can I ask a James x f!reader; angry/jealous smut ??? you decide the plot + maybe black album or and justice for all era . thank youu
hi dear thank u for the request, hope u enjoy xx
warnings: angst, toxicity, jealousy, swearing, smut, unprotected sex, fingering
Description: 1991, you are a new 90s pop artist and youâve been dating James for years now. You got nominated for the first time at the Grammyâs awards, but the plans donât go as plannedâŠ
ââŠAnd this is the plan for the Grammyâs night: dancers, choreographers, red carpet, show outfits, hairstyle and after party dress⊠what do you think?â I look at the papers that my manager was showing me for the most important night of my life as a new emergent pop artist. âThatâs amazing Nick!â he smiles proudly âCan i see the outfits?â his smile fades a little bit raising his eyebrows âYeah sure, here they areâ he passes some other papers. The first one shows the red carpet dress: a long silver dress, opened on the side exposing the right leg, the back is all exposed and the neckline, well⊠I swallow hard seeing the other two outfits. The after party dress is short, really short, black lace, should be wear with a matched underwear set. The next paper shows the choreography show one⊠low waist shorts, white top. âThey areâŠâ
âAmazing?â Nick completes what I was saying âDifferent actuallyâ I correct âWhat do you mean Y/N?â
âThey are totally different outfits⊠They are not what you told me weeks agoâŠâ he smiles âBut they are amazing! you will be amazing!â
âNick, Iâll be completely naked! I donât want this, we didnât talk about this!â he sighed âY/N⊠this is what the media and people wants to seeâ
âBut- but how am I supposed to dance in those things? how the dancers are gonna lift me up? what if the shorts slip and all the music industry sees my⊠you know. Itâs not what I had in mind and James, what am I supposed to tell him?â
âThis is your career not his! you always care about what he is gonna think cause of his anger and jealousy issues! You are gonna wear what we decide and if we want you to be half naked at the Grammyâs thatâs it! no more boyfriendâs drama! Now go, tomorrow you have the practice with the dancersâ.
I cried after the meeting, thatâs felt completely wrong, didnât want what they decided and those werenât the planes that we planned together when I got nominated for the Grammyâs. James hated the way they treated me since the first day he met them. He used to be really protective since I was new to the music industry, we had hundreds of fights about this, sometimes he also used to stay away from home for days, and today it will be probably one of those. Maybe.
The front door opens, James just got back home from the studio where him and his band are recording their new album thatâs gonna come out this august. I hear him sighing heavily throwing the keys on the counter at the entrance and then his steps got closer. I stood up from the couch where I was sitting going towards him âHey Jamesâ I say with a soft smile âHey doll, come hereâ he stepped closer hugging me, lifting my body up like i weighed nothing, his hands strong on my waits slipping down to squeeze my ass while his lips found my sensitive neck skin âMh Jamesâ
âWhat?â he asks looking at me âYou smell of alcohol⊠werenât you practicing?â he sighs âI had a few drinks with Jason before coming homeâ He puts me back down going towards the bathroom âAnd you drive?â in the last months his alcohol addiction got worse âCause of the new album stressâ staying at his words âYes I did, now what you wanna act like my mom or something? I donât wanna talk about this Y/N Itâs been hours since I saw you, tell me about the meeting with those fuckersâ I froze at his cold tone, he was clearly drunk, I knew how it would be ended if I told him the truth and what Nick said to me and how⊠âGreat actually, everything is ready!â he comes back smiling at me âWhat are you gonna wear? the dress that you showed me the last day?â he refers at the long elegant red dress that I thought I was gonna wear âY-yeah sure that one!â he kisses my forehead smiling âGood baby, I gotta go to sleep tomorrow I have practice, you can come with meâ I was gonna say yes but then I remembered that I had the choreography practice too, with the new dancers but of course he didnât know that yet âOh I have some practice too tomorrowâŠâ
âUhm vocalsâ he nods âAt least come to bed with me itâs lateâ He grabs my hand leading me to our bedroom.
Grammyâs day finally came, the practices in these days went good, I met the new dancers and learnt the choreography which is kinda different from what I imagined it, same as the dancers, months ago I requested all female dancers specifically for the song that Iâm gonna perform with tonight, but Nick thought about choosing just men.
