Iāll never forget the call from lil sissy telling me brother was in an accident & didnāt make it. I was driving on a busy road but that didn't stop me from going into insta hysterics, feeling my heart burst into a million broken pieces. Breath became air & was hard to grasp for months. Today would have been his 40th birthday & I am sure we would have had a BBQ & a well lit cake & some silly āyou're olderā gag gifts but instead I am celebrating brother with a deep rooted gratitude for giving me the best gift I have ever received, the joy of feeling alive! On the painful road of grief I surrendered to life & journeyed into myself & from that inner space there are no senses & no way to convince myself I'm small, separate from life & insignificant like the āpoor lil meā ego-self does so well. For the first time, I can sense the vastness that we all are & feel connected & ONE with life. From this inner space I feel deep infinite joy because I can sense life connected to me & experiencing being through me. Happy birthday Marky boy, I celebrate each breath thanks to you, how could I ever ask for more? With love- Meli Photo cred: @nois7














