melocreating

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[charlesoberonn]

[charlesoberonn]

[melocreating]

i wanna go to a concert just bc thats the only socially acceptable place to scream my lungs out

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ok i did not realise how much i missed fan art until i came back to tumblr

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monthly breakdowns bc i can never draw in all the 283751638 art styles i come across

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THANK YOU brain for making me creative when and only when my mental health is at its absolute worst

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something i learned from therapy (kinda unrelated to mental health) is how bad your head can hurt and how hard your ears can ring with intense emotions

[cremsie]

Oh yea it’s all coming together

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sometimes i wonder if as an artist, do i just attract followers that are artists??? kinda like how productivity gurus having a mainly productivity guru audience too

[zephyrine-gale]

thinking about scaramouche team dynamics ft kazuscara

[candychocolate]

ok serious death note post but it really fucks me up how literally the SECOND light leaves the warehouse after the final confrontation near immediately goes to look at the death note scrap that almost killed him. he tries to be nonchalant about it but even while hes talking to aizawa he just keeps glancing down at it. what do you think he was thinking about. do you think the survivors guilt he definitely fucking has after the shitshow of him being the only surviving l successor including l himself is made worse because he knows just how close he was to dying too. do you think he was thinking about how if mello didnt sacrifice himself for the knowledge that mikamis notebook was fake it wouldve been him dead instead.

[candychocolate]

he was literally one letter away......

[gae-bolg-alternative-dot-exe]

As fun as it is to make fun of returning tumblr users, I’m actually surprised to see quite a lot artists coming back to test the waters and post their art on here again eventhough they’ve lost all momentum on here and/or naturally lost most of their followers because of the drought of activity. 

If you see an artist you haven’t seen post in awhile and they post their new art on here. Please give them a reblog and not just a like for their work. 

[melocreating]

(ˆ꜆ . ̫ . ).ᐟ.ᐟ💮 brushes masterlist!

making this list for people who are curious what brush i use! also giving credit to the artists who made the amazing brushes i love using><

most of them are paid brushes, but they’re really high quality and a really nice investment! so support these artists if you can!

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squiggly monoline

default Procreate brush in Calligraphy

everything in “streamline” and “stabilization” set to None

i really love how casual this looks!!

4B pencil (line art)

@/slowmind.d on Instagram

English shop here

also check out their pastel textures! haven’t gotten around to do a complete illustration with them yet but they’re amazing

beat tones

True Grit Texture Supply

i also have their Stipple Studio, Distress Press, Infinite Pulp, and Lithotone sets, but i only use them in specific situations

best add on to simple styles imo, just adds a lot of texture!

color pencil

from @/myyumma on Instagram

English shop here

really cute and perfect for small illustrations<3

i’m always on the look out for new brushes so if you have any brush recommendations (for Procreate, Photoshop, or Clip Studio Paint) please shoot them my way! i will also update this post periodically!

<3

[melocreating]

(she is going to school)

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🌙 if i had screamed and shouted, would i have gotten the help i needed?

i had always hated the fact that after i cry, my eyes don’t stay red. my family, my friends, my classmates never know i cried. i’m not saying i want everyone to know i cried, it’s just, looking at people who have EVERYONE comforting them when they cry leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.

i was what you would call a “mature” kid, i don’t really throw tantrums, i follow the rules, i pretty much stayed invisible. maybe it was because i was the eldest child, maybe i was just born with this sense of responsibility that made me think i couldn’t show my weakness. but every once in a while, i envy those who never have to think about being vulnerable..

i wasn’t problem-free, even though i didn’t cause any problems. a lot of them were internal, so i don’t blame people for not knowing. but, just once in a while, i think about IF i had screamed and shouted, IF i had cried out loud, would i have gotten the help i needed?

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with that said, if you’re in a position where you’re taking care of a kid, i want you to make the time to talk to the kid and get to know them no matter how “mature” they act. i want you to let them be a kid, not an elder sibling, not a leader in a group, not the trauma-unloading tree hole, just a kid.

[noranb]

haikaveh college au + drinking games

it’s still 11.11 somewhere right

[noranb]

posted these on twt as well but for posterity

they're freshmen

haitham: classics & anthropology double major

kaveh: architecture major

they're not roommates yet

they meet in a literature class for their writing requirement

they have very different interpretations of these novels and it often leads to heated discussions in class and everyone else is like :x..

all hell breaks loose when they're grouped together for the final assignment

other teammates are used to their bickering by now

haitham secretly enjoys these discussions, he finds kaveh's pov interesting. but he also likes watching his reaction so he'd be deliberately antagonistic sometimes

kaveh's annoyed cos haitham's so composed unlike him and he wants to think haitham's just bullshitting but his points actually makes sense ugh

freshmen year ends and when kaveh thinks he'd never have to see haitham again (and forget abt the stupid pocky incident once and for all!!) boom they're assigned to the same room in sophomore year

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the way i used to LIVE on tumblr but now i don’t even remember how to customise my theme…

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my dogs helped me re-learn loving myself

i often think to myself, did i really know love before having my dogs? i didn't really have to go through any major loss or had to deal with anything i didn't want to. everything that i've loved, were things that were easy to love. i loved my parents because they loved and doted on me, i loved my friends cus they were fun to be with. but is that really love?

it's very different from loving myself. because i know every single part of myself, and there is no overlooking or escaping from my bad parts. it became hard for me to love myself, because it wasn't easy, and i had to face my bad parts.

getting dogs helped me re-learn loving myself because i had to train them, i clean up after them, they get annoying, and (sometimes) they are destructive... and yet i still love them. they get sick, and they have bad days, and they will leave us, much sooner than we would hope... but that never stopped me from loving my dogs.

and that's when i realized how love is different from like. like is easy, like is light and fun, but loving is to love even the bad parts, wanting to heal and sooth the bad parts. there is no question of whether you've "earned" that love or if you're "worthy of" that love, i think love comes naturally.

seeing myself love my dogs sooo much, my heart aching for them, wanting the best for them, kinda makes me think, why don't i love myself like that? why can't i love myself like that?