I suffer from PTSD, Bipolar disorder, Severe anxiety, depression, anorexia and schizophrenia!!
This Blog does not have a specific theme ngl
In this blog i talk about sh, obsessive relationships and very grim stuff at times so be warned!!
☆•- Ye, I know that's alot to share but it should give you a clear perspective of who I am, and what I'm like.
☆•-What you can expect to find here;
☆•- I'm here to cope with trauma by sexualizing my own problems and making them cute. So I'm very active in posting relatable traumacore, silly vent posts that talk about eating disorders, body dysmporphia, mental illness, toxic relationship/attachments.
Manga: The Witch's house, Shadow's House, Yuri Espoir, Bloom Into You, Sailor moon, I'm in love with the Villainess, Sugar girl drip, I Love Your Cruddy, Tomorrow I'll be Someone's Gf, I want to love you till your dying day.
Games: Nekopara, Mystic Messenger, Genshin Impact, Mad Father, The Witch's House,Degrees of Lewdity, Needy Streamer Overload,Class of 09, School days, Danganronpa, Totono, Undertale, Yandere Simulator, Roblox, Doki doki literature club, Daigaku Gurashi, Detroit become human, Beyond two souls. snow(2003), nurse love addiction.
Other types of shows, movies: Winx Club, Sixteen, Lacey Games, Imigrantes Road, Hazbin Hotel(For one specific character), Helluva Boss.
More general communities: Jirai community, Menhera community, J-fashion community, Magical girl community, Yuri community, Sanrio community, Gloomy bear community, Super sonico.
Music: Insane Clown Posse, Nastyona, Candye Syrup, antihoney, S3RL, Disko Warp, Vocaloid, Infant Annihilator, Slipknot, Chinoi Momone, Rory in early 20s, Needy Girl Overdose, Sodikken,Violent Vira, Elisa Rosselli, MSI, Korn.
☆•-About me
Mostly sapphic
☆•-I love being honest and nice to other people cuz i love seeing them happy, but feel embarassed when they do it back.
☆•- I'm a girly italian girl. (She/her)
☆•-My aestethics tend to go from dark clothing and big band shirts, to cute and frilly shirts or dresses! So in other words I dress J-punk, Jirai, Tenshi kaiwai, emo, jojifuku or menhera.
☆•- I use pet names alot since that's what I'm used to in my language, so if that bothers you in any way? Completely acceptable.
♡LOVE♡:
Pink, Blood, Extreme gore, magical girls, Metal music, yuri Eerie music, menhera music, anime, videogames, dressing up, people and dolls!!
Please please if there is a god i want to die now please please get rid of me i dont wanna live i never wanted to so why? Why was i put on this earth? I rather be atrampled flower that gets stepped on over and over again. surely i would suffer less if i was a slaughter animal right? Dont humans have more sympathy for those than for me?
I cant relapse nonono no relapse im trying my best please i dont wanna suffer anymore why am i so sensitive why do i get so hurt over nothing please please i dont want to i dont want anymore bad thoughts please please please stop i dont want anything, i dont care, will everyone leave me eventually? why? I thought i was getting better. I wasnt thinking abt it anymore why did it have to happen again ? I just want to sleep please let me sleep i wanna rest i just wanna rest please rid me of this awful feeling please i want death to take me away i dont want to feel anything i want my pills again please please. Give them back i dont care what happens to me i need those pills again please i cant do this anymore i just wanna be normal??
I just wanna be treated like everyone else, being normal in itself sounds awful but if it avoids people treating me this way i rather not be perceived at all.
People who concern themselves with labeling everything as problematic genuinely disgust me more than the actual problematic people. You’ll see them calling the harsh reality of a situation problematic, how stupid are you?
Why is it always my fault though? Why does everyone suddenly come to the conclusion of blaming me for everything, if everything is really my fault why can’t people work up the courage to get rid of me? I dont want that much, i want my friend to tell me important stuff when needed or to just message me once, message me first once in a while? And hes saying im becoming toxic cuz i react accordingly to his lack of care towards me? Why is it so bad to be sad or angry due to a feel of neglectment?