âStand up straight honey, donât want to see that dress ruined before the red carpetâ Nickâs voice brings me back to reality âHey Charlotte, is James coming?â I ask my assistant âWe called the studio and they said that he left ten minutes agoâ I swallow hard looking at myself in the mirror thinking about how he is gonna react and how exposed Iâm gonna be in front of the paparazzi âCan we pull this part a little bit up?â I say trying to pull up the neckline âNo! Y/N thatâs perfect! the idea of the dress is that!â Nick says removing my hands from the silver fabric âItâs too low Nick! My boobs are almost out!â
âThatâs the fucking idea Y/N! you do your job and I do mine!â he shouts. âWhatâs going on here?â I hear Jamesâ voice coming from outside the room âJames come inâ I answer. The man enters the room full of makeup artists, hairstylists and personal assistants, he looks at me, my body, my hair, my dress, how it fell on my shapes exposing my leg and my back, the silver fabric was so thin that my panties were pretty visible, my breasts pushing the small part that had to cover them âNew dress I seeâ he coldly says âGuys can you leave us?â
âAbsolutely not we have-â
âYou heard her fucker get out!â James cuts Nick annoying voice immediately, and with an head nod everyone leave the room leaving me with my boyfriend âThey changed the dressâ
âI can see your fucking nipples Y/Nâ I nod âThis ainât a red carpet dress this is a⊠I donât even know how to call it. It doesnât reflect your music, your style, doesnât reflect you!â I sigh âJames please, I didnât decide, I couldnât, you know how it worksâ
âNo I donât fucking know Y/N! at least it doesnât work like this for metal! and this is also your first award nomination why the fuck did they give you something that you are not comfortable with?!â
âBut I am confident-â
âNo you are not! I can see that, you keep pulling this shit up! donât fucking lie to me!â he raises his voice and probably all the people outside were listening âSsh James please, donât do this scene!â
âI do whatever the fuck I want in my house! I know what they want from you Y/N, and you wonât listen to me! Iâm trying to protect you and you keep following what they tell you to do!â
âItâs my fucking job James! I know what Iâm doing, I wonât stay here hearing your loud annoying voice, talking to me like this in the most important day of my career!â
âThey are using you! why donât you understand this?! You act like a little girl, keep smiling to those idiots like you donât know what they actually care about!â
âShut up James! Shut up! and get dressed you gotta come with me. Or you forgot this too like you forgot my birthday or our anniversary cause of your stupid addictions?!â He didnât answer he walked out of the room passing through my team and slamming the door so hard that the floor trembled for a second.
The car drive was silence, James didnât say a word he kept his eyes locked outside the window and I did the same. As soon as the carâs door opened all the paparazzi were on me screaming my name, pushing me too âHey move back dick! donât fucking touch her!â James pushed a photographer back to his place making his camera fall âJames⊠please, donât make any other scenes for todayâ
âIâm trying to fucking help you Y/N! why the fuck you donât get it!â he says keeping one hand on my waist roughly; I look around seeing that we were arguing basically in front of all the people there already knowing what tomorrowâs news is gonna be about âJames Hetfield and Y/N Y/S/N, arguing in public again, this time on the Grammyâs red carpetâ
âForget itâ I say walking forward.
âJames! one picture with her!â a photographer screams. I was already posing and James of course had to act like a kid keeping his distance and waiting for me to finish. With an hand gesture, like you call an hurt dog, I let him notice to get close to me âCome hereâ he visibly sighs grabbing my body, an hand on my hip, gently rubbing it, he barely smiled. âOne kiss come on!â another one screams followed by his colleagues. James rolls his eyes kissing me for two seconds, the coldest kiss I ever received from him. He was ruining my night, and my face didnât went unnoticed. âDonât do that face Y/N, I donât wanna see it tomorrow on some magazines. Come onâ he says detached grabbing my hand and pulling me towards the entrance.
The night begins, some artists already performed and now was my turn for my exhibition. James didnât know anything about this, but at that point of the night I didnât care, I had to give my best and show him that all the people around me may be stupid but they work for me cause Iâm the best fucking opportunity that ever happen to them, also knowing that he is gonna screw up watching the choreography with the other dancers. âHoney your turnâ Charlotte whispers in my hear âWhat for?â James asks âThe exhibitionâ I answer âYou didnât tell me about itâ he says, almost hurt âI wonder why Jamesâ I stood up and walked heading to the backstage, getting ready for my moment.
Once on the stage the lights turned on, my body illuminated by the flashes, my voice fills the room. I keep singing, coordinating my body with the boys on the stage with me, the flash lights make me feel like Iâm performing on the stars, I was feeling the energy and the excitement in my blood. The choreography was a mix of modern, acrobatic and sensual movements. I could see the amaze sights of the other singers, artists and rockstars in the theater.
The dancers get close to me, touching my body, moving with me, messing up my hair, tangling our legs, some acro elements before the end of the performance, they all lift me up in a split while the lights turned off.
