I'm breaking down!

vent sideblog for melucia I just need a place to put my thoughts.

[omneco]

[euo]

do people miss me I can’t imagine myself as a person others think about

[co-existence]

do u ever feel like every single person you care about cares about someone else more

[unmoored-starlight]

i want someone to hurt me. i want to be hurt so badly that i am left broken and empty and alone and completely unable to go back to the way things were before. because maybe then i’ll finally have a good reason to feel so awful all the time. but this makes me a bad person, doesn’t it, to want to be hurt the way other people have been hurt? people shouldn’t be hurt like that. it shouldn’t be something i want. i’m awful, aren’t i?

[melucia-vents]

how do I stop being jealous no glue no borax

[uranium-loves]

When ur venting on ur vent account and suddenly feel super corny

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

im not anyone's first choice. im not anyone's favorite. people may tell me i mean a lot to them and that im special to them but i know there's someone they'll always choose over me

[tyynicbubul]

I keep waiting for someone to notice i’m not okay without me having to say it.

[melucia-vents]

gotta do more gotta be more

[melucia-vents]

i will do better

[melucia-vents]

okay so the hotline just made me feel worse

[melucia-vents]

the foolish virgin who sings this dirge is on the verge of

BREAKING

DOWN!

[melucia-vents]

i just want to cry and sob and be worse and maybe be worth something and feel shitty enough to matter

[melucia-vents]

can I go back to November and make myself not a coward pretty please

[melucia-vents]

if I can't feel better can I maybe at least feel worse

[melucia-vents]

I hate this I hate this I was feeling ok for once

[melucia-vents]

time to do what I do best in these situations