but love you

I know it's wrong

And you'll never feel the same

But everything about you has made me fall

Far

Far

Far

Into this strange pit I never thought I would see the bottom of

I see you in my dreams

And I hope for a world where one day

You'll be able to see me the way I see you

You're my best friends brother

And your too old for me

But still I can't help it

I have fallen in a way only an idiot can

Hopelessly, yet deeply

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make it stop

it scares me when he yells

Or when he drinks

It scares me to think all I can do is cry

Or be pushed around

Mabey that's why I became shy

The way my voice seemed to loose all sound

I try to block out the shouts

But it all becomes too much too fast

But paths are marked into my head

And they wont stop forming

And I want it all to stop

Note: I would like to add that everything is good with me and no one needs to worry lol

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media

this poem was inspired by 1984

Media controlled is all

We couldn't help but get hooked

We couldn't help but try everything they offered

We couldn't help but not be us,

And be fully who we are

Our blinding instincts got cured

Or so we thought

But really what it was had been nothing like

We pictured.

Everything would keep changing

And staying the same

And we stopped being able to feel

All everything turned into was burning and stinging

And it seared us as we went on believing

That it wasn't real

But in the end the hurt and pain we feel

turned into nothing at all

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Old Carpets

The carpet seems to be stained with blood again

It seems to happen over and over

There seems to be more blood than the human body can even hold

Time after time we try to clean it

But it just never works

It always seems to rub in more

Mabey the carpet use to be white

But there's no way to tell

The hydrogen peroxidebis no use

Not after letting it sit

Letting it soak,

Letting it be engulfed

Into the red carpet

That sits in the room that should be abandoned

And finally let go

All the carpet holds is pain

The blood will never be gone and washed away

And we will always have to look at the carpet

That just sits, mocking us