veritas

• fortune favors the bold • Sixteen. Filipina. The world is ours to conquer.

[mermaidsthatdrown]

iii.xxx.mmxxi

i saw a post that said that there are only two people whose expectations you have to live up to in your life -- 8-year-old you and 80-year-old you.

with the way i am now, i don’t think i’d make either of them proud. 

my perspectives have shifted so much this year. more than that, i have grown tired of this life and all it contains. it’s difficult to consistently try to find things worth loving in a place so determined to be cruel. 

the eight year old me would not have understood. what does love have to do in all of this? everything, my love. everything.

[mermaidsthatdrown]

i hate u, like a lot

[iu]

*wants to read* *doesnt read*

*wants to draw* *doesnt draw*

*wants to study a language* *doesnt study the language*

*wants to watch new movies* *doesnt watch new movies*

*wants to do stuff i like and enjoy* *doesnt*

[momqueer]

this is called depression

[distressedmoonchild]

fuck

[purplebuddhaproject]

“I’m learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things not meant for me.”

— AG (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[mermaidsthatdrown]

she thinks, hope though powerful is unfair. she thinks, it’s much easier this way. she thinks, there’s not much more to it than that. but then, oh. OH! She thinks, maybe one only hopes because one is given a reason and what’s easy isn’t always right and there’s really more to what meets the eyes and —-

no. never think, know.

and she knows there’s no coming back from this.

[mermaidsthatdrown]

If I had a choice, do you really believe I would not have run away at the first sight of you?

If I had a choice, do you really believe that I would’ve stayed with you despite the pain?

If I had a choice, do you really believe that I would have chosen to stay up through midnights with tear stains on my cheeks?

You probably do believe that.

Because, in all honesty, no matter how many choices I’m given. Or how many do-overs I can have.

I’ll always choose you.

Again and again and again.

Always.

[mermaidsthatdrown]

“See, can’t you get it? All we have ever been is wrong.”

[ulibeanzz]

why does no one talk about how friends can break your heart so devastatingly intimately sometimes a million times worse than romantic partners why does no one talk about friend break ups

[twentyonecopilots]

Especially because friend break ups don’t always come with the courtesy of an actual break up. Friends can just stop talking to you and we let it happen. They don’t sit you down and say “hey it’s not you it’s me” or “I just don’t see us working out” They say “sorry my mom said no” or “I’m busy that day” until you eventually stop asking or you drift apart. They aren’t obligated to give an explanation and sometimes that hurts more. Friend break ups don’t usually offer closure.

[gentlespirits]

“What if love isn’t what they portray in books and movies? What if it’s not fireworks when you kiss and love at first sight? What if we’re spending all of our time searching for something that doesn’t exist? Maybe love is giving back rubs without being asked and not expecting to get one back. Maybe love is splitting a cookie in half and purposely giving them the bigger piece because you know it’s their favorite. Maybe love is eating the whole cookie and not wearing makeup because you know they love you no matter how you look. Maybe love is going to the bathroom with the door wide open and not being embarrassed by your natural bodily functions. Maybe love is encouraging them to meet new people because you know they’d never hurt or leave you. Maybe love is telling them your secrets as casually as you would tell them the weather because you know they’ll never judge you. Maybe love isn’t understanding them on a deep and all-knowing level, but having the patience to try to. Maybe love isn’t having the same thoughts and beliefs, but being comfortable enough to talk about your opposing viewpoints to grow deeper individually. Maybe love is making a mistake and not being afraid to tell them because you know they’ll be grateful for your honesty. Maybe love isn’t passionate, knee quivering sex, but making love and giggling like kids when you make a funny noise. Maybe love isn’t thinking they’re the most attractive person you’ve ever seen, but still being more attracted to them than anyone else because of who they are. Maybe love is just being best friends, and not expecting one another to read minds and connect souls. Maybe love isn’t passionate grand gestures, fireworks, and soulmates, maybe love is just easy. Mutual respect, comfort, honesty, and kindness. What if we believe in a love that doesn’t exist, and that’s why we all end up heartbroken?”

— I want an easy love

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

Another tourist is what you are in my life. You will never stay.

Lukas W. // Tourist (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

[mermaidsthatdrown]

there is no long-distance relationship quite as hard as those that exist between best friends. i miss you, girls. come see me soon.

[mermaidsthatdrown]

i have been asked time and time again why my skin always feels like i have a permanent fever. i don't really know. but i think that i have been burned down so many times that flames have come to be permanent parts of my being. and that's okay.

[mermaidsthatdrown]

you give your love to everyone in full. you do not deserve the spare change they give in return. remember that.

AT

[deerejohn]

people are often unreasonable and self-centered. forgive them anyway.

[wnq-writers]

Things that were hard to accept 1. Your expectations are just that. Your expectations. People are not obligated to live up to them or abide by them. Even if they are in certain cases obligated to do so, there is no guarantee that they will. So don’t base your plans on that. And don’t base your life on that. 2. You can walk away. But so can they. You can be hurt and you can be mad. But they will still walk away. They have that option. They can exercise that choice. People can get toxic for you. Believe it or not, so can you. 3. People have bullied you. And teased you. And judged you. But the person judging you constantly and the most harshly is you yourself. 4. They don’t respect you because you don’t respect yourself. 5. Not letting go is only keeping you sad and frustrated and stuck. They are unaffected. They are living their life wonderfully. They are free. 6. Taking care of yourself takes effort. It’s not just good feel quotes and pretty aesthetics. It’s work. A lot of work. It’s doing things that take time and sometimes it’s doing things you don’t want to do. 7. It’s gone. The past. You can regret as much as you like. But you’re only wasting more time. 8. Sometimes you are going to use the word love even though you don’t 100% want to. It’s because like is too little and there is no word in between. It’s because we use the same word for fries and for people. It’s because love means so many different things to every individual. It’s because you do love them. In one of those several meanings. 9. Sometimes you have to suck it up. It’s okay. Not every situation is meant for you to show your ‘true courage’ or real feelings.

creatingnikki  (via wnq-writers)

[mermaidsthatdrown]

Love is for the brave; I was a soldier from the beginning. Perhaps it was stupid to assume, that a coward like you would end up fighting.

ATA

[mermaidsthatdrown]

This soldier has decided to give up the war. Hear me out, don't be mad. We were destined to fall apart.

A.T.A.