My breath was heavy, but my ears got immediately the cheering of the crowd, I smile at myself, I made it, I did the best performance that I could have ever done. After thanking the dancers I reach for my troupe in the backstage before hearing the winner. âAnd the Grammy for the best new artist of this year goes to⊠Y/N!â I reach the stage again collecting the award, a standing ovation that lasted an eternity for me âThank you all so much! I donât actually know what to say, this is my first time performing in front of such an important audience. I wanna thank my team, my family for always supporting and my handsome man, an amazing artist and person. Thank you James, I wouldnât be here without you⊠I love youâ I say trying to look for him in the crowd my the lights were too bright.
I reach for the backstage again, changing in the last dress of the night, and James wasnât there waiting for me âCharlotte, where is James?â she sighed âHe left right after your performance I think he is already at the after party with some other rockstars that left earlier⊠I am sorry Y/Nâ I was shocked âBut⊠he didnât even heard my speech thenâ she shook her head.
The partyâs room was now full of all the celebrities, but my eyes were looking for him. All the people watching me, my body, my dress⊠âAmazing performance dearâ a voice caught my attention, tattoos, ginger hair, glam style âThank you Axlâ I talked to him already a couple of times always when I was with James and his band âNever saw any artist moving like thatâ I blush softly, he always used to be very gentle with me also when James was around, knowing that he hates him pretty much âYou drink?â he asks âUhm yeah sure, I just got here soâŠâ He leads me towards the counter making me a gesture to sit on the high chair. His hand passes me a drink âCheersâ he says âCheersâ I repeat. We talked for what it seemed like an hour or more and then Axl asked: âWhy you here alone? I thought I saw you and Hetfield on the red carpet earlierâ
âI think he didnât like the show, I didnât tell him about all the organization letâs sayâ he nods âYeah I would be jealous too believe meâ
âHe doesnât understand that this is my job too and I canât do wherever I want all the timeâ
âYeah I understand I think itâs just cause of-â Axlâs voice stops as soon as a tall figure pops up behind me âOh here he is⊠Iâll leave you two aloneâ The ginger stands up and walk away towards his band table âYou are alive I seeâ I say facing my boyfriend âThe fuck were you doing with that idiot?â
âYeah all right bye James, Iâm over this tonightâ I try to stand up but his hand grip makes me sit again âWhy didnât you tell about all of the things that happened tonight?â I scoff âAre you serious? look at your reaction! how could I tell you about the outfits and the performance! You fucking left during the most important night of my life!â James doesnât answer âAnd you didnât ever hear what I said about you when I won! Cause you werenât there for me!â âOkay now calm down everybody-â
âI donât fucking care James! Cause you can always act like the crazy, toxic man that you are in this relationship! you act like a dick all the time and I donât have to care if you are embarrassing me! but when Iâm trying to tell you how fucking stupid you are you ask me to calm down! I wonât fucking calm down! I hate you! you ruined everything James! Everything!â
âDonât give me that fucking attitude in front all of these people! You donât understand that those people donât care about you and they only want your money or your fucking body! Same as that fucking dick of Rose! you think he cares about you?! you think Iâm fucking happy about seeing my girl doing all the pick me with anyone at all the events just cause her manager asked her to do so?! You think Iâm fucking happy to see you dancing like a fucking whore with ten men in front of all the music industry?! Fuck no!â He shouts back âI did the best performance I could ever done, and I would love to see you happy for me once in your life instead of highlighting everything that you are jealous of all the time⊠I would love to see the man I love proud of me, instead of being humiliatedâŠâ He probably realized, the alcohol effect probably vanished for a second cause I could see his real eyes, the ones that I fell in love with four years ago âY/N I didnât want to-â
âI go back home, I take the driverâs car you take a taxi, and donât come home till you are soberâ I grab my award, everybodyâs eyes were on us, I left the room leaving him there alone in the middle of the crowd.
As soon as I get home I let my body rest on the big mattress, I imagined the night different, and I was happy that I had the courage to tell everything to James.
