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i want to be a professor and lecture nonsensically for a few hours every day and give students vague essay prompts and read them all and laugh but still pass everyone while i slip some bourbon into my metal coffee mug that doesn’t actually have coffee in it wearing a button-up and vest with no tie but nice jeans and hella expensive shoes that i bought because i have tenure and im never losing my job

Honestly

I deleted my tumblr app awhile ago because I thought I wouldn’t need a secret hiding place on the internet, but here we are. I guess I’m never going to understand feeling loved or appreciated from another human being. Being mentally ill is complicated. Being mentally ill and medicated while being with someone in a relationship who is unmedicated and hasn’t seen a doctor but is definitely mentally ill is extremely difficult. What determines a breaking point in a relationship? What flag is the final flag? When will I realize that I need to stop loving people that will never be capable of loving me the way I love them? I always think we save our relationship but just like all of those moments before in other past relationships, I look back thinking, “Why didn’t you just leave then?”

I think the answer to that is simple: I don’t want to believe in my intuition. I want to believe the things people say to me and that I’m wrong in assuming things. Every relationship I’ve been in I’ve had someone to turn to in secret and to cry and to feel whole. This time, I have absolutely no one. I’m alone and I feel absolutely worthless. Being taken for granted is a joke.

purplebuddhaproject

“Are people drawn to each other because of the stories they carry inside?”

— Alice Hoffman (via purplebuddhaquotes)

bitchyasstrology

how the signs start a conversation

check mercury

aries: boldly ~ aries will come out of nowhere with something to talk about, the conversation will usually be short and quick but full of enthusiasm or new ideas.

taurus: slowly ~ taurus take their time starting conversations mainly because they like to think things over. their practical nature tends to make people listen to them more as a result.

gemini: sporadically ~ much like aries, geminis like to start a conversation randomly and quickly, they often interrupt others because their thoughts are so scattered.

cancer: easily ~ cancers tend to ease into conversations, often beginning with formalities and polite small talk before getting to the main point. they usually are very thoughtful.

leo: loudly ~ regardless of the volume of their voice, a leo’s authority makes it easy for them to be heard. they use creativity and warmth to win the attention of others while also standing out.

virgo: orderly ~ virgos tend to avoid being flashy but still appreciate their intellect being acknowledged. they control conversations by focusing on little details or planning what they have to say.

libra: smoothly ~ libras are diplomatic when it comes to talking and try to please everyone with fair intellect. their charm gets them a large audience but they can seem like a perfectionist with the rants and tangents they go on.

scorpio: urgently ~ scorpios aren’t the most talkative sign but when they want to talk, they try their hardest to get straight to the point. they enjoy observing and discussing more deeper matters.

sagittarius: optimistically ~ they enjoy looking at the big picture and don’t care too much about little details or organization. they tend to have flaws in their arguments due to their scattered thinking, but their enthusiasm can convince many.

capricorn: methodically ~ capricorns tend to start talking slowly, mainly because they need to organize and structure their thoughts. they tend to be skeptical and authoritative.

aquarius: quietly ~ although they enjoy breaking the rules, aquarius tend to quietly slip into conversations without being flashy. they enjoy arguing and often win due to their intellect. this can cause them to push their ideas on others, giving them a subtle authoritative demeanor.

pisces: softly ~ pisces aren’t too concerned with details but will be good listeners. this results in them seamlessly entering conversations with indirect statements or the occasional rambling when they get the chance. they have a tendency to fib in order to avoid offending others.

wordslikerosepetals

“I so badly want to entwine our demons together and create a storm with you.”

- B.M.

imstuckinarut-astrology-deactiv

Person: It’s just a phase.

Taurus: Trust me it’s not.

maisonderriere

rubyvroom

this was 20 years ago and nothing’s changed

libertarian--princess-deactivat

Unfortunately

bewiubciueniocneoiheroihreoerfn

doggosource

PET HIM!!!

manticoreimaginary

New Zealand’s new water safety mascot is amazing and his instagram is a gift

mrsunrepentantwarriorpriest

@unrepentantwarriorpriest

unrepentantwarriorpriest

You weren’t supposed to post pictures of me my love, lol.

elbeeaz

This website is dead to me December 17.

nofacenokaseee

micdotcom

Clergy had the most incredible response to police using Black mugshots for target practice

In December, while visiting a shooting range in Medley, Florida, National Guard Sgt. Valerie Deant came to a horrifying realization: Members of the North Miami Beach police force, who had just left the facility, had been using mugshots of young black men for target practice.

In response, these clergy members created #usemeinstead

talesofthestarshipregeneration

now this is what jesus wld do…