Itâs been four hours and my sleep got interrupted by a weight that moved the bed behind my back. A big hand caressing my skin still covered by the black dress and then a line of kisses touched my neck âAm sorry babyâ James low voice says, but without receiving any answers âIâve been a jerk, I promise you that Iâll work on my jealousy and anger issues⊠itâs just, I canât see you like this in front of all those people, especially those dickheads rockstarsâ
âYou werenât even there how would you knowâ I say keeping the most cold tone that I could possibly give him âI just know itâŠâ I could feel his eyes pierced on my back âDoll come onâŠâ his hand grabs my hip trying to turn my body âI donât wanna talk to you Jamesâ
he scoffs âI told you that Iâm sorry and Iâm trying to fix everything! Iâm fucking stressed out in these months cause of the new album and you know it!â
âDonât blame the album, I know youâ
âLook at me Y/NâŠâ I donât answer âGoddamn it look at me!â he pulled me against his body, by back pressed on his; his left hand roaming on my body caressing my curves. His face lowers on my ear âIâm trying to fix my fucking mess and you are acting like a bitch⊠and I fucking hate itâ his lips now leaving sloppy and wet kisses on my skin while his hand now fell on my thigh âJames⊠leave me aloneâŠâ I whisper âI wanna stay with you, after what I saw on that stage⊠I wanna show you how proud I am of your own job, not those fuckersâsâ he bites my neck âYou said in front of everyone that I danced like a whore James come onâ he squeezes my leg âI was drunk Y/N and you know how toxic I can be when I drink too much, and you know that I might say things that I donât actually think⊠Iâm sorry babyâ hi lips now on my cheek while he grabs my face trying to turn it towards him, and he does. His mouth roughly pressed on mine, he didnât wait, his tongue pressed hard asking for entry attacking mine, he tasted like cigars and beer, his mustache tickling my smooth skin. An hard grab on my tit made me moan in his mouth making him grin immediately âI fucking hate letting see other people whatâs mine Y/NâŠâ James says between the kisses âBut then I remember I can fuck you whenever the fuck I wantâ at those words I felt immediately a warm feeling between my legs, my stomach started to shake. He started to kiss me again, his hands squeezing my waist, his other hand reached for my head grabbing and pulling my hair while his tongue kept exploring mine. His grip left my body, lifting my dress up, he plays with my panties fabric, teasing my swollen clit through the black lace, before moving it on the side exposing my wet pussy to him. My hands grab his neck, pulling him closer to my mouth while his fingers starts to bury inside of me without making me wait anymore: he starts with one, then two, his big fingers digging inside my gummy walls till the end, he pushed harder then the usual, his thumb makes circle around my bean making me shiver. âJames, I- I want you pleaseâ he smiles on my lips, while he moves down my neck reaching for my neckline, he starts to bite, and then sucking, leaving purple dark marks on it, while his hand kept moving inside of me. âJames pleaseâŠâ he grins, removing his sticky wet fingers, tasting them. He positions his self between my legs, and while I remove his belt and unbutton his pants with rush he does the same with his shirt. His hands found my panties again removing them, he grabs my shoulders letting me sit for a second to lift my dress up and untying my bra, and then he pushed me back on the bed. His already throbbing cock points towards my entrance,
âYou fucking turned me on when you gave me that attitude ya know?â his eyes sparkling at his own words, he lowered his body, his belly pressing on mine, his hands grab my head sides âI want you to take it all babyâ he guides for a second his dick towards my hole, and with an hard and confident thrust he fills me with his chunky length, a little pain cause of the stretch hits my walls. My moans are so loud that James had to make me shout keeping his tongue buried in my mouth. He keeps pushing and pushing, making my wetness fall down on the blanket, balls slapping hard at every strong movements. I tangle my legs around his waist, pushing him even deeper inside me âHarder James! Harderâ his salty sweat falling on my forehead, while a cocky smile appeared on his lips hearing my request, he pulls out of me, and with his strength he turns me, facing the mattress, hitting my ass with an hard slap that echoed in the room, his hand grabs my neck pulling me up making my back press on his chest âNow you stopped being a bitch I see uh?â he pushed me back again pressing my face in the pillow, while his dick buries inside me again, making me whimper at every deep thrust. His fingers pulling my hair while his palm keeps pressing on the back of my head, I feel his body lowering on me, his weight pushing down my body, his hand leaves my my hair, finding its way between the mattress and my boob, grabbing it hard, his heavy warm breath tickling my ear âI fucking love you babyâŠ. I- I have been a dick you- you were rightâŠâ he barely found the words between every heavy breaths âI- Iâm coming James-â at my words he pushes harder again âFinish around me baby, wanna feel you squeezing me while I fill you upâ With a few more pushes a warm sensation fills my used walls, making my clit pulsate hard, I could feel my cunt squeezing Jamesâ cock at every last thrusts he made before his hot seed reaches for my insides, while James suffocates his moans in my ear.
He pulls his dick out still cum dripping, he moves on the side, his body all sweaty and heavy âCome here babyâ his arms pulls me closer to his torso âItâs been amazing Jamesâ I was breathless too âI hope you forgive me⊠Iâll change baby I promise, Iâll fix my behavior and Iâll support you in every momentâ
âBut you were right in some ways James⊠You may not have the best behavior of this world, but you are right, some people donât probably care about meâ he kisses my forehead âDonât worry about it, Iâll help you if you want, I know how to handle those people⊠Iâll always stay with you Y/N⊠if youâll want me toâ.
dividersâ credits: @sperocordolium